+ I’d like to think that you are a little older than Ben, but not by so much so maybe just like year or two or even a couple of months
+ your mom left you and Luke when you were little (i actually don’t know what happened to Luke’s S/O, i’m making something up)
+ Since your mom left, Luke enlisted Han and Leia’s help to raise you
+ It was all good
+ When Ben was born, you were so excited and loved having him around
+ And when you guys were a bit older, Ben looked up to you
+ You both are basically best friends
+ Carrying on
+ Besides Leia, Han and Ben, you and your dad where on your own
+ You two were close
+ Having light saber fights with stick you find on the ground
+ Having girl talks with Aunt Leia
+ So you and Ben go training with Luke at the same time
+ But your dad had still been teaching you about the ways of the force and the Jedi since you were a little kid, so you were more advanced
+ When you and Ben go build your light sabers, his is the classic blue and yours is a stunning purple
+ Training and learning the ways of the Jedi would be the most fun
+ I think that Luke would be a strict teacher but like would have a soft spot/ make an exception for you and Ben, but still teach you well
+ Since your older than Ben, you complete your training earlier, gaining the rank of Jedi Knight
+ (Luke was emotional)
+ You help your dad train the students
+ And you also help Ben train extra after a day of lessons
+ Due to this, you were the first one to see Ben become more and more aggressive
+ You confront him about it, but he tells you its nothing
+ You also tell your dad about it
+ He grows increasingly worried too
+ Your discussing this same thing with your dad the day Ben sets fire to the Jedi Temple
+ He tells you to grab as much stuff of yours and his as you can and run, run and run until you can’t see the the temple anymore
+ You give him a hug and take off
+ You eventually make your way back to Han and Leia’s place and tell them what happened
+ Leia somehow already felt it, but Han is distraught
+ You move in with them
+ You comforted Leia when he left, and helped her start The Resistance
+ You miss your father, but keep strong because it what he would’ve wanted
+ You became her second in command
+ You also led your own Squadron, Green Squadron
+ You accompany Poe, who was your best friend at this point, on the mission to find the map that led to your dad, on Jakku
+ Unluckily, both you and Poe get captured by the First Order
+ While your both being tortured for information
+ You feel an awkward sense of familiarity around Kylo Ren
+ When he took his mask off, you gasped
+ It was Ben
+ He talks to you softer than he does to Poe, though still with a rather harsh tone, still sort of looking up to you after all these years
+ Poe and you are rescued by an FN-2187, a storm trooper who wants to refuse the First Order’s demands and help you two escape
+ You all cram yourself into a TIE fighter, with FN and Poe flying the thing while you controlled the main guns
+ “What’s your name, trooper?” you asked him
+ “FN-2187″ he answered “The only name they ever gave me” he said with a slight smile, while still flying the ship precisely
+ “Well we don’t like that.” said Poe. “How about Finn?”
+ “I like that!” Finn said “What about you guys?”
+ “I’m Y/N, this is Poe” you said
+ “Nice to meet you Finn!” Poe said
+ “Nice to meet you too, guys!”
+ Unfortunately, the TIE crashes on Jakku
+ You and Poe wake up at the same time, but there is no sight of Finn for miles
+ You both come to the conclusion that he’s gone
+ And thankful for him to help you guys escape
+ You were able to get a ship and return to The Resistance
+ Leia was glad to have you guys back, her best pilots
+ When Maz calls for help on Takodana, you and Poe are the first ones to volunteer your squadrons
+ And you go, where is fortunately where you find Finn again, and reunite with Finn, in a hug
+ Finn gives vital information to the Resistance, and they plan out the way to rescue Rey and destroy The Finalizer
+ When the mission is done, Rey approaches you with the news of her going to find your dad
+ You were training in the forest with your light saber
+ When you hear her voice “Y/N? Y/N Skywalker?”
+ You freeze up and turn around to face her
+ You turn of the sharp purple blade and answer “Yes? You must be Rey” you finished, shaking her hand
+ “I wanted to ask you to come with me to find your father. You know the mission?”
+ “Of course I know” she backs away
+ you sigh “But I’ll go. I need to see him again”
+ You say your goodbyes to Poe and Finn, although he’s in a coma
+ You give one last goodbye to your Aunt Leia
+ “Bring him home, Y/N. He is the only one who may be able to save Ben.”
+ “ I will Aunt Leia. I promise I’ll try.”
+ She gives you a kiss on your forehead
+ And you leave with Rey, to find your dad
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Request: Hi! I was wondering if you could do Poe Dameron x Reader where the reader is Vice Admiral Holdo's assistant and thinks of her as like a mother. Your parents were diplomats, so you know how to diffuse situations most of the time. You're in a relationship with Poe & balance out his rashness with calmness. However, you get pissed when he destroys the Dreadnaught since he risked his life for almost nothing in return ("Sometimes I wonder how you're still alive"). You refuse to speak to him since he didn't consider your feelings, either. Later, when Holdo sacrifices herself, you're feeling so heartbroken and torn up. When on board the Millenium Falcon, Poe thinks you blame him for her death, & therefore can't get your forgiveness. Little does he know, all you need is his love and comfort. Angst and fluff. And apologies if this is too long of a request and that it's a personal message. I just thank you for taking the time to read it! Have a great rest of your day!
A/N: I watched The Last Jedi about 5 times to write this. Not that I needed an excuse. ;D Such a good movie. Sorry it’s a bit shorter than I anticipated. I feel like I didn’t transcribe the scenes from the movie correctly, so I’m sorry if it’s a bit difficult. I’m not satisfied with it, but I don’t think I can improve it at this point. My apologies! Also, one of the final scenes I’m not sure could be plausible due to schematics and placement of people and stuff, so just pretend, please!
“Reckless!” You snarled at your boyfriend. “Idiot! Do you have a deathwish? I think you have a deathwish!”
“Awww, don’t be like that, Y/n! We took down a dreadnaught! It’s a time to celebrate!” Poe grinned, attempting to wrap you in a hug, but you pushed him off causing him to frown.
“Do you understand how many lives lost to take out that single ship? Do you realize you could have been one of them? Do you realize how inconsolable I would be if something happened to you? Do you realize the First Order can make a new Dreadnaught with a snap of their fingers?” The look on his face indicated that he realized what you were saying and he moved to gently take you in his arms, and this time you let him. “I’m so thankful you are, but sometimes I wonder how you’re still alive.”
