My feed is so disorganized lol. Which kinda fits with the topic here! Time for an #instablog. I’m done with trying to prove myself :) I met with my lovely therapist this morning and we had a great discussion about boundaries, and how integral they are to self-respect. You don’t go back to the beast for hugs. Eaten or not, what does that say if you do. I had a friend who decided to call me slow at work and I got fed up, so much so that I left work to prevent anything further, but I realize now that that is not worth my energy. Why did I get fed up? Well because I felt there was truth in what she was saying at that moment, and because I feared that I couldn’t measure up unless I took her heed (mind you this person is six years younger than me), I snapped. And you know what, that was a boundary for me. That was a point where I should have just cut ties and let things move on for me. No? Forgiveness first? Forgiveness doesn’t mean you keep the beast as a friend. Forgiveness means you accept what happens and you find empathy for them. It does not mean admiration. And it does not mean putting yourself second. What I find hard to do is maintaining faith when I fall short, even though, if I am a Christian as I claim, God maintains faith in me even when I do long as I maintain faith in him. Screw it, I enjoy and am edified by Christianity but that is not the end of me. God is not postmarked; He is transcendent… Anyway, I believe that I must have faith that “I was born to exist”: a favorite singer of mine penned that line, look it up; it’s a majestic ballad. My time is running out on this 7:00 lunch break (I started at 2:00 and it’s just how the day lines up) so I have to close. But know your limits, know what will help you grow, and know who is there for your blooming. And as @terrycrews said, “There should be no limits in life but there should be a helluva lot of boundaries.” Have a self. I’m learning to. #selfhelp #selfpreservation #selfadvocacy #boundaries #religion #godsnotdead #personaljesus #breaktime #writersofinstagram #singersongwriter #poetsofig #artworks #mefirst #island #oneandmany #fatherstretchmyhands #keepthefaith #noless (at Belmar, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQuQINDAcOP/?utm_medium=tumblr
