Is there a name for being confused or not having a specific type of attraction (in my case sensual attraction) but really really wishing it made sense or wishing one could feel/experience it?
Vaguely related concepts (although probably not what you are looking for):
Cupio-: “Not feeling a type of attraction, but desiring interaction that goes with it regardless.”
Glitch-: “You may or may not have an orientation, but either way it’s glitched and confusing.”
Nexu-: “Not feeling a type of attraction but have a strong desire for the emotional connection that comes from it because of your neurodivergencies, thus at times being confused as to whether you do actually feel the attraction or whether you just have a strong need for this person to be in your life. This can result in people finding themselves ‘connected’ to fictional characters and celebrities more often due to not having to actually be involved in a relationship with these people. For neurodivergent people and aromantic or asexual people only. “
Pero-: “Not being content with your orientation, wishing or preferring to be another.“
Quoi-: Feeling as if the concept of romance or sexual attraction, etc. is inapplicable or nonsensical to one’s self.
Vex-/Vexe-: “When one’s orientation is in the a-spectrum, but pinpointing it beyond that is impossible because the individual does not understand the concept of that type of attraction.”
Void-: Feels like a void or hollow feeling where your orientation should be, rather than just a lack of attraction.
I couldn’t find anything that fits exactly your description, though. Feel free to coin something if you want.
But, if you’d rather use multiple of those descriptors, you can! Either by just using them on their own (as “voidsensual/quoisensual/glitchsensual”), or by using any of these:
Myr-: “Experiencing lots of aspec orientations together.”
Novi-: “Feeling complicated attraction or lack thereof in such a way that it is difficult or impossible to fit into one word or term.”
Propeest-: “An aspec identity which feels like a mix of many (any more than two aspec identities) that all are a part of your identity. From the latin words "prope est" (meaning close to)Similar to Myr- but different in that (likely):Propeest refers to a mix of orientations, and myr refers to experiencing various orientations together.Likely someone who is propeest may prefer that label because they may feel an overlap between those a-spec identities, to the point they can't point out the different orientations like, someone who is arovague and aroflux and cupioromantic may not understand if the fluctuations are affected by neurodivergence or not, or how actual attraction may be affected by wanting to be in a relationship, and then they may choose propeest while someone that considers those just a combo may pick myr instead it's like the difference between androgyne and male/female ambigender, y'know?“
~ Tath