The Tale of Zatoichi (1962)
“Whether the sun is shining or the moon is overhead, it’s always dark for me and I don’t usually care. But at this moment, I wish I could see your face.”
“Ichi, where are you going? Please take me with you.”
“I appreciate you saying that but I don’t even have a place to live. And I’m blind.”
“I’ll be your cane! I’ll endure hardship for as long as you live! You’re the man I love!”
“A young woman like you shouldn’t be guiding a blind man. People will laugh at you.”
“I don’t mind. Let me come with you!”
At first I never understood why he rejected Otane until I watched the rest of the series to get a glimpse of what he’s life is like and why he is the way he is.
For one, he’s afraid of losing her just like he lost his first love, Chiyo, who was in love with him until he was blind and she left him for it. So I guess he was afraid that Otane might have said those kind words to him, being young and emotional so he fears she will change her heart along the way as well, and leaves him.
Even if she stayed loyal by his side, he’s afraid she’ll be killed by his enemies who will do anything to get him and he can’t live with that too. And if she does survive, he can’t give her a life she deserves when he doesn’t even has his own home to live in as he’s a drifter and can’t bear to see her being mocked at.
While he rejected her in this film, they meet again in the next episode where she is promised to another man even though her heart is still with Zatoichi. Zatoichi regrets not accepting her love previously as he only realizes now that unlike Chiyo, Otane is willing to accept him the way he is and still loves him for it.
But knowing that the man she is supposed to marry is an honest hardworking carpenter, Zatoichi figures that she’ll be better off living with a good man with a safe and stable life, away from uncertainties, hardship and danger as compared to living with him, constantly traveling on the roads and so they parted ways.
Few episodes later, Zatoichi stumbled upon her in an unexpected place where she has resorted to a life of crime as she was didn’t marry the carpenter as planned. While Zatoichi is glad to meet her again, Otane is embarrassed and hurt as he thinks she is still the same woman he once knew years ago.
And to make it worse, she is attached to a Ronin who wants Zatoichi’s head. So Otane is caught in the middle between her loyalty to her current lover, accepting her fate as a criminal who could not turn back to her old life as it was before and her undying love to Zatoichi, who is now feeling guilty of what happened to her.
He must have thought things might have been different if he accepted her into his life instead of what she has become now. I must say it’s one of those tragic love stories I’ve ever watched. I guess that’s one reason he declined every other women who have showed interest in him.
But that’s life isn’t it? We all make mistakes and end up with regrets wondering about things that could’ve been or should’ve been or what it would’ve been. As much as we want to turn back time, time passes by quickly without us realizing, pushing us forward every time while we are still asking ourselves where did we go wrong?
That’s what makes Zatoichi a very relatable and interesting character, that we could learn from. Sometimes we can’t think too much when an opportunity presents itself because we are to pre-occupied with the future of what might happen if we accept it. At least, we’ll have no regret knowing that we tried.
Rather than regretting not trying at all and you’ll end up wanting to relive the past, making your mind always absent from the present, either wandering through the past that we want to change or through the uncertain future that we want to plan with every detail that it’s draining us and fill us with anxieties.