#personal blather

[siaanme]

Do you think EB Games is having a 50% off everything-stores-closing-at-the-end-of-the-month sale?

[queenofsquids]

ok for years I've been trying to get into Instagram and generally I was ok with scrolling it a little bit and had a good algorithm going with creative stuff and dolls from people all over the world

but since their big push for video I have hated it

I only get shown crap crap crap and trying to scroll explore is nonstop faces talking theatrically and oddly to the camera I just hate it

and any doll stuff I'm shown now just isn't the variety it used to be. lots of American only, rainbow high or barbie

I'm a little crushed because IG was a tool, a good tool, for international or global inclusion for me. I don't want to be stuck in America-only web. I really really don't want to be swamped with tik tok vids. I kinda hate that individual companies can have such control over my social experience.

I love tumblr better format wise, but because it's so language based, I don't see as much from other cultures. with image focused apps like IG, I could see and understand a lot without speaking/reading the language.

just rambling. but yeah. miss old stuff.

oh yeah, and too many of those talking faces need to be slapped with "your experiences are not universal"

[darthfar]

Nrgh. So I’m just two levels away from completing  my Duolingo Chinese course (which I was timing to coincide with Day 100).... and then today I log on and what had been a systematically organised course just yesterday has become... a cartoon-infested snake trail? And I can’t tell what on earth is what anymore? What are all these check-marked coins? Where are my topics? What ARE my topics? Why, Duolingo, why?? [cries]

[antikate]

Nanowrimo report: so I got to 50k today (hooray!) and collapsed into a heap.

My project, a beauty and the beast retelling with fire witches and cursed bear monsters, feels maybe a third of the way done which would give me a much longer manuscript than I was anticipating, but I already know I’m going to have to do a lot of cutting.

I said on Twitter that it feels like less of a draft and more drafty, but I can feel it taking shape in a way I couldn’t before I forced myself to write so much.

And I’m proud of myself for doing it given a bunch of boring personal stuff that all happened at once.

I know there are fanfic writers out there who churn out 50k a month regularly and I salute them, but for me writing 1500-2000 words daily every day is a huge achievement considering, well, everything.

I hope anyone else out there doing Nano had some success. Any words you wrote are words you didn’t have before, and that’s amazing!

[colubrina]

So it’s noon, and I haven’t done any writing yet.

I’ve done a load of laundry, and put it away, and made the beds, and wiped down the shelves in one kid’s room, and emptied the dishwasher, and cleaned up the kitchen counters. I’ve made more paper cranes for the Christmas tree, and I’ve done the first sewing step on 38 new cloth masks for our Christmas trip. I’ve put out more bird food, and cleaned up cat pee, and done my physical therapy exercises. And done editorial notes on one query/first page combo.

After lunch, going to start the mopping robot and go out to do some Christmas shopping.

And I want to resolve five notes on this chunk of chapters.

I have no idea what’s for dinner.

[rum-and-shattered-dreams]

The Man Downstairs Progress Report and personal updates - November 27, 2021

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! 

That said, I’m so thankful for everyone who’s been reading, liking, reblogging, giving kudos, and commenting and I’m grateful for everyone I’ve met through the Gravity Falls fandom! Sending out hugs and happiness to you all!

As for the progress report, the next chapter is a bit of a stumbling block but it’s slowly coming together. There’s a lot of information I need to communicate but I’d prefer to not take up too much space with it. There’s a lot more that I’m excited to get to! But trying to decide what to include and what to trim down involves a lot of decision making which is... Not at all a strength for me XD. Hopefully it will be ready soon. I’d like to aim for next Saturday but sadly can’t make any promises on that at the moment. 

In personal things, I’ve been having simultaneous good and bad times. I’ve been having health issues again and having trouble getting appointments and such to take care of it. (It’s just... Frustrating.) The financial aid I thought might help fell through so I’m going to have to come up with the money to pay out of pocket. I don’t qualify for any aid in paying for insurance either so that would end up being even more expensive. And there’s a long line of things I need to do that involve facing social and general anxiety and my memory and attention limitations. I was really hoping some ADHD meds would help but the first one I tried flared up my other health issues and the second gave me insomnia and horrible hot flashes and now I’m just trying to get the other health stuff back under control again before trying another med. Everything feels horribly overwhelming all the time. 

