Look I'm just saying in the finale one of the brothers was forlorn and talked about missing Castiel while the other was happily eating pie and dismissively said that he missed Castiel too and then proceeded to continue to happily eat pie and maybe JUST MAYBE it would've made more sense for Castiel to profess love for the brother actively mourning him
i need to write a thomcat cafe au fanfic with a bit of zora and agustus duo like right now otherwise ill explode i SWEAR to god
would my moots still love me if i wrote a shitty thomcat cafe au fanfic with shitty grammar, shitty characters understanding(translating: ooc because im dumb when it comes to people) and shitty plot. would they
quick thomcat doodle with the cafe au idea.
yes this is cliche!!!!! im coping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! let me be happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just some non art related stuff under the cut
gulps
a quick draft. ngl im ashamed of this i hope i didnt make a lot of mistakes but i feel happy
Note: this is a trace of the Bumblebee's concept Earthspark design. I'm aware what I'm doing, I just want to see how he look in his "accurate" autonomy.
I've been going through 3 concept design and this one stood up for me the most. There's only a few flaws in that sheet. It wasn't prefect but I'm proud how it turns out! My favorite part is the side of his helm that curve around his head to the other side (idk what it called🥀) and he have a mode roundy frame type. His horn appear less sharper than the original Bumblebee. And lastly, i made his skin a little more greener to represent Twitch and Thrash (also jawbreaker).
I'm not proud of how I draw his elbows and knees joints. Doesn't look that good. It look pretty bad (and hideous). And I also don't like his neck in his full body drawing, it look messy.
I don't know how to end this, so um... Thank you for reading this? Okie bye:P🌺
Under the Microscope, Part 16 (Yandere Sabo x Reader)
18+ MDNI | on Ao3
The other parts
Thank you to @tryingandfailingtowrite for beta-ing and editing this!!
This is for all y'all who wanted another chapter of a WIP for the one year anniversary special. I wish I had infinite time to write all of my WIPs and more for y'all, I really do.
Hope you enjoy! Sunny and Sabo certainly are :)
Your POV
You lay your head on the railing of the ship as you watched the rolling waves in the distance. It was only early afternoon, but the day already felt like it had gone on forever. The nurses had you doing the physical therapy assigned by Marco, and Sabo had already stopped by once to continue re-teaching you how to read. Your frustration grew until it almost radiated off of you, and you wished Ace were around to blow things up with you again. You could probably do it yourself, given the materials on the ship, but it didn’t seem as fun without him.
Nothing did, really. He’d left two days prior, and you’d been in a funk since. Sabo came by and tried to cheer you up, but you’d basically ignored his words of support. Ace was his brother, you didn’t know how Sabo could be so unaffected by his departure. You’d been trying to read at the desk in your room when Sabo had come by a few hours after Ace had left.
“Hey Sunny, how are you feeling?” Sabo asked from the doorway. Since the incident with Marco, no one had entered your room without permission.
“Fine,” you’d replied, trying to read the children’s story on your desk. Fuck the red fox and the lazy dog, you thought.
“Are you feeling sad?” Sabo asked, tilting his head as he looked at you like an errant child.
“No.” Maybe if you didn’t respond a lot, Sabo would leave you alone, and you could be upset in peace. What a stupid question , you thought, you didn’t feel sad. You felt adrift, like a glass bottle on the waves of the sea — rudderless, useless, and alone in an environment you weren’t suited for. “I’m studying, leave me be please.”
“Of course,” Sabo said, leaving with surprisingly little effort on your part. You closed your eyes and rested your forehead on the small desk in front of you. It felt selfish to want Ace to return. You knew he had to go to Wano, but you wanted your friend back.
The next few days, you tried to throw yourself into your rehabilitation, both physical and mental, but it was draining. You suspected that having Marco heal you was helping with the symptoms of your TBI, but there was no way to test that theory. It did little to alleviate your feelings, but at least you could now walk the stairs without having to stop in the middle.
