#passingillusionss

[emotionalbxbygirl]

In honor of my very first thousand:

A promo! God I’m so happy you guys follow me, and I love each and every one of you (even the porn blogs that apparently like the new name). In this blog I’ve had at least ten URL changes, so many icon changes, and so many friends. I’ve lost some, and I’ve gained so fucking many. I just wanted to thank a few of my favorite followers 💜💚

First, of course, is my best friend, my straight girlfriend, Dama. Next is Karo, I’m gonna miss her so much and seriously I love her so damn much. Now we go to Mama Bear. Sometimes she acts like a mother to me, sometimes she complains I act like a mother to her. (Don’t worry if you’re reading this there’s a few more to go). Next is Keely, an adorable fucker that’s great with porn and terrible with censoring herself. One of the lasts on the list is This adorable chica. She’s fucking awesome and I love her so much ^.^ there’s probably so much more of you but I just woke up so I’ll probably add some of you guys on soon. Love you soooooo much 💜💚💚💜. Bye bbs

[emotionalbxbygirl]

I want my promo motherfucker

Calm your fucking tits

[emotionalbxbygirl]

I take your stereotypical white protagonist story of 'impossible love' and no diversity and raise you a story of a Mexican girl crossing the border and trying to make it in a world she doesn't understand, while falling in love with an Arabic man that just moved, them trying to figure out America together.

[emotionalbxbygirl]

Oh my god. My best friend was reading a 1D fanfic and there was Destiel in it.

THEY’RE SPREADING

[emotionalbxbygirl]

Runaway

As I walk along, I wonder A-what went wrong with our love A love that was so strong

Dean walked down the road, looking down. John was still hustling at a bar and Dean was just walking, thinking about Sammy. He didn’t know what happened. They were so in love and happy. Then Sam left to Stanford, leaving Dean there to face a world of darkness and evil alone.

And as I still walk on, I think of The things we’ve done together While our hearts were young.

Dean smiled at the memory of little Sammy kissing him after a long day of research (on his end) and school (for Sam, Dean had dropped out). His beautiful perfect baby brother used to be so full of life and so happy. He probably still was, but he wasn’t Dean’s anymore. He was probably some other guy’s. Someone that didn’t know how to take care of him right. How to love him right.

I’m a-walkin’ in the rain Tears are fallin’ and I feel the pain Wishin’ you were here by me To end this misery.

Tears started spilling down his cheeks as rain did. No. Dean Winchester didn’t cry. He didn’t let any emotion get to him. He didn’t let memories of his baby brother/love of his life leaving him and not even asking him to follow. If he had, Dean would have. No fucking doubt.

I wonder I wah-wah-wah-wah-wonder Why Why, why, why, why, why She ran away.

Dean didn’t know why. For the life of him he couldn’t understand why Sam left him without saying ‘goodbye’ or ‘I love you’.

And I wonder Where she will stay My little runaway A-run, run, run, run, runaway.

Dean sighed in resignation and walked back to the motel. He knew that Sammy would for ever be Dean’s little runaway.

[emotionalbxbygirl]

Demon blood bitches

"C’mon, Sammy. Just do it. You can be my king." Dean pushed, moving closer to Sam and moving his arm out, slicing it with a blade as his eyes went black and he grinned. "A little taste. Don’t you miss it? You love me, don’t you? If you really loved me you’d do this for me. Please." Sam swallowed hard but did as told, he always did as told when it came to Dean. He did what Dean wanted him to do. He licked the cut at first before moaning and sucking it, Dean smiling and moving his hair. "You love that, don’t you? Baby brother loves his demon’s blood. Just for you. Always, Sammy. My sweet baby boy. My perfect future king." He whispered before Sam pulled back and kissed him, blood going to his own lips but he didn’t care because it was his Sam’s lips and he was back. "You will be the king, Sam. My king." And all Sam could do was nod and continue drinking the tainted blood that made him feel like fire was going through him.

[emotionalbxbygirl]

There is a light that never goes out

Dean looked down at his beautiful baby brother, slowly dying in his arms. “Please….please Sammy. Please don’t die.” He begged, tears slipping down his cheeks and burning his eyes. “De…I’m so sorry.” He whispered. Dean did what he always used to do when Sammy was sick or hurt. He started to sing.

‘Driving in your car 
Oh, please don’t drop me home 
Because it’s not my home, it’s their
Home, and I’m welcome no more.’

Sam whimpered softly, Dean held him tight and closed his eyes. “Please Sammy. Please.” He pleaded, he would sell his soul for Sam. He would do anything for him. But Sam wanted to die.

'And if a double-decker bus Crashes into us To die by your side Is such a heavenly way to die And if a ten-ton truck Kills the both of us To die by your side Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine’ He whispered, breaking down in front of his bleeding brother. This was it. His light was finally going out. There was no sunshine for Dean anymore. His happiness was dying with the beautiful boy that had his heart and wouldn’t let go.

'There is a light and it never goes out. There is a light and it never goes out. Sammy is my light. And it’s gone now.’

Dean said, tears falling onto the dead boy in his arms.

[emotionalbxbygirl]

I just got called homophobic for not shipping Destiel. Me. A very lesbian girl currently crushing on a girl is homophobic. Good to fucking know