#practicing self care

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Today is one of those days where I am practicing self care while I wait for things to compile by reblogging whatever catches my eye on my main tumblr and not necessarily to my side blogs. For any of you who follow me, prepare for a lot of age appropriate crush objects and pink goth stuff.

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I have a lot of writing ahead. I am behind in my chapter a week schedule for If We Could Feel. But with holidays and depression I don't think anyone can blame me.

I also have other projects in the works including, but not limited to, reviving Redeemed AU.

I also am working on more self care so I don't burn out.

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The Earth, She Is Calling

People may be wondering, what led me to start this site, this portal of witchery and ethnic spiritualism. The truth is that some of us are conduits and always have been. We have a vast vat of knowledge programmed deep within our consciousnesses through thousands if not millions of years of evolution; the products of innumerable amounts of ancestral energy. Some of us are more prone to accessing these organic memory files, in fact intuitively crafting their creative prowess, hence rebuilding their connection to the very source of creation that is life, death, rebirth, and all that is encompassed in between. 

With each several hundred years, the lives of each generation is changed drastically; pooling sometimes in peace, but most times in war and tribulation. It’s not a new thing, this seemingly endless battle in which light and dark appear to always clash. Presently however, it’s not just a few thousand facing the crushing weight of its fate; it’s actually humanity feeling the weight of a system that does not care for its intrinsic nature, as well as the ultimate pull for the majority of the species to rise above and move past power; because the devastation goes on emotionally through each new generation, and even those who rebel against the programming receive trauma by doing so. 

I myself have endured much deprogramming, and decolonization throughout this crucial time of Quarantine. I was raised in a predominantly white environment by two loving white parents, and even though my childhood was quite acceptable I feel as an adult I struggle with my identity and inherited health. Being partially disabled has always been a kernel of frustration in my being, as my autoimmune disorder and double curved spine have impacted my workaholic lifestyle vehemently for the past ten years. I am no longer in my youth, and I’ve had to come to accept that the symptoms may likely worsen as I age. These two factors, my adoption and my chronic pain, shaped me in both positive and negative ways, but only did I really start harnessing my personal power and connection to the infinity of all things when I began seriously practicing witchcraft and all of its varieties relevant to my ancestral lineage. 

Many people are wondering what they can do in such trying times, in order to maintain their way of life. The answer is, oddly enough, but in maintaining a way of life but in crafting a new and better one. One that is more sustainable, humanist, and progressive. And I don’t mean progressive in a performative way. I mean progressive in the sense that we all do the work needed to really improve this planet on a vast, and microscopic level alike. The hard, inner work that involves us looking at the ugliness of ourselves, comforting the shadows, and raising their chins to look and gaze upon the beauty that is goodness. 

You don’t have to love your enemy. You can love yourself. You don’t have to love what has been done to you. You can love yourself. You don’t have to forgive, or placate those and what you have endured. Look at you, and how you have weathered. That is something to love. Use that as a base, and build the pillars from there until they reach the vibration of the sky, of freedom, where the light penetrates this dimension strongest.

Self love is something that is not taught as a system in our society. This is a global problem. Efficiency and wealth are the endgames, but this is not sustainable in any sense. No matter what economic, social, or healthcare system has been in place, it has been flawed. The leaks in the systematic way we handle ourselves are dams waiting to break, and we need to do more than use bandages and tape to ‘fix’ it. 

Self love is imperative right now. If we love ourselves we love others, even those who aren’t deserving of it; they will be elevated by proxy, a natural reaction to a very empowering action. Lest we consume ourselves as a species, dying in hate and famine, the universe calls upon us to rise against the powers that be in various ways. To many dwelling upon this divine planet, there is as much of a spiritual battle commencing as there is one of tangible corporeality. 

I know that, personally, I don’t feel like helping others when I haven’t done the work to help myself first. This is my proof, and I’ve had many testimonies of others telling me the exact same thing. It’s not uncanny, it’s the pattern through which we can glimpse the very fabric and fiber of the one true ‘Oneness’, the source of many sacred names. Even if someone is not quick to embrace my views on life and death, surely they can agree that life on this globe needs to improve. 

So I welcome your journey to join mine and that of many others, our adjournment impressing upon the sand dunes of this never ending spiral that is life. I feel like we have so much to learn, and yet, all the time in the world to learn it. It won’t be easy, nor will it always be pleasant. But there’s a reason our souls keep coming back to this beautiful blue and green orb. You see it in the trees, the water, the rocks, the sun and moon. You can feel it in the way how time and space moves differently when you’re among nature. Remember to commune with her throughout your practice. And remember to always come back to the center, the miracle that is you. their more unstable instincts. 

Historical research supports the truth of the generational trauma that has been inflicted upon many individuals across the globe, as well as scientific research who have found that trauma lives in our very DNA. Everything that happens to us is stored within our beings, affecting us on a molecular level. How we speak to ourselves is what affects us the most, actually, and also correlates directly with how we eventually go on to treat others. As the saying goes, ‘as above, so below’, for how we regard ourselves in our niches therein this universe is important to how we interact with the world around us, and especially important, how the world interacts with us. If we could realize it fully, we could use the power of our thoughts to change our reality in an instant. 

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