#prayers accepted

[youabandonedthem]

[firesuns-archive]

ugh i have an hour of work and then im supposed to go in for an hour and a half long intake appt with my new therapist and i also need to work out at some point and i have a migraine thats not going away after i took advil.... perfec

[faintestfox]

if anyone reading this prays or sends good vibes or absolutely anything, please send them to me and my boyfriend who's at basic training for the army right now.

[limniads]

i have my 2nd organic chem final (no one passed the 1st time </3 ) on wednesday im losing my shit 

[drspenceyreid]

final three predictions: cydney, joe, and michele

[jalexisa]

its a never ending week of studying!! I'm so over this semester and projects and papers...im so done!! praying that all my studying pays off and i get a better grade on my bio exam thursday!

[mygoodbyeblues-blog]

If I can get through the next 4 days without crying, it'll be a success.

My last day with the twins is tomorrow. I'm still not completely aware that it is, and that I'll be jobless, unless this other couple hires me as a nanny. I've taken care of Hailey and Aiden for the past year and a half. I've taught them how to walk, use a spoon and a fork, talk, sing. They've gotten so big. They're really the coolest kids too. Hailey can point out that she's listening to a Fall Out Boy song within the first verse of listening. Aiden is just hilarious and so loving. I love when I come in the morning and they're always so happy to see me. Or when I take them out and they're always so good and happy and just loving life. These kids have become like my own, and I'm going to miss them so much. Their mother keeps saying that she insists I stay in their lives and after I finish my contract with them I'll no longer be Nanny but Aunt Kelsi, so that makes me feel a lot better. The big debut of a play I'm in is also this weekend. It's called "SOGI Bill: a Docudrama" and it's about equal rights in housing, employment, and public accommodations for the LGBTQ community. It's based on real interviews from the LGBTQ community here in Springfield as well as city council meetings. I met one of the people I'm portraying, Becca Reynolds, who is a transgender woman. She was so excited and moved that we're doing this for her community. She came to see me the other night at rehearsal and she watched the last half hour or so and at the end she stood and was clapping and yelling "bravo!" With tears in her eyes. I knew hardly anything about the SOGI (sexual orientation and gender identity) Bill, but this whole process has really opened my eyes. I'm playing some wonderfully strong characters, including an LGBTQ friendly pastor, Emily Bowen-Marler, and she makes a beautiful speech towards the end that always makes me tear up. I'm so honored to get to play these lovely women, I just hope I do them justice. So these next few days will be particularly tough. If anyone would like to shoot a prayer/good karma/happy thought to the big guy in the sky, I would really appreciate it. I'm so glad I have my husband to help me through this too. He's been my rock.

[blkantlr]

Currently I'm struggling to find joy. I just want to understand true joy. This is my longing.