A fic told from the point of view of a Seinrin student who is head over heals for Kuroko, who is dating the devil himself. God have mercy on his soul when Akashi finds out.
Late? Who? I don’t know what you’re talking about, some months is still perfectly in time! ^^”
Sorry, I have no excuses. I hope this makes up for the wait.
Terribly cute
Kuroko-san had a way of moving on the court that resembled a ice-skater sliding on his ring, his teal hair a shade of winter admits the warm orange and yellow of the court. It had been easy to fall for him.
Yakamura Tadashi had been out one day exploring his still confusing sexuality when he had accidentally stumbled into the school official angel - yes, he was hanging around the are of the gyms and the athletic field staring at girls and boys and trying to understand which one had the most appeal to him, or if he liked both or neither or… really, it was so confusing -. The basketball team was coming back from running laps around school and had passed him without second glance. He had been staring at one of the third years, Izuki Shun, when something had slammed into his chest.
He had looked down and his heart was stolen by big blue eyes, gently flushed cheeks, a slightly sweated pale skin and open soft lips.
“Oh, I apologize,” the angel had said before pulling out of his arms and stumbling behind the group of players and into the gym.
Tadashi hadn’t even realized he was staring ‘till the moment he had found himself peeking into the gym and jerking a bit when the team’s ace, Kagami Taiga, had slapped the angel on the name.
“Woke up, Kuroko!” Oh, so it’s Kuroko? “I swear in a year and a half your stamina hasn’t improved at all!”
“That’s rude, Kagami-kun,” Kuroko had answered running a towel on his face before gently tapping his neck with it.
Tadashi had ran away with his heart in his throat.
And now here he was, sitting on the stands of the Inter High tournament, watching the match of a sport he honestly didn’t even like and cheering as if there was no tomorrow. He didn’t even keep trace of the score, he just kept his eyes focused on the ball and when it took a sudden weird course…
Here he is!, he mentally rejoiced when he caught a glimpse of teal, a smile immediately opening on his lips. It was hard to spot Kuroko, but he had become a real expert and managed to keep track of the phantom for around two or three minutes before losing him again.
He wasn’t smiling now, but holding a serious expression as he watched his teammate scoring off his perfect pass and he even nodded to himself in an adorable way that made Tadashi clench his grip on the thin letter in his hands.
It was embarrassing, he knew that. Guys didn’t confess with love letters, it was girly, but he had honestly never talked to the other guy after that first time. Sure, he had watched from afar, but that was it. Kuroko probably didn’t even remember and had no idea who Tadashi was. A letter had seemed and still seemed like the best way to explain the situation without making a fool of himself.
He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. At the end of the match, he would give his confession to Kuroko!
“How brave.”
Tadashi’s eyes snapped open when a soft murmure was blown into the shell of his right ear, the warm breath caressing the shell and the lobe like velvet, but he couldn’t move of an inch as he felt a pointing finger pressing oddly against the left side of his neck, right above his fucking jugular, what the hell?!
“It has been a very long time since someone tried to take something from me, I’m actually impressed at your courage,” the voice added, the feeling of another body hovering just behind him making Tadashi sweat in fear.
The tone of this mysterious stranger wasn’t threatening, by any means; it was collected and kind, the way a radio announcer could use to read a passage from some erotic book, but still. The real danger stood in his words.
The hand moved from his neck to slid down his arm, down ‘till when those pale nimble fingers caressed the paper of the envelope Tadashi was clinging to for dear life.
“By all means, please, go on with your plan, I am not here to tell you not to. Actually, I commend your resolve to carry on this crush of yours and I am well aware it took a lot for you to prepare for today.” Lips came even closer, to the point that their ghost was caressing Yakamura’s skin. “Just know, Tetsuya will turn you down.”
“Wha-?!”
“Oh, it’s not your fault,-” The hand was fast, one moment on the letter and the next with a finger placed on Tadashi’s lips, “-but I fear Tetsuya is already taken.”
Despite the situation, Yakamura’s first thought was: Oh. He had never considered the option, to be honest, but it didn’t come as much of a surprise. Kuroko was beautiful, after all, and he knew many people through basketball. Some girls in their class had kind of a crush on him too. He felt like a complete idiot for thinking he was the only one to notice the phantom player.
“I see you’re facing reality, finally. I will leave you with your thoughts, then.”
It felt almost cold, when the presence disappeared and it took him a moment to turn and look at the person walking elegantly down the aisle of seats, mixing with the rest of white and teal uniforms sporting the Rakuzan name on their backs.
All he got to see properly where striking red hair, and it was still enough to make him pale and almost faint.
***
When the end of the match came, Tadashi looked at the letter in his hands and tightened his lips.
What to do now?
***
He was going to die. He was so going to die.
Trying to think about his upcoming death, and failing miserably, Tadashi walked fast through the crowd to reach the intersection of the corridor for the locker room and the one to the exit. He got there just in time to see the Seirin team walking away, grumbling, but without Kuroko with them.
Kagami blinked at him when he asked for the other. “Oh, he stood behind. Needed time to rest and his parents are coming to pick him up, family dinner or something. He was still in the locker room when we left, maybe you’re still in time to catch up with him,” he had offered, before stealing a glance at the letter in his hand. Before Yakamura could feel embarrassed, the big ace had already slapped him on a shoulder - hard -. “Good luck with that, man.”
It was nice to receive a bit of encouragement, he’d admit to himself while walking down the corridor. He reached the corner to Seirin’s locker room and turned it without thinking.
Just to zoomed back behind it when he spotted red, even before his brain had a chance to decide what it was - better safe than sorry, okay?! -.
His heartbeat was going crazy and his lips were sealed trying not to make any sound at all, but still his survival instinct refused to kick in and he bent to peek.
Kuroko had his back turned to him and the soft hands that had been threatening Tadashi slightly earlier were laying gentle and comforting on his waist, hugging him close to the chest of the red-haired Rakuzan player whose eyes were locked in bliss. With such a kind smile, he didn’t look threatening at all.
“Akashi-kun is extremely clingy today,” Tetsuya said, his voice actually for once tinted with some kind of emotion, a warm kind of amusement apparently.
“It must be Tetsuya’s imagination,” the red-haired devil answered, nuzzling his face in the other’s shoulder. “I’m just taking advantage of my boyfriend privileges.”
Kuroko just hummed at that and Tadashi froze not as much at the confirmation - he never really doubted the red-head’s words - as at the way the phantom player moved a hand to stroke his lover’s hair, like he was a child in need of reassurance or something.
Too bad that when that Akashi’s eyelids rose slowly, red irises found Yakamura immediately, as if they had always known he was there and froze in his spot with a cold mixture of arrogance and pity.
Unable to leave under that gaze and the lazy smirk that followed after, Tadashi stood and watched the other lifting his head from Tetsuya’s skin. Obviously the other turned to see his lover’s face but got his lips stolen into a gentle but unmistakably passionate kiss.
Finally, Yakamura turned and ran.
***
Akashi closed his eyes again, erasing the smirk that was threatening to take his lips as he detached from his lover, and when he opened them again he faced Tetsuya’s questioning expression. He smiled, knowing that his bizarre behavior hadn’t gone unnoticed.
He decided that being honest about the matter would have only gotten him into troubles.
