“You’re taking it so well, breathe with me babygirl. Sh sh sh, breathe with me.” John grunted, though his voice was as smooth and soft as ever.
Your moans were muffled as his weight pressed you down against his desk, your lips kisses the sweet wood. His cock was being suffocated by your warm, wet, aching walls; he thrust into over and over again, almost losing himself in the process. “So good for me, so fucking tight.” He said before leaning down, pressing kisses against your neck.
His dominant hand trailed down your body, finding your perfect little clit between your thighs and he began to rub painstakingly slow circles against it. He was such a tease.
Drool started to drip from your lips, forming a puddle by your cheek. Each time his tip rubbed against that deliciously sweet spot in you, a little more saliva leaked from your mouth. You couldn’t help the fact that your mouth was open, forming an O shape. He just felt so good in you that you barely had any control over yourself, you were surprised you weren’t being louder.
John was close, he could feel it. He knew you were too by the way your pussy was spasming against his dick. His fingers started to move faster against your clit and he groaned before leaning forward, his chest pressed up against your back, making sure he could get as deep as he could.
“You deserve this princess, been working so hard. Running around all day for me. Cum for me baby, don’t think, just cum.” His honeyed voice drawled. You whined and tried to nod. You let go of yourself completely, let him take the reigns, willingly giving him your trust. Your cunt clenched around him, sucking him in and making him moan your name directly in your ear. His fingers working fast again you, driving you closer to the edge.
Before you knew it, that warm tingling sensation in your stomach turned into a flood and you soaked his cock with your squirt. You let out a high pitched mewl with it, panting against the desk. It was the hardest you’ve came in a long time.
John was fucking you through it, giving you all the praise in the world. It was just a matter of seconds before you felt a new warmth bloom in you. John had gifted you with the sexiest sound you’ve ever heard following it, while blessing your neck with hickeys that would likely stay there for the rest of the week.
“You did so good, made such a perfect mess on me…” john chuckled. But there was nothing funny about the way his eyes rolled back when you rocked your hips against his now sensitive cock. You weren’t done yet.
“John… John please…” You whimpered as you fucked yourself back onto his cock.
This was going to be a long shift.
.
.
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After three more rounds of the very best sex you had ever experienced, John cleaned you up as best as he could before giving you PTO for the rest of the day. Telling you that after that marathon, you deserved a break.
He helped you get ready to leave and wobble to your car, before you could turn your car on he began to speak.
“I want to see more of you, love. How about this weekend, I’ll take you to a nice bar and we can talk for a bit?” He asked, and there was no chance in hell that you would pass up that offer.
“I’d love that John,” you smiled, “See you tomorrow, ill bring your coffee.”
spicy kitty goes to the vet, (also i've never had a cat before so im basing it on my bestfriends cat aka my two time winning heavy weight champion)
y'know how some dogs have a thumb on the pack of their paw, yea every shifter with paws has that it's how you can tell them apart from actual animals
some world building shifters are tricky in the legal system as some live in human society fine but alot of them live feral making the legal system confusing, like if a shifter kid is living feral without parents the human cops can't do anything unless the parents ask for the kids back, so a shifter kid cannot be taken in by child services unless the parents say so
this is humiliating, now there have been people who have tried to domesticate you before but they either didn't have any other cats or they did but that cat would just stay away from you until you inevitably ran away but that is not the case right now as Simon is currently licking your head and purring away his giant paws blocking your escape your actually glad he's blocking your escape as even if his paws weren't there your not sure you'd leave, it's so cold and he's regrettably warm
"so what exactlys happening right now?" Johnny asks watching the two cat's from up on the couch cuddling into Price
"not sure" Price replies
"is it like, his kid now or his pet?" Kyle asks watching Simon plant his paw on the kittens head and flip it onto it's side so he can lick in a new spot to properly clean the kitten who just sticks its paws against Simons face but otherwise makes no move to escape
