Anyway the glass is half full again and not half empty. Replies to yesterday’s Bugsie sads under cut:
Most people are pretty good, and I always tag that stuff – this was more a reaction to someone on Facebook and what they posted, and I got pretty upset by it. Tumblr’s been pretty good for the most part in that regard.
I actually do have a kid, but it was after a fairly traumatic period of time where lots of things went horribly wrong (I think 5 years of that shit and that was almost 5 years ago - but the memory resurfaces) and really I am that ‘half glass full’ kind of person but then something reminds me of the shit I had to go through to get that one much wanted child and it’s like being traumatized all over again.
This is something that people should talk more about, the only reason I know what I went through was similar to others was because I said something in public about it, its like a taboo subject. I’m still not necessarily comfortable laying out what I went through in public, like I’m still kind of holding that in and trying hard not to think about it but it comes to the surface occasionally. Thankyou for the kind offer.
Ahhh Sapphy, I think part of my trauma is behind me – its people like you who need all the love and support – I didn’t know hun *many hugs to you and hubby* you can talk to me any time.
Yeah exactly I don’t want to tread on others happiness but according to others I’m supposed to be happy and so many people say ‘but you have one child already’ – like dude do you know what I went through for that? Do you know that I knew after that there could never be another? Then people throw ‘adoption’ and ‘always other options’ at you and I get super mad and upset because they know nothing about what the adoption process is like in this country or my personal circumstances.
@anon who sent me the message - Thankyou, I hear you about that, I think if I had never tried I would likely be in the same place as you, but now I have to think about that other stuff all the time (like am I gonna mess this up for the one I have, was I selfish for considering this in the first place?) but yeah there is always more to life than this and I’m definitely looking forward, not back.