Right now, you were watching the sea, wishing you’d see Striker in the distance. Ace would come and tell you he made a mistake, that they didn’t need him in Wano, that he would stay with you. But of course, no ship came. In fact, Sabo had told you the night before that they’d be at a rendezvous point so everyone could switch to a smaller RA vessel while a scavenging crew took the useful bits from the Marine vessel. The RA ship would take everyone back to Headquarters, where you’d meet Monkey D. Dragon. Just the thought had your hands shaking from something other than exhaustion.
Staring off into the endless water, you realized what that empty feeling inside of you was — you were lonely. Of course, you missed Ace; that was clear. When he’d been around, it had been like something in you was fulfilled, like someone wanted and cared about you. And the worse part was that it made you realize that you’d been lonely for years. You’d been able to bury yourself in your work, convince yourself that you didn’t really need friends, that maybe things would be different at the next base, or after the next assignment.
But it was never true.
You’d been lying to yourself for years, deluding yourself for so long you’d forgotten your own lies. And Ace’s leaving was like ripping off an old bandage with the wound still festering underneath. Besides, someone like Ace didn’t need someone like you. He’d only been on the RA ship for a few weeks, but it seemed like he had become friends with half the ship in just days. People naturally gravitated to him, sought him out for leadership or companionship, much like you had. You wondered how many strays Ace had picked up during his time on the seas, people like you who were waiting to see his sunny face again.
Something red coming up in your peripheral vision broke you out of your self-pitying thoughts. You lifted your head from the railing to see Iva standing near you, this time in his male form. The sight of his new form caught your interest immediately, you’d always been curious about their devil fruit and the practical applications of changing genders rapidly.
“Sunny-girl! There you are, I’ve been meaning to find you. I left you alone to recuperate in sadness, but I’ve waited long enough!” Iva emphatically declared. You stood up a little straighter, unsure what you could provide to Iva at this juncture.
“I’m sorry, I would have come sooner if-”
“If you hadn’t been moping over Acey-boy. Don’t worry about him, he’s fine. Strong young man, and caught the Grand Line’s favorite DILF too,” Iva said, his eyes twinkling. You weren’t sure what to say, so you remained quiet, which was the right choice because Iva continued on.
“Such a shame, he made a lovely woman,” Iva said, putting his head in his hand with a sigh.
“Oh? You changed him into a girl?” you asked, curious to hear the story.
“A woman, Sunny, he was no girl. After he healed, he asked me to switch him over. He tried it for a few weeks but grew restless. Wouldn’t wear a shirt and kept fondling himself in public. It wasn’t a big to do. Quite the scandal, really,” Iva said with a shrug of his shoulders. You tilted your head in thought, and a question popped into your mind.
“What about Sabo?” you blurted out.
“Sabo? Hm, he tried it once but didn’t find it interesting. Boring,” Iva declared with a toss of his head. Iva continued talking, interrupting your imaginings of Sabo in a frilly dress.
“Everyone wants to try it from the other side, you know?” Iva said with a long wink.
“Er, try what?” you asked, unsure exactly what Iva was referencing.
“Sex, of course! Orgasms, positions, oral, anal, you name it, everyone wants to try out what they haven’t had,” Iva mused as you felt your face burn. You should have expected that answer, you supposed, but hearing all that out loud had you flushing.
“Would you like to try?” Iva asked, now giving you a once-over and a twirl of his finger.
“Er, uh, well, I don’t think-”
“Come on, Sunny-girl. It’s the perfect time, too, still at sea. I think I’ve changed most of the RA by now, so no one will bat an eye. It’s quite the experience,” Iva continued, arching his eyebrow at you.
“Uh, um, the thing - I haven’t, um. I haven’t exactly experienced much on this side,” you mumbled, your face burning even hotter now. The tips of your ears were probably red from how much you were flushing.
“A virgin! Really? I’m surprised. I can’t say I’m surprised though, it practically radiates off you. Nothing to be embarrassed about-” Iva began fussing before you cut him off with a wave of your hand, your face still red.
“I’m not embarrassed, not exactly. I’ve never found anyone who was interested, so I just,” you trailed off, willing the conversation to move along. But like a dog with a bone, Iva was not letting go.
“Oh, I know someone who’s very interested,” Iva said with a devilish smile, arching his brow again. You weren’t sure if there was blood anywhere in your body besides your face. You pressed your lips together and blinked slowly to regain a drop of composure.