"i don't know how cats work" Price responds and begins to stand up which makes Johnny grunt displeased by being moved, Price walks over to the cat bed looking down at the two, Simon stops licking the kitten to look up at him and the kitten rolls back onto it's stomach "it's late we're going to bed are you coming with us or sleeping here"
since leaving the military Simon has become alot better being physical but even so every here and there Simon will slink away in the night to curl up in his cat bed or on better night at the foot of the bed, Simon takes a moment to consider now with any normal kitten he'd never even consider putting her in bed with humans but he can smell the human scent deep in your fur, he knows your a shifter and if the boys roll over onto you can just shift and run away
so he bites the nape of your neck scruffing you and lifting you up padding up the stairs he looks back down at Price to see if he's following and see's all of them are, good, his stupid cat brain is taking over and will not take kindly to sleeping without his mates Price huffs an amused lough and picks Simon and the kitten up carrying them up to bed
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when you wake up your warm very warm you look around your on a bed and that Simon cat is curled around you, you sit up stretching and hop off the bed it's about time you get out of here, luckily the door is open so you head out now the stairs are another issue you have to hop down each individual one but no matter how time consuming you get down now to locate the door, they have a cat hopefully they have a cat door
you take your time sniffing every door you find to see if one will lead outside you walk past the couch and duck behind the armchair spotting one of them on the couch it's the dark skinned one with the pretty face, he spots you but doesn't approach instead he gets up and leaves heading to the kitchen you follow him curious but still duck under the kitchen stool to avoid him
you watch as he steps into what you assume is a pantry walking out with a little packet that he pours into a black pet bowl that has little bones on it he crouches down infront of you and sits the bowl down, you watch him cautiously but take a few bites of the cat food, not the best you'd kill for a cheese burger but your used to the taste of it, you feel two light fingers on your head and freeze up as you feel the man petting your head after a while you continue eating as you have the feeling he's not going to hurt you
he stands up and walks away when your half way thru the food, you watch him over the rim of your bowl as he walks around the house he grabs some kind of weird purse and you watch him put his wallet in his pants as you finish your food he walks over taking the empty bowl to wash it in the sink, you watch him as he does not running away as he has given you food thus he has to be nice but NO BATRAYEL he picks you up and you yowl as he shushes you trying to calm you down sitting you in the weird purse it's actually a fucking pet carrier he keeps shushing you as he walks out the door
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that fucker you've been in this carrier for a few hours now why does he walk? you saw a car in their drive way, whatever you hope he trips
your in a sterile white room right now waiting to see why your here when the carrier is opened and you see a women who pulls you out taking a look at you, my god he took you to a vet, she looks you over but begins focusing on your paws "oh well what was your name again sir?"
"oh uh Kyle, Kyle Garrick" he looks up from his phone
"well Mr. Garrick i am not well versed in shifters but your little lady here seems healthy"
"im sorry what" Kyle startles at hearing your a shifter
the vet loughs "yea, i assume she's a feral one, now the legal system is tricky with shifters, you can't give her to child services so either put her on the street or your a dad now" the nurse says putting you back in the carrier Kyle is left reeling thinking over his options "now she can shift back into her human form anytime but i recommend getting her clothes first"
Kyle is speechless muttering out a small thank you and picking you up he walks back out to the street your both quiet, he walks into a retail store which you didn't even know you could take pets in here but he does anyway and looks thru racks of closed before seeming to remember he doesn't know what size you are and opens the carrier lifting you out and holding you close to the racks you stick out your paw hitting the one with your size on it, he picks it out and walks to the cashier buying the dress he walks into a public rest room sitting the dress down and putting you ontop of it he walks out letting you shift into your human form you rip the tag off and slip the dress on opening the door Kyle holds his hand out to you
"Kyle, nice to meet you"
you take his hand shaking it "Y/N nice to meet you"
it's awkward and you both sit on a bench for a while until Kyle nods his head towards the street "you hungry?"
