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So, I don't know if you've noticed by now, I'm a very angsty person. I write a lot of angsty things. I do write fluff and stuff like that from time to time, but there's just a lot that fires up my creativity. This story was inspired by an edit croftets113 made on instagram! You should follow her. Her edits are really freakin cool. Hope you enjoy!
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Pairings: Analogical, past Prinxiety
TW: Crying, heartbreak {lemme know if there's more :)}
Summary: He thought they were inseparable. They both couldn't stand being away from each other. Guess Virgil had different ideas. One day Virgil had a little chat with Roman and it went south. Roman didn't take the news well and avoided Virgil for a while. As Roman was breaking, Virgil found light at the end of the dark tunnel, Logan. He and Virgil got together. And they were so happy. And Roman now has to watch from the side, feeling ever so hopeless that Virgil will change his mind.
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This couldn't be happening, could it? No...no it couldn't. This is all just a big prank that he's pulling. "Roman, please say something. Please?" Virgil pleaded. Roman just sat at the table, completely stunned. He could feel his heart breaking by the second. "Roman, I told you, it's all me, okay? This has nothing to do with you. I'm sorry Roman, I just...think that-" He was cut off by Roman scooting his chair back to stand.
"I get it Virge! You're not into me anymore! It's fine! I'm fine! You're fine! Everything's fine!" Roman could feel a lump in his throat start to form.
"Ro, I'm really sor-" he was once again cut off by Roman.
"There's no need to apologize! I'll be fine, see? I'm already smiling and over it!" Virgil knew he was lying. After all that time they'd spent together, he could read Roman like a book. He could see right through, and he knew Roman wasn't fine. He knew Roman wasn't okay. "Hey, since our little chat is over I might as well head up to my room now. I'll catch up with you later V!" Virgil tried to stop Roman, but he was too late. Roman dashed for the stairs, trying to get to his room without breaking. But of course, he was stopped by Patton.
"Heya kiddo, you alright? You look upset.."
"Me? Oh yeah, I'm fine! I just need some time in my room alone for a bit. So I can get my creativity into gear!" Patton looked concerned at his friend.
"Roman, you know if some thing's wrong, you can tell me right? I'm here for you kiddo." Roman could feel that he was almost to his breaking point. He needed to get to is room ASAP.
"I'm fine! I just need some time in my room okay? Okay, bye now. He said, dashing around Patton and into his room. Once he was inside he locked the door and just kinda stood in the middle of his room.
There were so many memories of Virgil everywhere. There were pictures opon pictures of them together. He started to break down , collapsing in on himself, holding himself tightly as if everything were to just fall apart at once. This wasn't fair. Virgil couldn't do this to him. He didn't understand. As his state got worse, he reflected on the events that happened that afternoon.
It started out just as any normal day. Or as normal as it could get. The night before Virgil was acting strange, avoiding cuddling and snuggles and stuff. Roman didn't understand at the time but he just figured it was or of those days where Virgil just needed some space. And at night, Virgil suggested to sleep in his room instead with Roman. That was another thing that they'd usually do, but he didn't really mind. He did want to give Virgil his space if was one of those days....
The next day, or today, was the same. Except he avoided most physical touch. "Odd," Roman thought. "He's never usually like this unless something happened..." Roman was then conflicted in that moment. He could either:
Ask Virgil why he's acting so odd. Only if he'd be up to it, or
He could just leave it alone and not think too much on it
He decided to go with one. He wanted to know why he was acting so odd and if there was any way he could help his stormcloud. So, he proceeded. "Heya V, can I ask ya something?"
"Uh...sure, shoot." Virgil said, getting a little worried.
"Are you alright? You've been acting kind of strange recently and I just want to know if there's anything u could do to help..." he said, taking a quick glance at Virgil.
"Ah shit." Virgil thought. "I've gotta tell him the truth! He deserves to know! But it could really hurt him. Like, really fucking hurt him..." He thought for a bit more, biting his lip to hide his worry. He could feel waves of anxiety hitting him at once. He felt nauseous. "Here, let's just sit at the table for this..." He led Roman to the table and pulled the chair out for him. It was the least he could do, he was about to break Romans poor heart, damn it!
"So..." Roman started. "What's up?" That was the question Virgil was dreading. He didn't want to answer. But he had to. He had to come clean to Roman. It was only fair.
"Look... I know this isn't what you want to hear when you first wakeup but..." Virgil paused. He was so scared to continue. He didn't want to do this. He really didn't want to. But it had to be done. "I think...that maybe we should...part ways for now...." He said, choosing his words carefully. Roman just looked shocked.
"But...but why?" Roman asked, sounding already broken. "When did this come up? I-I though we were happy together....I-I don't get it..."
"Look, I just... I don't think I'm real happy though. I'm glad you are, it's just...Gah! I don't know how to describe it! I was happy with you, but I feel like there's something missing...I don't know what, but I think I need to try to find it with....someone else, I guess... and believe me, this has nothing to do with you. You are an amazing person who deserves so much better. So please, Roman. I'm sorry. Please forgive me? We can still be friends?" Roman just sat in pure shock. Vigil noticed his expression changed very quickly as Roman went into thought. He looked so sad, so torn up. Virgil felt god awful for this. He truly did.
This couldn't be happening, could it? No...no it couldn't. This is all just a big prank that he's pulling. "Roman, please say something. Please?" Virgil pleaded. Roman just sat at the table, completely stunned. He could feel his heart breaking by the second. "Roman, I told you, it's all me, okay? This has nothing to do with you. I'm sorry Roman, I just...think that-" He was cut off by Roman scooting his chair back to stand.
"I get it Virge! You're not into me anymore! It's fine! I'm fine! You're fine! Everything's fine!" Roman could feel a lump in his throat start to form.
"Ro, I'm really sor-" he was once again cut off by Roman.
"There's no need to apologize! I'll be fine, see? I'm already smiling and over it!" Virgil knew he was lying. After all that time they'd spent together, he could read Roman like a book. He could see right through, and he knew Roman wasn't fine. He knew Roman wasn't okay. "Hey, since our little chat is over I might as well head up to my room now. I'll catch up with you later V!" Virgil tried to stop Roman, but he was too late. Roman dashed for the stairs, trying to get to his room without breaking.
That brings us back to our current situation. As memories flooded his mind, he tried to shove them back into his mind. He didn't want to remember. He didn't want to feel this heartaching pain. He couldn't stand to feel so empty. So lost. He knew his room and the house inside and out just like the back of his hand. And now he just feels confused. He feels so lost. Dammit, why did he have to do this to me?! He thought. "IT'S NOT FAIR! IT'S JUST NOT FAIR!" He yelled out, hugging himself even tighter. Everyone in the whole house looked to the stairwell concerned. Everyone was awake and downstairs at this point.
"What the hell-" Logan was cut off as he felt a gentle hand in his shoulder. It was Patton. He just shook his head and mouthed, "give him some time..." Logan only nodded. And just like that, as Roman was shattering, Virgil asked, "Hey Lo, can I talk to you? Alone?"
Logan nodded and they went into the kitchen. Virgil knew this moment wasn't right, but he couldn't hold back any longer. He was going to confess to Logan and hope for the best.
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Phew! It's finally done! This took me about a few weeks but it's here! I'll be working on part two. I'm sorry for the cliffhanger! I hope this'll leave you hype for the next chapter! Hope you enjoyed!
