#personal?

[cursedtrekedits]

last minute announcement that i’m having top surgery today

[theladyofshalott1989]

Oh no. I finished S02 of Good Omens.

[barbwritesstuff]

I finished the first draft of a thing I was writing yesterday. Today, I ate some wild berries I found (blackberries, they turn my tongue purple and the thorns hurt like... well... like thorns stabbing into your fingers, but the sweetness is worth it). Now, it is evening, and I'm feeling contemplative.

There's a bunch of big announcements coming up for me, and that's exciting but also scary. I'm sure I don't need to say this, but the world is kinda awful right now, and it feels weird to be announcing things and trying to feel excited when there's so much ugliness going around. I'm reckoning a wee bit with that feeling, of existing and creating art in fucked and scary times.

This is not a new feeling.

Writing has helped me through some of the darkest parts of my life. It was the thing that carried me through the pandemic. (Well, that and a whole bunch of delightfully unhinged preschoolers. The cubs in Blood Moon were heavily inspired by the kids I was chasing around a classroom in 2020). Heck, I don't think I would've finished university if I wasn't blowing off steam writing long, (and probably very bad) fanfic in my down time. Expressing myself this way has always been my outlet, and I'm so, so lucky to be able to do it... especially when others can't.

Like I said, this is not a new feeling, but still, it's a feeling, and I'm letting myself feel it.

I'm also letting my brain churn through some of the other things I want to work on. I want to finish Thicker Than, I want to write another novel, I want to figure out a bunch of real life stuff that I need to figure out. I'll probably post more about all of this in the next month.

But for now, for now I'm eating the last of the berries and remembering that humans are good, that they wouldn't have to try so hard to twist, and warp, and break us if we weren't... and that it's okay sometimes to have feelings about all of this.

[marvellouslymadmim]

Still recovering from a nasty bout of food poisoning so I'm stuck at home while the wife does school/research stuff. and here I am, knocking out 1k+ of Robyn/Dara smut. Just Pedialyte and pure yuri willpower against the forces of fatigue and vertigo, bby.

[hollandorks]

I need goodreads and storygraph to integrate tags search like ao3 has because as a mood reader its hard as fuck to narrow searches down when I want something super specific!!

[limeyjellybean]

My brain had already gone 'Psst, hey. Taliesin Jaffe? Gender goals.' but now it's added Alexander Ward to the mix too and honestly - thank you brain

[veephoenix]

hi loves

to everyone asking: no, i did not move to ao3. I've been posting simultaneously here and there since the start. it's just that i've had two very chaotic months. it took me a lot to write the following chapters of zutto because i was not in the right headspace for it. But these past three days i managed to complete them and i quickly shared them on ao3.

i mentioned you can all read them there because when i post on tumblr i always spend some more time creating the banners and adding the tags, additional notes, etc. i haven't had neither the time or motivation to do it. i know it's something simple that will actually take me less time than the writing itself, and i looove doing it, searching for the right pictures and all that, but i've just felt too lazy and unmotivated to get to it.

i will post the chapters here either today or before friday, i promise, only because a few of you have reached out to me and i would feel the same if i couldn't access one of my favorite stories. but please, be appreciative of it and let me know what you think. it's been a very complicated two months for me and it was harder than you'll ever know to sit down and write, about assault, of all things.

thank you so much to each of you that's still reading and reaching out to me about noah and lia, and every other story. i know it's just fanfiction, but the inevitability of love a second sight is a story that has helped me so much on a personal level. writing it has been almost therapeutic. it has become a safe space for me. and it makes me really happy to know it has resonated with some of you and you're actually enjoying these little things i write and finding a safe heaven in those lines, too.

all my love,

v