you groan "i could kill for a cheese burger right now" that makes him crack up and stand helping you up he takes your hand and guides you down the street until you guys spot a McDonalds,
you walk over to one of those big self order kiosks he taps family meal and seems to be ordering for all the other guys you saw he looks at you "cheese burger?"
you humm thinking about it "sure thanks"
he tilts his head scrolling thru the burgers he goes to tap on the cheese burger but pauses to look at you "what about a big mac?" he smiles looking down at you
you can feel your stomach grumble at the thought you don't want to be big eyed but a big mac sounds so fucking good, a sloppy ass big burger with pickles sounds like an actual siren song right now "i feel like my eyes are bigger then my stomach if i say yes"
he loughs but clicks the big mac anyway "consider it a 'i'm sorry for feeding you cat food' i know Simon doesn't mind it but i don't know about you"
"well of course Simon like's cat food he's a cat"
"oh shit i kinda assumed shifters could sense each other" he seems gennuinly surprised finishing up the order he walks you over to a table to wait
"wait what the fuck Simon is a shifter aswell?" Kyle loughs nodding you kind of like this, Kyle is easy to talk to plus he bought you a dress and food, you fall into silence but it's not a tense silence it's easy as you collect the bag of food and you grab the tray of drinks walking down the street together you get to the front door when Kyle pauses looking down at you "how the fuck do i explain your a person"
sorry guys got hungry halfway thru this and would kill for a really shitty mcdonalds cheese burger or a hungry jacks cheese burger not too fond of hungry jacks but they make a good cheese burger
I'm thinking of writing a fanfic about the past of the character I always use, maybe I could call her an OC. But let me know if you'd be interested in reading it.
Macmillan obviously has his history with Price (whether that was a relationship or a weird situationship where neither quite knew where they stand... well, you can decide) and that colors everything in this particular dynamic.
Macmillan is possessive over Price, feels like the captain is his creation, but seeing Price commanding the attention and affection of his boys is also exciting for him. Seeing the continuation of his work and influence, in a sense. That his perfect living weapon turned out to have kept his soft heart underneath all that cold professionalism is adorable - the same man who followed him like a loyal dog now commanding his men with the same affection, leash tight but hands gentle.
Gaz, Ghost and Soap don't quite know what to think of Macmillan. The man comes strolling in and swipes Price off his feet, their fearless captain turned to putty in this stranger's hands. Gaz tries to ignore his jealousy, knowing he has his captain's heart; Ghost tries to remain unaffected, but he bristles at the thought of his unwavering leader so weak at the hands of another; and Soap is honestly just confused as to how the whole thing works. It creates friction between the 141 boys and Macmillan, and as a result between 141 and Price. Price wants them all to get along. His boys are not as certain about the benefits of such an arrangement.
Once trust is won and Price finally acknowledges his lingering feelings for Macmillan, it's Macmillan's time to shine - he gives a thorough demonstration to the 141 boys how Price likes to be treated, taking on the role of a mentor as he has Price bent over and in throes of pleasure, and shows the boys how it's really done. Gaz, Ghost and Soap definitely appreciate the lesson, and from there on Macmillan is welcome in their lives (and their bedroom).
Tw: Partner abuse (not from 141) , Beatings, torture, threats, anxiety, Negative thoughts, insecurity, foul language. Angst, physical harm. Violence against a woman . If I forgot anything, let me know below.
I've been working on this for almost a year and I haven't had the imagination to continue it. If you can figure out in what i was inspired , you guys win the second part.
Outside there is peace, the noise of the night is just the crickets and some other whisper of the breeze but not inside you, there is no peace there, not now. The first number you score is John’s, not because he’s the eldest or because he’s the captain of your team. It’s because he was the one who first appeared on your contact list, sorbed the snot and felt the phone ring
one... two ... three .... Four and he replied
"hello ?" John’s snarky voice switched the speaker, your throat closed up and you couldn’t speak " who’s this ?" he spoke again, you had to speak if I wouldn’t hang you, you know he doesn’t see who’s calling him, at least not when he wakes up.