“Has Tetsuya ever been confessed to?” he asked though, honestly curious now that the matter had been brought up to his attention. How was irrelevant.
As predictable, at first Kuroko frowned, confused, but after only a second his eyes lit up, as if he had caught what must have happened, and his features softened into a clear smile. He carted the hand in Akashi’s hair a bit more, messing the locks up a bit and content to know he was the only one allowed to get away with that.
“Once,” he said, and at first Akashi was so busy not purring at the caresses he was receiving that it took him a moment to realize.
Then, he frowned and arched a brow. “Uh?” How could I miss that?
Kuroko nodded solemnly. “Yes, this weird boy from my same middle school came up to me last year after the Winter Cup to demand a dinner with me. Would you believe the nerve of him? He didn’t even confess properly before our third date.”
Ah. Ah. Very funny, Tetsuya.
“I’m sure he wasn’t that terrible,” Akashi retorted, rolling his eyes and returning them on his boyfriend’s face just in time to him chuckle a bit, lowly and almost secretively.
“Oh, he was.” Kuroko’s eyes shone a bit as he moved to peck on Akashi’s lips. “Terribly cute.”
Authoress’ notes:
I’m back, finally! It’s been so long since I’ve had time to work on requests, gosh! I hope this is close to what you had in mind, I took the liberty to add one POV of only Akashi and Kuroko in the end ^^”
CURRENTLY NOT TAKING REQUESTS, I’M STILL FINISHING THE UNATTENDED ONES.
Can I ask for a continuation of that story you wrote with the wolves? I think it was an Omega's Tail
THIS TOOK A LIFETIME, I WANTED TO ADD ONE THING TO THE STORY AND IT WENT OUT OF HAND! So, yeah, sorry it took so long -.-
There are references to both the previous stories of the Werewolves!AU but you should be able to understand even if you haven’t read them ^^”
Family
It slipped past Seijuro’s mind, sometimes, how much stubborn his mate could be. It usually started by him feeling irked for something Tetsuya is — usually with quite some reason — denying him, just like that morning as Akashi stood sprawled on the bed with half his face buried in the mattress and one single eye glaring at the figure of his lover getting dressed in the setting of the rising sun outside the window behind him.
Beautiful, for sure, but that wasn’t the point.
The point was the empty bed Seijuro had tried to keep his mate into and the stinging in the back of his nape where he had been hit and the beautiful skin of his lover’s thighs being covered by clothes and that was probably a sin. If it wasn’t, it should have been.
As always, irritation soon left space to the memory of how assertive and submissive Kuroko used to be when they had first taken him in, after years as the Omega member of his previous pack, the same pack Akashi and his comrades had make sure to send away with their tails in between their legs. Seeing how far his lover had gone since then, how stronger he had steeled himself to be, Seijuro couldn’t help but smile and accept the rejection with a sigh.
When he rose on his side and grabbed a pillow to lay it under his face, Kuroko finally shot a look at him and nodded. He approached the bed while still buttoning his shirt up and bent to lay a kiss on his mate’s temple, savoring the satisfied sigh that followed it.
“The meeting should be over by a quarter to eight so I won’t be back home before my shift starts.” he reminded, “But I’ll have the afternoon off.”
“Afternoon is too late.” Akashi grunted, playing childish just to see his lover roll his eyes, “What if I want you now?”
“You’ll have to resign to your fate, Seijuro-kun, ‘cause I’m not skipping work.” Kuroko straightened up and picked his bag from the floor, checking one last time to make sure it had all the things he’d need for the day at the kindergarten, “Make sure Nigou…”
“…eats some fruit.” It was Seijuro’s turn to roll his eyes, “You do know I happen to be his father as well, don’t you?”
Kuroko just deadpanned at him.
“Sometimes I wonder if I’m not a single parent with two kids.” He sighed, but moved to the door and stopped there to wave at his husband. “Don’t let him sleep in too long or he won’t go to bed tonight.”
When the door closed behind Tetsuya, Akashi just went back to look at the window, staring at the sun peeking from in between the tall trees of the forest surrounding their lodge, up on the mountain and quite detached from the main town. It was the perfect place for a family of werewolves to live, with all the commodity for their human moments and the perfect hunting terrain for when they were forced into their animal forms. They still didn’t know the reason of their nature despite Midorima’s continuous researches — mainly because they all had been born shape-shifters, so there was no way to make a confront —, but they weren’t too much bothered.
They had built up a life that was good as it was. The stains of fear or rejections and even of hurt in their past were fading away, slowly but nonetheless, and the happy memories they were building were growing.
Akashi had run from his house and travelled alone for quite some time before meeting Midorima and Murasakibara, the two of them having accidentally hunted the same prey, and then they had followed him, for some reason. Aomine had come later, his huge wolf form growling at them as he shielded the human girl he had been fighting on his own to protect for far too long. Momoi had become their rock, the standing point to go back to every time the mutations ended, the girl smiling at them on the doorstep with clothes and towels, loving them with such a big heart sometimes Akashi felt bad for the secluded life she had been forced to embrace too. Kise had joined them shortly after, a lone wolf who couldn’t stand solitude, and then Tetsuya. Frail Tetsuya, left behind by his old pack that had done nothing but hurting him; strong Tetsuya who had found and brought to them the last addiction to their group.
The door cracked open slightly and stopped immediately, the sound of a suddenly held breath and then silence.
Akashi strived not to smirk and closed his eyes, pretending to be asleep.
The sound of soft steps on the wooden floor made it hard for him not to smile, but he managed and finally, with a loud yet clearly fake growl, the huge wight of a seven-year-old kid landed on his side, human teeth playfully aiming for his lobe.
He acted immediately, wrapping his arms around the little body of the black haired kid and growling too before attacking the brat’s neck with loud raspberries.
“Dad! No! It tickles!” Nigou struggled in his arms, but he did so giggling and Akashi took his time before finally releasing his son and allowing him to sit in the nest of his crossed legs, little hands against his so much bigger chest.
Eyes the same as Kuroko glared at him in offense for a moment and he chuckled, ruffling his eyes.
“Sorry, pup.”
“I’m not a pup! I’m a grown-up wolf!”
“Oh, is it so, now?” Akashi arched a brow and his son stuck his tongue at him, but he ignored it to pick him up and move to the door with the kid in his arms, “Because I’m sure grown-ups eat all their fruits at breakfast.”
“They do not!”
“Do too.”
“Do not!”
“Do too.”
***
As soon as Momoi turned her back to the bento she had prepared, Kise’s hands fast swapped it with another box and ran outside the kitchen faking another banter with Aomine. He showed the thumb up to Akashi, who sighed in relief, as the man helped Nigou wearing his jacket.
“So, what are the rules?”
“Daaaaaaa-aaaaad!” Nigou turned with a pout, but Akashi firmly crossed his arms and in the end the kid huffed, “Never talk with strangers, I can play but I have to stay within sight and if I hear the song I have to run to you.”
Such a good puppy, he had, Akashi knew that. He also knew that his adopted son wasn’t stupid, but he couldn’t help being nervous.
The full moon was a fairytale, nothing real. The mutation was triggered by something that seemed like some kind of song suddenly playing within their heads, a melody that called to their lower instincts, awoke the beast and demanded that it came to the forest, there where it belonged. And it was completely unpredictable.
