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[astralothila]

Is it okay if I say I'm falling in love with Ares?

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One In The Morning by OthilaOdal

Part of my #Thanksvember series, a daily fic rec challenge created by @anidealiveson to show our appreciation for all fic writers out there.

Back in 2016 I had a phase where I just could not stop thinking about the inherent tragedy of Misa’s character, the dichotomy she presents between the archetypal bubbly kawaii girl and the circumstances she puts up with in her short life. This fic hits all of that + gives us an insight into Sayu (who is criminally underrated on this show), all wrapped up nicely in unresolved sapphic pining. What's not to love?

Title:  One In The Morning

Author:  OthilaOdal ( @othilaodal​ )

Fandom:  Death Note

Relationship:  Misa Amane/Sayu Yagami, Light Yagami/Misa (referenced)

Rating:  Teen and Up Audiences

Length:  Standalone

Word Count:  1,421

Warnings:  Canon-typical Alcoholism/Alcohol Abuse, Implied Domestic Violence

Summary:  

Sayu is neither a child nor ignorant anymore. She hears the whispered arguments, sees the bruises, and chooses to pretend she doesn't but Misa's stubbornness makes it hard for her to not say what she feels one night at one in the morning.

Status:  Complete

[3dnygma]

3, 5, 7, 10, 13, 20, 29, 35

oversharing asks

(putting these under a cut!)

3. Who do you miss the most?

Our exchange student from two years ago. We become close friends and I simply loved spending time with her (she was the one who got me into anime and Death Note). Also, it was so cool to see get excited about every tradition from my country, it made me realise how important it is to appreciate the little things in life. Besides, she was always so caring, emotional and extroverted - we chat every now and then but it’s not the same as seeing each other irl.

5. Who had the biggest positive impact on you?

My mother tbh (my father too, but she had a bigger impact)! She taught me how important it was to stay tolerant and that life isn’t always about being the best and achieving all your goals, I love her so much for that.

7. Who do you wish you could be honest with?

A friend - but she’s a very sensitive person and telling her the truth about something never really works out, so I mostly just take the safe route.

10. Who do you wish you’d treated differently?

Mhm, I sometimes wish that I had the courage to be a ruder to some people that annoy me instead of swallowing my anger.

13. What’s your biggest insecurity?

That the people close to me are going to use me. Or the other way around - that I am going to be terribly mean or manipulative to someone and end up hurting them a lot in the process, especially because I sometimes actually want to do that.

20. What’s the saddest you’ve ever been?

September 2015. The exchange student which I mentioned earlier and my best friend were suddenly not in my class anymore and I was too shy to approach other people. My class took a sports course that lasted for an entire week and I spent most time my room (which I did share with another girl but she was always doing stuff with her friends somewhere else) doing nothing and feeling depressed. I think I cried at least once a day and considered jumping from our balcony because of how frustrated and sad I was :/ I’m so glad that I managed to get over that and that I’m feeling much better these days tbh.

29. Describe a time you felt like a hypocrite.

Telling a friend not to lie to someone before remembering that I told them a lie just a few minutes ago, haha.

35. What are you proudest of?

Not sure if it’s the skill that I am actually proudest of - but the first thing that comes to my mind is my english level. It’s currently my favourite subject in school and I enjoy having a talent in something (I also think that I tend to be one of the best english speakers in my class because of the people that I met online, which makes me so happy!)

[astralothila]

Mars in Scorpio is over.

I'm going to miss him in my 5th House.

I'm extremely grateful for Mars in Scorpio season.

[othilaodal]

I stg if i see Stranger Things on my dash I will find you personally and tell on you to your mom

[othilaodal]

I'm so tired. Let me go.

[othilaodal]

This love is like a violence

The simplest of wishes

Bathed in blood, sweat, and

Something that reeks sickly sweet

This love is an earthquake tremor

Caresses and teasing replaced

With mountainous resolve, and

Something that lies yearning deep

This love is like a violence

Where every softness is ripped

Straight out the grips of monsters

Much larger than us

This love is like a violence I commit

Eyes wide open

Hope on my wrist

[othilaodal]

I have noticed

The air between my ribs

When I tell strangers about you

Every person in my life

Knows your name

Every stranger I speak to

Knows I love you

They have noticed

How I light up

When i tell them about you

Like you're my favorite

And you are