#pear.rambling

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this blog is NOT a safe space for anyone. there's barbed wire and a black wooden sign with a painted skull on it

and i'm perched behind a cardboard sheet with a bush painted on it holding an antimaterial .50 rifle

and there's mines and bombs and spikes and lava and little roombas with knives and claymores and

actually my mutuals. my mutuals arw also behind a fake bush or perhaps a fake tree. holding .22 long rifle to 5.76 firearms depending on the degree of bodily structural strength. michael stays inside controlling remote ordnance because god forbid the Guy hurts his lil joints

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the hum of the vending machines sings of refrigerated goods. the hot spicy salami sandwich you're eating slightly burns your tongue, but you enjoy it. the sun is shining through the window.

it's ok. more or less

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"not to brag but" i'm bragging. ohhh look at me i'm so good and great and strong and i'm the second coming of the virgin mary i will never die

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given i would rip my heart out because of my longstanding solitude, the next most obvious course of action would be downloading a dating app

problem: i abhor them and i feel like i would not be happy with whatever emotional codependency would be born out of it

problem II: i will be stuck loathing and pining and longing and sulking and sighing

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when dante wrote the bottom-most circle of the inferno as an ice lake where the worst traitors get eaten by lucifer, CLEARLY he did not consider University Student Life

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a dear friend of mine just blocked me unannounced and it felt like a Cannonball bored a big hole through me ; and now every notification makes my heart skip a beat out two hoping it's her

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this blog is soo much a filtered interface on my old self and its going to be Such a big cultural shock for my now online friends that only know the new unfiltered me

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pinned introduction got so old i'm unpinning it. back to the deluge of days past you go hahaah.