If Akashi had to be honest, he was against every kind of prolonged interactions with humans, exception made for Momoi. He was also against Tetsuya working: as a kindergarten teacher, there were many risks if he were to mutate during work hours, but the other had done if for long before their pack came around, had his tricks and his excuses, and refused to give up despite the fact that Seijuro and Midorima had been making a fortune with on-line investments.
But he had been alone for most of his time as a kid and he knew what it meant. He didn’t want to lock his son away from the world and he knew that Nigou needed other children, people his age, to develop correctly and be happy.
He just couldn’t help but worry, okay?
He picked the lunch box Momoi was giving them trying not to betray Kise’s work and then he was forced to follow his excited son as the kid dragged him by a hand.
“Hurry up, dad! I want to be the first to give my present to Kei!”
“Obviously.” Akashi nodded, pretending to be just as invested as his son in the birthday party he had been invited to, and finally they reached the car, “Wouldn’t risk being anything less than first, uh?”
Nigou flashed him a bright grin when the car started.
***
Akashi was well-known among the children’s mothers, which pissed off his lover quite often, but as to not become “the suspicious family with one woman, one kid and a bunch of men living up in the mountain and never coming out” they both had had to accept that Seijuro had to fake some kind of interest into social interactions.
Kuroko always threw him to the hyenas as to punish him for that.
That’s why Akashi sighed, heavily, after parking beside the local children playground, but still dragged himself out of the car and reached for the passenger seat.
He was just in front of the hood when his eyes registered something red in his peripheral vision and froze him on the spot.
Something red that shouldn’t have been there, something to him far more dreadful than blood itself. Something he couldn’t help but turn his head toward.
As if his gesture had been as loud as an explosion, another pair of eyes, red, red, red, crimson, moved in his direction. Red hair slicked back elegantly, sharp handsome yet stern features, a clean face painted with soft wrinkles by the years and an expensive black suit that stood out like a sore thumb into such a little simple town.
The man was walking out of the local hostel, a taxi waiting for him with the door open already, but he stopped when he saw who was staring at him from afar. Seijuro cursed his features, because they were probably what had called the other’s attention, just as the reverse had happened, but didn’t say anything.
Eyes wide, Akashi Masaomi ignored the man in front of him to reached the corner of the street and cross the road, without even watching, and stop in front of the entrance of the playground.
The cheerful laughters of kids and the occasional yells of excitement did nothing to ease the tension that immediately stiffened Seijuro’s shoulders and clenched his fists, but the other man didn’t seem to notice. Or care.
“Seijuro.” he called out, as if he hadn’t already realized, but his voice still sounded surprised, shocked, as if he couldn’t believe his eyes.
Akashi guessed it was normal, after all the last time he and his father had met Masaomi had thought wise to grab a rifle and try to shoot his just-mutated son.
“What are you doing here?!” he hissed, violent and threatening, dangerous like the beast inside his head telling him to jump and kill, to protect his secret, his family and his pack now, as he should as the rightful Alpha.
The sound of a car door opening made his lips shot open, baring his teeth as a feral growl made his throat tremble. He could see his father flinch, but his mind was focused on the low, scared, “Dad?” coming from behind him.
“Go back into the car.” he never tore his eyes from Masaomi. He couldn’t, too much dangerous.
“D-Dad? What…?”
“Nigou, go back into the car, now.” I didn’t mean to growl, scamp, I promise I’ll make it up to you.
He could hear his son’s scared gasp at the sudden change of attitude, but he also heard the door being shut close once more and he thanked all the gods for the faith Nigou had in him.
Masaomi’s eyes had moved. They were on the car now, on Nigou through the window, and Seijuro saw red, so much he didn’t even realize the stance he was taking. Slightly bent forward, slightly crouched, ready to attack.
“Look at me.” his order was powerful, too much for even Masaomi himself to disobey. Seijuro wasn’t a child anymore, he was an adult with a family of his own to protect, and he would have been damned if he let the other man treat him like an inferior just once more. Don’t you dare look at him.
“Seijuro.” The werewolf wondered if his father had become an idiot all of a sudden, because he tried to take a step toward them.
“Stay away!” He took a step to a side, putting himself in between his father and his son in the car, and Masaomi finally took the hint for he stopped and lifted his hands palms up, as if surrendering.
“Seijuro.” he called, for the third time, as if he still couldn’t believe, as if he couldn’t stop himself. Seijuro wanted to rip his tongue out of his mouth. “Seijuro, I’m not here to hurt you.” He attempted another look at the car but his son hissed again, “Or your son.”
Akashi would have scoffed at him, had he been any less tense.
“Because there are no rifles in hand reach?” he challenged and Masaomi paled, but that wasn’t enough for Seijuro to lower his guard. The man who had given him life was also the one who shot his mother in their garden and tried to shoot him too. He wouldn’t come anywhere close to Nigou. “Don’t you dare take a step closer.”
“I won’t.” Masaomi looked scared, even more as he took a step backward, but he didn’t seem to fear his son, it was something else, “Seijuro, you need to listen to me.”
“What for?!” Akashi almost spat. The wolf at the back of his mind was howling, furious and thirsty for the fight he was being restrained from, “I thought you did not lower yourself to listen to a monster’s words, father.”
“Hunters are headed here.”
Masaomi’s voice was desperate, like a last call for help, like a last chance, and his eyes never left Seijuro’s, hoping for anything, even just a flash of recognition, whatever would give him the time to explain.
Hunters. And Seijuro wanted only to jump back in the car and drove back to the lodge, tell everybody to pack their things and leave, but he couldn’t. Hunters. He was the Alpha, he had to protect the others. Hunters. He couldn’t let his pride get in the way. Hunters.
Nigou’s scent was all around him, tainted by fear, and he knew what he had to do, what was his duty.
Not as a son but as a father, he stood.
Masaomi could recognize an opening when he saw one, and wasted no time.
“A group of eight, six men and two women. Three of them are from a research lab in Los Angeles, the others from the Tokyo department.” He looked frantic, desperate to give all the informations he could, instead of taking, but Seijuro stood motionless, still threatening and guarded.
“Why would researchers look for fairytales creatures?” he asked, dry, but his father shook his head.
“One of them says he had been attacked by a pack years ago. They know about your existence, but they need…”
“…proofs.” Akashi’s stomach dropped. Scientists, all around the town and the woods, looking for them, actually aware of what they were looking for. They needed to…
“You need to leave, Seijuro.” Masaomi’s voice overlapped his thoughts too perfectly for him to stand and he growled, unable to stop himself even when he saw the man flinch.
“What are you here for?!” he hissed instead. He couldn’t believe it was true, it couldn’t be happening. Why did he have to trust that man, anyway?! “How did you know we were here?!”
“I didn’t!” Masaomi shook his head, but once more his eyes tried to dart past Seijuro’s defense, checking on the terrified kid behind the window, for a moment before settling back on his son’s, “Seijuro, I didn’t know. Since when these people had landed in Japan, studying the places were those…like you…could leave, I’ve been sponsoring the project and…”
“You paid them!” Seijuro’s roar ripped a scared yell from some of the kids in the playground, that now turned to the source of the sudden terrifying sound. He strived, but managed to lower his voice, even if not to keep the poison out of it. “You paid the men who are out there the hunt us down?!”
