#ocd stuff

[this-is-neuropsych-ableism]

"Its illegal to be straight during pride month!"

"If you think hateful thoughts about yourself, and you're queer, that's queerphobic, and it's illegal to be queerphobic during pride month!"

How about we not make straight queers* feel guilty and paranoid about being "not queer enough" during pride month? (*Aspec straights, trans & gender diverse straights, intersex straights, lesbihets, turihets, m-specs straights, polyamorous hets, nonrose hets, etc, etc, etc?)

How about we not make people with internalized queerphobia feel guilty for intrusive thoughts?

How about we stop making a billion posts encouraging moral OCD during pride month?

[PT: How about we stop making a billion posts encouraging moral OCD during pride month? /End PT]

[thefluxsystem]

Ever since being diagnosed with OCD, I keep wondering how many people are in the same position I was only a few months ago: Believing that their intrusive thoughts are who they are because they’ve never been told otherwise.

I have looked into OCD multiple times over the years— which was why I was so convinced I didn’t have it. I didn’t hear the term “moral scrupulosity” until I was given my diagnosis. I didn’t know that my ceaseless, exhausting mental war over whether or not I’m a good person counted as intrusive. I didn’t know ripping yourself apart for things you could have done or could have said after every conversation, often to the point of tears, was not normal behavior.

Because I didn’t know these thoughts were intrusive, they were confirming themselves. I thought that making myself feel this way was right, as if it were divine punishment from a god I don’t believe in for the sin of being alive. That makes sense, I’d think. I am Bad and deserve to Suffer.

I figured everyone else felt this way too. I figured that they must handle it better than I can, which I counted as another moral failure on my part.

Finding out that no, most people aren’t fighting their own thoughts this hard every moment of every day, has changed my life. It’s still hard not to think that I deserve the suffering I put myself through, but I have an out now. Before, the only answer I had was of course I deserve it. Now, I can think deserve or not, this is a disorder in my brain that’s not meant to happen.

It tortures me. How many people are going through life believing their intrusive thoughts are just their thoughts? And how much would change for them if they knew that wasn’t true?

[publiivergilii]

The thing I hate the most about being a writer with ocd is that I can’t write what I want without struggling. I can’t write certain phrases or words or scenes without the fear of backlash or it coming into reality. It’s exhausting and it’s very true that ocd always comes after what you love the most because that’s what it’s always done for me

[vaultedvagabond]

"While obsessional doubts can be intrusive—and since doubts are thoughts they can appear similar to intrusive thoughts—this does not mean they develop from the appraisal of random intrusive thoughts. Instead, obsessions in I-CBT are meaningful inferences from the outset, inherently charged with emotional intensity and relevance due to the distorted reasoning that generates them"

[ocdculture-is]

Ocd culture is desperately wanting to explain yourself excessively when its not necessary in hopes that it somehow makes you appear more like everyone else.

- 🐞

OCD Culture is

[clancykisser]

ocd cw under cut, ocd pals not reccommeneded to view if you have moral ocd too I wouldn't want to trigger it in you <3

i fear liking tumblr and wanting to stay on it despite the update makes me a sinner and horrible human being who clearly hates all of humanity and artists. i feel like a hypocrite not supportign everyone. for staying. for liking my friends and community here. i feel like i'm gonna be sinning or pathetic if i stay. maybe i'm doing both of those things? who knows.

[whoevenisangelica]

THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING I HATE OCD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[fella-lovin-fella]

guess who got diagnosed with ocd a couple weeks ago