“But there’s plenty of time for that. Surely you’ve at least had an orgasm,” Iva stated, looking you over. You looked back out to sea; you could not lie convincingly to save your life or your pride.
“Sunny-girl, please. Tell me you’ve had an orgasm. Tell me you’ve masturbated,” Iva said, grabbing your shoulders and shaking you slightly, his tone growing more desperate with every word. His brows furrowed, and his normal smile pointed down in a frown, like he was genuinely concerned.
“I uh, I’m not sure I-” Iva dramatically threw himself back, the back of his hand over his forehead like he was going to faint. He tottered backwards, his heels clacking loudly with every step, and you grew concerned he was going to topple over, head first. You were also worried that his behavior was going to attract attention, which was the only possible worse outcome than having to talk about this particular topic with Iva.
“Oh! I simply cannot go on! But I must go on, help the poor unfortunate souls who live without satisfaction-”
“I’m not without-”
“Sunny-girl,” Iva exclaimed, a fan thwapping open as he used it to cool himself off, “this is unacceptable. You need to practice! How else do you expect to show someone else how to make you orgasm?”
“Where did the fan come-”
“What’s the problem? Have you at least tried? ” his large eyes roving over you once more. Now you knew how your amoebas felt under your watchful gaze. You blinked a few times, fidgeting as you thought about your answer. You truly weren’t embarrassed about being a virgin, but talking about your masturbation habits with an overdramatic Commander of the Revolutionary Army was not something you felt all that comfortable discussing.
“I’ve tried many times. I just can’t…get there,” you finished, trying to use a euphemism. “There’s something wrong-”
“There’s nothing wrong with you! Don’t ever say that!” Iva exclaimed as if you’d personally offended him, his fan snapping closed in his hand. “As your superior officer-”
“I’m not sure you are, I don’t really work-”
“I am ordering you to go back to your room, make yourself comfortable, and feel yourself. I’m not saying only physically, I want you to try and connect with yourself, Sunny-girl. I can tell there are years of repression here,” Iva said with a flash of his eyes and a frown, waving a hand in your general direction. If you’d wanted a distraction from your loneliness, it was coming in the form of being ordered to try and masturbate to orgasm, you thought.
“And I don’t have to share the health benefits, do I? Orgasm triggers several hormones — dopamine, oxytocin, endorphins, prolactin, serotonin — it strengthens your pelvic floor muscles, helps your sleep-”
“Sleep benefits aren’t scientifically proven-” you stammered, your hands up in the air like you were surrendering. Iva pursed his lips and gave you another once over before his purple painted lips parted in a smile.
“You know the difference between an enzyme and a hormone?” Iva asked, his smile wide. Your brain decided to comply and work for once, so you happily started prattling off the information, trying to shift the conversation away from the world’s worst topic.
“Well, an enzyme-”
“You can’t hear an enzyme HEEHAW! Now off you go, shoo. I don’t want to hear from you until you orgasm! If you don’t orgasm, come back to me for tips!” Iva said, physically herding you towards the door to the lower decks. There wasn’t a point in disagreeing with him, you thought and frankly, a break did sound nice.
You were fairly certain Iva was ribbing you, he couldn’t order you to masturbate. Probably. Given the last few weeks, perhaps it was time to try to release the flood of hormones like Iva suggested. Maybe you’d try another attempt at the behest of the Commander and see what came of it, you thought as Iva gave you a final push into the hallway. All those chemicals might do you some good. You definitely needed them.
Sabo POV
Sabo sagged in his chair as the meeting coordinating the transfer of people and goods from ship to ship finally ended. It was important and needed to be done, but he found these kind of logistical meetings tedious. He liked action, not discussing how many ropes they would be taking with them (all of them). Sabo tipped his hat over his face for a brief respite before his thoughts turned to you yet again. Really, they’d been on you for most of the meeting, but he’d tried to corral them back in.
He was worried about you and wasn’t quite sure how to help. Marco had warned him to watch for a slump after Ace left, that a change in your surroundings and circumstances might trigger a depressive episode in you. Sabo suspected you’d been depressed for years — overworked, underappreciated, and lonely — but Marco warned of an acute burst of profound sadness.