“Baby…” His voice trailed off as he pet your hair. “I’m not going anywhere. The Resistance-” That was it, you pushed him off you again.
“You don’t get it, do you? You don’t bloody think!” You huffed, “What about my feelings? Why don’t you ever take them into consideration?! You’re so full of yourself and you don’t think before you act and- Just– UGH! I would die if I lost you!” Your voice louder than normal, tears in your eyes. “I love you, you bloody idiot.” You muttered, turning on your heels. “I have to get back to work.” The heels of your uniform shoes announced each footstep that you took away from him. Each step hurt, but you were beyond furious with his childish need to be a hero. It wasn’t a secret Leia was grooming him to lead the Resistance, but the Resistance would die if he made irresponsible and hot-headed calls like that.
You didn’t hear it, but a soft “I love you, too,” followed you as you walked away.
~~
“Something’s off with you.” Holdo sighed, looking over her shoulder towards you as you both walked down the hallway, you clutching the datapad in your hands to your chest.
“Everything’s fine!” You assured, even forcing a smile. Holdo gave you a knowing, motherly look.
“I know you well enough to know that’s not the case.” She turned her head forward and gave a nod in greeting to a passing commanding officer. “Talk to me. Maybe I can help.”
“No…” You sighed, lowering the pad so that one edge was resting against your abdomen. “I mean, maybe. I doubt it.” You paused, briefly. “It’s Poe.”
“Ahhh…” Holdo sighed knowingly. “Lovers quarrel?”
“Sort of… He’s just… I don’t know… He’s a hot headed flyboy and it really bothers me that he doesn’t consider my feelings when doing things like blowing up the dreadnought… Even Leia told him not to go through with it, and he didn’t listen to her.” You huffed. “I’m giving him the silent treatment until I stop feeling sick from the thoughts of him potentially dying running through my head like a crazed fathier.”
“Are you going to ask the man you love to change who he is?” Holdo’s question wasn’t to be taken at face value. It wasn’t the kind of question that is expected to be answered in the moment. It didn’t matter anyways. The alarms began to sound and you and Admiral Holdo rushed to where you would be the most helpful.
~~
This was hard to digest; almost too hard.
You clenched your teeth together to the point it hurt, but you couldn’t help it. Leia was out for the count for the time being, and the Resistance seemed shattered. Hope was fading fast and you knew that the members of the Resistance would struggle to remain together after Leia going into her comatose-like state.
“Leia was the sole survivor on the bridge.” Your attention had been fading in and out. “’Save your sorrow for after the fight.’ To that end, the chain of command is clear as to who should take her place.” Your gaze shot to your boyfriend who met your gaze. His eyes looked a bit red, as though he had been crying. “Vice Admiral Holdo…” You watched as Poe realized what had just happened. You watched him clench his fist and then turned your attention to Admiral Holdo.
You watched Admiral Holdo during her little speech, tearing up slightly at her comforting and inspiring words. “And may the Force be with us.” As everyone began to leave you approached Vice Admiral Holdo, preparing yourself for what was to come.
You stood by the Vice Admiral as Poe approached, giving you a remorseful look before turning his attention to Holdo. You couldn’t help but listen to the conversation, your gaze playing a game of tennis between them.
“Not commander, right? Wasn’t it Leia’s last official act to demote you? For your dreadnought plan? Where we lost our entire bombing fleet?” The look Poe gave you was one of shock and annoyance. You raised a hand palm up from you navel up to the middle of your chest, indicating for him to take a deep breath, which he did.
“Captain. Commander. You can call me whatever you like. I just want to know what’s going on.” He responded as rationally as you could expect.
“Of course you do. I understand. I’ve dealt with plenty of trigger-happy flyboys like you.” You could see Poe getting more frustrated and annoyed with every word. To him she was spewing insults, and his pride didn’t take kindly to it. “You’re impulsive, dangerous, and the last thing we need right now. So stick to your post and follow my orders.” You watched as Holdo walked off.
“Can you believe her?” Poe scoffed, rubbing the bridge of his nose. You glared and turned, following after Vice Admiral Holdo. “Of course.” You heard him mutter to himself, along with something you couldn’t make out.
“Admiral Holdo.” You muttered, getting her attention. “Maybe we should inform Commander- I mean, Captain Dameron of the plan. He’s impulsive and hot headed and I’m worried about what he’s going to do. He probably thinks you’re about to sell us out to the First Order.”
“You should know better than to think I would do such a thing.” She seemed both hurt and surprised.
“No, I’m not saying you are, I’m suggesting Poe might think that. I don’t.” You assured. “I think maybe he should be informed.”
“The plan is confidential for a reason.” Holdo reminded you. “Only a select few know what’s happening, and we’re going to keep it that way.” You glanced over your shoulder and watched as Poe left the bridge.
~~
“Holdo!” Poe called, obviously angry about something. You turned your attention to him, as did Holdo.
“Flyboy.” She greeted with an annoyed tone.
“Cut it lady.” Poe was more than angry, and you could feel it seething off of him into the room. Tension was thick as the two immovable forces collided. “We had a fleet and now we’re down to one ship and you’ve told us nothing.” He seemed almost desperate. “Tell us that we have a plan. That there’s hope!” His arms moved to emphasis his words.
“When I served under Leia she would say, ‘Hope is like the sun. If you only believe in it when you see it-‘“
“’You’ll never make it through the night.’” This seemed to calm Poe slightly, and he looked at the floor briefly. You could feel that he was a bit ashamed, but unbroken.
“Yes.” Holdo’s voice was gentle and reassuring. You watched as Poe raised his gaze, swallowing as you saw his eyes find the screen where the transports were fueling.
“You’re fueling the transports?” Poe’s question was one asked out of shock, his voice was quiet but his tone showed just how taken aback he was by this discovery. He walked over to the screen to confirm what he was seeing. “You are. All of them?” He asked, turning around and raising his hand as if to show the screen as evidence to hold in Holdo’s face. You looked to the woman you considered a mentor and mother figure. Her face was a combination of disappointment, worry, and sympathy. You turned back to Poe “We’re abandoning ship?! Is that - That’s what you’ve got? That’s what you’ve brought us to?” His frustration peaked.
