#osdd posts

[spaceheistwithmarkiplier]

okay, looking for some help here.

i feel like all systems we see experience different alters fronting like this:

but we feel like this:

do any other systems understand what we mean? it feels like we’re almost always slightly blurry. like multiple people are fronting at once but are moving around and can be more or less “in front”.

its so hard to explain especially without feeling like we’ll be fakeclaimed. and i know all systems are different but… i don’t know is this weird?

[orbitaldropshocktroopers]

me: wow look at that i just did 8 chinups :) new record

soren: did you know that the average Spartan can-

[orbitaldropshocktroopers]

little brother told us that he doesnt care who's fronting because to him we're all his brother and that was genuinely exactly what we needed today

[orbitaldropshocktroopers]

so i just got done with my last appointment with this therapist. She was very helpful with figuring out alters and work and how to be able to function in daily life with OSDD. But she really wasnt able to help me much in terms of the [Redacted], ADHD, or the trauma that caused the OSDD, mostly due to the fact that i didnt fully feel comfortable talking to her about the trauma, though im not certain why. Shes going to send me referrals for DBT therapists because i think i need a more structured approach to therapy than she was able (or willing i think) to have.

I feel weirdly more emotional than i thought i would about it. it feels like a chapter of my life has closed, and i guess in a way it has. im finally able to work, holding down a job is no longer an issue, and go to school, and do the things i didnt think i would ever be able to do while things were still bad.

Her helpfulness reached a terminal point and now that theres nothing more she can help with, i needed to end things but i still feel odd and guilty.

Tempted to call off work for the rest of the day to give myself a bit of a rest to process things but... im not sure i should or can

[orbitaldropshocktroopers]

i made this to make fun of Soren

[orbitaldropshocktroopers]

so little update, as it turns out Soren is an age-slider? and his age is determined by the circumstances that trigger him out. I will not go into detail about the specific triggers but i dont yet know if it has to do more with which "iteration" is better suited to a circumstance or if it has more to do with the (pseudo or otherwise) memories associated with the circumstances. if anyone has advice on figuring that out (so we *can* better suit his "iteration" to the circumstance) that would be dope

[orbitaldropshocktroopers]

tfw you make a decision but you have to bring out a more credible alter to justify that decision