#pk anon

[hollowknightconfessions]

lurien the watcher is very interesting to me and hes just this funny little guy that i dont see enough people talking about

-PK anon

he's silly

-- mod moth

[petekaos]

RAHUUULLLL I actually got so happy when I saw you answered the ask and said I can rant here! I legitimately feel so excited talking about DBK (and KTS and KMA!) and you're such a sweet person to talk to! 💗 I might come off anon at some point, maybe that would make it easier to talk? But first I've got to sort out my mess of a blog 😅

It's sad how little I see people hype DBK... So I'm thankful that at least you keep them on my dash ♡ I understand that a lot of people like umm "spicier"(?) content and skip on slower dramas with less kissing scenes and such, or then they just watch the compilations. But it's such a pity because DBK is a beautiful drama all over; the characters, the story that tackles important issues such as trust and coming out, the dialogue, the directing... One of the few dramas I actually replayed even "insignificant" scenes of merely because of how gorgeously they were shot. This ask is getting too long so that's all I wanted to say for now! Just know you made my day with your answer❤

-with love, PeteKao anon for now ✌🏻

pk anon!! hi hi hello!! thank you so so much for this long long message, i smiled so much when i saw it :^) and please do come off anon when you’re ready, i’d love to talk to you like that as well! :’)

the dbk and especially petekao hype is so not prevalent on tumblr. however, there are people on here that do make content for them, like madeline, @earthfluuke, kylie @wjmild, roa @bisexualpang, nuria @taytawan and sam @armshare, amongst other people! 

there are also people over on twitter who hype petekao up specifically and it’s so heartwarming to me. and yeah, i’ve mentioned this a lot but dbk is truly such a wonderful and... mature drama? it’s specifically made by lgbt people for lgbt people and that’s why it resonates with us so much. the talks about sexuality, the struggles of coming of age, the entire differences of being out or not out and just... it’s such a meaningful drama! and petekao really are That Couple. the depth of their characters and everything they go through is just so real and tangible to me... dbk really makes you feel so Seen. it’s such a pity that gmmtv never promoted it properly and i’ll be bitter about it every day honestly, and it’s such a pity that a lot of the ‘bl fandom’ didn’t take it seriously either. but oh well! it is like that sometimes.

don’t even get me started on the cinematography and all the wide shots :((( i adore this one specific scene from when kao is at his desk studying and pete is shirtless and has a towel over his back and he has a hand on his shoulder and is just teasing him, smiling at him. i love love love all the little scenes like that, and i’ve watched dbk so many times that i pick up on all of them, and still see something new every time i rewatch. this show is just too meaningful to me!! 

[serendipityunho]

"imma text you tomorrow dumb bitch cause I want pussy rn ✌️😘 -💙" wait so we know that black heart anon is getting dick at this instant -pk

nah, she still here

[strawberry-milktea]

So the place I go to church at is very charismatic/pentecostal and I don't have a problem with it, but I feel like I've always been more of a "private worshipper". Even when I was an extroverted little kid I was private about it. I mean, I know it's good to have fellowship with others and attend church and all that, but when it comes to worshipping or praying in front of other people, I'd really just rather worship in private. At my church people dance around and yell and speak in tongues (1)