And Marco was right. You’d been withdrawn and silent over the past few days, not snapping at everyone as he expected, but withdrawn and silent. Sabo wished you’d confide in him, let him in, but he knew that wasn’t something that could be demanded from someone. He’d have to continue being a safe harbor for you, the shelter for your storm. Eventually, you’d come around, he was sure of it.
Sabo stretched as he stood and grabbed his pipe, ready to head to the top deck to get some sun. He always preferred being outdoors; it fueled something within him. Maybe it was all the years in the jungle or the treehouse he used to live in, but being inside for hours on end always felt stifling. It reminded him of being in his family’s manor, the endless lessons from stuffy tutors…
It reminded him of his former noble status, he realized. Sabo’s gut churned whenever he thought of his life before he found his real brothers, but especially now in conjunction with you. Ace, Luffy, and Dragon already knew of it and still accepted him, but what about you? He knew the circumstances of your life and your experiences with nobles. He’d dug into every lead he could find on you, and they weren’t great.
Your family lived on the outskirts of a nobleman’s manor, your mother one of the factory workers for the estate’s textile business. There was no doubt in his mind that it was exploitative with your mother working for pennies while they made thousands. She was working multiple jobs to make ends meet and send your brothers to school while the upper class reveled in their undeserved luxury.
You’d had to join the Marines to help support your family after your sister fell ill and sent back nearly all your money to them. No, Sabo would have to continue to hide his origins from you, like he did with almost everyone else. If you knew the truth about his birth circumstances, your opinion would irrevocably change.
Coming up to the top deck, Sabo took a deep inhale of the salty air. Finally, he felt like he could breathe again. He twirled his pipe mindlessly for a few minutes, humming along to some nameless tune. He was letting himself daydream a little as he heard the clacking of Iva’s heels from behind.
“Hi Iva,” Sabo said dreamily, thinking about a time when you might let him kiss you again. He’d gotten two on the island, but they hardly counted. Sabo was a patient man. He would wait until it was something you bestowed on him this time. Maybe.
“Sabo-boy, I haven’t had the time to see anyone today. But I had the time to see your little scientist earlier,” Iva said, the corners of his mouth curling into a cheshire grin.
“Sunny? I’m sure she was happy to see you,” Sabo said, recalling how you’d been discreetly asking about Iva’s schedule. He knew you had a genuine interest in Iva’s scientific work, which was a change of pace for the performer. He was more used to people admiring his showmanship rather than his mind, so Sabo wondered how long it would be until Iva took you under his wing.
“Oh, she was. Or will be. I gave her a little experiment to try, I think you should check on her,” Iva said with a wink. Sabo didn’t say anything, but his gut told him Iva was meddling. What else could he expect after telling him about his desire for you? Iva thrived on drama and contrived circumstances, of course he was going to stir the pot.
“Alright, I’ll go in a few-”
“My suggestion is you go now,” Iva said, his eyes wide and his smile impossibly wider. OK, Iva had definitely done something; there was no question. What on earth had he told you to do?
“Thank you, Iva. I’m sure she finds it enriching,” Sabo said with a tip of his hat.
“She surely does.”
A few moments later, Sabo was listening intently outside your door. There wasn't a lot of noise coming from the room, just the sound of your breathing. Maybe you were napping? If that was the case, he didn’t want to wake you since he knew all the therapy made you tired. The foot of your bed faced the door, so he’d be able to tell if you were asleep from a quick glance in the room. Sabo silently opened the door a tiny crack to see what was-
Oh?
Oh.
Oh.
Sabo’s mind went blank.
Completely blank.
There were no thoughts in his head as he absorbed the sight in front of him. His pipe nearly slipped out of his hand, recovering only at the last moment to keep it from clattering to the floor. Iva had definitely been meddling, and Sabo was going to approve every single outrageous costume he submitted as a business expense as thanks.
Sabo was transfixed when he saw you were lyying on your back, one of your arms thrown over your eyes as you moaned softly. You were completely nude from the waist down, wearing one of his old shirts on top. Your other hand was between your splayed legs, slowly rubbing the clit of your perfect pussy.