"mmmm John ...." your voice comes out in a trembling whisper, the excitement of the moment and the pain on your face don’t allow you to speak well," its amm... mm it’s me, sorry for calling " you were embarrassed to sound so weak, he shouldn’t be the one you call but you don’t have anyone else now, mom is in another country and dad was too
"hey" can you hear how her voice softens and moves on the sheets of her bed " hey honey are you okay? " damn he always knows when something is wrong You sobbed in silence, with pain in your chest
"John..." your words were stuck in your throat and you could already feel the taste of metal in your mouth, John didn’t speak while you were quiet but you could hear things that pointed him out, he scratched his beard, moved on his bed distraught at your crying
" honey what happens " her voice grew softer and lower "talk to me princess " shit, her voice destroyed you, you should receive that treatment every day and expect no less. You should never have settled for less
"you can come for me" at last you could let go, you cried again and looked in the mirror of your bathroom at home, your new house, and saw the deviation of your nose and the blood running through this from two different places "i hit myself with the window ..." You covered your mouth with your hand and cried again, demons always cried like little baby with John but now it was different "I need you John"
" are you at home?" he asked with a harsher tone, you hoped that he was not angry with you for bothering him, you could hear whining and murmured voices from the other side. You replied a little yes "Alright beautiful, we’ll be there in 10 minutes. " her voice sounded calm, but it was expressing concern
You finished the call and got into the bathtub to cry, Ben was in the room, you could hear him drop bad words and complaints. You had never seen him so angry, you hoped he wouldn’t break the bathroom door, you could knock him down yourself but the punch in your nose caught you off guard, leaving you feeling that you weren’t stronger than him. Same as previous months full of screams and things that crash against you or the walls nearby when he gets angry.
After 8 minutes you could feel the roar of an engine outside, your phone vibrated again, you replied quickly and now kyle’s voice is saying "hey beautiful" his voice as always so sweet reached your soul "we’re already down here, you need us to come in or can you open up" You replied that you were going down in a minute, he just nodded and hang up.
You walked out of the bathroom with light strides, were in your pajamas and barefoot, opened the door and met with kyle and johnny, as soon as you saw them both made a look be, john and simon were behind them and they both saw you and immediately knew something was wrong.
Hey ... - muttered Johnny as his hand caressed your face - a hard blow bonnie? - you nodded and began to tremble at the cry you felt ripping your chest, he just came up to you and hugged you carefully not to touch your nose, it was as if touching porcelain and glass. your scent flooded his lungs, it didn’t change despite everything, the same aroma with which you hadn’t woken up for years. The others shared a worried look as they watched the bruises adorning your skin. Ben threw a doorbell upstairs and shouted your name more angrily than before
“who the fuck is on my fucking door “ you trembled in Johnny’s arms when you heard him, which worried Johnny, you were never afraid of anyone, You were only scared of storms but you were the bravest person he knew.
Ben came to the top of the ladder and saw them, his face looked more angry “who are you? “ he came a little closer to you but stopped when he saw you in Johnny’s arms. John spoke in a low and dangerously loud voice “gaz, soap, get her out of here now “ his gaze didn’t take its eye off Ben, you may not have told him the whole truth but he knew it, I could see it on Ben’s hand, your scarred neck and broken nose.
He knew that your "boyfriend" hurt you, and I would make him pay for it Kyle and Johnny took you straight to the car, once you were with them nothing else mattered, you knew that Simon and John wouldn’t be subtle or gentle with Ben but maybe you didn’t care at all, not after how he behaved with you.