“COWARD!” He yelled, kicking over a chair and pushing another over. You jumped at the sudden noise. Some security officers attempted to approach him, but Holdo stuck her arm out to stop them. Poe raised a finger and pointed in a vague direction. He looked around at the people on the bridge as he informed them, “Those transports are unarmed, unshielded. We abandon this cruiser we’re done. We don’t stand a chance.” His attention snapped to Holdo, pointing to her accusingly. “No, you’re not just a coward you are a traitor.” He turned to you, moving his finger to you. “And you are, too.”
At that Holdo had reached the maximum she could tolerate. “Get this man off my bridge.” Her tone was dark, a gentle anger that you recognized as not only wrath but something much worse. You watched in shock and hurt as the man you loved, who probably now hated you due to a misunderstanding and lack of communication, was escorted off the bridge. When he was gone Holdo whirled around and faced you, resting a gentle hand on your upper arm.
“Are you alright?” She questioned, giving you a gentle squeeze. “I’m sorry that this is happening.”
“No, but it will be. Don’t apologize. It’s not your fault, Admiral.” You assured, tears welling up in your eyes as it felt like your heart was shattering. “He hates me now, doesn’t he?” Holdo’s eyes held a look of empathetic pity. “I’ve just got to accept that whatever happens next, Poe-“
Holdo held a finger to her lips for a moment. “Don’t talk like that. Things will work out, Y/n. Have faith in him.”
~~
“This is our best chance for excape. You have to give Finn and Rose all the time you can.” Poe explained, Holdo was furious.
“You have bet the survival of the Resistance on bad odds and put us allat risk?!” She turned to you and shook her head, calming down for a moment. “There’s no time now. We have to get clear of the cruiser. Load the transports!” She ordered, walking past Poe.
“Yeah, I was afraid you’d say that.” He turned around, the group with him raising their blasters at you, Vice Admiral Holdo, and everyone else with you. “Vice Admiral Holdo, I am relieving you of your command, for the survival of the ship, it’s crew, and the Resistance.” He looked at you, cold and unfeeling. You stared at him in shock.
“I hope you know what you’re doing.” You heard Vice Admiral Holdo say, understandably furious with the turn of events.
“Yeah. I’m going to the bridge.” He informed everyone. “If they move, stun them.” He bumped into you, but continued walking. You followed him with your gaze as far as you could before turning to your comrades that had turned hostile.
You exchanged a sidelong glance with Holdo, panic running through your veins. Her plan would work, but Poe’s actions were putting the plan in jeopardy. The chaotic situation around you was completely baffling and unexpected. This could all have been prevented if you had been able to explain the situation to him, but you also understood why that wasn’t possible.
It didn’t matter, as all you could do was stand there.
~~
The next time you saw him, Poe was unconscious and was being loaded onto a transport. Your heart hurt more than you could have imagined it ever would, and you ran your fingers through his hair, tears in your eyes. You wished with everything you had that you could rewind today’s events and change what had happened.
“He’ll be alright, and so will you.” Holdo’s voice was soothing, and you turned your head to look at her. Holdo looked down to Poe, and caressed his face. You both watched as Poe was carried onto the ship. She shooed you after him with a wave of her hand. You glanced between Leia and Holdo and then hurried after him onto the transport.
“That one’s a trouble maker. I like him.” Holdo spoke, once you were gone.
“Me, too.” Leia agreed with a nod and a grin. “Now. Time to board your transport.”
“For the transports to escape, somebody has to stay and pilot the cruiser.” Holdo waited as Leia absorbed what she was being told.
“Too many losses.” Leia shook her head. “I can’t take anymore.”
“Sure you can. You taught me how.” Holdo assured, smiling softly. “I do have one thing to ask of you, though.”
“Anything.” Leia responded, curious what it would be.
“Watch over Y/n. She’s an excellent assistant. I highly recommend her if you’re considering one, and if not I suggest you take her on anyways.” Holdo responded with a light smile, though it was one of concern and worry more than happiness.
“You’ve always looked after her.” Leia acknowledged, sighing lightly.
“She needed someone to.” Holdo teased, looking up at the transport, watching you watching Poe. “She’s strong, stronger than they realize.” There was a pause, and Holdo turned her attention to Leia once more. “I never got to tell her, but she’s the closest thing I’ve had to a daughter .” Tears welled up in her eyes, but she refused to cry.
“You love her.” Leia said what was left unsaid by Holdo. “I understand. I’ll watch over her.”
“Thank you.” Holdo responded with a warm smile.
“May the Force-“ The two women started at the same time.
“You say it. I’ve said it enough.” Leia allowed.
“May the Force be with you. Always.” Holdo stood there and watched Leia board the transport before making her way back to the bridge.
~~
“Come sit with me, Y/n.” Leia invited. “He’ll wake up soon, and we need to talk.”
“Yes, General.” You replied, gulping, assuming you were in trouble as you looked at her. You then turned to Poe’s sleeping body and leaned down, kissing him on the forehead and muttering that you love him into his ear. You stood up, making your way over to a bench across the way and sitting down next to Leia.
“Leia.” She corrected. “Call me Leia.”
“Yes, Gener- I mean, Leia.” You looked around. “Where’s Holdo?” You asked. “Is she on another transport or have I simply not seen her?”
“She stayed behind.” Leia informed you. It took a moment for it to sink in. You looked to the cruiser you were fleeing from and sniffled.
“She didn’t say goodbye. She must be planning on taking an escape pod.” You reasoned. “She’ll join us on Crait.” Leia didn’t say anything, but had an empathetic look. The two of you watched as the First Order continued the barrage. There was a long silence before either of you spoke again. “Leia… I think I need to talk to you about something. Normally I would go to Holdo, but she’s…” You didn’t need to finish that sentence.
“It’s about Poe, isn’t it.” Leia smiled lightly, thoughts of Han flashing briefly in her mind. You gave a nod and she sighed gently. “He loves you, you know.” Leia informed you, making a motion towards him. “He’s just too focused on being a hero. I think it’s to impress you.”