He couldn’t tear his eyes away as your fingers took slick from your entrance and brought it back to your clit, this time increasing the speed at which you rubbed. Sabo nearly drooled as he imagined tracing every fold on display before him. This was something he’d pictured in his mind countless times, even down to this very scenario, and his imagination did not do reality justice.
Your cheeks were rosy under your arm, and he wished he could watch your face more closely as you started using three of your small fingers on your clit. You bit your lip to muffle your whines and soft sighs. Sabo fought the urge to kiss you, to draw out more of your needy sounds with his passion.
He was incredibly hard, his cock begging to be given similar treatment, but the hallway of the infirmary wasn’t the place. He could watch you and shut the door if someone came by, but it would be more difficult to explain public indecency. Sabo decided to commit the entire scene to memory and stroke himself to it when he had the privacy.
You weren’t pumping your fingers inside yourself, but whatever worked for you worked for him. Your chest was rising and falling rapidly, and you moaned again, your thighs twitching. Sabo broke his own promise from moments before and unzipped his pants to fist his twitching cock as he watched you bring yourself closer to orgasm.
Or so he thought. You rubbed and stroked with increasing speed, but the moment never seemed to arrive. You tried different techniques, stroking, rubbing, even patting, but it didn’t seem like you could get yourself to come. Sabo wondered if you were edging yourself, but he didn’t think so as you groaned in frustration. Was there something different because of your TBI? Sabo watched as you threw your other hand down on the bed, only to pick it back up a few moments later and begin again.
A singular question popped into Sabo’s mind — did you not know how to pleasure yourself to completion? He hadn’t exactly broached the subject before, but it wasn’t that unusual for women to lack knowledge about their bodies and sexuality. Sabo’s erection throbbed as he imagined himself teaching you how to come on his tongue, on his fingers, on his cock. He had given up on his mission to avoid touching himself in public — he’d stop before anyone got near — and was stroking himself as he watched you do the same.
Sabo kept pace with you, with his hand on his cock and yours on your cunt. He’d watch and stroke until you’d inevitably stop right before the big event. It made him want to curse from the delicious pain of his denied climax. The physical things you were doing should work, could maybe use a little finesse, but if Sabo had to guess your stumbling block, it was your mind. That’s why in his fantasies, he overwhelmed you to the point where you had no option but to succumb to the pleasure he was providing you.
You’d just started another slow climb towards orgasm, Sabo gritting his teeth as he stroked himself along with you. You were torturing him and you didn’t even know it, just like every other day of the week. He hoped that this time you’d be able to get yourself to come, maybe he’d find some relief as well. Your eyes were scrunched tightly shut, as if you were willing something into your mind. He wished he had some kind of mind-reading fruit to be able to see who or what you were imagining.
Your back arched on the bed and your heels dug in as you furiously rubbed your clit with two fingers. Your mouth parted for your short huffs to escape when Sabo’s ears perked up. What was that you were softly moaning?
Your POV
Iva wasn’t completely wrong; you were wound tight and needed some release. Maybe some inhibitions let loose from your brain being knocked around would help you come for the first time. Additionally, you wanted to finally be able to experience some of the health benefits Iva had mentioned, and more besides. You’d read a fascinating paper on the positive effect of orgasm on pain and mood stabilization in female patients. The nurses kept offering you pain medication, but it made you drowsy and your thoughts even slower, so you didn’t like to take it. Maybe if you were able to make yourself come, you’d be able to reap all the benefits you’d read about in Dr. Kureha’s article.
It wasn’t for lack of trying that you weren’t able to orgasm — you’d been trying every few months since puberty, but nothing ever happened. It only ever left you more frustrated than before. You’d feel some physical sensations, but they either never went anywhere or you stopped before you came, scared of the intensity of the new feelings. Either that or you'd lacked the privacy you would need to initiate such an ordeal. It had always been an exercise in frustration, but maybe it would be different this time. There was only one way to find out.
