If you've followed me for a while, you've probably noticed that 1. I don't post art nearly as often 2. I haven't drawn any bkdk related content.
Why? Because bkdk and bnha in general has depressed me. Really anything relating to my life prior to 2020 depresses me.
So much has changed I have huge issues on my plate and I mean HUGE. Thinking about how much I enjoyed my life beforehand and how easy it was.. then knowing it's never going to be the same just fucks me up mentally.
My old bkdk art from like 2-3 years ago still trend and get a lot of attention.
I've worked so hard on my art since then. I meticulously study comics and manga every single night. Look at what angles this artist uses, notice the color palettes, pay attention to how the shading is done and so on..
So it's insanely frustrating and disheartening that my new non-bkdk art have all flopped. This is why you don't see me posting for long periods of time. I have folders filled of new stuff but I'm too afraid to post, I guess?
You want to believe that things like post likes and reblog numbers don't matter, but fuck.. you can't help but let it get you.
It's stupid to worry about it and it's stupid I'm posting this. It really is dumb. I just have such horrible and heavy shit going on right now. I wish I had that same escape I would feel when posting online. I really needed to get this off my chest somehow.
