#overattached

[withheavyeyes]

see i’m scared of being hurt

and i’m scared of getting close

cause’ the closest people to you

are the ones that hurt you most

- phora // holding on

[stillahulagirl]

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This cat is is completely unphased by anything. The most laid-back animal I know. He even gets along with our new border collie pup. #studiocat #chillcats #catvideo #silversmith #etsyseller #bestfriend #overattached

[ihazgingervitis]

😂😘💕🚽 #overattachedwife #overattached #bathroomjokes #pottyjokes

[october--fourteenth]

Bittersweet distance

"You never know, you may fall in love with a boy and feel the urge to stay. A lot can happen in 12 months"

Talking to my mom, I realised a lot of people are skeptical as to if I really will leave. If I will be able to go 6,000 miles away from my home. If I will be able to not see everyone I'm close to for 10 months. She tried explaining that I shouldn't tell myself I will leave, in case something happens, it won't be the end of the world. However, for the past 3 years I've had this indescribable desire to travel and to be in Europe. Going there this summer, I felt like that's where my heart was. I felt so happy and content, like nothing could stop me; I'd made it. It seems that's all I talk about now; my future. Living in Europe, leaving California, and what I'll do when I'm there. Leaving is on my mind 24/7. 

When I was driving home today, something hit me. I'm not sure I want to leave. I felt this pain in my chest, the pain of having to separate from the people who keep my heart beating. I have become so attached to these people who non-stop keep me laughing, smiling, happy, and in love with my life. Things that I used to dread, hated, or just didn’t like somehow became fun with these two. Being around them a lot has helped me realise the beauty in myself and them. They’ve helped me fall in love with myself, and thank God for who he’s made me. We talk all the time about leaving Fresno, and moving somewhere else. However, when reality hits, I realise we won’t be together in the future. I have this urge to move to Europe, and them Chicago. I’ve thought about this before, but it really hit me today; I only have one more year with them.  I always imagined years later, at least 4 years, we would have to finally separate. 4 years of being with them till that time comes. However, I’ve realised that those 4 years were shortened into 1 year. Thats 12 months left. 52 weeks left. 365 days left. 525,946 minutes left. 35 million heart beats left. This shortened time makes me wonder if I really do want to leave. I’m not sure I can deal without seeing their faces for a year. Not having their hugs, not laying on their chests, not seeing them laugh, not baking cakes with them, not having movie marathons with them, not having last minute adventures with them. Missing out on a year with them feels like i’m going to miss out on a life time. 

Yes, i’m ready for change. Yes, i’m ready to move and start something new. I’m tired of most things here in this town. But this friendship? Now thats something i’m not tired of, nor do I think I ever will be. Most people give up on things because they’re in love with another person. However, i’m slightly different. I’m tempted to give up on Europe because i’m in love with my two best friends. I know they tell me “Go. This is your dream. You’ve always wanted this” but I can see how hurt they are saying it. It hurts me too. When I got these dreams to go to Europe, I had no friends. I’ve spent years letting myself know it will be okay to leave my family, and just go. However, I can’t do that with these two. As much as I tell myself it will be okay to leave them, i’m not sure I can. If I go, it will feel like my heart just got ripped apart. But if I stay, i’ll have to put my dream on hold, for years, maybe decades. I’m torn right now, and scared. 

[alchxmvst]

people on here always complain about getting too attached to people they have crushes on but i am so detached and like it's just as annoying the other way around bc you shouldn't feel that way even like good luck winning me over chances of me developing a crush on anyone anymore is like 1/100,000,000 what the fuck

[ladyfinehouse]

If you've ever interacted with my blog at all, I just want you to know that I feel like our relationship is on a deeper level than everyone else and that I am just in love with you tbh.

[afoolforatook]

Are you ever just going about your day and then all of the sudden

BOOM

Something makes you think about that one character.

You know. That character that makes your chest feel like it's been pressed into a space much too small. Like your heart is about to burst out and beat so ferociously that it gives out because this one character means more to you than anything else and just the thought of them makes you want to protect them and cry and laugh and write and draw and be everything they ever need and just immerse yourself in the existence of the words that linked together parts to make such a wonderful being that you will never be able to actually touch and hold and tell them how much they mean to you, how much they did for you.

And then for minutes or hours or days later all you can do is think about how much you love this figment and how without those words strung together to make that character your life would be so much different.

[onefancyurl]

I always end up listening to break-up songs and comedy albums while I mow the lawn. I think I may have become too attached to the grass.....

Also, is it unsafe to eat ice cream while doing yard work?