Masaomi seemed disinterested in the children watching them.
“This way I would be updated on their discoveries!” he said, almost…pleading?, no, that was impossible. “I’ve been traveling ahead of them since when I received their itinerary, I checked the places they were supposed to go to make sure you weren’t there, I was trying to…”
“But you helped them find some others!” Akashi couldn’t believe his ears. His father had sold away who knew how many werewolves’ lives to…what?, find him and then?, “What do you even want from me?!”
Seijuro had been taught how to hurt others, but his father’s expression didn’t give him any kind of satisfaction. He was too worried, scared, busy planning an escape, to bother with a petty revenge.
“I just want you to be safe.”
That was it. Akashi growled, his eyes blazing with fury, and for a moment he took a step forward, ready to kill, but a kid’s scared voice, calling for his mother, stopped him in his track. Nigou’s scent was so strong in his biased mind it was almost intoxicating, it was as if all his senses where pointed on the kid. He had no time to waste.
He walked the steps that divided him from his father and grabbed his shirt with a hand, uncaring of how shorter than the other he still was. His glare, he knew, would have brought even a giant to their knees.
“Don’t you ever dare coming anywhere near me or my family.” he hissed, “You do that and I will tear you to pieces and leave your remnants for the crows to eat.”
He didn’t wait for an answer. He pushed Masaomi away and turned, reached for the driver seat and got in.
By the time his father was able to call his name again, he was already driving on the street to the local kindergarten.
***
Kuroko had been with Akashi for a little longer than four years, but he hand never seen such a furious expression on his mate’s face. Even Nigou, in his arms, seemed scared to peek at his father and just kept his nose buried in his mother’s belly.
“Seijuro…”
“We need to talk with everybody.” Akashi interrupted him, his knuckles white against the steering wheel, “I need to talk with everybody.”
“Sei-…”
“No.” Take deep breaths, Seijuro, calm down, there’s Nigou here, don’t scare him, calm down. “I am in no condition to take a lucid decision as of now and I need someone to remind me that killing my father and taking you and our kid to the other side of the planet is not a good solution.”
Akashi’s eyes never left the road, but Kuroko’s stood firm on his face. He had never seen his mate so distressed, not even when they had found Nigou, and for him to admit not to be able to think rationally…
He adjusted the kid in his lap and outstretched a arm to lay it firmly on his lover’s armpit, then patiently waited for the car to bring them to the lodge.
***
Nobody had been prepared for such a news. Momoi managed to send Nigou in his room, promising him cherry cake if he had tidied it up nicely, but then she came back to the living room and the silence stretched.
Aomine and Midorima were sitting at opposite ends of the couch, Kise on the floor in front of them, with the coffee table in between. Murasakibara had taken the floor with his back the fireplace and Momoi went to sit on the armchair behind Ryouta. Akashi and Kuroko were on their feet, in front of Murasakibara, facing him.
Seijuro was stiff, arms abandoned at his sides, a hand clenched in a fist and the other tightly wrapped around Kuroko’s, who held it with both his, but the other looked worried and tensed too.
Midorima coughed a bit. “For as much as I, too, wish we could do differently, I think you should contact your father again.”
He was barely done talking and hell had already broken loose.
“You can’t be serious, Midorimacchi!”
“Are you crazy?! No way he’s going back to that bastard!”
“I don’t like Aka-chin’s father, Mido-chin.”
“Shintarou is right.” Three words to stop the world. Everybody but Midorima, who fixed his glasses, turned to Akashi but the man was glaring at the table as if hoping to set it on fire with the mere power of his eyes.
“But Akashi-kun…” Momoi tried to intervene, but Seijuro stopped her.
“He is the only one who has any information about these hunters.”
“But what if this is all a plan for him to get to you?!” Kise’s voice was filled with worry, but his eyes were fiery, ready for the fight. Kuroko stared at those golden shade and felt a shiver running down his spine, as if an echo of the forest’s song, and for a moment he wondered if the other was already mutating. “For all we know he could have been lying about everything!”
“He found us, though.” Seijuro hissed, challenging, and Tetsuya tugged at his hand just as Momoi laid a hand on Kise’s shoulder.
“He could be lying.” Midorima admitted, “But that’s the only clue we have.”
“Why don’t we just leave, before they can do anything?” Momoi’s face snapped toward Kuroko, “Tetsu-kun, I know you have your work, but…”
“I have a pup, Momoi-san.” Ice cold filled his voice as Kuroko tightened his hands on his mate’s arm, “My job is the last thing to consider, right now.”
“Leaving is the last thing we should consider.” Midorima intervened, shaking his head.
“But why?!”
“Because we’re safer here.” Akashi’s voice drained everybody’s eyes on him as he ran his free hand on his face, sighing tiredly, “If these hunters are already headed here, an whole family suddenly packing and leaving will be suspicious, even more so if after its departure the local wolves suddenly disappear too. If this is all my father’s plan to get me, than he wants us to leave. In both the case, here in town people knew us, if we were to suddenly disappear without a word, someone would notice and start asking question.”
“If we leave, even more organizing everything and justifying our departure in a believable way, we’ll be completely defenseless if we were to get attacked on the road. Nobody would know if we were caught or killed.” Midorima concluded, fixing his glasses once more, “Staying here is our best option, even more considering how many people saw Akashi and his father fighting today: if something were to happen to us, they all would think about that immediately.”
“My father won’t risk that.” Seijuro admitted with a disgusted expression, “Which means that confronting him is really the best option we have to try to get what’s happening for real.”
“You would know if he were lying to you.” Akashi lifted his eyes on his mate as he heard that sentence — not a question, Kuroko was sure of his words, he truly believed them —, “If you feel like doing it, you should talk to him.”
It was bitter, the alpha’s laughter, but his hand was warm in his mate’s.
“Right now, what I feel is the least important part of the equation, Tetsuya.”
***
Masaomi was nervous and Seijuro was still high in his sharpened senses.
He had cursed, that morning, when he had heard the song and his bones had shifted, his human form leaving place to the huge frame of a copper wolf, but luckily his mutation had finished an hour before the appointed meeting with his father at the local hotel. Now, his senses still better than average, he could hear the man’s fastened heart-beat from his seat across of him, in the hotel dining room.
The gods knew how much Tetsuya had fought against Akashi facing his father alone. He had also bitten him just a few hours before when they were both in their wolves form, a display of disrespect against the Alpha that had shocked everybody, and then trotted away alone, unpunished thanks to his status as the Alpha’s mate.
Seijuro knew his lover was just worried, but Masaomi had already seen Nigou; he would do everything in his power to keep all the other members of his pack away from those eyes. It was their only chance of survival if things went bad. He was already compromised, but there was still a possibility that the others were unknown to the scientists.
“You think I lied.”
Akashi didn’t bother changing his cold expression when his father’s empty voice reached him.
“Call me an idiot, but it’s not my first instinct to trust someone who pointed a rifle at me.” He forced a poisonous smirk to seem pleasant when one of the waiters eyed them from afar, probably to check if they were ready to order, “I don’t expect you to understand. I guess it’s a wolves thing.”
Seijuro saw his father flinching at the word, but before he could answer back a young man was beside their table. They gave their orders, Akashi coldly and never moving his eyes from his father and the man simply pointing the first thing on the menu, clearly nervous.
