Finally releasing my first song—one that captures how I felt before I transitioned. This song is my internal voice, the one that was always there, whispering, begging me to accept who I truly am. It embodies the confusion, the way others made me feel, the spiral my life took, and the struggle of fighting against myself.
For so long, I didn’t listen. I buried that voice, drowned it out with what I thought the world wanted me to be. But in the end, it broke through. This song is that moment—the breaking, the unraveling, the acceptance. The moment I let myself exist as me.
I hope this resonates with anyone going through their own journey. You’re not alone. 💜🏳️⚧️
Andrea Vicari Quartet ft Joao Driessen
Tuesday 2nd June 2026 - 8:00 pm
606 Club, Lot's Road, London
Andrea Vicari Quartet ft Joao Driessen on Tuesday 2nd June 2026 - 8:00 pm at the 606 Club
This show will feature special guest, saxophonist Joao Dreissen @joaodriessen playing music from Andrea's latest recordings "XChanges" and "Lost in Dreams" and previewing new material from the forth coming album "The Bean" on the InEQuations label www.andreavicari.com
Birth of the Moonflower: Mizuki (みずき/瑞希), 17 July 2025
Today, I focused on refining and finalising one of the key arrangements for my project. The session naturally divided into two distinct phases: one before and one after a break, which provided a useful reset and allowed me to return with a clearer perspective.
To begin, I worked on creating the string arrangements using Studio Cello and Studio Strings. I added a modulator to both instruments in order to enhance the realism of the sound. This gave the strings a more expressive and lifelike quality, helping them sit more naturally within the mix.
Next, I concentrated on assembling the full arrangement. I tested several instrument combinations, including a few familiar sounds, before deciding which to keep. After a break, I returned with the intention of shaping a more story-driven version of the track. I removed some elements such as the organ and shimmering glass, and reworked the cello, strings, beat patterns, crystalline voices, and arpeggiated synths. I also changed the meter at the bridge outro from 2/4 to 6/8, which improved the rhythmic flow in that section. The aim was to create a gradual buildup that would feel both subtle and intentional, allowing elements like the syncopated hi-hats to appear more naturally during the second pre-chorus. This version eventually became the final arrangement.
I then turned my attention to the mix. I addressed some issues with clipping and used EQ and a limiter to tidy up the low end, particularly following feedback I had received on a previous post. I removed a digital chord arpeggio that was crowding the bass frequencies and replaced it with a layer called “Film Memories”, which occupied more of the higher spectrum. I also refined the vocal elements and adjusted the placement of ambient sounds so they would only appear where necessary, reducing any sense of overcrowding.
To keep everything organised, I colour-coded the track sections and reordered them by group, placing the less frequently used instruments lower down in the track list. After finalising the mix and arrangement, I prepared both the audio and visual components for upload.
Overall, the process involved two major creative shifts (one before and one after the break) and I found that taking time away between stages helped me make clearer decisions with each fresh listen. The resulting version feels more cohesive, with a stronger narrative arc and more balanced production.
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Hello everyone. This is the third release of my original composition, Mizuki (美月), for my mini album. I am excited to share this next chapte
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While my first piece, Tsubaki, explored the process of letting go and finding strength through transformation, and my second piece, Hanae, reflected a quiet state of simply being, Mizuki marks a subtle but meaningful shift. The narrative follows the birth of a third neutron star, shaped like a moonflower: delicate yet resolute, emerging in the vastness of space. It represents realisation, clarity, and ownership. Mizuki is about realising that you are, and have always been, the author of your own life.
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The entire process took approximately eleven hours. The first phase focused on arrangement development and instrumentation, where I experimented with string layers and modulation to create an upbeat variation. After taking a break to reset, the second phase involved reshaping the piece with a clearer narrative flow, followed by detailed mixing, organisation, and final preparation for upload.
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Thank you so much for following along with my creative journey and supporting my music! I truly appreciate being able to share these pieces with you and hear your thoughts. Mizuki is a really special one, and I hope it resonates with you as much as it did with me while making it. ^_^
Today I put a piece of my heart out into the world. 🖤
“Man for the Long Haul” is live everywhere—written for the man who stood beside me through the darkest chapters and loved me (and my daughters) back to life. 🌹
To every woman who’s found her forever—this one’s for you. ✨
If you’re friends/family and you’ve been cheering me on, I’d be so grateful if you’d listen, follow, and share—it truly helps more than you know and helps this song reach beyond my page. 🙏
"The magnificent duo, Sahara CyberStars, has released a brand new song titled ‘I Am the Land’...a composition that instantly changes the vibe of the room, making the listener sit and reflect, as well as enjoy the musical ride." Guru Observer (Dubai)
From 2024... I was living in NYC, i miss it!!!!!!!!! But yes, growing pains. Time Fliesssssssss. Home-made video :) Aw that girl was so sweet and scared to get older...
I was working on Ableton, not the best produced but fun to make and I think I'll always love this vid...
