I have no idea what i’m doing
I’m an 18 about to be 19 in two months- year old male.
I’ve known about tumblr for years, had lots of friends that used it.
Always thought it was just kinda not my thing.
Meet INFP Girl of my dreams, kinda quirky, edgy, unmotivated.
A perfect reflection of myself.
I’ve dated girls before but I was in love this time.
Actual Love(TM).
I’ve never met anyone like her. She was everything I ever dreamed for. She wasn’t the most physically attractive, or the smartest, or the funniest, or even the nicest person I ever met
but she was so much like me that it hurts
Long story short I had the best time of life with her and then some shit happened and she moved away and realized she didn’t want to be with me.
All I do every day is smoke weed and sit in my room. I have a couple friends I hang out with and I have a job and I go to college but nothing feels like anything. It’s been almost two months since she left and I have no idea what I’m doing with my life and haven’t ever felt so lost in my entire life
But I wouldn’t ever want to be with her again. Not how she was when we split.
I don’t really know what the point of this long ass post was except that I wanted to say that besides all of that shit that I feel and how much of a loser I feel like:
Today I made my first friend in college, and I kind of don’t hate myself as much today.
I miss how things used to be, but life’s changing and so am I