#poor joel

[azazazalea]

im starting to forget your face

Ellie’s having a great time!!!

[spacetimes708]

Boy do I have a clip for you all!

[ma-che-noia]

[penandinkprincess]

I’m just imaging Ellie getting constant nosebleeds. She definitely gives Joel heart attacks because he keeps turning around and she’s just silently standing there with her lower face covered in blood.

literal horror movie at ANY given moment XD

[cawnecny]

Joel Farabee pre-game interview

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[hyrules-warrior]

When the truth comes out about Joel’s lie and what he did at the hospital everyone always focuses their stories on what Ellie goes through.

But what about Joel?

Ellie yells at him, says she hates him and then doesn’t speak or go near him again.

Joel gives her space despite how much it hurts and is hopeful maybe at some point soon she might want to look at him at least.

But she doesn’t.

Hours, days, weeks and suddenly Joel doesn’t know how long it’s since he had more then a tiny glimpse of Ellie in the distance.

 Time stops for Joel again. 

It had stopped after Sarah for 20 years before starting again all because of a journey across the US with a girl he came to love so much. Too much maybe.

It should scare him, how fast he goes back to old habits when she is gone from his life, how easy it is to fade away, lock everything down again, retreat behind a hard wall of survival where nothing matters anymore. But that part of him that would be concerned is locked far far away now so the thought doesn’t even cross his mind.

There are no pills or easy liquor to help him sleep like in Boston so he spends his sleepless nights at first aimlessly walking Jackson, unable to sit alone in an empty dark home. Then he starts volunteering for the night patrols since he is awake anyway.

He keeps busy, insanely so. If he is busy he doesn’t think about Ellie. If he is busy he isn’t in a house to quiet and empty with only him in it. So he builds things in town, fixes things for anyone that asks and goes on as many patrol shifts, hunting trips and wall watches as he can get, sneaking more (much to Tommy’s ire when he finds out later) by being the guy who always says yes to anyone needing to get off a shift for any reason.

He gets a bit reckless. First to jump into danger to help someone. First to distract and bait infected. First to jump into a fight. He won’t put his patrol partners or anyone else at risk but that main drive to live is gone again and he is so tired..... so if anything happens to him out there? It’s not a big deal anymore. It’s not like anyone but Tommy might care now and he is well set with a wife and kid of his own anyway. He’d be fine.

Tommy sees the change and it scares him to no end. Joel is like he was right after losing Sarah all over again but older, more world weary. The anger is gone this time, replaced with a quiet resignation that terrifies him. Like a man waiting on death row. Ellie is angry and rightfully so. Tommy really can’t interfere in this, it’s not his place, and the new baby takes up so much of his time these days, but he watches as his brother fades more and more and he isn’t sure how long it will be before Joel might decide not to flinch. 

[veruneedy]

Losing Joel was probably my most depressing experience in all the games I’ve played.

[stormoflina]

NOT MY COCONUT MAN 😩😫