“It doesn’t impress me, though. I just end up worried sick about him.” Leia nodded at your words.
“I was the same way every time Han left.” She admitted, looking to the floor with a smile that hinted at pleasant memories. You looked over at Poe and stood up. You walked over and began to run your fingers through his hair and caress his face again. “Poe will learn. I think you’ll help guide him to where he needs to be.”
“Needs to be?” It wasn’t exactly a secret that Poe was being groomed to take over for Leia, but the statement caught you off-guard. Leia didn’t answer.
You jumped when Poe came to, and you took a step back. He glanced around frantically before rushing over to the glass window to see the cruiser repeating the word “no” before his head dropped. You watched with a hand on your chest.
“Poe.” Leia called, motioning her head for him to come look out the window she was sitting next to. As he came towards you, you walked towards him.
And you passed each other without a word.
The world around you grew hazy, and you put a hand on the window as the plan was explained to Poe. You needed Poe, as the realization Holdo wouldn’t be joining you set in. You could feel eyes on you.
A sudden explosion rumbled the transport and you lost your footing, slamming against the glass. You hissed a curse and rubbed your nose, blood showing on your hand. You watched as one by one the transports around you were blown up, and you began to tremble.
Then you noticed the subtle turning of the cruiser. You squinted, leaning closer and putting another hand on the glass. What are you planning..?You wondered. Not knowing was killing you because you always knew the plan.
“She’s running away.” You heard Lieutenant Connix accuse and your hand clenched into a fist.
“No, she’s not.” Poe defended. You hadn’t even realized he was right next to you. Now the cruiser was aimed at the Supremacy.
Everything clicked when the cruiser was aimed straight for the Supremacy.
“No…” You whispered breathlessly, watching as the cruiser began the jump to light speed. “No!” You were louder this time. The ship became invisible and the Supremacy began to crumble. Bits of both ships began to float around as space debris does. “NO!” You shrieked; tears running down your face, collapsing as your legs could no longer hold you up.
You couldn’t even feel Poe’s arms around you holding you up as the two of you watched in horror. As one by one the supremacy and some smaller ships surround it exploded. You sobbed, watching the debris as what was left of the transports continued down to the surface of Crait.
You did your best to pull yourself together. This was not the time to mourn.
~~
You stood with everyone behind the blast door, blaster in your hand as a First Order craft crashed and skidded to a stop. Everyone began to fire and so did you.
“Hold your fire!” Poe ordered, his hand in the air.
“Finn?” You heard Leia ask.
“Finn!” Poe exclaimed and you lowered your weapon. “Rose! You’re not dead! Where’s my droid?!” You couldn’t help but smile as BB-8 rolled to Poe, chirping excitedly. “Buddy! I’m so glad to see you!” You watched as Poe scratched BB-8’s belly and put their foreheads together. You couldn’t help but daydream about how he would be with your children.
~~
Poe had been gone for what felt like forever, so it was no surprise when you and your daughter ran out the door at the sound of his X-wing landing.
“Daddy!” Little Shara called out, you held her back until the X-wing was shut off and Poe was climbing out of the cockpit.
“Baby girl!” He called as he picked her up in his arms and spun around. “I missed you so much, Pumpkin.” He kissed her forehead. “Have you been good?”
“She’s been lovely.” You informed. The smile he gave you was one of love and longing. He set your daughter up and pulled into his arms, kissing you with a gentle passion as his arms wrapped around you. When the kiss broke he rested his forehead in the crook of your neck.
“I’ve missed you so much.” He muttered into your ear, giving it a kiss.
~~
Reality snapped back into place as everyone scrambled to prepare for the upcoming battle. You participated in any way that you could, and that was focused mostly on setting up the command center. You didn’t really pay any attention to anything else except your duty.
Once that was done you discovered people scrambling around and preparing for battle. Poe was gone. You focused on assisting wherever you could as Poe and his ragtag team of pilots did what they could to take out the cannon.
“We’re taking heavy casualties.” One man informed. You were worried sick - begging for whatever force was out there to let Poe come back to you - and falling apart but you kept yourself together.
It’s what Amilyn would have expected from you.
~~
Your begging had paid off, Poe entered the command center safe and sound. The two of you shared a look, but neither of you said anything to each other. You went back to work and he went to do his duty. That was the last you saw him until the evacuation.
“What are you looking at me for? Follow him.” Leia said, and you did just that, making eye contact with him again. You followed him to the blocked exit and grunted. The rocks parted and what was left of the Resistance exited from the cave. Thanks to a girl you didn’t know you were able to board the Millennium Falcon and escape to safety.
You sat down on a bench near a table and felt yourself begin to sob as everything came to you in one burst. Holdo was gone. Poe hated you. The Resistance was all but destroyed. There was nowhere left to go.
And you couldn’t do a single thing about it.
~~
“Leia.” Her gaze looked up to the man who had just said her name.
“Poe.” Leia greeted with a smile and patting the seat next to her for him to sit down. Poe sat down next to Leia, sighing.
“Leia, I messed up a lot.” He admitted, cradling his head in his hands.
“Are we talking about one instance in particular?” She teased.
“In general.” He thought a bit. “And with Y/n.”
“Yes, you have; on both counts.” She nodded.
“Leia.” His tone was serious. “I’m scared I’ve completely lost any chance with her.”
“What makes you think that?” Leia asked, genuinely curious as to why he would think it.
“She must blame for what happened with Holdo… And I was so cold to her during everything.”
“I don’t think that matters right now. Look at her.” Leia raised her chin in your direction. “She hasn’t stopped crying since we left the atmosphere. She needs you.”
“Leia, I-“
“Poe Dameron.” Leia scolded. “Go and apologize if you feel so bad. Whatever you do, don’t just leave her there to fall apart on her own.” He looked to you, but you were curled up with your knees to your chest and your face in your knees so you didn’t see. “Go.” She nudged him gently. It took him a moment to stand up and go to you. He didn’t say anything, simply sat next to you.
“Y/n?” Poe asked softly. “Are we talking again, yet?” He gave a gentle smile, putting an arm around you. You couldn’t stop sobbing but the corners of your lips curled upwards and you leaned against him, letting him wipe your face dry. “I’m sorry for everything.” He was treating you like a fragile doll and, simultaneously, you both loved and hated it. He did nothing but hold you until you had finished falling apart.
