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After a full month of changing my diet and working out more I’m three pounds down (1.3kg) from my starting weight! I know it’s not a /lot/ but for not observing a crash diet and trying to lose weight in a healthy manner, I’m feeling pretty good about it 😌
I’m seeing progress so I’ll take it!!
This and That.
Yesterday I submitted my leave for school as it turns out that I may be allergic to all of the chemicals in the job I have come to love so much. School has been an amazing creative outlet and a supportive, and fun space in general. It’s time I take my medical situation more seriously and stop trying to just “push through” everyday.
I am genuinely excited to be on this journey with Dr. Zeitlin. More than anything, I am hopeful. I am hoping that if we can just get to the bottom of all of the things that are pissing my bladder off, eliminating them will bring me to a state of comfort. I know that Interstitial Cystitis is here for the long haul, but I just need it to dial down a few notches so I can sleep for more than two hours a night and be on my feet without feeling like I want to cry.
My “Foods To Avoid” list is intimidating to say the least. As I read through last night, there were things I have been avoiding for a month now in my journey towards a raw vegan diet anyway. Also, on this list was tap water, sugar of any kind-natural or otherwise, artificial coloring, texturizing agents (????), and bottled water. As I look through the things I have purchased recently, I am bummed. There is sugar in canned beans. There is sugar in “natural” peanut butter. I have to get a Brita filter for the fridge, as well as a canteen or Nalgene bottle because I can’t drink out of plastic. When I get frustrated, I remember that I have been hyper-sensitive my whole life. What if I just didn’t consider these things and they really do trigger pain in my bladder? How did I not know how much artificial bullshit is in everything and how many chemicals I’m drinking in my water???
I had my blood and urine tests done at Quest Diagnostics today. 6 vials. My next appointment with Dr. Zeitlin is Monday. I am very excited to see what came back. Alright I just got my first wave of any semblance of energy so I’m gonna clean the house a bit.
Thanks for checking in! :)
The last test came in and I am good to go! My blood sugar was higher than it had been two years ago at my last physical, but I'm still within normal ranges and it was what I expected, tbh. I gained 30 pounds over the course of the COVID lockdown, and last year I was not kind to myself after my mom died back in 2021. I've also told my husband he can't keep bringing sweets home, so we're phasing out sugar outside of cooking purposes.
Honestly it's better for both of us!
Now I have concrete goals to work towards and I'm going to get back into a more active exercise plan. I got myself down to 130 lbs once before so I know I can do it again, or at least close to it 😤 Any amount I can lose is good, and I just want to be healthier for the long haul.
I had the feeling of sore arms and shoulders that I just couldn’t shake. No amount of magnesium, stretching or exercise could fix it. They were always sore. It was bad for many things. I could still lift weights, but I couldn’t hold a position with my arms, such as the plank, for a full minute, or even 30 seconds. It was just too painful. No matter what I did, I never had the energy to complete 5 or even 4 sets at the gym. I would always get too tired and sore. Honestly even doing 3 sets was hard for me. It took a lot of determination. Recovery time, if I hit it too hard, was also 1 or 2 days. Enter Bemer. I bought one at the advice of a friend. The device comes with a mat, a B spot (for added signal to a point of discomfort in your body), a B light (for targeting wrinkles hehe), a cover, protective glasses. It also comes with a thin cover for added signal to larger areas of discomfort. And that is all you need to feel great! Of course, I did ample research about the effects of PEMF, or pulse electromagnetic frequency on the body before buying it. I compared all the devices, especially the Bemer and the Imrs, the two main contenders. Finally, I decided on the Bemer, and never looked back. Bemer greatly improves your microcirculation, the capillaries in your body, which make up 74% of your body’s circulation. 80% of diseases come from poor circulation. Improving cellular energy is a must for anyone who values their health. Of course, they don’t make any claims about diseases or what it can fix. However I put 2+2 together and realized almost every condition has a root in bad circulation. So, I was extremely excited to buy this device. And it it did not let me down. Better energy, focus, sleep, and looking younger (less wrinkles) came within 2 weeks of use. It did not work immediately; rather, it was a more subtle, gentle improvement. I stopped needing to take a nap after lunch, I kept on going hard all day until 11 o’clock, waking up at 530 instead of 7, feeling groggy. My sexual drive increased as well. Here’s a video about the Bemer effect on microcirculation: Incredible! I used a Imrs mat before and thought that was a fringe thing for fringe people to use; that there were no tangible effects. This Bemer is vastly beyond to the Imrs in terms of sheer research, almost 20 years. Bemer has a contract with NASA, while the Imrs does not. Bemer is used by sports teams in the US, while Imrs is not. So the small amount of savings is not attractive to me if you are getting less of a device. You always get what you pay fo. The Bemer is special because it the effects on the microciculation last for 12 to 16 hours. Two treatments daily are recommended. For the Bemer, there are ten different levels of signal intensity, one to 10. Each treatment is 8 minutes. When the circulation improves, detoxification begins. So, it’s important to start slowly, and gradually increase the signal intenssity to not experience die-off. I made the mistake of being too eager of a beaver, and started with level 8. Bad move. I didn’t feel very good after that. The instructions say you should start with level one, (8 minutes one treatment) and go up one level every week Here are some documents you might find interesting: NASA agreement If you want to feel better, and are in Vancouver, send me an email thru the ‘contact me’ link. I have the Bemer set up for a first free treatment. Without health, there is nothing.
You Are Still Moving
Noise and constant movement hold most spaces, the huffs and puffs of recycled air and coughs blend with the conversation. Squeals and creaks fill my head but I listen for the sound of different languages which is almost musical. Affirmations are given through the fluid nodding of faces, the dropping of eyes and lifting of smiles. Babies cry and some move in their mother’s stomachs as men and women scramble to forfeit their seats.
Even when you’re sitting still, you aren’t. You’re still moving, at rest but still touching which gives Brooklyn, and New York City, a very human feel. The hum of human worker bees – giggles, stolen glances, kisses, and goodbyes all mixed up with wishes of good days and safe travels.
Lives spill out in front of you – all around the air is filled with both discomfort and niceties. There are so many maybes in the faces of these strangers, so much possibility. There is so much in my face, the face of the one woman that no one cares to see.
Life happens differently – for everyone and everything. We all have a road, a walk, a sort of commute. People are comfortable in their discomfort, the push and pull of human traffic, the ebbs and flows. Maybe that is a metaphor for life – we have to get where we need to be, keep moving, always moving. Every day we are expected and expecting.
We try to be solitary but there is no room for doing this alone. We need the bits of fresh air, the smiles of a small child, balloons floating to the sky, things that make us all happy.
Because we are all in this together.
We have to be close to each other, in each other’s space in order to live. People read, they listen to music, some only talk to the person they know in an attempt to cocoon themselves from the outside world, a human barrier formed against other stranger interactions.
I watch the walls come down. Sometimes I am the bricklayer, my wall built strong and high even though I know that’s not the way to live life. But sometimes I am the demolition crew, making conversations, smiling with my eyes, making this commute just a little brighter.
People smile.
They laugh.
They commiserate.
They flirt and fall in and out of love.
They live.
They realize that even if you are still, you are still moving.
"Everything has changed for me."
A piece I published for The Mighty - a website that has helped me immensely through difficult times. Follow them at The Mighty. Unbelievable stories of strength, love, and compassion that some of us need sometimes!
We are going to experience pain in our life it is inevitable, but you can choose to not suffer. The choice is always yours!
