also @ourdivineashes i FUCKING KNEW libraries and books had something to do with you i knew my intuition was right but i was hit by crippling self doubt. “what if melanie HATES books and i’m a weirdo? what if this is like tony stark with the strawberries?” so i played it lowkey. i maybe scrolled thru your blog to see if i could find a mention of you being a librarian. got nothing. went with the kickass selfie to defend myself.
Three little angels all dressed in white
Trying to get to Heaven on the end of a kite
But the kite string broke and down they all fell
Instead of going to Heaven, they all went to --
1) when yato finds yukine and he’s a little dust guy and he literally NAMES HIM AND GIVES HIM “A PLACE TO BELONG” 2) when yuKINE COMPLAINS ABOUT HIS GROSS TRACK SUIT AND SLEEPING OUTSIDE AND HIS TEERRIBLE GARBAGE CLOTHES AND WEARS THE LITTLE HAT AND BITCHES AND BITCHES and yATO JUST FUCKING??? TAKES It???3) IDK, WHEN YATO LITERALLY SHOULDERS ALL OF YUKINE’S SIN TO THE POINT IT ALMOST KILLS HIM AND MY SINFUL CHILD HAS TO CONFESS HIS SINS TO YATO AND LIKE STARTS SCREAMING THAT HE’S SO SORRY. 4) B L E S S E D V E S S E L 5) that part where yukine is literally yato’s fussy girlfriend and yato is the placating boyfriend and they taKE CARE OF EACH OTHER. ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
*pulls out the Irish coffee* alright let’s do this
1. “I hate sand. its coarse and rough and irritating and it gets everywhere.”2. actually add anything anakin says in attack of the clones for the love of god 3. FUCKING “DO IT”4. killing darth maul in episode I even though he was apparently super BANGABLE to most people5. midi-chlorians even existing and6. making samuel l. jackson boring how on earth7. only building sets high enough to keep the actors eyeline in frame8. how many scenes ther are of jedi walking and talking, sitting and talking, standing around and talking, sitting and taalking and then standing and talking9. not having more cool jedi being fleshed out in the movies10. “UNLIMITED POWAAAAAAAA”
jack with the song ledges by noah gundersen? or jackparse with first defeat? (i saw you post a different ship once, i think hockey rpf, with some noah lyrics and i was just !!!!!!! bc i rarely see anyone who knows him, and i got to see him in concert a couple months ago and it was absolutely amazing and even tho we don't know each other i thought about you for a moment like, "i know someone who loves noah too!")
(god i love that song when i saw him live he slowed it down and i w e p t!! i love u) ///the lyrics to ‘ledges’
it’s hard to trust strangers--hard to trust anyone, really, when it comes down to it. playing on a team, on a line--it’s important to have the back of every single guy on the ice.
jack figures it’s easy enough to trust a guy on the ice; usually everyone there earned their spot. deserves it. but off the ice, that’s where jack struggles.
where jack falls short.
jack has trust issues. jack, for a while, didn’t trust himself. how could he? he’d run his body into the ground and turned his back on himself. and it was complicated, not really about that. he was lost and he was alone and he’s an addict. there are so many nasty things that live inside him that he has to grapple with. things that will probably be with him for his entire life.
he regrets a lot of things. he’s done so much damage to so many people in his life. done so many things he can’t take back.
recently, his list of capital r Regrets isn’t too bad. it’s not often that he does things that unravel everything. that list is mostly limited to when he was seventeen and didn’t understand how fragile everything was. is. telling his mom that he hated her when he was fourteen is on that list, too. and. well.
and how he treated bittle.
that first semester eats at jack’s brain and he hates himself and every single word that came out of his mouth. and still, bittle trusts him. gives him the benefit of the doubt. there was a while there where it was tough going--jack knows that. knows that bittle wasn’t fond of him and wanted to quit and resented jack more than he could probably say out loud.
but he still voted for jack to take the captaincy again. still saw something in jack worth admiring. worth trust.
jack wants to earn that. wants to earn the way bittle smiles up at him. he wants to deserve hearing the way bittle snorts when he laughs just a little too hard. he wants to deserve bittle giving all of himself to everyone. bittle’s not a doormat, but he could be--could be taken advantage of if no one was looking out for him. he’s the best person jack’s ever met, probably, and jack wants to be the kind of person who deserves that.
he wants to be better. kinder. bittle makes the world so soft, and jack wants to earn a place in that world. wants to hold onto that softness. to have some of that softness to keep.