- Are you ... Ben, right? - John’s voice broke the silence, dangerous and deep, his cold gaze crosses the man still standing on the stairs. Ben observes as well, intimidated by the two large men standing in the darkness, there is a small dim light that allows us to see their eyes and the outline of their bodies.
- yes I am... Who are you? - Ben went down the stairs and stood a few steps away from them, he could tell the heavy breathing of both men - oh, we’re just the ones who care so much about y/n - John walked until he was standing in front of him and I looked at his hands - but friend Ben ... You made the biggest mistake of your probably very miserable life…
- you hurt her - Simon finished the sentence, Ben felt his blood freeze and began to sweat cold. when a light lit up Simon’s covered face, the skull looked more terrifying but what scared him most was his look
“ she didn’t... She shouldn’t have yelled at me when I was on a work call “ Ben’s voice trembled for a second “ I was being too upset with all that nonsense and wouldn’t shut up... it wasn’t my fault “Ben walking backwards towards the living room, but he hit the sofa, John could see the living room almost smashed to pieces, with obvious signs of a fight. Simon didn’t take his eye off Ben
“ Ghost, I think this boy needs a lesson “ John grabbed Ben’s hair and threw it on the floor. Ghost is looking for a chair and something to tie him with “ we shouldn’t be the ones who beat you up, boy, but she’s not feeling well enough to give you what you deserve “ John raised his hand and slapped him “ you think you’re very strong and little man, you think you could do stupid things like a little man without getting hurt…”
Simon came back with a chair and tape, John just looked at Simon and gave him the silent order to put him in the chair - what the fuck are they going to do to me - Ben ask scared , Simon just grabs his wrists very tightly and wrapped them in tape “ I’ll call the police “
“ for what you did to her, buddy? “ John reached over his beard and sighed “ because that’s too late, we arrived and we won’t leave until Ghost thinks you got what you deserve” . After that, John and Simon closed the curtains and covered his mouth with tape so that his screams wouldn’t be heard. They wouldn’t kill him, they’d just make him learn that no one messes with his girl
Kyle was driving at a medium speed, was heading to the nearest hospital, Johnny was texting John about where they would be and that as soon as they finished they will take you to a hotel if that's what you wanted . You were in the back seat looking at the street but all you could feel was a void, everything felt distant, didn’t notice the 15 times that Johnny turned to see you or how Kyle looked at you in the rearview mirror. As soon as they arrived, Johnny got off first and opened the door for you, you looked at him and I helped you down, you felt intimidated by how you were dressed, leaving your bruises in plain sight, Kyle noticed it and wrapped you in his jacket. At least you had long pants covering your legs and a short-sleeved t-shirt that only showed your arms
As soon as they came in, they gave you a form that Kyle took care of filling out. 15 minutes later, they called you to check you up.
“Good evening, miss, y/n “ the doctor speaks as she approaches you “ good evening gentlemen “ she greeted Johnny and Kyle who were in the corner of the room “ can you tell me what happened, darling?” the doctor checked your nose and neck, looked back at the boys
“ uhh... My... My boyfriend assaulted me “ you spoke in a low voice without looking at Johnny and Kyle, you couldn’t, you were dying of shame that they saw you like this “ they didn’t... They ... “ you quickly clarified to avoid misunderstandings
Johnny moved in place with his hands on his sweatpants “we are .... We are his friends “ the word felt strange in his mouth, but the situation did not make room for another comment.
“darling, I’ll give you a general check-up and then we can file a complaint against him. is that okay? “ the nurse gently took your hand, you looked at her and nodded “ gentlemen I will ask them to wait in the waiting room... “ before the nurse continued you interrupted with a drowned groan “ can they stay...? “ your eyes were filled with tears at the thought that they would be driven away from you, that if something happened to you they wouldn’t come to you again, again “ please “
the nurse looks at you and sighs “ only one can be here “ Johnny and Kyle looked at each other and in a quiet conversation decided
“ I'll wait outside “ Kyle dedicated a slight smile and warm eyes to you, he left but on his face you could see that he wanted to stay. Once Kyle got out, the nurse began to examine you carefully, checked the marks on your neck, your broken nose. The Nice nurse asked you to take a deep breath because he was going to settle your nose, Johnny moved next to you and gently took your hand, muttered some encouraging words beside you and tried to distract you from the nurse by pressing on your nose and settling it.
