#pathologic my beloved

[xenithvoxx]

Hullo Pathologic fandom

Here’s my contribution of fanart >:p

[thecrimsonvalley-creates]

~ Moonlight walk ~ Zilpah sometimes walk the steppe at night, bathing in the moonlight. First time getting to draw Andrey into it and we just get this beautiful over the shoulder stuff OTL But at least I had fun trying to draw the long locks of Zilpah when not held up in a hairdo :D

[ryhsrunner]

Someone tried to call me on saying story js more important than mechanics by asking me if I would play a game where the gameplay is terrible, to which was very easily able to respond that one of my favourite series is intentionally made to suck shit to play

[general-idiot]

okay so a little bit just somewhat just a tiny bit i might be a little bit depressed and unmotivated and just not happy in general right now

which is.. really fuckin priviledged of me since i live alone in my own apartment with my cat, i have a job that pays pretty nicely even if it's not full time, i just got accepted to uni again to do my masters and i am seeing someone who doesn't see difficulty in being with an ace person.

but my aparment is tiny and spaceless, and since i am working in home office i am sick of sitting in my chair all day

in my job i should be developing applications, instead im the one writing documentations for things i havent even touched because i am the only one here who does that to a certain quality and it takes up 90% of my time and i hate it

i got accepted to uni but honestly i am tired of studying after being in school for 16 years now, but i dont feel like i am ready for real life yet so i keep on doing the thing i know

and the person is really nice and kind but i have been alone for five years now and i am really not used to giving up this type of independence and i have really strict boundaries and it's hard

and i feel fuckin guilty for feeling like this because i never seem to be satisfied even though the only thing in life i want to do is creating

and i just cant do that because every time is sit in front of the computer after a long day and decide to spend that little bit of free time i have on creating there's nothing but white noise in my head

and it sucks so bad. it sucks because it used to be so fun and exciting. and now i cant feel any of that. and it suck so so so so bad