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#I passed my studies!#sent in my last homework and while my teacher usually is quick i didn't expect her to be soooo quick #i didn't always look like i'd made it and i wanted to give up so many times but i didn't #i fought my way through and it turned out ok in the end #not great but ok and that's very very important for me i can't tell you #as someone who's life was heavily influenced by mental health problems since my late teens i've never had a normal way #so knowing i could do a complex course i really didn't know anything about before or even remotely worked in the field is a lot #never give up people!#that stone with the never give up mantra i found at the end of 2018 at the lowest point of my life i always kept it near me since #maybe now is the time to give it away for someone to find it who might need it too #personal bla #now i can call myself a medical typist haha #i wanted this as an opportunity to work at home let's see how that works out

*plans to go outside* *sits on bed for hours instead*

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Im so anxious for monday you guys ><;;; I know I barely ever talk about myself on this blog, cause I don’t really like being in the spotlight, but... asjkhdskjhfdj im straight on nervous right now @___@;;;

On monday I will be getting a weight loss surgery, namely a gastric sleeve. It means 90% of my stomach will be removed forever., and will have the size of a small banana. I am looking so much forward to having a better live style, getting healthier and losing weight. But on the other hand I kinda get the feeling that I’m not sure what I’m getting into in regards of the new responsibilities despite me following group sessions and reading tons of stuff online. I just hope I will be able to cope with my new lifestyle, cause im sick of being overweight :( Everyone keeps calling me brave and telling me how much of a good thing it is that im doing this, and Im all like “haha... :’) yeah i sure am a brave bitch” BUT ACTUALLY *internal screech* But I guess this is all pre-surgery stress

Also, needles freak me tf out man. I know my day will begin with getting an infusion in my hand and fuck man, i look up to that more than the whole frickin surgery ;;w;; but I cant baby out just cause I look up to getting a needle in my hand ><;; isn’t it stupid that i keep thinking about the freaking needle, and not the surgery??? Like “haha, they’re gonna cut me open and remove a lot of my stomach. cool ;)” “Oh yeah, and you’re gonna get one(1) small tiny needle in ur hand” “;;;A;;; NOOOOOOOOAHJKDAHJHDAKH” Like, last time I had to get my blood tested for the surgery, i got super worked up and nearly cried, and the guy took 1.0 seconds to get my blood tested, and I barely felt it but fuck, even knowing it will be ok, i cant help myself. its such a great fear ;;n;; i cant think about needles without wanting to curl into a little ball and hide under the bed....

So yeah... wish me luck. I see a lot of people making weight loss journals talking about their journey... yeah, I’m not gonna do that >w>;; But if anyone of my followers is thinking about undergoing the surgery themselves or just wants to know what it’s like, or has questions for me, it’s OK to ask them! ^^ Feel free to ask or talk to me!

#weight loss #gastic sleeve #weight loss surgery #personal bla #gastricsleeve

My darling~ my soulmate!! Q^Q

Yesterday I drew a very quick Reggie for @agi92 ‘s post : http://agi92.tumblr.com/post/172728604242/theoniprince-agi92-i-found-it-wth-its I really like the result and thought about Clarus with a new look, though he looks similar to my usual design. However his hair is shorter and his features look more mature. It looks more like the original desgin in “A King’s Tale” :) <3

(Today I had my first event for my master’s degree. Unfortunately all the informations were nothing new for me and I hope I will get much useful informations tomorrow... but wel, well! I could draw this while the lecturer was talking - I was listening - really!! I swear)

#Clarus Amicitia #a king's tale #ffxv #ff15 #my art #myart #final fantasy xv #final fantasy 15 #clarus #personal bla

german discounters know what people need

#yes bottled water is a sin #you don't live my life #mood bottles #personal bla #and now that i've just been there again wtf fits better than ever #what an asshole cashier fuck you

@Treflev,aahhh,sorry,i pressed the send button without checking if it was private,ugh,i hope,it's ok this way!

#Treflev #it was a long hard day...#personal bla

Tomorrow i’ll start a hospital stay i waited for almost all year. Two days later our house will be sold.That was an unfortunate coincidence.Even though it’s the right decision and gives some financial freedom i’ve never felt so lost.I can only hope in the long run it will bring some inner peace for both my mother and me.

At least i still have my tumblr home,for now,you never know with this place o_O ^^

I hope there’s decent wifi at the hospital,otherwise have a lovely december tumblr pals! :*

#I'm so tired but there's still so much to do #and it's such a fucking pleasure doing it with ocd #oversharing #personal bla

I just talked to one of my (ex) co-workers on the phone for almost an hour and though she’s one of my favorite people i was in agony practically all of the time, i haaaaaaate phone calls ..