“She’s dead, Poe.” You muttered. You felt Poe cringe.
“I’m sure you blame me and-“ but you cut him off.
“What? No! Why would I blame you?” You leaned back and made eye contact with him. His eyes were watery and slightly red. You looked much worse. “She was going to… Anyway. Someone had to stay and pilot the cruiser. I’m not sure anyone else would have thought as quick as she had, nor done what she did…” Your voice trailed off and you felt your throat clench. “Poe, she was the closest thing I’ve ever had to a mother… And now she’s gone.”
“I understand, Y/n. I lost my mom when I was young. I can’t remember much about her anymore, but I know what you’re feeling.” His hand ran up and down your back. “Just let it out, Y/n. You’ll feel better.” He paused. “It’ll always hurt, but it’ll get easier.” He kissed the top of your head.
“I thought I lost you today.” You confessed, tears flowing again. “I thought – with the mutiny – that any affection you had for me was gone.”
“Never.” He assured. “Y/n. Come hell or high water, I will alwayslove you.” Your eyes met and his expression was serious. “You will never lose me. I’m not going anywhere.”
Request: Anonymous asked: I know he isn't one of your usual, but could you write a Poe were the reader is Rey's little sister who is very very ill, deadly, but she somehow gets to the Rebel base with Finn and her sister and meets Poe and it's one of those cheesy love at first sight things. Maybe he helps her recover and keeps her light though she can feel her force going to the dark? And her force of the mind (like mind control and anything related to that is very strong) Thx
Pairing: Poe x Reader
“You were destined for another”
You could feel everything swirling around you, there was a deep echo on the deep of your soul calling your name, yet the pain didn’t subside. “Y/N! Y/N!” you could hear your sister, Rey; calling but the pain only intensified. You put your hands over your ears trying to mute the incessant voice in your head, but it was futile everything hurt. Even to the point that breathing was the least of your concerns. “You’re not for him”
The man with the dark attire and mask put his hand down and you hit the floor. “Leave her alone!”
The last thing you saw after you blackout was the man above you, looking down at you.
You opened your eyes as your body was lifted from the comfort of a makeshift bed. The Wookie was carrying you out of the Millennium Falcon. You hissed as the rays of your sun touched your skin. The talking around you was muffled by the pulsing sounds on your ears. Something cold touched your forehead. It was a woman’s hand, you weakly glanced at the woman that kindly smiled at you.
You were passed to the arms of a man, suddenly like magic; all the noise started to make sense. “Take her to the medical bay, Commander”
You glanced up at the Commander, he was looking down at you. There were several lacerations of his face. He smiled at you and the black spots appeared on your vision and then everything turned dark.
The beeping of the machines woke you up from your deep slumber. Your eyes fluttered opened and looked around the white lighted room. There were several old machines around you, the medical nurse droid beside you whirled around and glanced at you. “You’re awake”
“Shouldn’t I be?”
The pain had subsided, for the time being, there were only intervals were the pain was gone. But it came back stronger. “I apologize, but the sedative should have last an hour more” the electronic voice responded, you only nodded softly. Making sudden movements with your head made you dizzy. “I am going to get the doctor”
You only smiled and softly sat with your back against the metallic rest. “You are mine”
A nauseous sensation reached your stomach and you threw up. It was acidic burning your mouth and leaving a revolting sensation on your tongue. You had never had heard that voice in your life, by it was torturing you so much. It had started after that man with the mask had raised his hand.
“It’s strange, your nerve connections seemed fine. But the pain receptors said otherwise.” The medical droid said looking down the datapad.
“Well my head is not killing me anymore,” You said looking at the droid. “Maybe─”
“Oh! You’re awake”
You glanced at the door and saw the man that had carried you to the medical bay. “Commander Dameron,” the droid said turning its head and looking at Poe.
“Sorry, the General send me to check on her” the droid nodded and advanced to the entrance of the room.
“Everything looks fine on the scans other than that, I will say she is fine” the droid announced. “But we will keep here for observations for a few days more” the droid concluded
“Do you want something else?” You glance at Poe and shook your head cleaning the bread crumbs from your mouth. “You know I shouldn’t be eating this” you confessed guiltily looking down at the different arrange of fruit in front of you. “I don’t want to get you in trou─”
“It’s fine. I know how it is, to be on that side of the bed. Not comfortable at all. Besides, you need to get healthy I am showing you something” Poe said with a large smile on his face. You rolled your eyes shaking your head. “Come on, it’s not that bad”
You have been talking for the last few days with Poe. If it wasn’t for him, you’ll be bored out of your mind. Just nodding and listening to him about the Resistance was interesting, even though half of the time you have no idea who or what he was talking about. It was just something peaceful about the sound of your voice, it was soothing in a way.
“Base to Y/N”
You frowned as Poe shook his hand in front of you. “I am that boring?” Poe asked, shaking his head. You rolled your eyes and smiled at Poe. “Or I am that handsome you have to stare at me?” he winked at you and you blushed at the sudden action. “All you have to do is get on my X-Wing and I’ll go out with you” he added with a mischievous smile.
“I am not going to get near a ship ever, over my dead body”
You woke up panting, it was a strange dream. A man with curly black hair had appeared all of the sudden with tears in his eyes. You held your head as that hammering sensation invaded your head again. You stood up from the bed, everything was swirling around trying to get to the bathroom; that nauseous sensation had settled on your stomach.
“Y/N!”
Poe quickly puts a hand on your cheek as you winced as the pain intensified on your forehead. “Y/N, what’s going on? You’re so pale” his voice was full of concern. You bite your lip as something dark invaded your mind, it was strong. “Hey, look at me. Everything is fine, you’re safe here”
You nodded weakly as the pain started to fade. “Thank you” you lick your lips, your throat felt dry and raspy.
“What was that about?” Poe ask
“I don’t know”
You shake your head crossing your arms across your chest. “I am not going to get into that, besides it’s for a person only. I am not going to sit where there is no seat, Poe” You said looking at Poe. He just smiled and looked at you. “What? I am not going to sit on your knees, you pervert”
“I hate you so much,” You said crossing your arms across your chest as Poe passed his hands around your waist to touch the console in front of you.