When the waiter was far away from them, Masaomi leaned on the table. Seijuro refused to meet him and stood leaning against the backrest.
“They have no idea about who could be…like you, I can promise this. They studied the reports of the forest guards about wolves activity and pointed out anomalies that they thought could be due to…”
“…paranormal activities?, werewolf infection?” Akashi arched a brow, savoring his father’s paleness, “Seriously, I was expecting something better from you. Those are hardly scientific bases for a research to start.”
“I don’t know many details of how they did it, I only know they are willing to investigate any single anomaly.” Masaomi straightened noticing how the couple some tables from theirs was eyeing them, “This will be the fifth place they check, with no results ‘till now.”
Seijuro clicked his tongue, waiting for a young girl to lay their ordinations in front of them. “Did you tell them about me?”
“No!”
It felt weird, Akashi couldn’t deny that. All his life, his father had been this invincible fortress of strength, sternness and coldness; yet now here he was, desperate to be listened to. Such a change sounded suspiciously too sudden to his eyes, yet he felt now, like a revelation, all the time he had spent away from his house.
If Masaomi really had changed, he had had ten years to do so.
Weird, indeed.
“When will they be here?” Seijuro sipped on the red wine in his glass, hiding his tension imagining his lover’s scolding for such a stupid gesture, drinking alcohol in front of a possible enemy.
The relief that filled Masaomi’s face forced Akashi to drink more, hoping to forget that sight.
“Probably in a couple of days.” the man turned immediately more serious, clearly focused on collecting his thoughts, “They’ll set a camp in the forest and check the area. According to their schedule, they’ll stay here ten days, to study the wolves, and if nothing comes up during that time, they’ll move on to their next destination.”
“Which would be?”
“Somewhere in Akita, if I’m not mistaken.”
Akashi hid his shiver when he heard Murasakibara’s birthplace. He hated the pack that had thrown Atsushi away claiming they couldn’t feed such an hungry wolf, but if they were to be discovered everybody of their species would be in danger. He folded the information away to dwell on it later.
“And what will you do?” Masaomi seemed to falter at that, and Seijuro arched a brow at him, “What? Were you expecting me to come back to you like a good obedient son?”
He couldn’t help the poison and the mockery in his voice, and honestly he didn’t even try. He watched and savored his father’s lost expression.
But when Masaomi spoke, all his calmness left him and he almost flipped the table to a side.
“You have a son…” and Seijuro was on his feet, fists clenched and eyes burning.
“You will go nowhere near my son!” he hissed, far too conscious of all the eyes on them to fall to his instincts and kill the man in front of him. “Trust me,” he added, in a lower but still dangerous voice, “if it were for me, you would have never even seen him to begin with.”
“Seijuro, I know that what I did…” Masaomi stood up too, but Akashi took a step back and he didn’t finish his sentence.
He just watched his son storming out of the restaurant.
***
“Seijuro?!”
“He’s not lying. He may have changed but I know him and he would have never lowered himself that much for a lie.”
“… They are coming for real. For us.”
“They have yet to get us, Tetsuya, and I won’t let them.”
“Come home soon, please.”
“I’m on my way.”
***
Two days went by fast as they worked on preparations. It had never happened that ten days had passed without the forest’s song calling for them, so it was safe to assume they would have changed while the researchers were in the forest so they had to be prepared.
Kuroko and Midorima stocked a ten days worth food and medical supplies for Momoi and she installed hidden cameras, working on solar energy, in all the places that could have been adapt for a camp. The cave of the bear they had taken down that winter was still empty and Aomine and Kise worked on it to pretend it was the usual den of the local wolves, completely normal wolves. Murasakibara worked on the meat from their previous hunt, skinning it and cleaning it and cutting in a way that would hide it was from animals that one could hardly find in a normal butchery or supermarket.
Akashi spent time with Nigou.
He wanted to help, really, but it wasn’t safe. His encounters with his father had called too much attention already and Masaomi was still in town so he couldn’t possibly go there. It was quite probable that the researchers would hear about him in town so by no mean there could be voices of him roaming around the forest suspiciously. He wanted to help, but he was tied.
So he sat on the floor, legs crossed, with his kid in his lap playing with a firefighters trunk toy and figures of superheroes and kept on fixing his hair, caressing his belly, kissing the crown of his head or his temples. He hadn’t realized how much he needed to feel his son in his arms, safe and sound, ‘till when his father had spoke about him.
“You have a son…” Yes, he did. He would have never let anybody hurt him.
“Akashi.” He turned and Aomine stared at him with a dark expression from the doorstep. “They’re here.”
***
With Nigou in the living room, eating a snack with Murasakibara, all the others holed up in Momoi’s room. The place now looked like some hi-tech lab or an hacker’s den, with monitors everywhere and wires literally hiding the floor from sight and the lights all dim.
All the screens showed black and white static images, but one.
“It’s the place beside the river bend, south-east from here.” Aomine frowned, “I wouldn’t camp there, too many animals that need to drink and hunt.”
“They might be researchers but they don’t look like explorers in any way.” Kise cocked his head to a side, watching two of them poorly trying to put up a tent, “Could it be we worried for nothing?”
“Better safe than sorry.” Midorima scoffed from behind him, fixing his glasses on his nose, “They may not be good at living in the forest, but they did almost find us.”
“What are they saying?” Momoi pressed some buttons at Akashi’s words and everybody else shut up to listen when a cracked sound, with a lot of rustling background noise, came out from a couple of little loudspeakers.
“It’s the seventh time already that you build it up, how can you still not know how it’s done?!” was growling a feminine voice, the girl with short hair — brown? — staring at her comrades’ fight with the tent, “I swear all the wolves in Japan must be laughing at us!”
“Well,” a third man, with black hair, beside her added, “you could say they’re… howling with laughters!”
“Izuki, go die!”
Akashi stared at one of the two men with the tent trying to kick the creator of such a…distasteful joke. Then he looked at Tetsuya.
Tetsuya looked at him. Then everybody looked at everybody.
Everybody finally looked at Midorima.
“I said ‘almost’!”
***
They took turns in monitoring the situation with the researchers, but aside from a bunch of accident, those people seemed clumsily armless.
Momoi’s cameras were positioned perfectly so they always knew where to go to switch their form as to not be seen by the researchers. They also dared to appear in some of those men’s cameras to let them know the wolves were there, alive and completely normal, and with some difficulties they managed to let those poor excuses of hunters find the cave. Masaomi often came by the hunters, claiming he had been in the area for some business and pretending to be interested in the process of researches. Akashi didn’t let anyone come anywhere near the camp when the man was there, but that was it.
By the fourth day, they seemed already set to leave and move on to Akita.
On the fifth, came the storm.
***
They woke up in the middle of the night at Nigou’s terrified scream. Kuroko and Akashi ran to the kid, but Aomine and Kise stared out of the window.
The night sky was pitchy black, with no stars or moon, covered in a thick layer of dark numbs that more often than not lit up with pure white flashes. Cracks of light broke the scenery to fall on the ground with rumbling bangs, so loud all the windows trembled and vibrated.
“The forecaster didn’t say anything about this.” Kise’s eyes flickered, following the flashes of light with restless uneasiness, his body slightly hunched toward Aomine’s, whispering.