You lay back on your bed after changing into Sabo’s old cozy shirt. You tried to get comfortable and settled, like the advice given in the innumerable guides you’d read on masturbation. There was no music or candles like they typically suggested, but you’d take what you could get. Looking up, you made sure the door was closed — when it was, no one would enter without knocking first — and got to work.
You stuck your hand between your legs, quickly finding your clit. After taking a deep breath, you rubbed the nub slowly, trying to acclimate yourself to the situation. This part was easy, it wasn’t like you were unfamiliar with your anatomy. Closing your eyes, you tried to feel the feelings as the books so unhelpfully provided as you stroked your clit.
You rubbed, stroked, patted, did any kind of sensation that you could think of, putting your arm over your eyes to block out anything that might distract you from your focus. Some of the advice you’d read was to imagine a partner with you, but thinking about some faceless man doing those things to you wasn’t really helping either. Same results as before, you thought, throwing your arm off your face and dramatically to the side.
Nothing.
You had gotten close, maybe? One time? But overall, the same nothing that always happened before was happening now, making you want to howl in frustration.
As you lay in bed fuming, your fingers smelling of your own juices, a thought came to mind. If you did nothing differently, how could you expect a different outcome? You’d been repeating the same experiment over and over and had been surprised by getting the same results. This was basic scientific reasoning — the same actions would yield the same results. So, what variable needed to change?
Thinking about something that turned you on might help, you mused. But what should you think about? You found men attractive and generally tried to picture a generic handsome man kissing you or fingering you when you attempted to come, but that didn’t seem to work. Maybe you needed to think of a particular person to make your brain focus specifically. But who?
You weren’t attracted to any of the Marines at your last base, you couldn’t remember anyone from the base before it, you didn’t really know any of the RA members on the ship, and you weren’t attracted to Ace in that way. The only person that left that you had any kind of connection to was…Sabo.
Well, it wasn’t a completely illogical thought. You’d always found Sabo attractive, going all the way back to when you’d first met him. Even you were not completely immune to his charms, you thought. You'd caught yourself looking at his body a few times when he’d been shirtless at night, or watching his dimple in his cheek as he smiled at you. And you weren’t the only one — you saw heads turn as he passed, people primping themselves before he approached, smiling and laughing at everything he said.
No, it was clear that Sabo was objectively a highly attractive male. And that was despite features that weren't symmetrical, a common marker of beauty in the animal kingdom, you noted. Thinking about him as you masturbated didn’t have to mean anything — a physical attraction was a perfectly natural reaction for a healthy woman, simple as that. It wasn’t romance, just basic biology.
And it wasn’t like he was going to find out; you were never going to tell him. Men did things like this all the time, as you had discovered during basic training. Fantasies of sex with a familiar person was the most common masturbation tool, followed by sex with a famous pirate, given your anecdotal evidence. This wouldn’t be anything like reality; this would just be a secret fantasy that you indulged in like everyone else. And truly, since the explosion, Sabo had stopped doing most of the things that had previously made you uncomfortable. He wasn’t making you kiss him or putting his hat on your head or picking you up. He’d been respectful and helpful, listening to you when you expressed boundaries and you didn't want that to change.
If you really searched your feelings, you weren’t sure what your relationship to Sabo was . He wasn’t exactly your kidnapper anymore. It was you who had made sure that there wasn’t anywhere else to go. You couldn’t leave him right now even if you wanted to. He wasn’t your boss as you didn’t formally work for the Revolutionary Army or have any place in its hierarchy. He protected you sometimes, but mostly from awkward social situations that you tried to avoid.
On the other hand, you slept in a bed with him by choice, he was helping you relearn to read, he spent his free time with you, you enjoyed your conversations with him…it was all too confusing to think about at the moment. All you wanted was to orgasm for once, not think about what Sabo meant to you .
And you were going to do it.
Your mind made up, you closed your eyes as tightly as you could and began thinking about Sabo. You knew him somewhat well, how his personality would translate into a sexual setting. Sabo was powerful, commanding, and needed to be in control, as you’d seen in your own experiences with him. He wouldn’t let you shrink away from your orgasm, you thought as you took a deep breath and began stroking yourself. Sabo wouldn’t let you wiggle away when the sensations became overwhelming. No, he would push you through it, forcing you to face everything under his careful supervision.
