A mini comic (if you recognize my art style no you dont)(it actually doesnt matter, if you do you can definitely dm me on my actual main so i can talk… without the persona)
im genuinely dog shit at communication, my friends is very autistic like me and when they ‘blow up’ its just because of all the things ive done that i know hurt them.
and i dont think ive ever actually said im sorry 2 them 2 their face (over text maybe a few times). like i cant even said i didnt know i hurt them because when they are upset with me a lot of the time they just shut down. and glare. like i know theyre upset and i still say nothing.
and when they do ‘blow up’ guess what they immediately do! apologize.
and the reason why i was so scared about them being upset yesterday was because im pretty sure they are so sick of me and i actually cannot blame them because honestly? i suck. im a terrible friend.
we used to talk 4 actually hours every day and now maybe a bit of back and forth every day or 2
i miss talking 2 them so much. i miss it SO FUCKING MUCH.
because in all honesty IM REALLY in love with them.
i idolize them so much that when they hurt me its completely fine and ill let them get away with it over and over, as many times as it takes 4 them 2 not leave me.
but since im shit at communication they never ever every get 2 know i care. and i dont think theyre ever guessing because im genuinely just so cruel to them.
@ajolteonnamedsparky you were kinda saying how much you hated my friend from the last ask, i hope this might… clear… this up…
i often feel the need 2 come up with my own language 2 make my own language 2 convey emotion or actions i cant normally with english but what if i just slowly changed how i use english until it becomes its own thing?
this might be my daily thing now i guess so
day one ig
this language will be called ‘Axorrath’ (because it’s a thing I came up with a while ago and I’ve been wanting 2 use it for a while now)
rule 1 is that any descriptor of a noun always comes after it, this applies to verbs, adjectives, adverbs, and anything else my brain has forgotten
