Respectfully it sounds like you need therapy, and there's nothing wrong with that. Your mental state won't always be great and there's nothing wrong with that either, it's a very sucky part but I don't doubt a bit that at least half of any team doesn't have internal issues they struggle with.
Hell you are stronger than most by outwardly saying or hinting at least that you know something is wrong. Most would fight that have nothing wrong instead of admitting it or even hinting that they don't feel good. You are strong and a lot stronger than you look, never forget that.
And speaking can be hard for some people, thankfully it seems like you have people in your life who understand that you can't.
//sorry I got too into it ydzhgxdh
i understand needin' help. but m' uh... a man. an' partially an australian. s' embarassin' t' seek help, an' err... my ma'll kill me. m' constantly avoiding combat already, she'll snap me in half me fer embarassin' th' family.
plus i... uh... they'll accuse me a' bein' posessed 'ere if i say anythin' concernin' an' try an exorcism an' thas' erm, even more embarassin'? on the small chance they decide t' try more conventional means- i, uh, i don't know how much i'd enjoy gettin' zapped outside a' work...
i... appreciate th' kind words, stranger. sorry fer complainin' so much, i... i do that a lot.