“Ah~ S-sabo! It’s too m-much, I can’t, I can’t-” you’d cry out, trying to shut your legs to stop the overwhelming sensations. He’d gently pry them open again, not moving from his position between your thighs. You’d tried wiggling away from him but he was completely unmoved, like an iron wall. His chin would be dripping with your fluids, his grin devilish as he pinned your trembling thighs to the bed. His robotic hand would grip you firmly but not to the point of bruising your skin, the metal now warm after resting on your heated skin for so long. You weren’t going to escape your first orgasm on his tongue, no matter how intense the feeling was. Your hands would be wound in his hair, yanking hard enough to hurt but Sabo wouldn’t care.
“Just a little more — you’re so close and you’re doing so well. We can stop right now, but then I’d have to start at the beginning again,” Sabo would reply with a pout, his eyes glinting with mischief. Your eyes would widen, your face flushed with your increasing desire. The band in your lower belly was winding tighter and tighter; you wanted release from the stimulation that was making you squirm under his touch.
“N-no! It’s torture Sabo, pl-please help me come!” you’d wail, pulling him back down. Sabo would dip his head back down, his tongue already tracing your lips and-
Holy shit , you thought. You were wetter than you’d ever been before, you realized as you swiped your fingers through your now slick folds. It was a little embarrassing thinking about something like this but you’d cringe at yourself later. Maybe you’d also examine your apparent sexual preferences, but for now you brought your fingers back to your clit and tried summoning your fantasy Sabo once more.
“S-Sabo! I -” you cried, trying to squirm away from him. Sabo’s grip never faltered as he kept you exactly where he wanted you, his mouth gently sucking on your clit as tears tracked down your face. You could feel his stubble against your inner thighs; your skin would be irritated later but it would be worth it. You’d pant as he removed his flesh hand from one of your thighs, positioning his index and middle fingers at your entrance.
“I’m going to stretch you out, Love. Can’t take my cock before you take my fingers, hm?” he’d say before lapping at you once more. This would be your first time, and you wouldn’t know what to do — but Sabo would. He’d guide you through the whole thing, beyond pleased that you’d trusted him with your virginity. He’d insert one finger slowly, taking his time to make sure you weren’t in pain. As his finger went deeper within you, you’d try to grind yourself against him, making him laugh against your skin.
“You’ll have as much as you need and more. Patience,” he’d say, nipping your inner thigh. He’d slowly start moving his finger within you, finding the spot you’d read about so many times before. “There it is,” he’d coo as your face heated. He’d pull his finger back out, making you whimper before adding a second and pushing them back in.
“S-Sabo!” you’d mewl loudly, arching your back at the feeling of being stretched out over his hand.
“That’s it, love, say my name. Let everyone know who owns this cunt,” he’d demand before his fingers found the spot once more.
“Ah Sabo, Sabo, Sabo-,” you’d repeat as he’d lick and suck and his fingers would press against you and you’d-
“Ah, S-Sabo, Sabo,” you realized you were moaning aloud as you finally pushed yourself over the edge, your muscles taut as the thought of Sabo making you come in your fantasy had you coming in reality. You felt pure bliss as the tension finally left your body, like something finally gave out within you. Your vision went white and every thought in your brain instantly dissipated as your pussy clenched within you. You rode the feeling out for as long as you could; you’d read that women usually orgasmed from anywhere from 15 to 60 seconds, and you wanted to get the full experience. Even after you stopped stroking yourself, you were still feeling the aftershocks for quite some time, your cunt pulsing every few seconds or so. You let out a shaky breath, your legs flopping open onto the bed.
Holy shit, no wonder people fucked so much. If that was how it felt alone, you couldn’t imagine how it would feel with a partner, you thought as a yawn left your mouth. The science linking orgasm to sleep quality wasn’t proven, but still you let your eyes close as you drifted off into a nap.
The experiment achieved the desired outcome.