“Weather changes fast here.” he was answered, but Daiki’s eyes were darker than usual, his voice cold, “I bet those idiots didn’t consider that.”
“Maybe with this weather they’ll leave early…”
“They won’t.” Both the men turned when Atsushi’s voice called to them, but the other just frowned. “Sacchin says to go to her room. Mido-chin is calling Kuro-chin and Aka-chin.”
Aomine and Kise shared a look, but said nothing as the three of them moved to the girl’s room.
Akashi and Kuroko were there already, the second holding Nigou tightly to his chest, but all the eyes were on the screen Momoi was pointing at.
The hunters were struggling to keep their tents in place, water hitting them mercilessly, while the girl shouted orders and tried to keep Masaomi near them.
“Akashi-san stood back to talk about abandoning this area. The rain caught them by surprise and they chose to wait for it to calm down, but now…” Satsuki’s voice trembled slightly, but she gulped and went on, “A thunder hit one of the trees close by and it fell on their quads.”
Another rumbling sound underlined the silent implication of those words as everybody in the room froze.
“They can’t go back to town.” Midorima’s voice was firm, steady. He was stating a fact everybody in the room was already aware of. It didn’t mean he didn’t sound dreadfully shocked. “They’re stuck there.”
“The storm will last the whole night, probably longer.” Kuroko’s eyes darted to Akashi’s skull, fearfully eyeing the way the other was staring at the screen with the trembling human figures. Masaomi is there. “They can’t last that long.”
“They could reach the cave Aominecchi and I prepared…”
“They think wolves are in there, they won’t jump straight into their den just to escape some rain, nanodayo.”
“Well, they don’t have many fucking choices, you know?!”
“Dai-chan, calm down!”
Nigou whined against his parent’s chest at the sudden outburst of many loud voices and just with that everybody shut up again. Glances were exchanged, but in the end they all laid on a single figure.
“Aka-chin,” For once, Atsushi’s voice wasn’t bored or childishly needy; just accepting, willing to trust his alpha’s decision on the matter, “what do we do?”
I don’t know! Akashi wanted to scream. He wanted, really, he needed to, but his eyes were fixed on his father’s frame and he couldn’t do it. He didn’t want to save Masaomi, he had no reason to, felt no need, but there were other voices there, voices of men and women desperate to survive, scared. If only they had been told to leave immediately, if his father hadn’t led them on just to steal their results away, they wouldn’t be there. If Seijuro and the likes of him didn’t exist, none of that would be happening.
He turned, his eyes looking for the only steady point in his life, and Kuroko adjusted the kid in his arms just slightly, but then nodded briefly. It wasn’t a suggestion as much as an assurance that whatever Akashi would have chosen he would have received his mate’s support.
He turned to look at the screen again, where a blond woman tried to shield a younger guy with pitchy black hair from a falling broken branch.
“We can get to them cutting south est.” he declared, turning his back to the screen, to his choice, to move to the room door, “If we take the shortcut, we should make it within ten minutes.”
“The forest is restless.” Midorima offered, a bit nervously, “Ten minutes is more than enough for her to start to sing.”
Akashi stopped on the doorstep, just long enough to turn and stare at them with empty yet determined eyes.
“Then, Shintarou, let’s hope she doesn’t.”
***
They were ready to leave in five minutes. One of the hunters had gotten hurt to a shoulder slipping on the muddy ground, but it didn’t look serious according to Midorima.
Nigou was back asleep in Momoi’s arms and Kuroko kissed his head gently before reaching his lover on the backdoor exit.
“You should stay with him.” Seijuro tried one last time, but he knew the other wouldn’t listen.
Tetsuya kissed his lips with the same delicacy he had used for their son, a hand caressing his cheek, before finally shaking his head.
“You need me.” he just said and they both knew he wasn’t talking about physical help in rescuing the hunters.
They both also knew he was right.
Akashi kept the door open and they both ran out, following their comrades under the pouring rain and rumbling thunders.
***
Akashi had been right and ten minutes were enough to reach the place the hunters were at.
Midorima, too, had been right.
They had just reached a good hiding spot behind some trees, in a higher position than the chaotic camp, and were looking down at the scattered humans, yelling and running, when the song had covered everything.
It was still as charming as ever, but this time the forest seemed nervous too, pained by the weather torturing her, and resisting its desperate call was more difficult than usual.
“Wha-t…” Aomine growled, his shoulders breaking in a scaring position and black fur growing on his face and arms, as he strived to keep his human form, “…do?”
A roar, an howl, clothes exploding and a big wolf in pitchy black fur was there in front of Akashi, sided by a golden one and a huge gray one with purple eyes. Seijuro heard, more than seeing, Midorima growling lowly behind him as he too changed his form, but he resisted it some more.
His teeth were gritting, but he couldn’t care. His nails were digging paths in the mud, fists clenching onto dirt. His eyes flamed as he tried to think.
A gentle touch, a humid nose nuzzling against his cheek, and he turned slightly. The mere gesture made his spine jerk and break into an unnatural position.
The big white wolf staring at him with beautiful azure eyes was a soothing reminder of the human Seijuro wanted to be, and he let out a growl as he roared “Carry on!”.
The song exploded in his mind, his blood boiling and all his bones shifting, changing. His skin covered in warm fur and suddenly he was there, right where he belonged.
The copper wolf, the Alpha of his pack, a creature of freedom that could not be tamed, not even by his own father.
He growled to his comrades just once before jumping forward and running toward the humans. They followed him without hesitation.
***
Kagami Taiga was trained to fight. That was what he was in the mission for, but how was he supposed to defeat the storm above their heads?
Takao had hurt his shoulder, Alex’s forehead was bleeding from where the branch had hit where when she was trying to protect Himuro and the hard disks with all their datas, Hyuuga and Kasamatsu were trying to help him keep the tents in place and Riko was trying to keep Akashi-san, the only civil, safe from harm but…they didn’t even know what they were doing! They had no idea what the best course of action was, they weren’t prepared! And without the quads, they were stuck there.
He cursed, yet his boisterous voice went lost, even if not in the noise of the thunderstorm. His voice went lost, covered by the powerful raging howling of a wolf.
Kagami’s head snapped to his back, he saw them.
Six wolves, different in size and color of fur and eyes, scattered on the open road the quads used to get there and spreading like a fan to surround or corner them. They seemed completely indifferent to the rain battering them and were all growling lowly, ears pulled against their heads and tails low in between their legs.
Aggressiveness.
Everybody had frozen, but when the central wolf, and objectively beautiful exemplar with reddish fur, the color of copper or bricks, stepped forward, closing in on them, all the humans slowly tried to regroup.
All the researchers had their hands out, showing no harm, and moved slowly to stand in a line side to side, facing the beasts.
“Akashi-san!”
Riko’s voice was low but enough to snap the man out of his reverie. He kept the eyes glued on the golden-eyed wolf but stepped back with the others.
“Why are they coming out now?” Hyuuga hissed slowly, “They should be hiding in their cave with this weather!”
“Maybe we disrupted their hunting paths.” Himuro sounded honestly terrified, “If they haven’t been able to find other preys lately, it’s possible they’re trying to find some animal that hadn’t been able to get a shelter from this rain.”
“That would mean us, right?!” Kagami gulped, but moved a hand to grip on Alex’s arm and calm her down despite her scared voice, “The guns are…!”