“The love is mutual, Y/N”
The hairs of your back stood up as his breath fanned the back of your neck. “Shut up” there was a scarlet tint on your cheeks, you were not going to turn around and give Poe the satisfaction you were enjoying this. No way. “Just get this over with”
You felt his hand on yours. “Wha─ what a─ are you doing?” the first syllables came like stutter but you quickly got your composure back as you cleared your throat and tried to think of anything else but the fact that you sat on Poe’s lap and moving was not an option.
“I said I was going to show you how to fly, now the first thing─” you closed your eyes tightly. “You need to open your eyes” his breath was closer to you ear making you shuddered.
There was it again…
That strange sensation to go… away… “Y/N?”
You glanced up to look at Rey. “Hmmm?”
“Thinking about me?” Poe’s arm landed on your shoulder and you were shoved against his side. He looked down at you, you rolled your eyes.
Request: Anonymous asked: Any chance you could write an imagine were the reader is Kylo's twin sister, often traveling with her dad or boyfriend Poe, but she gets kidnapped along with Poe and Kylo knows that she has the force and has been trying to get her to use it for the darkness (because they need her, but also and more importantly because he wants to be with his sis again) and Poe saves a very beaten (mentally and physically) girl and comforts her? Thank u!!!!
Pairing: Poe x Reader
Y/N was shoved into the ground besides Poe, “Hey! Watch it!” she said to the Stormtrooper. Poe glanced at her with a frown. “Somebody had to save you” she said with a big smile on her face. Y/N felt a familiar force and she turned around. A lone figure clothed in black stood in front of them, slowly she glanced up and was met with a black and white mask. “Ben” she whispered soft enough for her to hear but loud enough for the others to hear. The figure turn to look at her. “What a great welcome! You’re the host?”
Kylo simply stood there not saying anything, Poe turned to look at Y/N making faces trying to catch her attention. “Y/N” At the mention of her name, Y/N turned to look at Poe.
“Y/N”
Y/N felt a cold sensation running down her spine, “You got a problem with me? Well get in line buddy” she huffed glaring at the man. How dare him not to acknowledge her. Kylo kneeled in front of Y/N and contemplated her. “What are you doing?” she asked gulping visibly, it was weird to be gaze upon by a man with a mask. Not knowing what he was thinking or even read his face. “Could you back up a little? There’s a thing called personal space”
“You are the same”
Y/N tilted her head and said nothing, Kylo raised his hand and touched her forehead. “Is that supposed to do so─” Instantly everything turned black and Y/N felt on her side.
“You bastard! What did you do? Y/N! Y/N!”
Y/N groaned as something cold touched her forehead. “Leave” a man’s voice said, she rolled to her side and opened her eyes. She set her hand on face, the lights were blinding her.
“Nice costume” Y/N said standing up from the bed rubbing her forehead. She glanced up and saw Kylo without his mask blankly staring at her. “Should I get one too? Mine would be─”
“Why are you with him?”
“Him? You mean Poe, the best pilot on the Resistance?” Y/N said proudly sticking her chin out proudly looking at Kylo. “He excels at other things that you don’t want to know about, brother” she added with a smirk and closed her mouth as Kylo glared at her. “Come on, you’re doing I am your jealous brother act? You left me, years ago; you’re not entitled to behave like my brother” she added bitterly looking at him. There was a flash of hurt reflected in his eyes but quickly was replaced with a more menacing glance. “Now tell me where the exit is, I need to inform my mom that you’re doing great. Nice reunion, now if you─”
“Could you be silent for a moment?Me” Kylo said standing in front of her. Y/N recoiled and glared up at Kylo. He was taller than she had expected him to be. He growled as the door opened and a smiling General Hux entered the small room.
“I see, you had gathered nothing” General Hux implied looking Y/N. There were not visible signs of torture on her. “You can go to talk to the other prisoner. I talk to her” he nodded looking back, a floating sphere entered the small room. Y/N flinched seeing the different size needles sticking out of its black surface area.
“She is my prisioner─”
“Leader Snoke, said otherwise”
Y/N’s eyes rolled back as the warm liquid ran through the veins on her arm spreading a wildfire throughout all her body. “Where is the droid?” General Hux said calmly standing in front of her with his arms behind his back.
“Bite me”
Her head whipped violently to the left, she laughed as a metallic tasted filled her taste buds. “What’s next? Your super truth serum?” Y/N spit the blood out of her mouth. She took a deep breath, there was something beginning to grow on the deep of her soul. Something dark menacing to come out. Y/N closed her eyes and started to count Ewoks, she couldn’t let that darkness spread throughout her.
Y/N opened her eyes, her eyes felt heavy. “You’re fighting it, I can feel it” Kylo said and she rolled her eyes. “You need to join me sister, let us use the force to done what our grandfather started” he said standing up from the black chair set in front of her.I and you would control the entire the galaxy” he said with a strange glint in his eyes. Kylo glanced at her and touched her cheek. “You need to join me, sister”
She bit her lip, there was no way he was going to join him. He had promised their uncle Luke. Not to ever use the Force in vain. “You’re trying to find him too?” Y/N glanced up and saw Kylo shaking his head. “He is a coward than went to hiding and you still trust that man? He left you Y/N─”
“You left me too!” Y/N shouted angrily and like that a strange force started to evade her senses, “You left me alone! I have no idea how to control it! I almost killed people because of this! YOU WERE MY BROTHER BEN!” all the things started to fluctuate around the room as her face started to get red. “You promised me that we would be together forever”
“You need to hate me, we can join forces and be guardians of the entire universe. Just like grandfather wanted” Kylo said standing closely to her. “Feel it, the infinite power that comes from the Dark Side”
“SHUT UP!”
Kylo groaned as his whole body hit the black wall behind him. “YOU DON’T TELL ME WHAT TO DO!” her head started to hurt as that invasive Dark Force evaded her body, her soul and her mind. Her mind shouted to kill him. Y/N tugged her hands and the chains fell down the floor, Ben looked at her surprised.
“LET ME GO!” Y/N growled as an invisible force took her against the wall. “You bastard! Let go!” she started to fight it, but Ben was far too strong for her. Her hands flew to her neck and started to have difficulty breathing.
