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anyway lets all celebrate another easter without binging, without compulsive thoughts, without restriction and body image issues!!!!!!!!!! lets celebrate my recovery yes! yay! It used to be the hardest time of year and now I haven't even THOUGHT about the chocolate part of easter before this morning and I handled everything like a chaaaamp. Did i handle it like the perfect athlete i long to be, no, i did eat a bunch oc chocolate, but did i obsess about it or deprive myself of joy? no!!! I'd say im like 4 years out from the end of my ed and babes its so good. its so worth it. "oooh if i recover ill get fat and feel like a failure" <- insane words of the deranged while i was in the grip of it during uni. the world is good. i may have screwed up getting myself into that ed but i GOT MYSELF OUT. good food + peace of mind + ability to focus on LIFE and HOBBIES + a real sex life now that i dont hate my body + better at sports!
