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[cjpellets]

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I still feel it. I still feel for you. But I’m getting a little colder every day. It probably won’t be long now.

I really don’t want to do this (Especially because I’m listening to First Time acoustic right now and I really miss you). Like it feels wrong to let go of these feelings. My whole body wants you. But I’m tired. I’m tired of feeling this way. 

So I’m moving on. I’m shutting my feelings out. I’m shutting you out. I might even be shutting myself out. I don’t really know at this point. I guess I’m shutting everyone out. I don’t really want to let anyone in for a while. I just want to be by myself.

I’ll put up a facade though. I really don’t like being cold and mean to people. It doesn’t feel right. But I don’t really want to talk to anyone either. I really miss having someone to talk to though. Someone that I can let my real feelings out to. It’s nice. It’s really, really nice. 

I don’t like being or feeling disconnected with people. But right now, it’s the only way I know how to keep moving. Life don’t stop for nobody. It sure as hell won’t stop for me. Not for a second. 

It’s ok. I’ll be ok. I just have to keep telling myself that. I’ve done this before. I ain’t brand new.

[victheghost]

When all you want to do is connect with your friends but you feel like no one actually wants to get to know you..

[aly-of-zendikar]

Personal

[lykzanangel]

When all got failed.

What should you do? Why does it happened? How to overcome that? 

Life is a roller coaster ride. All instances comes when you are succeeding in life. You really don’t know how to be happy, when someone is not happy on your success. Sometimes, that person is one of the most important in your life. How can you handle that? You will be having mix emotions, anger, sadness, confused, disappointed, and sometimes you wanna be dead just to feel numb or nothing. Life is getting complicated when you are being affected of that person’s vibe. Avoidance or Ignorance can’t help, maybe just a little room wherein lights are dim yet having a positive side.  

[taylortrashhh]

When I'm hopeful, I'm naive. When I'm realistic, I'm bitter. One plays off of each other but I'm really tired of be lied to. I'm feeling pretty used this past year in my romantic endeavors.

[amberissaquahx]

consolation.

its been a hell of a time, these hectic days don't be seeming to get any easier but not necessarily any harder. and although i think they are getting harder i think i'm just learning how to live life at half best. never feeling totally in the moment or appreciating life at what it truly is, beautiful and invigorating. i'm constantly content with what i have but thats it, i don't love life, far from it actually. i resent the fact that i can't be good enough, for my family, for society, for school - the fact that i can't love myself for who i am - the fact that i still doubt the feelings you say you have for me - the fact that i feel like i'm not good enough - the fact that i'm scared for my future, and how i don't even know what i want to do - the fact that i constantly feel alone. 

i'm sick and tired of doubting every god damn aspect of my life. 

i hate that when i think of myself, i think of: confusion, disbelief, anger, betrayal, disappointment and loneliness. confusion because i have no fucking idea what i'm doing with my life. disbelief because i constantly do the wrong things and never learn, disbelief that i can let myself fall under so often. anger at myself, my body, my size, my grades, my apparent inability to think that i'm every good enough, even if i have someone who loves me and i them. betrayal to myself, to the one thing which is certain in my life. the only one thing that will be with me always because i was born in it and i live in it, and yet i continue to self loathe and crave to be a new person. again disappointment at the state of my life. and finally, loneliness. because although i have my friends, my family and a boy i love, when the night sneaks in and brings the darkness with it, that darkness effortlessly represses all the serenity and belonging i feel until i'm left with myself, whom i already hate, and i wait for utter consolation.  

[yungperl]

After accepting that I'm not straight, so much of my life made sense. In second grade I kissed my girl best friend and she got mad at me. At my 6th grade birthday party I kissed my friend out of the blue... And she also thought that it was much more strange than I did. And those were the only 2 people I kissed until I kissed a gay guy my senior year of high school. So yeah, I feel like a lot has clicked into place now.

[0blueskiesandsunshine0-blog]

someone please inform me as to why I keep getting screwed over.... my life is a mess.

FUCK YOU. FUCK HER. FUCK YOU BOTH. SERIOUSLY, FUCK YOU.