Apr 4, 2019
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Love when Tumblr gives me a notification like "you have 72 new notes :)" and I go 'oh god oh fuck what on earth did I post??' only to find out it was haha joking and showing me notes from the past few days all together 😑
Me: Oh I bet I can find Coco available on the animal crossing subreddit-
The subreddit: Trading isn't allowed here. Go to this other subreddit.
The other subreddit: We have Rules here. Pages and pages of rules. Are they all in one easy to find, easy to read place? No. Here is a complicated guide on where to find half this shit, and a link to the guide of the other half. Take notes. Go hunt down the rules in all these goddamn links. If you break any of these hidden rules we will eat you. Die
Bf: let's go to Ren Fest! But let's get food first
Bf: (at Sonic) actually, I don't feel like Ren Fest, but let's still hang out!
Bf: (at home) I'm gonna make you a drink and then go downstairs to play video games by myself
Bf: you took a nap so now I'm playing games with my online buddy, but we can hang out when I'm done
Bf: my buddy asked me to stream video games with him for 4 hours and I don't wanna say no to hang out with you
Bf: but I don't want you to be mad
Is it normal to have breakups you never get over?? Like I've been in a relationship for almost 5 years now and I'm super happy with my bf but like. I can't get over my high school gf/best friend (we only dated for like 3 months, but were friends for like 6 years). It doesn't help that we were basically joined at the hip in middle school and the beginning of high school. But around the time I came out, we just started drifting apart. And now I haven't talked to her in over a year. I've sent her messages like "hey let's catch up sometime" but she's always busy or doesn't respond. And the last message I sent was a "do you still wanna be in touch? Cuz I literally can't tell and I don't wanna come off as a pest so like just tell me to leave" and she never responded to it... Every once in a while I'll check her Tumblr or Facebook just to make sure she's doing ok (and I feel like a fucking stalker every time) and she updated her profile pic on fb to her and a guy dancing, and I'm pretty sure it's her bf. And my heart just broke. Like, I'm not even interested in dating her atm bc I'm in a relationship, so why did it hurt so much??? And why can't I just fuckin tell myself to get over her bc NOTHING. WILL. HAPPEN.
I just. I've been sitting on these feelings for a while and don't have the money to see my therapist. Feel free to reply or not, I just needed to get this out.
Cue existential crisis
So Dad doesn't see me as a guy, which is why he's having such a hard time with name and pronouns. But now I'm stuck wondering who else has the same mind set, and what the point is to transitioning if he's always gonna see me as "his daughter who wants to be a boy."