Since Jorgan is coming back to the game, even if just for a little while, I decided to catch up on the story. Fynta has a new puppy. Cybernetically enhanced against his will? Bitter about it? Hell yes they are bffs now.
soojung knows where she stands but mentally noting to herself that she could’ve done better than belt out notes, she feels like she’s being undermined on her talents. then again, this is a reality show. nothing’s too shocking to her after being on the mgas last year, there’s also the critics that are her sphere coaches for the evaluations, and above all, herself.
she’s well-aware of her capabilities and weaknesses because she’s taught herself so much ( prior to being signed ), that affinity for music since young has made her experienced. from vocalisation to instruments, that’s her forte. not to mention, song-writing and composition. maybe she should’ve shown an original piece instead of singing a beyonce, typical ballad song. too late to go back on it now, it’s already done.
so when she heard jisub’s harsh words, she didn’t think it was that harsh. because at the end of the day, she’s experienced worse critics. sometimes, criticism ( as bad as it sounds ) is actually advice for improvement. she does have more potential than to hit those high notes. she must show the audience and jisub what she’s made of. leaving sphere, she wonders if she regrets it but she can’t disappoint baek jiyoung more than she already has. she misses sehun, minhee, and the others but right now, she should focus on improvising herself for the upcoming episode.
honestly, the thought of making new friends trembles the ice princess because she doesn’t do too well at it. for many reasons—such as being socially awkward and quiet. she can’t seem like that in front of camera because who knows what those damn netizens say? oh yeah jung soojung? she shouldn’t be on the show. she doesn’t say shit. blah blah. people always run their mouths no matter what.
in this interview, she doesn't seem as a nerve-wreck compared to last year. the camera is recording, she's got to say the right thing and not slip up. but that doesn't mean forget herself, always be yourself. the ice princess is expecting similar questions from last year but in regards to the survival show and the girls, or about herself.
the first question is about the dorms.
how was it like for you to see the dormitories for the first time? how do you feel about the living conditions?
this reminds her of the time that she was residing in those shitty conditions under her step mother’s care, who also treated her like crap. “ah, i don’t mind it for sure! i think it’s exciting having to room with someone because i’ve never had that kind of experience before.” such a positive response from her but she’s trying to be a better person and be in the optimistic mindset than pessimistic. “seeing it for the first time made me wonder how i’ll get adjusted to this kind of course—you know like, i’m an ice princess.. or what everyone says, but i was excited because everything felt new to me.”
the next question, what do you think about the other girls? do you see them as potential friends or rivals?
soojung isn’t the kind of person to care much about people in general, unfortunately. but she’s been pushing herself far to be a kind-hearted girl ( to those that she isn’t close with, she’s been more considerate ). she does know a few of the girls like seolhyun, elly ( who she’s recently worked with ), eunae, and a few others. not everyone though. “ah i got to work with elly, i love her and i think she’s really pretty. same with seolhyun unnie. i haven’t gotten much of an interaction with soohyun but she’s a cheery girl, in terms of vocals—i can see myself rivaling her with ability-wise but other than that, i’d love to dote on her and be her friend! eunae is a sweetheart, she made me feel really comfortable because of our great interactions. jihyun and yubin.. they’re kind of scary because they’re trainees for so long! i also know chaeyoung, i called her rose though. we used to go to the same school together. seoyoung is my friend for sure, i’ve met her before she got in the show. i look forward to creating bonds with the girls.”
was this going to be the last question? probably not. maybe a few more, it isn’t that bad.
how did you react being assigned to the minor team? do you think this was a reasonable choice for you?
inside her heart, she was slightly disappointed that she couldn’t be placed in the major team instead. But she shouldn’t point fingers on jisub for whatever his decision was and what impacted it. the contributions must’ve been her lack of stage presence, soojung doesn’t excel at charisma—which she acknowledges. “originally, i wanted to be placed in the major team but i can’t complain because there’s a reason why i’m in the minor. the others deserve the best and if being in the major team is it—then i’d let it be. i’ll find my way being around minor, there’s a reason why i’m here. if i can’t find out just why right now, i’ll know why later on anyways.”
godbless, this was going to be the last question. she can’t let out a sigh of relief because that would seem rude in front of the public, she holds back and puts a smile on her face, show it off as a sign that she’s almost done! yay!
how will you improve your position in the show from now on?
a hard question but she should be careful what to say because she doesn’t want to spoil the details. she can’t just be a plain jane and say oh i’m going to work hard but give a better response. “i’m going to improve by showing sides of me that i don’t think the world has seen. there’s more to me than the hard-working ice princess that the public sees. i think even ice princesses have their flaws, you guys might see that there.” she let out a little laughter, “also try to put more energetic vibes and my vibe out on the stage? who knows? you guys will find out!”
with the end of the interview, soojung bows her head and thanks those who are watching the show and supporting her. at the end of the day, she’s going to gain wisdom and insight from this opportunity to be on the royal survival show.
ARE YOU A SOLDIER, A POET, OR A KING ? — THE KING.
Duty. Strength. Resignation. You were told to do things and you did them. The world is something that was put into your hands and that you must deal with - so you will. You have a rigid back and steady hands, either metaphorically or physically. Is it nature or nurture ? You don't know. You are tired of being steady. You dream of feeling alive. Not that you aren't, but, sometimes, it's hard to remember that there is a heart between your ribs. Your love is where you breathe. Come on, breathe. In. Out. It starts now.