When she finished, Johnny stroked your hair while he was muttering "that’s good hen you did incredible" "my brave girl" a few tears fell but he rushed to clean them and kiss your hair.
The nurse gave you a few more tests and some questions until she prescribed painkillers and asked if you were going to report it, to which you replied that you would do so later. You didn’t want the police questioning your four special forces soldiers.
The nurse said goodbye to you and left, leaving you and Johnny alone. Your nose hurt but it wasn’t compared to the pain in your chest, Johnny kept looking at you like it physically hurts to see you in this state " you’ll be fine Mo ghràdh, I promise "
Your voice trembles " I didn’t think I’d get to this point "your look doesn’t dare stand on the, but he looks for your eyes with his own " I thought he loved me ..." You sob and cover your face with your hand letting the emotions come out of you.
He no longer resists and rises from the chair where he was and wraps you in his arms, leaving you to cry, some tears escape from his blue eyes but he wants to be strong for you.
After a while you’re already calm, but Johnny didn’t want to let you go. Kyle showed up at the door with a coffee and some things to eat " hello pretty, I didn’t know if you’d be hungry " I left the food and the coffee on a little table next to your stretcher. The three of them grabbed their respective drinks and drank them quietly, Kyle and Johnny would look at you every now and then, watching the faces you made while swallowing and when the IV bothered you to move. Kyle moved into his chair and I speak in a low tone " we can take you to a hotel if that’s what you want, one of us will stay to make sure you’re safe ..."
You wanted to say that they will take you to their house, your old home, but how could you even ask them for something, after all you decided to make another life after them, you decided to move on and never heard from them again. Also how could you, after they had to drag you out of your "perfect house" with your "perfect boyfriend" made a mess, with the broken nose and the vertebrae almost out of place. It was better to keep your distance, so you wouldn’t keep regretting being gone.
" Okay... I need clothes " you moved on the stretcher in front of both eyes
" we can go to... " Johnny got ahead of you when the word -house- didn’t come out of your mouth " It's fine, hen, Simon can bring us your things "
They both waited for you to finish your coffee to accompany you to put on your clothes again so that you could take you to a hotel. Back in the car you fall asleep feeling heavy, maybe because of painkillers or because you are more relaxed than a few hours ago.
John is smoking a cigarette in the living room with Ben in front, who was watching him as he moved in the chair. The ropes were tight and the jaw in his mouth barely let him move without feeling uncomfortable, Simon had hit him on the knee a few minutes earlier.
“You know what the problem is with you ben…” The smoke from the cigarette came to the face of the sitting boy who only trembled at the words of John "you are an idiot who pretends to be a very man just by raising your voice and hitting a woman who is with you even though you are... just a piece of shit "
simon approached him and hit him on the stomach as he heard John coming off the punch, then I raised my hand to stop him for a second " I’m going to give you options, boy, because even if I wanted to bury you alive I have to do it " another sippy of the cigar " I must do it because according to what is... it’s not worth it to stain my hands with your fucking blood " he got up from the chair and approached the young man in the chair the cigarette was almost consumed sank into Ben’s cheek who twisted himself
" you’re going to go somewhere else far away from here and mainly far away from her, do you understand me ?"
