Oh and I’m sorry for more than one, I just wanted a lil advice, do the Theoi still love me if I doubt them? Even if I pray to another God, and then realise that’s not my truth? I feel like ive,, cheated on them in a way, and I still can’t fully convince myself that I’m not disappointing someone somehow, whether my Gods or another one? I’m struggling haha
Don't worry about it! I like answering these :)
This is the card I pulled for you (but I have some of my own advice afterward).
The two of swords shows a girl blinded and blocked by her own hands. The swords blocking her are in her hands, and if she set them down she could take off her blindfold. Look at ways in which you're making yourself feel like this. The theoi are going to feel how they feel. Whether that means they love you or not is not coming through, but if you live in fear of that, they aren't going to like it. They want you to be your authentic self. Sometimes that means trying things out. Sometimes those things don't work. It's all okay! If you stayed out of fear of losing their love, and not because it's your truth, then it wouldn't be authentic. You haven't cheated just by talking to other gods. If that were true, every time you prayed to even another theoi then you'd be cheating which, again, you're not. You said it yourself: you've convinced yourself that its somehow disappointing someone. But I promise you, you are not.
I had these same kind of fears when I was first figuring things out, and for me it was lingering Christian habits. We're taught that he's the one and only, and so to stray, even a little, is to turn your back on him. But it isn't like that with the theoi. They don't need to be your one and only. They just want to see that you care enough to try, care enough to see their hands in our every day lives.