A loud bark, threatening, made them all jerk and the red wolf seemed to be glaring at Alex herself now, as if he had understood her words.
The guns won’t work with this weather. Taiga knew that. They couldn’t possibly shoot accurately with the wind and rain and the tranquilizers would be useless if they weren’t able to follow their targets.
Kagami was going to open his mouth and run it, just to try to do something, when something weird happened and the white wolf trotted forward, moving to stand beside its copper companion. He growled lowly before turning his head to sniff at the air, looking for something, and then he pushed the other’s side with his head.
It was a weird interaction because Kagami was sure the copper wolf was the Alpha and wolves very rarely defied orders, but this time it worked and the beast seemed to calm down. The others behind them were still guarded, but the red and the white one took careful steps closer.
Hyuuga moved slightly to shield Riko, whom the wolves were approaching, but it didn’t change anything and they just switched to him. Everybody sucked their breaths in, praying that stillness would be enough to dissuade the predators from the hunt, but the wolves kept on moving forward.
And then, extremely carefully, the copper wolf bit at Hyuuga’s jacket and pulled slightly.
So slightly that the man fell forward a couple of steps, but enough for him to keep his balance. The white wolf scoffed a bit before moving to nib, far more gently, at Riko’s shoulder bag.
“What…?!” Kagami tried to say, but the black wolf in the bag growled at him. Then sneezed in his direction. Taiga decided he didn’t like that bastard.
“Uhm, is this…normal or…?” Takao looked quite bewildered, but even Izuki, the real expert of wolves behavior, seemed just as lost.
“I think they’re…asking us to…follow?”
“Asking?!” Hyuuga’s voice was clearly a bit too harsh because the wolf let go of his shirt to growl at him, “Okay, sorry!”
Riko looked down on his wolf when the other animal did so and the white beast let go of her too, but nuzzled the back of her leg to prompt her to keep on moving forward and so she did, ending up beside Junpei. The two of them shared a look, but just then the wolves move again.
With the copper and the white one ahead, moving masterfully through the scenery of foliage and mud and trees, the other wolves sided the little group of humans, leaving them with no other choice but follow them.
With the rain over them and the loud thunders, none of the humans had any chance to talk, but they hurried behind the beasts that were keeping up a fast pace.
Fifteen minutes later, drenched and soaking, they found themselves in front of a beautiful wooden lodge, well kept and clean, with lights on inside, and an ever more beautiful woman standing on the doorstep, searching the woods with her eyes. When she found the wolves silhouettes, though, she didn’t scream.
“Here you are!” she called, in relief, “You found them! Good boys!”
The copper wolf scoffed at her words and the black one in the back sneezed but the animals broke their formation to trot rapidly to the girl’s feet, completely at ease with her. She seemed to check them all one by one with her gaze, but it was such a fast movement before she moved her attentions to the humans.
“Come here!” she called, outstretching a arm, “My wolves won’t hurt you, they’re all basically domestic. Get in before you get a cold.”
The wolves in question looked quite offended by the word ‘domestic’ and slipped inside the house with their drenched furs wetting the floor. The girl puffed her cheeks at them, but soon after the humans had reached her and she just moved aside to let them in.
Kagami Taiga couldn’t believe their luck.
Aida Riko simply didn’t.
***
Momoi was on the edge, but she didn’t show it in the slightest.
She helped their guests in, let them take from a huge pile of towels so that they could dry themselves, and then busied herself drying off the wolves fur. She couldn’t know how long this mutation would last, but bad weather usually seemed to prompt the song to last longer, even for days, so she wasn’t going to risk any of them getting sick. Not to mention, caressing them made her feel safer.
Ki-chan nuzzled at her temple with his big humid nose and she giggled, scratching him behind a ear before getting up and setting him free.
The golden wolf hurried up in joining his black comrade, sitting on the floor on the doorstep to the kitchen. Of the two gray ones, the bigger one with purple eyes was lying beside the fireplace chewing at a bone Momoi had given him while the green-eyed, slightly shorter, one sat beside the couch armrest, staring at the humans sitting on it and on the armchair and on the chairs, all around the coffee table, and that was his blanket, how dared they—?
“Midorin, stop glaring at our guests.” she playfully scolded, earning a low growl in answer from said wolf.
“Where are the other two?” Momoi lifter her eyes fighting the urge to simply arch a brow and glare at the audacity of Masaomi, but the man seemed to catch on her hostility immediately and hesitated before pushing it, “The red haired and the white haired ones?”
Red-haired. Satsuki was sure he had used the words with cognition, to tell her he knew, he had understood, recognized. If he thought she would care for such a little progress, he was dead wrong.
“Oh, they’re sure somewhere around the house.” She chirped instead, dismissing the question with a hand, “Sei is quite possessive of the lodge since it’s basically their second den and he’s always checking everything. And Tetsu is always with him.” She flashed him a bright smile that barely hid her smugness as she add: “I guess that’s to be expected from mates, isn’t it?”
Masaomi didn’t look particularly shocked. Well, he had seen Akashi’s son, he was probably expecting Seijuro to have a mate. Momoi honestly just wanted to ignore him, but it would have been suspicious so she just turned her back and started preparing tea to hide the trembling in her hands.
‘Dai’, the black haired wolf, scoffed and moved to reach her, sitting quietly and watching, all the while looking…bored? Was it right for a wolf?
The humans were still busy trying to stop trembling and they all flinched when a loud noise was heard from upstairs, but Momoi only groaned.
“I can’t believe it!” she hissed, turning her head to glare at the stairs heading to the second floor, but she already had the tray with mugs in her hands so she headed to the coffee table and simply served her guests. Who were all looking at her questioningly, “Sei and Tetsu are troublemakers. Whenever they find something they don’t like, they just take it down. I bet that was my new vase.”
It sounded false, to her too, but nobody questioned that.
Especially not when, with loud noises and bangs, a drawer flew down the stairs. Even Momoi yelped, while all the wolves jumped to their feet, guarded, but shortly after that the two missing beasts, the copper and the white ones, Sei and Tetsu, peacefully trotted downstairs. They bit on the loose cloth handles of the drawer — made so that they could open them even in their wolves form, if here need occurred — and dragged it loudly to the living room.
“Oh, come on!” Satsuki pulled at her hair with an exasperated grunt, “That’s D— Aomine’s drawer! He will skin you alive when he’s back!”
The copper wolf let go of the handle to scoff at her and at the shocked bark of Dai, but the white one rummaged within the clothes to pick a shirt and then turned.
Kagami looked shocked when the cloth was laid on his knees.
An outraged howling came from the black wolf, but Sei growled at him, low and warning, and he backed off, but clearly begrudgingly. Sei trotted to his side and playfully pushed him, as if to apologize, while Tetsu kept on retrieving shirts and offering them to the men sitting in their living room.
When he brought the last one to Riko, he finally trotted back to his mate and simply slumped on the floor beside the other’s sitting form. He pushed his nose into the copper wolf’s anterior leg for a moment before lying his head on the floor and sighing heavily. Sei brushed his face against the other’s ears, but stood up.
Momoi knew he wanted to be ready if anybody tried to start a fight, but Tetsu’s behavior also told her that it was unlikely for the song to stop very soon, as it often happened during heavy storms.