"bloody psychopath" growls Ben in anger as soon as Simon gets the gag from his mouth " I’m going to report you to the police, my father is a very important man..." his words were interrupted when John gave him a slap in the face
" I don’t give a fuck your daddy or the fucking money he has " his eyes found ben’s " if you don’t disappear by Saturday or the day after tomorrow, I will find you and you won’t breathe again " the voice made the young man warm again in front of him " and that either I or one of us finds out that you hurt someone else because otherwise " john let the young man answer
"You’ll find me" ben temple when I see the smile of John who was far from being happy or in a good mood
" good boy, ghost check the house and pack her things"John got straight and made his neck snap to release the tension " don’t call anyone kid not necessary, okay? " Ben moved again in the chair " just go and nothing bad will happen to you " John’s hands were pressed against his side " good night " and a fist crashed into the boy’s face to keep him out of the game for a while
Simon upstairs had taken off the mask as soon as he grabbed a suitcase that was clearly hers, baby light blue color and began to pack all her things, but surprisingly there were not many. Although he had been here for two years, he didn’t have as much stuff as he imagined, there were no summer dresses that she liked so much, no short pajamas, or any other kind of short or revealing clothes. Simon felt that vomiting was rising when he realized the situation exceeded only blows, the manipulation of your body was seen all over the place, it reminded his mother a little, no one deserved to live with a monster, he thought it was one before you left but he was wrong, and it was too late to open his eyes.
He kept every piece of clothes that was there, looked in the drawers and everything that wasn’t yours on the floor and stepped on it with his boots with contempt. Every perfume and the little makeup that was there were in a smaller bag. After storing all that, he look for your important documents and papers that were in a safe in the closet, but the key was not very difficult to get since it was stuck on the wall behind.
When he was going to close the closet, a flash was seen on the top shelf and he reached with his hand what had been illuminated. A stuffed animal that Kyle had given you for your birthday, each part of which had their initials embroidered.In the heart of the animal were your initials, the little one was full of dust but still Simon shook him and kept it with everything else to go down and leave.
John was at the backyard door seeing the small plants that had a nearly hidden sign saying "do not touch property of y/n" with hearts, he smiled and felt a tear fall down his cheek. his girl was hurt, they always hurt you, no matter what age you are, he’s the only one who knows your whole story, how they hurt you when you were a child and at all your stages someone betrays you or hurts your feelings, which are always pure and your soul so kind and gentle despite all the pain you have endured.
his hand flew straight into his face to dry the tears that fell out of control. would do everything in his power from now on to protect you, no matter what
He wouldn’t bury Ben, of course not, because he knows that as soon as Nikolai finds out, he’ll be at the door of the bastard, and he will hurt him however he wants, and that was enough. he took the phone out of his pocket as soon as Simon touched his shoulder, he turned to Simon who had a pair of keys for the vehicles that were there " I'll go in a moment " the voice of John came out snorting, Simon nodded and took both suitcases to the jeep outside, John took another deep breath and dialed the number on his phone, just for a minute so that a growling voice could be heard from the other side because of the dream "captain"
" nik, I need you to take care of someone "he look inside " I think you’ll enjoy it comrade "
When you and Johnny Kyle arrived at the hotel, you were sound asleep in the back seat, but as soon as some arms touched you, you woke up scared and ready to defend yourself, but all you saw was Kyle raising his hands in surrender. "hey hey hey calm down it’s just me" his warm and serene voice calms your heart that was running a thousand an hour.
"Where are we? " You don’t remember well whether what happened earlier was a dream or if it really was, you should be at home because you are here
" We are in a hotel in the city center, Johnny and I took you to the hospital " his calm voice explained patiently " you agreed to come to a hotel " his hand wrapped yours that was incredibly cold
" You’re right, I’m sorry " your voice came out a little hoarse again and you lowered your head in shame but he stroked your hand and said there was nothing to apologize for.
Johnny showed up behind Kyle with a card in his hand " I got the rooms " his smile made you calm even more " we left you the best for you little one " whispered Kyle near you and stretched your arms to carry you, which you agreed to since the painkillers were still present in your body and you didn’t trust your legs.
