When I was a little girl, I pictured myself in the future wearing a beautiful black dress, red lipstick, and pumps. Working all over the world probably with a super rad job and on my free time helping someone in need with Peace Corps or any other organization, that does good things.
Well, I am in the 30′s and guess what??? I am far from the “picture perfect” I created. Fact is: (I will make a list, so makes life easier)
1. the red pumps were my mother’s and she gave it away a long time ago
2. the red lipstick I wear once in a while, but I need to be in the mood, sometimes, most of the time I walk out without any makeup on. - I know it is weird based on the current successful makeup brands and all. But I really don’t wear it all the time, I do more minimal like to go out or to work.
3. regarding the black dress, I wear, but not always. I usually wear more navy blue, gray and white. And I have this beautiful red dress with printed zebras that I love.
Anyway, the 30′s is not so glamourous - please don’t judge, I created that image when I was 7 playing inside my mom’s closet.
The imaginary world that I portrayed as a child, never became reality. I was lost in such an imaginative reality that I ended up liking and doing many things, but never only one thing. - I think is pretty cool when someone knows exactly what to do with their lives. Unfortunately, that was not my case.
I guess I am entering the famous 30 years old crises, but how can I survive this? And is that all wrong to make silly decisions,?when is too late to fix or abandon a path of dreams that look intangible and leave the clouds to walk down on Earth?
Am I going to be another duck floating in the bathtub, with a huge credit card bill?