Originally I worshiped Odin first. Why?
I was obsessed with learning the truth, until I learned that Odin lies a lot. The point for me, was that he would teach me about things, show me hidden knowledge. I literally went into subservience to him, and I went down a path that did not stop for five years.
When I talk about my self study I say it was for five years, it was, and during that time, Odin taught me many things. How to perform trance, how to do trance literally anywhere at any given time. How to perform galdr, by singing spells. He also taught me how to heal, how to hex, how to deal with my problems. Even more, he showed me the reality and limitations of things I was pursuing. He showed me that things within heathenry were not as it all seemed. That there wasn't as much information as the people I'd encountered said there were.
In some way, I still serve him now. Once you enter a pact with Odin, you never really get out of it. He loosened my chains into threads, but he still guides me, despite how much he fecking annoys me at times!!! He's the reason I understand how to control my anger and use it for better things. I fell down into the pit of it and came back out.
That is why today, on Wednesday, Wodans Day, Othinn's Day! I honor him for what he has brought me. I honor him for the suffering, because it was only through that suffering that I learned how to be who I am now.