(2) and sure, that’s wonderful for them, but is it wrong of me to want to keep my personal relationship with him close to me? I’m not talking about sharing Jesus, just stuff like worshipping and singing and dancing in public. I’d gladly do those things by myself, in my room or where nobody could see me. It’s a little confusing. Thank you!  (please tag as “PK anon” so I can find it later)—I relate so much to everything you’re saying here! I honestly understand what you’re saying on a very personal level.I also attend a Pentecostal church. Like yours, my church is very passionate/charismatic about worship. And that passion is one of the things I love about going there. It feels so nice to be surrounded by people who so openly worship and express their faith without any care about how they look or who’s watching them. But at the same time, I am exactly like you. I am an introverted person and my worship is far more internal and on the quiet side. It’s very difficult for me to raise my hands up in praise around others and it took me a long time to get the courage to sing during worship around other people. I tend to get paranoid that people will “notice” me, which I know is silliness because people are focusing on their own worship of Him - not what I’m doing. But I somehow get this awareness in public and don’t feel as comfortable as I do in private in my own room. I have gotten much more comfortable in comparison to how I was when I first started attending church after being born again. It was a freeing feeling once I let down my guard a little and dared to step out of my comfort zone. And I think the freedom came when I just realized that I don’t have to match up to the way anyone else worships. I can participate in the way that feels comfortable and right for me. Even if the person next to me is singing loudly or dancing around, I don’t need to match or copy that. It felt very spiritually freeing to know I could participate in worship in my own quieter way, even if many people around me are more extroverted in their worship. We aren’t there to worry what others think of our worship - because the worship is for Him and Him alone! He sees the intent and desires of each of our hearts. And what is in the heart is not dependent on how loud someone sings, how expressive they dance, or if they are worshiping by speaking in tongues.So all that being said, no, there is nothing wrong with you! We are all made with different personalities and not all of us are extroverted in our worship. It’s the intent of the heart behind the worship that matters. Not everyone who worships loudly is necessarily genuine in their worship and not everyone who is more quiet in their worship is necessarily lacking in faith. And vice versa. And we aren’t all meant to worship in the same exact way. If it feels right and natural for you to be most expressive in private during worship, then worship Him in the way that is natural and genuine to you. Don’t feel pressured because others around you in church may be more publicly expressive in their worship. Also remember, Jesus actually encouraged us in the Word to pray in private:

“And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.” - Matthew 6:5-6

It should be noted that Jesus is not saying here that worshiping joyfully or openly like those in your church is wrong. The Word also tells us to praise the Lord with song and dance joyfully. What He is referring to here is individuals who pray publicly not for His sake, but for their own - to draw attention to themselves and appear righteous. In contrast, Jesus encouraged people to pray and communicate humbly with Him in private. So this further confirms that there’s nothing wrong with praying and worshiping in private.I hope you found this helpful! And I hope you reach a level of comfort where you feel free to worship the way you feel most comfortable, regardless of what others may be doing around you. It’s very freeing once you reach that point. I’m glad you asked this question, since we are so similar in this area!

[petekaos]

Living for the name change, though gaysarawat is also legendary 💙 Ready for the era of petekaos 🙏

helloooo nene! gaysarawat will be dearly missed, but i still have it saved and will take every opportunity to remind everyone that one of my favourite sons is gay :’) the gay sarawat agenda continues regardless!! and petekao agenda is forever of course!!! this era is gonna be great  💙

[petekaos]

Rahul yes! Absolutely watch the stranded once you have time! It's such a good show and you also get to join the SUS2 club (suffering until season 2) ♡

Work's fine, it's just that as a more of an introverted person customer service can be draining. And since I'm still new I'm constantly afraid of making mistakes and getting scolded... But at the moment I'm completely slacking off since I only have one more shift this week. Not a good thing money-wise but I appreciate a break rn. So I've been practicing self-care aka rewatching all the aired cherry magic episodes once again and drinking way too much milk tea. I've also been meaning to make the tangerine pie for what feels like ages now but I can't seem to find a recipe I'm satisfied with so do you have any suggestions or should I just make up my own? 🤔

Hctm... Yeah, one more reason to expect great things from bad buddy. And I have faith in ohm and nanon's performance considering they're so close irl, though ohm probably could have chemistry with even a trashcan if he had to. And faiza really is keeping the lovely writer hype going and I have to appreciate that! On the topic of other blogs, I don't think I ever thanked you for the list you compiled for me in my anon days, just know that they've been on my dash ever since ♡

How're things with you lately? Any holiday plans yet? I love our convos so much too, I was worried I'd come off as annoying or that you liked the mystery of anonymity more so hearing you say that makes me ❤❤ Sorry though, I clearly have a problem with making my asks brief and to the point...