That said, I’ve taken a break from a lot and what I’ve been doing in the meantime has been good. Thanks to @ramblesanddragons mentioning Critical Role recently, I started watching that and working on some craft projects while it plays in the background. It’s been great getting some laughs there and it partially reminded me of who I used to be and who I used to wish I could be. So, I’ve done a few things like dying my hair red like I used to back in the early 2000′s (for fall and the holidays. Blue will be next for winter.) and I got some new nail polish because I used to like wearing it and all of mine was at least 15 years old. I also finally got two sets of gold earrings to match the one set I’ve been wearing so I can leave them in all the time rather than neglecting them and having to re-pierce them when I remember to wear earrings again. I’ve even been thinking about costume stuff again and digging out some of my old costume and jewelry stuff, though I probably won’t make anything until after this health stuff is less messy, assuming it can be, and getting top surgery.

Working on the craft stuff has been a pretty big step in recovery after everything that happened in 2019. I did try to keep up working on some things after that but quickly lost any ability to care about it. I’m not sure I’m back to being able to actively care again but at least passively working on some of it feels like something useful and it keeps my mind occupied enough to not be anxious, worried, or overwhelmed by other things. Honestly, If I could just work on things like this all the time without having to worry about marketing it or dealing with the business end of things, I’d be pretty happy. Can I just be like... The village basket weaver and part-time gardener/farmer please? That’d be great. 

Anyway, hope everyone is doing well and if not, then I hope there are better times ahead for you! <3

[hollsx0]

The End of No Return

Well Well, This is where it all started. let's be honest the past 2 years have SUCKED. I don't think anything good has happened in anyone lives to be honest, if you say it has then youre a fucking liar. One positive thing is that we woke up each day and thanked god for another day but was it really worth waking up for. I wanted to stay in bed and pretend that I was sick and needed to rest but that really wasn't the truth even tho it did work for a couple of days lol. We got up anyways and went to work with a fuck you smile on our face well at least us "frontline" workers did while the rest idk stole toilet paper and collected their unemployment and did some bullshit home improvements, WELL MUST BE NICE, RIGHT. I tried to stay positive "like oh at least I have a job to go too, blah blah blah" whole time thinking like uhh yeah wonderful just its fucking wonderful only cool thing is that frontline workers got a 10 percent discount at Under Armor lol. They were offering free crocs but of course you they are all sold out by the time you click the get in line botton. I was administrator at a Health Care facility and let me tell you those 2 years BROKE ME, Changed my life upside down and not nearly in a good way. More like hello let me fuck you up the ass and not even take you to dinner, like thank you very much Shale Packer for fucking me in the ASS for 7 years. This man is the most unreality ,unstable ,crazy ,fuck face , lunatic, selfish, fraud, stupid bitch , clueless prick that I have ever known to exist and then things took a turn for the worst. Stay tuned to hear more about the end of no return.

[shattereddreams-gravityfallsfics]

Next TMD Chapter Delayed

(and personal updates)

As much as I was hoping to have chapter 54 ready for tomorrow, it probably won’t be.

Honestly, I’ve been having a bad bout of apathetic depression for multiple reasons and can’t willpower through it right now. Mostly, all I can do is play ACNH and sleep a lot. As in, constantly feeling exhausted and falling asleep, like it or not, even if I’m up and actively trying to do something. That plus this overwhelming sense of not caring about anything, even things some part of me still wants to care about and hates myself for not caring. And, as much as I want to act like, “It’s fine. Things aren’t so bad. Other people have it worse. Why can’t I just get up and do something useful?” No. Things have been difficult and still are and it would probably be a miracle if I didn’t feel like this. That said, it is somewhat comforting to know there are personal reasons for it on top of all the UGH that’s affecting the world. (It’s not "why am I depressed?” It’s “a lot of things actually actively suck and have sucked for a long time and I’ve been through A Lot with very little in-person support and very few resources” depression. Also, just to mention it, there’s no danger of self-harm. I worked too hard to not die from chronic illness to mess that up.) 

But, on the side of things that are good: @orangeoctopi7, @invisibletinkerer, @hinatauryusen, @darylstorey, @eregyrn-falls, @ramblesanddragons, @artistic-arteries, @nicnacsnonsense, @goghsynesthetic, @neverposts-ace, @bill-beauxquais thank you so much for your support, advice, input, insights, opinions, ideas, help, and/or chatting with me! It has helped so much in getting this far and will continue to help once this has passed. Also thanks to everyone who regularly or sporadically leaves feedback on AO3 or reblogs my chapters here! It’s much appreciated!  Hugs to you all and I hope for the best for you in the new year!