Sabo POV
He- he couldn’t believe it. Surely he was asleep in his bed, with you curled up against him, his mind creating yet another fantasy for him. This couldn’t be real life, the very thing that he’d been yearning for right before his eyes. Sweat was beading on your forehead as your fingers worked your clit. Your other hand fisted into the sheets, though he wished you were fondling your breasts both for his pleasure and your own.
Your muscles were tense as your back arched, your heels digging into the sheets as you finally came, your face still taught with tension as you tried to get yourself to come. Sabo gripped his cock, rubbing the head with his thumb before pumping himself furiously. He kept his breathing quiet and even as he leaned his forehead against the door frame. He was so close, so close, he wanted to hold out until you came-
“S-sabo aaah ,” you panted softly, breathing his name out one last time before your body went rigid, your hand gripping the sheets so tightly your knuckles went white. Sabo bit his lip to prevent his own groan from escaping as he reached his orgasm, stroking himself and pretending it was you. He kept stroking himself to the sight of you, thinking of him as you came undone before his eyes.
He did his best to slow his ragged breathing as he tried to gather himself while he watched you come down from your high. How he wished he was with you in the bed, kissing your flushed cheeks, spreading your legs again, hearing you whine about how you couldn’t, how you were too sensitive, how you needed a moment before he began again, your mewls as he ignored those warnings, your thighs trembling as he began licking and kissing again- the intrusive thoughts had him half hard again already, but he pushed them out of his mind. He’d have plenty of time to replay this particular episode later, when his cock wasn’t out in the infirmary. With that, Sabo tucked himself back into his trousers, using a handkerchief to discreetly wipe his come off your door frame. Iva could have a goddamn burlesque hall if he wanted.
Peeking in, he saw that now you were truly napping with soft snores leaving you with every exhale. He’d tell you later that everyone was switching ships in a few hours, you looked more relaxed than he’d seen you in so long. Now he just had to work on making your fantasy a reality.
You should… explain… Your Lips and Me (reprise) … wettest Marvin boy…
YAY!!! YAP TIME!!
All below is ooc:
Lyrics here
Starting off strong, the first lines finishes the Columbus arc. The entire point of the Columbus story to me is to show the pressures of society pushing Marvin to be straight. Or find someone to love.
Ms Goldberg is described as "perfect womanhood" and often I think she is used to represent all women. So the Columbus story is about how Marvin feels pressured to find a woman to love, fearing failure because if he can't love a woman he doesn't see himself as a good man, by this exploration of relationships he discoverers his queerness. "The thing about explorers is; they discover things that are already there." He realized he always kinda knew he was queer.
"Columbus closed his diary and went ashore." Love love love this lineee, tells us hes exploring this new relationship with whizzer :D
Trina's/His wifes part is pretty self explanatory, but here's some parts I think are super interesting/fun:
first off, calling Marvin a clown instead of herself, love that for you queen. Shows a different perspective on her life.
Second of all. HE KISSED THE FUCKING BIRD BEFORE HIS WIFE.
Ahem
third of all "you go on digging your grave dear" subtle foreshadowing...
now Marvin's part! So I've spoken a bittt on this before but I'll cover some
ok so this song is told from a future perspective, but Marvin is still very childish. Shows he never really grew up. He's still performing, he is still desperate for love.
Also, Marvin washes from top to bottom. I don't have a lot to say other than this lowkirkquenly supports my theory that Marvin may have ocd.
he then reflects on his fourteenth birthday, still defending his actions. Showing again, he has not grown up.
marvin then describes blowing out his birthday candles, he wishes for love, and death, whether intentionally or not. This shows Marvin's slightly suicidal life view. Honest this is kinda a stretch but I think this could also be read as he would rather doe than not be straight. Wishing for a love he cannot feel. He continues on saying that he can't reveal what wish he made, a childish superstition, once again showing Marvin is not mature.
Then Marvin begins to reflect on the "rape" of Ms Goldberg. I already explained what I thought that song was about so if you wanna know, read that. But basically whether he feels guilty for his victimization, or for his intrusive thoughts, he is haunted by it.
and once again, instead of facing his problems he shuts them out. This time by yelling.
This song goes into Marvin Takes A Victory Shower, which I have already spoke about. So read that if you wanna read my nonsensical ramblings.