“Join me sister! And rule the galaxy with me” Kylo said, his gloved hand was on the air as Y/N tried to breathe. But the choke on her throat was making it difficult. Black spots started to feel her vision.
“No”
“Y/N! Y/N!”
“She is dead, we need to go!”
“She is not dead, Y/N! Come on baby! We need to go!”
Y/N groaned and looked at Poe. “Five more minutes!”
Poe smiled and hugged her tightly against her chest, Y/N flinched as her fractured cheek touched his chest. “Come on! Love for later, we need to move before they noticed that I lied to the guardians”
“I broke my foot” Y/N declared as Poe stood up and the Stormtrooper walked to the entrance.
“Those─”
“Later, we need to leave”
Poe carried Y/N carefully through the maze of corridors of the Destroyer. “Kylo, knows” Y/N whispered to Poe. He stopped and looked at the Stormtrooper. “He is coming”
“Hey, Y/N. Look at me, he is not coming to get you. You’re going to be fine. I am going to take you out of here” Poe said looking down at Y/N. As they walked faster through the dark corridors. “I promise your mother that I always will take care of you. Even if I had to protect you from your brother. Do you understand?”
Y/N nodded weakly she started to feel everything, the adrenaline had worn off. “I love you, Poe”
“I love you more, Y/N” Poe smiled down at her, Y/N closed her eyes with a smile drawn on her face, sure that when she woke up, she’ll be in a better place away from Ben and his extreme ideals.
Request: Anonymous asked: Okay so I may have loved A Message too much so I'm going to bug you with a request for part 02 if that's okay? So maybe it takes place post the events of TFA and the reader is really suffering after her fathers death and kinda starts to mirror her grandfather (the nightmares/visions, the pull to the dark) and so she starts distancing herself from everyone, including her uncle who can feel her troubles and she runs away and Poe goes after her? Hope this okay and makes sense? Thanks!
Pairing: Poe x Reader
“Kill him! He killed your father! Avenged him like he deserves to”
Y/N stood up from the bed covered in sweat, her heart was thumping hard against her ribcage. She put a hand over her chest feeling the erratic beating of her heart. Even her breath was uneven, it was like running across the entire planet two times. “Are you alright?” Poe rubbed his eyes as he look at her. She sat on the edge of the bed looking at the floor. He frowned seeing that some of her hair stick to the back of her neck and there was a strange stain on the back of her shirt. “Y/N─”
“I am fine”
Y/N stood from the bed and walked to the bathroom. “I am fine, how many times do I have to tell you. I am peachy. Dandy. Fabulous” with that she closed the door violently behind her. Why the stupid question? Of course, she was not fine, her brother had killed their father; she was there for the love of the galaxy. She opened the faucet and let the water run. Y/N glanced at her reflection in the mirror and grimaced, her completion was pale and dark bags adorned her eyes. She gripped the sink and growled, where did that voice come from? And why it was so eager to piss her off? Y/N glanced up and back up into the door, she groaned as the metal door violently shook with her weight.
“Y/N, what are you doing there?” Poe shouted Y/N glanced again at her reflection. The yellow eyes were gone. She raised her hands, they were trembling and cold sweat ran down her neck. “Open the door please” he begged with a soft voice tapping the door softly. “You need to talk about this, you can’t go on like this”
“Leave me alone, Poe. There is nothing to talk about”
Y/N saw Finn and Poe talking, she took a sharp turned and walked the other way. Unnoticed to her, Luke had observed the scene and a pronounced frown appeared on his face. “There something dark growing inside her” He glanced at Rey and solemnly nodded pursuing his lips.
Y/N rubbed her forehead, a headache was killing her. She couldn’t stand the light, a small noise, nothing. “Your uncle is looking for you” Poe announced, she made no movement or acknowledgment. “Why are you secluding yourself from us?” he inquired, she felt a dipped on the side of his bed. His arm touched her shoulder. Y/N said nothing starring to the metal wall across from her. The voice, the nightmares were making her angrier and angrier. She wanted to go and find Ben and killed him herself. Deep down she knew it was very wrong. But the lack of sleeping was obscuring her judgment.
“I need some time to be alone” Y/N declared not even looking at Poe. “You wouldn’t understand” she added before Poe could stop her from leaving. Yes, she had been away from his these days. She had distanced herself from them, the dark thoughts ran through her mind all time. Y/N didn’t want to hurt them or even tell them things she’ll have no control on. The voice started to control her emotions as well as her actions.
“Y/N, you need to let go of your father, my love,” Poe said rubbing her shoulder softly. He lay beside her and hugged her from behind. “I know it’s hard, I don’t know how you feel because that never happened to me. But you need to continue on. Your father wouldn’t want this for you” he whispered softly rubbing her arms, Poe kissed the back of her head. “I am always here for you, Y/N. I love you more than you can imagine and it hurts me seeing you like this. I miss you”
She looked down at the lightsaber that Rey had given her. “You can’t let it control you” Y/N almost dropped the lightsaber into the big mass of water in front of her. “He is calling you, isn’t he?” she nodded looking down at the sand. “You can’t go on in the same path as your brother,” Luke said sitting beside her in the log.
Y/N glanced at him and return her gaze back to the calming waves in front of her. “I can’t get it out of my head, I don’t know what is right or what is wrong” she bit her lip clenching the lightsaber in her grasp. “He is putting things in my head and this dark thought, I can control them. It’s like a damn of water breaking and I can’t stop the water” she violently cleaned the tears from her eyes. “Make it stop, uncle” her eyes were red and the black under of her eyes were more noticeable.
“I am afraid I can’t. You’re the only one that can block him”
Poe rolled to his side with his arm extended, his eyes immediately opened as soon as he felt the cold sheets below his fingers. He stood up and saw a white envelope on the undisturbed side of Y/N’s side. Not five seconds pass and he got out of the bed, tearing the white sheets into pieces. Poe cursed under his breath, he couldn’t find his other shoe. He had arrived too tired to even care where he had thrown everything.
Y/N arrived at the small moon of Yavin 1. It was a cold morning, she rubbed her eyes trying to gather some heat. Maybe taking a break away from the Resistance will clear her mind. Not the smartest move to steal an X-Wing and landed on a deserted moon. At least his voice had abandoned her mind for a moment. She took a shaky breath and smile seeing the small creatures running freely in front of her.
