#prob?

[aerielz]

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God I just miss this so much. I'm watching this stupid fucking interview with Sandra Hüller doing the SAGAFTRA Q&A and something in me is breaking to pieces and healing at the same time because I fucking miss this so much. It's actors interviewing actors for an audience of actors and everyone just kinda gets it? It's artists for artists and it's like. Oh this is my crowd. This is my place. What the fuck am I doing. Why am I so far away from that what the fuck happened. And I just completely forgot how it was like to have that and what even was missing and it's truly just. Wow okay the LONGING. I don't even know how to explain I just miss this. I miss the energy of being in those spaces. I miss the festivals I miss the trial and error or art I miss the sets I miss everything. I miss everything about it so much and I don't think I allowed myself to feel it before these last few days and now that I did I think I can't live without it anymore.

[starglowy]

[my-wildflwr]

[night-of-knives]

Honest to god, I am glad I have stopped caring so much for deviantart and my drawings in general- It was always so stressful + the idea of feeling less thanks to the people there is just slowly dissapearing. Like, if someone cares about me and my drawings, good, if not, whatever... Plus I am tired of waiting for people to remember me. Feeling abandoned is not good for my already terrible condition lol

[morganlegaye]

wait what??? why???????????

[art-traction]

Can’t take my eyes off you

[marely1029-blog]

I don’t matter right?

I never really mattered to you, did I?

If I mattered, you would’ve told me... but no, you were afraid. You thing I wastn’t afraid!? All my freaking entire life I’ve been fucking afraid! Not now.... nah, I’ve suffered a lot you know. I’ll wait... it’s what I’ve been doing all my life anyway... I can wait more.  

Im strong, you know, im worth it.