Sending holiday hugs! 💛

neneeeeee!!! aaaah so sorry for the fairly late reply but here i am now! i’ve seen everyone suffering and begging for s2 hnshfg it’s truly frightening but also i am very intrigued as to watch it! just have to get through every other show on my neverending watchlist... mess.

ah i’m sorry about work, that’s rough :( however, i’m sure you’ll get used to it soon and that you’ll form a routine! customer service can be incredibly draining though so i’m glad you’re getting some kind of break at least. milk tea and cherry magic sounds wonderful, i can’t wait until i get my break in a couple of weeks so i, too, can just sit down and rest for a while and find some time to write, gif, and watch new shows! everything’s been a bit hectic right now and i have so many things to catch up with :( this time of year is difficult for everyone though, especially this year, and so i’m glad you’ve been holding up okay, all things considered. 

also tangerine pie!! yeah, it can be difficult to find a recipe and i rarely make it myself because i can never find tangerines BUT this is the recipe i used a while ago, because i love gingersnaps and i thought it worked well! once i get my break, i’m going to try and bake more and see if i just can’t find some tangerines and tweak this recipe a bit. but feel free to go wild with it - tangerines go super well with ginger, cinnamon, and i’m partial to tangerines and blueberries/lemons myself! they’re a fairly sweet fruit and so depending on your taste, it’s always fun to pair it with something sourer that’ll compliment it too. this has just turned into a tangerine ramble fhsnfh i’m sorry!!

aaaah i am so hyped for bad buddy! yeah, considering their close friendship irl, they’re gonna have super good chemistry, and also they’re both brilliant actors so i know they’ll deliver. i just hope people aren’t weird about them or try to ship them irl... that goes too far for me. and omggg your anon days!!! ah i remember that blog list still, they’re all so lovely and i’m so glad you like them too!

i’ve been doing okay! busy busy busy as always and i feel like i may be nearing a burnout but i have some time off soon so it’ll be time for me to rest and heal haha :^) no holiday plans unfortunately :( the original plan was to drive down to a neighbouring country and see some friends but since covid cases here are rising again we’ve decided it’d be smarter and more responsible to relent from that and see each other when it’s safer! i’ll probably (hopefully) just bake a lot and write a lot! i’m thinking about pete, kao, and achara in japan... they’d have so much fun going there in the winter holidays and seeing all the snow! 

you never come off as annoying at all! i love your long asks, they always put a smile on my face and i hope my answers aren’t too rambly lmaoo!! but what about you - any plans for the holidays? and since i was just rambling on and on about tangerine pie - what’s your favourite dessert? ALSO speaking of cherry magic - who’s your favourite character? [eyes emoji] mine has to be udon-chan bc if you made me pick the humans i would PERISH. either way, many holiday hugs to you my friend! 💛

[petekaos]

Pk anon here coming off anon, a bit nervous 😅 I started at a new job this week and I've been stressed out, all my free time going into either dance, napping or worrying about work. Now, having a complete day off, I'm finally reading through the rest of your petekao week entries (now onto day five) but I HAD TO pause for a moment to come scream about how heartwarming and beautiful and absolutely sweet sin(gerine) divided by cos(gerine) was... (Now first of all, if someone named their tangerine pie like that would I really even have the option to order anything else? Second of all, might just go buy tangerines now and make some pie.)

I'm in general especially soft for coffeeshop aus, probably because it's a childhood dream of mine to open a cafe. Never have I read one as memorable as this one, though. And it's not just because I love PeteKao so very much (as well as each of the side characters) but the atmosphere is so... real? I started reading the fic and suddenly found myself walking around Blue Sky, taking in the smell of roast coffee and freshly baked pastries, sunlight shining on my face. And I never left until the end. And all I can say is that it isn't going to be the last visit 💙

I know I've praised your knowledge and understanding of the characters before and I hope it isn't getting boring, BUT the sheer amount of joy the friend dynamics they have and how you succeed at bringing them to life even in new situations gives me is immeasurable. The way everyone was fondly teasing Kao? The groupchat? I love how Sun was the one to stress the gc was strictly for work purposes yet is the one to gossip about Kao's "tangerine boy" first. And I bet that's how it goes each time. Their names in the gc too! How do you even do this Rahul...

