#pariskim

[catgirljaneway]

voyager episode where the a plot is kathryn, tuvok, and chakotay on some horrible, awful planet almost dying and the b plot is tom discovers brokeback mountain and spends the entire episode trying to get harry to play cowboys with him

[screaming-sparrow]

started voyager recently, this is all i can think about every time i see harry sitting next to tom in a meeting for senior officers

[bell-of-freedom]

more pride drawings! mlm ones this time lol:) skipped spones since mcspirk is already here ^_^

next will be the 6 winners of the ship polls, kiradax, uhura/chapel, b7, spirk, garashir, and daforge, but this will probably take a little longer :)

[kingcatnine]

[chrliekclly]

if you ever want to talk about your thoughts on joyce .. Peeks over the corner of your blog. i love talking and hearing ppls thoughts on joyce sooo much even if they're different from my own!! and your analysis and stuff is always so well thought out

i hope u dont mind if i answer this publicly to take advantage of th request nd get my ideas out ther (also tyvm im happy u like my insane takes on these idiots, iv ben thinking abt them for almost 10 years)

i said a lot here so gnna 'read more' it

iv ben building trans charlie n my head fr, like i said, nearly 10 years. i used to view him as cis bcuz i always try to take as much frm th source material as i can wen i craft my HCs nd i had v personal (stupid) hangups insofar as him explicitly referring to his junk multiple times nd bottom surgery simply not being on my radar as a naive littl trans idiot deep in th sauce tht transmen oftn fall into w phallo being viewed so so poorly

evn still i leaned towards transmasc charlie nd always lovd moments tht let me imagine, for a moment, it being true, like his discomfort w taking off his shirt [hundred dollar baby, charlie kelly: king of the rats, the gang exploits the mortgage crisis, young charlie and mac deleted scenes, etc etc etc], or bonnie yelling abt ppl stealing her "charlie-girl" [the waitress is getting married] which i lovd to see as her accidentally misgendering him while drunk off her ass.

having grown out of my phallo issues (nd if ur reading this and u still view phallo super poorly, please do some research and grow too), ive in recent years fully subscribed to transmasc/nb charlie, and view his timeline something like this:

baby -> elementary: charlie refers to himself as a boy, doesnt "come out," simply has no idea he's afab. bonnie lets him dress however he wants and refers to him as asked. when charlie gets confused about his genitals, bonnie says his dick will grow in later lol, makes charlie wear a dress in public restrooms and tells him its just a game

middle: puberty hits and charlie gets confused and scared. bonnie puts him on blockers w.o explaining them ("my mom used to vaccinate me like every month" [the gang gets quarantined]) charlie goes on content and oblivious. STP acquired because hes "a late bloomer" and his dicks still not growing in?? weird. confides this in mac once, but he doesn't understand.

high: charlie finally registers that he's trans after forgetting theres a health class 1 day and not being able to skip it. throws him for a loop a bit but he becomes actively invested in his goals. he gets to start T and wants to have surgeries. "what guy hasnt done some extensive research on his own genitalia?" [mac is a serial killer]

college (aged): able to surgically transition (ty medicare) and continues on with life as we kno him now

joyce, imo, fits neatly into these views.

as a transmasc nb who came out young nd prefers to be seen as just A Guy by strangers, i grew up v vehemently against anything girly that might get me misgendered, but th more i began to 'pass,' th more @ home n my body i felt, th more and more comfortable i am w femininity, th more i wdnt mind putting on a dress, as long as th general public wd see me as "a man in women's clothes." n my mind, i prescribe something not exactly th same but v similar to charlie.

i see charlie "i dont really identify" kelly as afab and nb. i see joyce as a "character" he originally created to distance himself from the dysphoria of putting on a dress as a young trans boy, but that became part of him as the hard lines he drew in the sand as a child became blurry with age and self acceptance. charlie's comfort with himself allows joyce to evolve into a more solid persona, one he enjoys embodying and allowing to become a permanent facet of who he is. he's ok with being referred to as either. they're both him.

so maybe joyce comes out a bit more outside of the bathroom now.

[fatmaclover]

OH MY GODDD HER CALLING AND NO ONEPICKING UP IM GONNA BE SICK. they absolutely would. Do you think she'd leave a voicemail or just hang up. Who would even find her in the morning. Im normal im normal im normal

frankly. i think she would leave voicemails until she realizes its useless and theyre not picking up or is too tired to keep going. you can picture it as vividly as i can, right? her progressively getting more and more exhausted through the voicemails. "hey, [mac/dennis/dee/frank], haha, im kinda still... here... uh! itd be great if you guys swung by the bar im!! im havin a MOMENT haha. uh. get back to me soon please ?"

her voicemails devolving into her slurring her words, struggling to get them out with her cheek squished into the floor, hearing the beep another time and barely getting out "heyy guys. im still at the bar. some help would be nice" and nothing else. maybe her last voicemail is just a single word before shes out for the night.

i think if that were the case. i mean. season 13 released in 2018 and each season takes place around the year its released generally. right. in 2018 how much were people actually checking their voicemail on their smartphones. would the gang even receive them. im saying i think honestly the gang just walks in on charlie still out like a light all of them together and they have to deal with the guilt of that.

[alkalineleak]

YOU LIKE PACIFIC RIM?

I FUCKING LOVE PACIFIC RIM

[mcdennis]

music note emoji incamt find 💫❤️

gonna rec deadlines (hostile) by car seat headrest. i am not joking when i say that i've listened to this song every single day for the last two weeks. every time i take the bus home from work. i fuckin blast that shit. it's just so good i can't even tell you why i love it so much i just do

@pariskim wanted a song rec!