#on worrying

[scribble-thoughts]

Don't foresee, just focus.

Gordon Ramsay

[quotesfield]

"On Worrying" - Shantideva

[champagnetoasts]

I'm a worrier. I worry about the weather, about politics, about the health and happiness of my family and friends. I worry about making my [weekly, monthly, yearly] goals at work, about always trying to put my best foot forwad, about making each and every person that I can happy. I worry about my co-workers, about random people I pass on the street, about whether or not I'll have enough time [or energy] in the day to sneak in a Pure Barre workout or a quick run.

It's exhausting really- when you think about it. Aiming to please all the time, scurrying around not only for yourself but for others. Having a constant weight on your shoulders to go and be and do and succeed.

As a woman, I want nothing more than to have a happy life with the proverbial picket fence, my picture-esque 2.5 children, and my well behaved dog. All wrapped up with a big Town and Country bow. How very idealistic of me, right?

And then, as I turned on the television this morning, my rose colored glasses suddenly shatter into a million little pieces. Those were someone's babies. Their family. Their husbands and wives and significant others. That life that we all work so very hard to craft with our own hands-- can be changed in an instant.

So, while I sit here and worry about paying our mortgage on time and what to pick up from the grocery store later for dinner, my heart is also heavy with worry for the families that lost loved ones.

Y'all want to know a secret? My biggest fear is [one day- hopefully] bringing a child into this world to that sort of nonsensical violence. That the burdeon will be placed on my shoulders as a parent to ensure that little person is filled with morals and values and wisdom and heart to know the difference between good and evil. I can't help but think that one day I'll be ready to step up to the plate.

but in the meantime, I'll continue to worry about that as well...

[vivalaglamourpuss]

Three Little Birds by Bob Marley.

I Have an Overwhelming Tendency to Worry About Things I Have No Control Over. This Came on When I Was Coming into My Internship, Worrying About Gas and Food and the Government Shutdown. And You Know...The End of All Things.

I Don't Want to Say I'm Extra Religious or Anything, But One Principle That I Love to Come Back to is That God Doesn't Approve of Worrying. It's a Sign of a Lack of Trust and Faith. And I Like to Think of It As "No Matter How Bad Things Were My NEEDS Were Met. So Why Worry?"

Anyway...I Really Find God in Music. Well Some Anyway. And Bob Really Spoke This Morning.