- Thankful with all of my being, Nene ❤

oh my GOD hiii nene!! i’ve been seeing your tags on your rb’s or my fics but i never put two and two together! i hope you’re having a lovely day off, you deserve it 💛

i am THRILLED to be spreading the tangerine pie agenda! shamefully i must admit that i’ve eaten far less of it than desired or expected after reading all of my fics about tangerines lmaoo, but genuinely! if i walked into a shop and things were named after maths puns i would just about melt 😭 i really hope you can find some tangerines and make some pie, it’s truly delicious!

i’m gonna be honest with you, i’ve always wanted to open a café as well, it’s just... it seems such a nice and quiet life. i’ve never really wanted to be remarkable, just happy. i’m so so so glad that you thought blue sky felt real — it genuinely is one of my most favourite settings in any show, i adore it so much! i’m so happy i could bring it to life, with all of its coffee machines whirring, the ovens growing warmer, and the fresh and tart smell of tangerines wafting through the air.

honestly your comments and asks could never be boring, they always bring such a huge grin to my face! i’m so so happy i succeeded in keeping their characters intact and that none of them were TOO ooc, because that’s always something i fear. also the gc!! one of my favourite things to write 🥰 also we ALL know that sun is down to gossip any time, he’s sun!

thank you so so much, my friend. thank you for coming off anon, too, that must have been super nerve-wracking for you!! your messages always make my day, and i hope you enjoy the further fics and that you have a wonderful day off! good luck at your new job!!! 💛

[petekaos]

Rahul my heart is so full right now (so my overuse of heart emojis is justified) 🙁❤ I was a bit busy over the weekend so I only now got to read your first two PeteKao week fics. They were so sweet, it's so clear how much you love these characters and hold them close to your heart, how well you know them... Not a moment I would've thought to myself that 'no, this couldn't happen' or 'this is out of character'. Cool gang tagging Pete in lovesick memes? If that isn't THE most best friends thing to do... I enjoyed both fics but the wedding, Rahul, THE WEDDING. The wedding was literally perfect, the speeches, the way you described the evening after the wedding - their soft conversation and light teasing - I wouldn't have it any other way 💛 If they'd ever make a PeteKao wedding special, there's really only one person I'd fully trust the task of screenwriting to and that... we know who that is.

I don't know how to express it but I feel so...thankful? to be able to read your writing. It really lightens up my mood and your way of having every sentence flow so beautifully and every little detail come to life makes time just fly by as I'm reading. That probably sounded so pretentious but it's hard to put it into words... Your writing gives me a sense of comfort, be it really any sort of writing you do. It feels almost criminal getting to read your fics for free, the day you publish a book I'll be first to pre-order

-sending lots of hugs and thanks,

pk anon 💙

hiii nonnie!! please this was SO CUTE to read, this made me smile so much, thank you for this sweet message!

i’m so so happy that my overwhelming love for pete and kao shines through in the fics for this week, i truly do hold them close to my heart. i HAD to include all of the friendships in dbk because it’s a drama filled with so much love and friendship and family that it’s almost overwhelming. and the memes they would send him 😭 i’m so thrilled you liked the wedding fic, i wrote and rewrote that so so much because i wasn’t satisfied with it at all, but the speeches were so much fun to write! and i’m so honoured that you’d trust me with writing the petekao wedding 🥺 i WISH honestly!

honestly this is one of the sweetest things someone has ever said about my writing and thank you so so much for it!! i’m always so happy to provide everyone with fics and am thrilled whenever they find happiness within them! basically i love making you all happy and give you all an escape from everyday life 💛 thank you so much for this message, i hope you’re having the best day and that you enjoy everything to come this week! 🥰