THERE’S SOMETHING COMFORTING ABOUT HIS VOICE , the buzz , electronic inflection through circuit strung vocal chords . he’s the first facet of familiarity she’s found since her arrival , and the only person she has been willing to spend her time around since . she watches screen flicker , unfazed , merely a robotic equivalent of facial expression . she furrows her brows and fixes him with a partial — frown in return .
“ I HAVE REASONS . ” the question seems to dance around in the furthest reaches of the mind — space , echoed by a softer , more melancholic voice . { why must she hurt ? why must she kill ? } “ to protect someone . ” it’s said pointedly , but the answer isn’t directed to him , not really . it’s reflected internally , attempts to quieten her companion . but , deep down , the widowmaker knows there’s SOME FORM OF SELFISHNESS to her actions , in keeping amélie alive — keeping their shared body alive — she is keeping herself alive . ( a cruel act of self — preservation . ) but she’s free here , away from the threat of talon’s grasp , so why does she continue to vouch for violence as a first resort ?
see , there is a drawback to harbouring the emotions of two people , eventually , IT ALL BECOMES TOO MUCH , it’s an inevitability . there’s a choice to be made , a switch flip : feel everything / feel nothing . widowmaker took comfort in the latter . but sometimes , emotion is necessary , she will lean on it like a crutch of some sort , narrowed down , fined out , LIKE A PIN PRICK . the moment of the kill is the only thing keeps her focused , it brings her back .
“ it is the only time i feel anything . ”
