At times...
I hate everything. I'm so tired and fed up with bullshit I'm honestly so complicated and so simple-minded I can't figure out myself. I WISH I WAS DROWNING TO THE BOTTOM OF THE SEA it's so beautiful... beneath the surface .. all the creatures that live in the pitch black darkness. Yet somehow ppl manage to pull me out of my thoughts of so dark that are often unspoken. Im dark and I'm light. I welcome you to darkness of the pit of my mind. It's something so complex u can never figure it out. That's kind of curse. I have big heart and share my love to ppl. Humans are thought more twisted than they show. And I find myself disappointed at them. Thought some are worthy their trust. And always there are new relationships born from mistakes. I regret so much anf grieve for it. Thought I wasn't wrong. I never am wrong. But my head can't take it. I can't make it. Every thought or spoken word about past breaks me apart.