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[muzarry]

The sun rises.

[romanceyourdemons]

spent two hours reading and now i have a bad headache, which is obviously due to the fact that i have too much knowledge in my head and is not connected at all to the fact that i spent those two hours outside in direct sunlight or that i’ve had maybe a cup of water today. i’m just too knowledgeable for my own good, is all

[verlaines-corner-archive]

Haiiii how are you? :3 I just got a bit of an angsty idea and I'd like to share it with you hehe

So you remember karma? The kid that fyodor ("freed") killed after he got kidnapped by ace? Well what if karma was actually your long lost little brother?

One day when you were younger, your little brother got kidnapped by some ability users and then got sold to a slave dealer. You and your family tried everything you could to find him, but even after years of desperate research you couldn't find him anywhere. Then you met fyodor and joined him in his goal to get rid of ability users, because your little brother had been kidnapped by ability users and you wanted to get your revenge on them.

Now it's the present and you're on your way towards ace's ship to pick up fyodor from his mission. You go down to the ship's basement and find him waiting for you sitting at ace's table. Inside the room you notice a corpse on the ground and ace's lifeless body dangling from the ceiling. Fyodor proudly tells you that the mission went smoothly and explains how he did it, but for some reason your attention is directed at the corpse on the ground. It looks like a kid, and the particular hair colour looks familiar to you. Fyodor notices you aren't paying attention to him and stops talking, curious to know what your intentions are when you kneel down to inspect the corpse from up close. When you see that X shaped scar on the corpse's cheek it all suddenly clicks in your mind and you realize that that's your little brother. The brother that got kidnapped years ago and that you thought had died was actually alive and under ace's command all this time, but now that you had finally found him it was too late because he had been killed by none other than fyodor, your lover. Did he know that this was your long lost brother that you had talked to him about many times? Or did he kill him thinking that this was just a random kid enslaved by ace? Whatever the answer may be, the situation doesn't change: your brother had died by the hand of your lover

- 💍

Anon you are so fucking mean I love this

I can’t even imagine what it’d be like in that situation. Having your trust betrayed like this, even if unintentionally. I don’t think Fyodor would kill Karma if he knew he was your brother, not really. If that was the case he’d probably see if you could talk Karma into joining cause I don’t really think Fyodor wanted to kill him to begin with. 

That’s such an emotionally wrecking situation. On one hand you love and trust Fyodor, but on the other that’s your brother who you’ve put years into looking for. You’d be pissed off, scared, or maybe just numb, unsure how to process it. Maybe all of them.

I don’t think Fyodor would know how to process it either. This is off plan, this is damage done to someone he cares about, damage he’s done. He doesn’t know how to comfort you, doesn’t really know what you’re thinking, and I think that scares him. He never wanted to hurt you and now he runs the risk of loosing you as well. Gah the whole situation is so fucked :(

I do think you two could recover from this though. There might always be a bit of angst there, but I think things could go back to normal. Fyodor would definitely try to find a way to fix things, to show that he’s genuinely sorry.

[thedeafprophet]

got woken up by bad chest pain again so i shall be thinking of my blorbo the rest of the morning, y'all know how it is

[chickenuggetmuncher]

okay but maybe I'll just descend to dirt- flirt with becoming food for worms???

okay but why has constructing sentences become like pulling teeth? wiping dental records clean

okay but is the carcass even me? is this catharsis, therapeutic plunge to darkness? or elaborating, upon my mediocrity???

okay but maybe this is the result of me finally accepting that I'll be alone forever, that I deserve forgetting. it's a pointless endeavor, and maybe it's upsetting, but I've never felt more comfortable in the concept with things ending

okay but im running from my emptiness. falling into darkness below my surface tension. emotional suppression, my coping mechanism. cause all my friends are dying, some faster than the others

OKAY but i'm trying to distract myself from the fears that I've discovered

have you ever thought about that??

[ask-sci-twi]

[yellingrat]

New tattoos! We're fucking vibinggggg

@plzhelpmeimgay

[jango-fettish]

I got a new tattoo yesterday aND IT FUCKING HURTS