When I was in my first years of university or even in school, I used to think about my dream job. It was being a bad-ass professional that was damn good at her job that even at her young age, she was at a very high position. I wanted to work in a fashion magazine. I wanted to be great and I was fighting to be great.
So what is it now? What is it that I’m in my last year of university and I’ve completely lost hope in my future. I feel lost, old, stressed. Is this normal? Is not having motivation at all really normal? It’s not even the fourth week since I’ve started classes, but I already feel I’m exhausted, that I can’t keep going anymore.
So now that I think about my dream job, I see nothing. I just want to feel alive again, I just want to feel all this is worth it, that there’s something out there waiting. That getting a nice internship is possible and that I will, in fact, find a job and get to a position in which I earn enough to do everything I want, to support my family, to get my own flat, to live the life I want.
But maybe I do see something when I think about my dream job. I used to see New York or London. Now I see Lima, my city, let’s be realistic. But I also see Madrid, one city I have learnt to love even if I’ve never travelled in my life. I see companies: I want to do Corporate Communications and not really work in Advertising agencies, which is where my university has oriented us to work in. (Maybe that’s why I haven’t liked all these three years of my career). But I do see companies. There’s this zone in Lima, in San Isidro district that is called kind of “the corporations’ zone” and everyday I pass around it on the bus. I swear to you, my heart just beats faster everytime I see those big buildings, all the people dressed fancy and formal and looking great.
And this is the point in which I question myself: did you pick the rick career?
Because I’m a publicist, publicists work in agencies. But let me have faith. And now, in my last year at university, I have wondered: maybe I should’ve studied Management. “Maybe I should’ve studied something I was good at”.
