Sep 12, 2025
had the yikes™️ realization tonight that i've let myself get so deconditioned that i got so-called runner's itch from. going for another walk (only very mildly and only in the last quarter mile but still). however this did make me wonder whether maybe doing more physical activity would improve the circulation in my extremities (dilate, little capillaries, dilate!) and be a path to having feet that were less freezing all the time… 🤔
#in conclusion i gotta gotta *gotta* get back to bicycling#it's like. THE mode of exercise i actually enjoy#it's just that what i really like to do is run little errands via bike#for values of 'little errands' that include like. going to a coffeeshop#but like. assigning myself a Destination so it's a little trip and not *just* a loop#and the way things are laid out here it's basically like. nothing's really a suitable distance away except for like. the grocery store#which i *have* ever done but. [nose wrinkle] not very satisfying OR a very efficient way of getting groceries#and like. unfortunately my dad very thoughtfully got me a medium-fancy coffee machine for my birthday a couple of years ago#or really for like. several birthdays and possibly also belated graduation since he hasn't actually given me anything since then‚ lmao#but it does mean that like. the little errand of [bike to semi-decent localish coffeeshop. get coffee.]#has lost a lot of its appeal because frankly the coffee i can make myself at home now is better than theirs!#but this is the thing‚ right—working out how to maintain the physical machine i pilot has to get factored in as *part of the goal*#because if the parameters are just like. 'get groceries most efficiently.' 'drink the tastiest most convenient coffee.' etc#then i end up never going anywhere except on big stocking-up grocery runs by car.#which is how i arrived at what frankly is an unreasonable level of deconditioning for someone who isn't that old or physically impaired.#anyway i think i have to like. actually plan some level of activity into my calendar so it's not just like. a thing i could do Sometime#which in adhd parlance means: never#(tbh 'tackle the fucking knitting projects i want to tackle' and 'read the books i want to read' shd probably ALSO go in the calendar)#(god. like ok sure if i had a different brain i'd be a different person but. would that be so bad really!!!)#journaling#mundanities#physicalities#the psyche