#optimistic pessimism

[strollingthrupennylane]

We were talking about bread but this is still a universal truth lmao

[omega-al]

still, like me

I’m sorry I’m so sour. No matter how I sugarcoat it, I’ve always been a bitter pill. The good things about me, are terrible when unwanted; my wrath could be brilliant if ever properly motivated. But I’m tired, so fucking tired, best I can offer is, you’ll get used to the taste.

I guess this is what happens when idealistic aliens get stuck in a paradise being destroyed by ignorant thieves. I still think love is a signal, a beacon for home. I listen for the doorways, and the way it’s supposed to be, but it’s getting harder to hear these days.

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

i am a trainwreck, but i am trying to be the best trainwreck i can be

[reincarnatedasasynthesiser]

To all the optimistic pessimism folks out there happy full moon of the 11th month day

[shrimpngritcakes]

Is this where 9-1-1 is heading? Seasons getting worse as the show progresses? I've seen so many shows (I'm almost 40, so it's a lot.) do this over the course of airing and 9-1-1 seems to be following the same pattern unfortunately.

I can honestly say I'm glad I stopped watching this season after episode 3. The non resolution of the blackout just screamed at me that bad writing was ahead. If they had ended it with showing evidence of the hackers being captured and/or in prison, I might have kept watching. Some of you still have hope, but I've honestly lost mine. I've "spoilered" myself on Tumblr after every episode just to see if it was worth catching up.

Buddie, BT, and the rest of my thoughts are under the cut of you want to skip.

The separation of Buck from Eddie and Chris. No real resolution to the trauma Eddie (and Buck because if I saw my best friend shot in front of me, I'd be an absolute wreck.) experienced. Plus the whole BT thing. Which, if it was written better, (and if they had gotten together at a different moment instead of right after Eddie was shot) I would be okay with, but it's not from what I'm seeing here. They've been together how long, and he didn't know her real last name? Buck's first immediate response to her confession? Nope. That's just bad writing.

All of this, imo, is them trying to kill the idea of Buddie. Some of you see writing on walls, and I wish I had your rose-colored glasses to see the same invisible ink you are. But, I'm an optimistic pessimist. I'm pretty confident that the worst will happen.

For my own sanity, I'm done with 9-1-1. And don't let anyone make you feel bad if you need to do the same. Hope that gets broken over and over is not good on mental and/or emotional health (look at Buck hurting himself over and over as a kid, hoping his parents will love him like they should). I had my bar on the ground and they still managed to dig under it.

I'm going to stick to other shows where my bisexual self has at least some representation, and strong friendships don't drift apart like blown dandelion seeds. If I hear otherwise, because I will still read spoilers, I will completely skip 5a (and possibly 5b if it's just as bad) because the writing seems to be horrible.

And finally, my suspicion (and I called Grace being pregnant on LS) is Eddie is going to find a "safer" job that runs all the way through 5b. While there he will run into a female coworker they're going to pair him with. Another lethal strike to Buddie. He may go back to the 118 eventually (Really? They already did this concept with TK on LS) because despite this decision being about Chris... Is it what Eddie really wants or is he being "railroaded" by his own kid? But the lady will probably be there to stay.

[loneliestprincess]

[thesearchforme]

hi!!

i saw @sandersstudies’ recent post on saving the world

and i totally read it wrong (im not dyslexic at all. you are. shhhh)

and it is a very important topic

but i like the way i read it initially too... so here’s that!

Sometimes we must ask ourselves "what will I do if no one comes to save us?" But we also must sometimes ask ourselves "what will I do if someone does?" and "what will I do if that someone is me?"

(what i thought they said ^)

This is really really important.

There were so many times during my recovery where I was afraid of getting better. I had this mindset for so long, what was I without it?

And when you’re in a negative mindset, it can be hard to think otherwise. But you have to realize that it goes the other way too.

In a suicidal mindset a common thought is ‘what will people do when I’m gone?’ and ‘how will things keep going?’ but you gotta realize that you should also be thinking about what people will do with you while you’re still here and how things can still keep going.

There’s an opposite for every thought. It’s not always easy to find the opposite, but it’s there and it gets easier to find as you go.

Yes, things can get worse.

But they can get better too.

Just.. remember that.

❤️🐔

[unabashedhonesty]

The positive thing about no one caring about anything you have to say is that you can say whatever the hell you want....