college lyfe part 1
Today, right now, right here, I want to share my readers about how I could enter my college and my college life.
How I could enter my college..
I was a science student in high school. What I learned is physics, biology, math, science math, and chemistry for three years. What I hated the most is all of them. But what I liked the most (60%) is biology. To be honest, I felt regret that I became a science student because I couldn’t understand the subjects quickly like my “friends” did. Why I quotes the word friends? Because truth be told, some of them were not loyal to others. They were so diligent, smart, etc, but they didn’t care about their other friends. If you don’t get what I said, then forget it.
I never touched economy or accounting subjects for three years, but right now I’m studying at State Finance Polytechnic STAN. FINANCE. My previously goal was to be a dentist or a psychologist. I like to help other people, I want to understand them, and give them advice or solution for their problems. But my destiny says the opposite.
I took SNMPTN -one of many ways to enter a state university- but I failed. I took SBMPTN -one of many ways to enter a state university but have to pass the exam- and I failed again. I almost gave up at the moment. I felt like I failed make my parents happy and proud of me. I felt like what I learned for three years in high school was useless. Plus, I got a little jealous with my friends because they passed the SBMPTN and got the universities that they wanted. Actually, I got many scholarship in private universities but I didn’t take it because I wanted to entered a state university, or don’t go to university at all.
My parent forced me to take the exam for entering PKN STAN, but I refused it. But because I wanted to make my parent happy, I said yes and signed myself up and then on 23 April, I took the first stage. There was so many people that took the exam, more than 160.000 people. For me, the exam was ezpz (sorry not sorry) but the time was not enough to finish them all. So when the time was up, I completed 20 numbers without seeing the question sheet and left 10 numbers without any answers. Yes, I did that.
The morning when I graduate, I read the announcement of people that passed the first stage. After scrolling so many .pdf pages on my phone (I was stupid because I could just typed my name and then the page will come out) then I found my name. I. Was. So. Happy. My graduation day was filled with happiness. Days after that, I started to run in velodrome to practice my physical for second stage. I run every morning or every afternoon with my boyfriend (that time) for six days or else I don’t remember, and finally I took the second stage with no worries. The announcement was announced days after. I found my name again, and I was so happy. There was only one more stage to go. Yeay!
Two days after second stage, I took SBMPTN and I cried after I got home because I couldn’t do it almost all of it. And I didn’t pass the exam. I was crying for 3 days. I had to bury my dreams and search for other ways to continue my education. I didn’t take any other exam for state university because I didn’t want to distress my parent about the tuition fees. Plus, almost of my friends got accepted and I didn’t. Those days were tough, tho. I passed days with fake smiles. HEHE.
Day after day I passed the second stage, I started to study for the last stage. I studied about civil education all day. Tbh I hate that subject, but I had to. Then the day was coming. It was on Ramadhan, so I was fasting. I left home at 10 in the morning and went to PKN STAN, Bintaro. After I arrived there, there was an error connection so the first and second session were delayed. Because I was in the third session, I had to wait almost 2 hours. Then the time was coming, and I entered the exam room. It was in Lab D. I sat at the last row, so I could see everything in front of me. When the time was 15 minutes left, there was so many participants that already finished their exams. I was in panic because of that, but I told myself that I had to stay calm and continue the exam. 5 minutes left, and I already finished my exam. The score was showed, and I got 384 which was I passed and that was a good score. I immediately called my mom up and told her that I was finished. My mom asked me, “How’s your score?”. I answered, “384, Mom”. My mom replied with a smile “I know, dear. You’re the second rank in third session”. I was so shocked, really. How can I be the second rank? I was thinking that the other participants will have higher score than me.
A week after SBMPTN announcement, PKN STAN announcement was coming. The day written in the announcement was 16 June (correct me if I’m wrong bc I didn’t remember anymore) but the .pdf was shared on 15 June. My hands was trembling and my heart was beating faster than normally. It’s like my only way to continue my education because if I failed, I have to wait for one year and take the SBMPTN exam on 2018.
When I saw the announcement, I was with my friends and we were having break fasting. First, I searched my friend’s name because she was signed up too and she was accepted in Customs program study. Then I searched my name and thankfully I was accepted too, in State Treasury program study. I was so happy that time.
See?
You can do it if you put an effort. Do as much as you can. Never stop quitting.
-ara
