#peasant arc

[diary-of-a-people-pleaser]

Entry 35, 2-18-21

This isn’t you! You’re better than all this! You’re just being lazy and making excuses! You’re making up these problems for yourself.

You can do better and I expect you to do better.

[diary-of-a-people-pleaser]

Entry 57, 3-28-21

maybe some things can be fixed

maybe I’m a little less pathetic and disappointing than I thought

I’m still pathetic and the entire reason everything is so bad in the first place, right? None of these people would be better off if I had died, though. And I have things to do. Such is a busy life filled with people who love you.

Maybe I should cut my strings

Is rebel the right word?

I think this is the start of the Puppet Arc.

[diary-of-a-people-pleaser]

Entry 45, 3-2-21

I can’t die yet. I’ll only die when my story is finished. I can’t run away. I don’t know what. Are these thoughts even mine? Are they real? Am I just being influenced by my taste in media?

[diary-of-a-people-pleaser]

Entry 43, 3-2-21

Does ██ care about me

Does █ hate me

I love him █’s acting wrong

█ said nothings wrong so █’s just being mean?

I’m sorry I know █ loves me

I tried to apologize but █ said not to

I don’t know what’s up with █

Does ██ hate me?

I don’t know what I’d do if █ did.

[diary-of-a-people-pleaser]

Entry 61, 4-7-21

I’m getting used to the loneliness of not being able to talk to my friends! It’s not as bad anymore and I download the apps again when I know I’m safe :]

It’s not that bad anymore. Am I just making problems for myself now?

[diary-of-a-people-pleaser]

Entry 60, 4-6-21

I have deleted all my social medias

I’m so alone already

It’s only been like 2 minutes

I can’t do this

But it’s for my own safety so I have to

:/

I feel wrong

I hate this

I need them

I miss them so much

I can’t wait until I can get my friends back

Oh no oh no I hate this

I want my friends back please

I don’t like being paranoid and scared like this but █ could learn wrong things if █ checks my chats so I had to get rid of them temporarily

I miss them so much

[diary-of-a-people-pleaser]

Entry 59, 3-31-21

What is wrong with me

Is there anything wrong with me

I can’t tell because I feel disconnected from

From?

I don’t know what I feel disconnected from

Do I feel disconnected

Is this just a lie

There is there anything wrong with me

…

[diary-of-a-people-pleaser]

Entry 58, 3-31-21

Everything is okay today