He takes care of you and waits for Johnny to close the car so he can start walking through the parking lot to an elevator nearby, because what Johnny had said was that the rooms were on the fourth floor.
In the elevator, Kyle's chest was warm and comfortable, even softer than you remembered. They arrived in the room and left you in bed to close the curtains and put the room in order for you to spend the night.
You felt your bladder contracted and asked you to go to the bathroom so you got up with difficulty, both of them moved quickly toward you but you raised your hand to stop them " I can, I just go to the bathroom " they both nodded but remained attentive to you outside the bathroom. As soon as you closed the door kyle’s phone vibrated on the TV table and he took it and answered.
You could hear Kyle talking from the bathroom, he wasn’t arguing but he wasn’t calm either, maybe it was John. You felt pathetic as soon as you pulled up your pants and got dizzy, the guilt sank down your chest, as soon as you got up you looked in the mirror and started to cry, everything was too much. You shouldn’t be here, bothering the boys either,you lean over the sink and let all your sorrows go out unchecked.
Johnny was on the other side of the door, listening to everything, his inner voice felt like breaking the door and holding you in his arms, but he knew that he should give you your space so he would go down to look for John and Simon who were about to arrive. Johnny still remembers why and when you left.
The mission had been a disaster, you risked too much, were hurt and John was furious about it. you did not listen when he told you that you shouldn’t go there, but he didn’t understand that you had done it for a group of girls who were adrift there.
As soon as you woke up Johnny and Kyle were with you but in the middle of love words came the cries of John who couldn’t stop shouting at you things that were hurting you. simon also said something he didn’t want to say. everyone was scared but didn’t know how to express it, they no longer wanted you to work with them, so as not to put you at risk, they knew that you were capable of anything the high comand proposed and that was the worst . the words they delivered hurt you more than any battle wound. The only thing that resonated in your ears were the words of John and Simon "we should never have brought you to the team" "this was never going to work," and clearly you thought they meant their relationship. The weeks that came after that were not easy, none of the four was talking to you, they weren’t at home either. And you heard Simon talking to Kyle one night " I knew we’d be in trouble because of her, we never should have trusted her like that " and that’s when you knew you had to leave. You never told the boys about your past because you didn’t want them to know, many secrets kept and that affected them, or so you thought.
The next morning you submitted your resignation from the unit and packed your things and when they were not at home you left. They looked for you, knew where you were, talked to Kate (your mother) to clarify things, and thought that maybe it was best for you to seek a normal life, away from all the evil of this job, of their lives. They stayed in the shadows watching you go ahead with someone decent.
Kyle was looking for a movie to see if you wanted it when you left the bathroom, your eyes and nose were red. He looks at you and speaks softly " hey " he left you a place in the bed " I put another blanket on you in case you want to go to bed "
" Oh thank you kyle " you smiled a little, you sat next to him and watched your favorite movie on TV. He saw how your eyes lit up and he smiled too. You stayed there watching TV for a while until someone knocked on the door and you startled yourself, but kyle grabbed your hand so you could calm down. look at you and he only got up when you gave him confirmation that you were calm. He opened the door and let Johnny go again, who entered the room took the card for the next room and gave you a kiss on the head before leaving again, both left the room this time leaving you alone with the noise of the TV. You decided to get up once more and went to the bathroom where you stripped off your clothes to get under the hot water.
Thousands of things were going through your head while you cleaned yourself, the hot water burned your skin but you needed it, you had to clean everything that you thought was dirt but in reality it was your pain. You were there for an hour until your skin was red and when you felt clean enough to feel like sleeping. As soon as you went out, you could see above the bed a change of clothes to sleep on, along with your underwear and your creams above the nightstand. There was no one in the room so you put on your clothes but didn’t apply any cream to your body, didn’t feel like you deserved it and didn’t have the strength to do it either. You settled into bed and turned off the TV, the bathroom light was still on when you closed your eyes and began to float in the dream.
