#possibly disturbing

[dimelui]

Me in the back of the pharmacy, first day on the cleaning job, playing doctor with the homeless man I found in the alley, administering drugs I am not qualified to use. Colored 2026 🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱🌱

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[missemoon]

The crap I'm able to make when sleep deprived needs to be studied

Anyway, this is simply labled "Dave".

[stygiovictoria]

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[mousegenitalia]

TW: possibly disturbing imagery because of description, self mutilation, lmk if i missed any

Cannot with words describe how fucking miserable being schizospec is but darnnit im going to continually try until im just whining.

I literally cannot trust my own mind. At almost all times at least one or two senses are fucking compromised. That's crazy, you have to understand why that would drive someone crazy.

I hallucinated a whole conversation with someone and I didn't even question why she didn't have a face. I didn't question why I couldn't hear her voice but i know what she was saying. I didn't question it because my brain didn't let me process it as anything other than normal. Thats terrifying. It's really scary. I don't even know what triggers it.

A common hallucination is just multiple things fucking staring at me, and grinning at me and they're not moving and they're just fucking there and fucking staring at me. Their eyes are wide and dilated and there's hardly any white and their mouths are wide and mean and stretching and i fucking hate that i have to spend my life like this.

A normal person doesnt understand what its like to want to tear their own fucking eyeballs out and understand that mutilation wouldnt even save you, no matter what you do.

Even now im being fucking stared at.

[spicy-flower]

Gouache painting from a few days ago

[mahatka]

Goretober entry 😌

[wormoftheday]

First spooky worm of the day: the Sand Worm from Dune!

(10/02/21)

[pothosrays]

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