You'd think that I would've learned by now.
Everytime my siblings ask me out I always say "YEAH!" thinking- oh wow, I haven't spent time with you guys in forever and I wonder why...
Then 2 hours later, I come home sighing and slamming my bag onto my bed because I start thinking "THAT'S FUCKING WHY."
This time was so much worse, my sisters confuse me so much. Especially when they tell me something but act in a different way and I get confused. Also, my siblings are all SO different and I have to treat them all differently & my family has this nasty habit of telling me what I like and don't like.
Especially my eldest sister. YES! I GET IT! I am a teenager. I have raging hormones and almost nothing will be the same when I grow older but she doesn't have to treat me as if my every opinion and action is invalid/irrelevant. HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO TAKE MYSELF MORE SERIOUSLY IF YOU DON'T? And when everytime it's a trial and error case, you act like trial-and-you-fucking-failed-so-stop-for-a-while.
Also, I have the tendency to offend people without meaning to. Why? Because I don't find a lot of things offensive. So if they don't offend me, I don't think they'd offend you so I end up saying it AND IT'S NOT YOU. IT'S ME. But I wasn't insulting you so STOP feeling like I am targeting you. I love you. You're my family and you help raised me but sometime, you need to pause and chill. You don't see my friends flipping, they know it's me. They tell me it's me and I'm fucking fine with it.
If I had to describe why I hate spending time out with them so much, I always end up thinking of that line from Mean. "You have pointed out my flaws again, AS IF I DON'T ALREADY SEE THEM!"
They think I'm completely ignorant and is a stress-free & irresponsible teenager. Well I'm sorry I don't tell you my issues... actually, no. No, I am NOT sorry. You should know better, I HATE crying & ranting in front of people. No, it's not because of the internet. Stop blaming technology for every flaw I have. And in case you think my imagination is all butterflies and meadows, YOU'RE WRONG.
THIS POST WENT WAY FARTHER THAN I INTENDED BUT UGH!!!