“Your mother is very mad”
Y/N turned around and saw Poe with BB-8 trailing behind him. “What are you doing here?”
“I was about to ask you the same question” Y/N huffed and return her gaze to the small creatures that pasture in front of her.
“Like I said, I need some time alone. In peace, alone with my thoughts” She answered looking at him.
“Y/N, you can’t go around the universe alone. Ren is looking for you. He’ll never stop until he had you. And I will never forgive myself if something happens to you” Poe said taking her against his chest. “You scare me to death when I didn’t found you in the base. I thought I had lost you forever. It’s the worst feeling I had experience in my life”
Y/N could hear Poe’s heartbeat, it was calming her. The dark thoughts were going away as time passed. “I am sorry” she whispered against his chest. “I was terrified, I don’t know what to do, anymore; Poe. Snoke is calling me, feeling my mind with such terrible thoughts. I just couldn’t take it anymore”
Poe took a step back and held her face with his hands. “Hey, look at me” Y/N looked up. “As long I am alive, I will protect you from them. You need to talk to me, alright? I am here, even if it’s the silliest thing, the scariest thing or darkest thought out there. I love you completely, in the dark or the light. You’re the love of my life”
Y/N smiled and Poe bent down to kiss her trembling lips. “I am here for you”
Request: Anonymous asked: Can I request reader telling Poe they are asexual
Pairing: Poe x Reader
Y/N looked at Poe, he was gazing at the five different moons shining in the black sky above them. She sighed for was the thousandth time, this time Poe looked down at her. “Is there something bothering you?” Poe asked Y/N, she shook her head in response. There was really something bothering her, she only sighed when she was in very deep thought. “Y/N, come on tell me. I am here for you, remember that”
The silence stretch between them, the night was silent. No chirping of the animals. If someone were to spy on them, they could clearly hear it as they moved through the dense grass behind them… but there was none of that… they were here alone with the night as the witness and the small immobile lake.
Y/N looked up from the small crashing waves in front of her. “It’s nothing, Poe” she forced a smile. “I was just thinking stupid things, nothing major” she shrugged her shoulder and cuddle against Poe’s side. The wind started to pick up and the waves were now audible against the bank of sand.
Poe bit his tongue, maybe forcing it was not going to work. “What stupid things?” He questioned taking one of her hands, Y/N gazed up at him. She blushed as soon as Poe lays eyes on her, his eyes said too much to her. “That embarrassing?” he asked teasingly, Y/N blushed increased and her cheeks now matched one of the red moons above them.
“No”
“No? You’re a redder than the moon, come on. I am not going to laugh at you. Promise” Y/N look at Poe, he had his hand above his heart with a sincere smile on his face. “Y/N, wherever it is. Is taking a toll on you. You are distracted, you have been daydreaming too much. Just tell me, what’s bothering you?”
Y/N looked down at their intertwine hands, she needs it to tell him. But how would Poe take it? She didn’t know, Y/N had been thinking it for days on how she was going to drop the news to Poe, today it was her chance… maybe there was a small possibility and she shook her head and tried to find the courage to tell Poe what had been bothering her days.
“Well, normal couples you know…” Y/N clear her throat, how was she going to do this. She looked up and saw Poe intently looking at her. “You know well, they… hm… kiss and then” she blushed even harder thinking of the word. Yes, she had heard it; she wasn’t embarrassed by the act… but… of the lack of interest on it. “Get it to the next level─”
“They have sex”
Y/N only nodded and took Poe’s other hand. “That was bothering you” Y/N nodded and sighed. She started to rub his hands and looked at him. “Are you a virgin?” She responded with a smiling nod. She looked down at their intertwined hands and sighed. “I don’t see the problem with that Y/N, I mean it’s normal that you at this age-“
“I am not interested in sex”
The only sound was the crashing waves against it other and the sand.
“I am asexual”
“Oh”
Y/N look at Poe, he seemed pensive looking up at the horizon in front of him. “I am sorry”
Y/N stood up and quickly took off running tears came streaming down her face, she had hoped for Poe to shout at her and wait for him. But she never did hear his voice as she ran away from him.
Y/N stood in the middle of the hangar with her helmet below her arm. She hadn’t seen Poe for a week, Y/N had hope, pray for him to come and say something to her. But he hadn’t even bothered to show his face in front of her.
“Have you seen Poe?”
Jessika Pavel stood in front of her rubbing her neck looking at her with an embarrassed smile. “No”
“No, I had been looking at her for him for days. Well thank you”
Y/N bit her lip and just nodded, Jessika smiled at her and walked away. “Well, that was weird, hn?” Jerik, the captain of the Silver Squad said to her. Y/N shrugged her shoulder. “You should know where he is? You’re two are like dirt and nail”
“Not anymore,, ” Y/N said with a small voice. Jerik raised an eyebrow. “I haven’t seen him in a week”
“Oh, I am so─”
“A word, Y/N” Y/N step aside as she heard Poe’s voice. “Jerik, alone if you may”
Y/N rolled her eyes, she never had to find Poe’s excuse to be so mean to Jerik, her captain. He had complained about his ‘friendly, wondering’ hands. “Of course” Jerik force a smile and walked away.
“Here to make it official,, ” Y/N said turning around to face Poe. She frowned as soon as her eyes landed on Poe. He was a mess, his curls seemed to be blown by strong wings, black bags adorned his eyes, his lips seemed chapped and his eyes lack light and his skin look transparent like his skin had never met the sun. “We have a mission, if you─”
“I am sorry”
Y/N’s mouth was agape as tears started to cascade down his pale cheeks. “I am sorry, I was an utter and complete─”
“Poe, it’s okay I understand if you want to break up. If you─”
“No, wait… no… Y/N, I love you. I don’t care if you don’t like to… you know─ that” Y/N laughed as Poe started to behave like a child trying to explain to his parents that he had broken something very important. “Y/N, the point is that I love you, I will support every decision you made”
“Thank you”
Poe nodded and passed his hand through his hair. “Where were you for a week, Poe by the way?”
Poe blushed and took from his back pocket. “A speech, too bad I forgot to take it out of my pocket”