She moved her eyes from the couple when he heard a low whining and she found Midorima with two paws on the couch armrest and his nose sniffling heavily at the hunter sitting there. The young black-haired man looked quite uncertain of how to act and was leaning as far as he could from the animal while biting his lips, maybe not to scream.
Satsuki groaned.
“Midorin, down!” she ordered, finding out it came extremely easily to her to order the guys around. When she approached the scene, on Midorima’s offended growl, she realized the boy had been pulling his wet shirt off and had a nasty looking dirty wound on a shoulder. Shintarou whined again and she nodded. “I have a first aid kit upstairs, wait here.”
Takao tried to stop the beautiful girl, but as soon as he opened his mouth the wolf leaning over him growled lowly. When he laid back on the sofa, the animal sneezed on him before sitting back on the floor and turning his head to another side.
“What? You pretending you don’t care?” Takao didn’t know what the hell he was doing, talking to a wolf hadn’t been in his plans ever despite the very nature of his researches — there were high doubts that werewolves could speak in their animal form — but this one was impossible not to tease. He looked like a grumpy version of a domestic dog. “Didn’t know there were tsundere wolves.”
In his life, Kazunari could finally say he had been glared at by a wild animal, who then proceeded to physically turn his back at him, sitting while staring at the kitchen. The human couldn’t help but chuckle.
“Takao, be careful…” Hyuuga tried to tell him when he saw the younger man trying to outstretch a hand toward the wolf. The researcher was a good kid, but far too often he underestimated the dangers he was facing.
Before he could add something, though, the girl hopped down the stairs, kit in her hands, and looked at the man reaching out for the wolf.
Takao didn’t look ashamed or worried when he looked at her. “Can I caress them?”
“Him. But you don’t have to ask me, Midorin is all weird.” she chuckled when the wolf scoffed at her, “Not to mention, they’re not really my wolves.” She sat on the coffee table, bending forward to press a gauze with anesthetics on Takao’s left shoulder. “I guess it’s more like they’re my pack.”
“Like, you’re one of them? That’s so cool!” Takao’s eyes were sparkling, but directed on the wolf instead of the girl he was talking to, “That was my childhood dream! Uh…?”
“Momoi Satsuki.” she cheerfully introduced herself, a hand still pressed on the wound as he used to other to point at the animals in the room, “This is Midorin and that one is Mukkun; they are Sei and Tetsu, as said; and those ones are Dai and Ki. I usually use honorifics with their names, I know, it’s weird.”
“Not really.” Takao was still in owe, his fingers hovering a inch above the gray fur of Midorin, still unsure, “This one looks like he would only answer by ‘-sama’.”
Momoi’s laughter came with the little stinging of a needle, but Takao couldn’t care less. He was still considering if touching Midorin-sama would result in a amputation of his hand or not.
“Trust me, that’s more like Sei.” A scoff from the copper wolf, “But he’s quite proud himself, indeed.”
“How did you end up, uh, in their pack?” Riko’s voice was casual, maybe a bit embarrassed, but when Takao turned he saw something on Momoi’s face, a dark shade of challenge, the kind of shadow one could see on a mother’s face as she threatened the kids who bullied her son, or something like that. He gulped, for a fight between these two women suddenly looked worse than any confrontations with werewolves.
“It’s been a bit of a long ride.” Momoi’s voice stood calm, soothing, but her eyes never left the sewing she was doing in her patient’s flesh. Takao really wished they would have kept the discussion for a moment in which he wasn’t that close to become a collateral. “At first, it was just me and Dai, we grew up together since when he was still a cub near my neighborhood just outside of Tokyo. When I moved out of my parents’ house, he followed me. With time he joined this pack and, well, the others just took me in as if I was part of the package.”
It was a weird story, Takao knew that, but he couldn’t shake the feeling that it was true. The way Momoi’s eyes softened at the sides when she was talking, the way her gaze flew to Dai for a moment, how her hands stood firm.
Takao wasn’t in the group because he knew a lot about wolves. That was more of an hobby and Izuki was the real expert, that zoologist. Kazunari was in the team because he had good eyes; very good eyes trained to spot lies. And there were none in Momoi.
He communicated so at Riko with a look and the squad leader made an annoyed face, but turned to look at the other gray wolf that was now sniffling insistently at Himuro, probably because he was their cook and had some weird smell on him.
He moved his eyes back in front of him when he heard a low growl and he saw Momoi glaring at the wolf that had finally turned again to stare at her.
“Listen here, Midorin,” she hissed, as if it was perfectly normal for her to bicker with an animal, “you’ll be allowed to criticize my nurse skill when you’ll have opposable thumbs.”
The offended yelp from the green-eyed wolf at her tone made Takao burst out laughing, unable to hold himself even when that earned him a scoff from the animal. Momoi look satisfied and finished her work quickly before starting off on bandaging him. Midorin still growled low, almost under his breath, as he stared and in the end Kazunari couldn’t help it.
He outstretched a hand and laid it on the wolf’s head, in between his ears.
“Takao!” Izuki jumped, terrified that the gesture of dominance would anger the animal, but he stood, dumbfounded, when the wolf just turned to stare at Kazunari, without moving from under his touch.
“Scratch him behind his ears.” Momoi giggled conspiratorially, “He loves it, but he’s too much of a tsundere to come and ask for cuddles.”
Takao obeyed and much to his dismay the wolf grumbled something but stood where he was, allowing him. Okay, his childhood wishes were all being granted in a single night.
“You’re quite a cutie, aren’t you, Midorin-sama?” he chuckled.
Midorin’s green eyes stared at him, unwavering and deep, wild yet calm, like a forest in good weather, apparently innocuous but filled with raw strength. They were beautiful and Takao’s hand moved to caress the wolf cheek.
Momoi observed. Midorima was rarely one to give trust away, even after a very long time, but she had noticed him observing the human through her screens all those nights. She couldn’t say what, but something in this Takao had caught the werewolf doctor’s interest, and it was weird. Quite endearing, to be honest, but weird nonetheless.
“Uhm, I don’t mean to be rude, but…” Momoi turned just to meet the weirdest pair of eyebrow she had ever seen, “…whose clothes are these?”
Kagami Taiga. She had made some researches on him and he was an ex-firefighter. After his deposition had been taken about what he claimed to be a werewolf attack he left the department to join the research team about those creatures. He was strong, but not the smartest; definitely less of a threat than the girl, Riko Aida, chemical engineer specialized in genetic researches, so Momoi simply put up a big smile as she got up from the table.
“Oh, my flatmate’s.” she said, waving the matter away with a hand, “I live here with six other guys, but they’re all away now.” She faked a worried look to the storm outside the window, being careful to keep her back turned to Takao. “Seijuro and Ryouta were supposed to come back from their photo-shot around midday; Kuroko — maybe you’ve met him — is the local kindergarden teacher so he’s probably still at school because he slept there yesterday, with the bad weather promising hell; Shintarou and Atsushi went to the other town to gather supplies for the local pharmacy yesterday and should come back tomorrow.” Proud of the amused look in Sei’s eyes, Momoi pretended to bit her lower lip, “I just hope they didn’t try anything funny… They’re all very protective of me, I wouldn’t be surprised if they tried to get here despite the storm just because I’m alone.”
“The roads seemed out of use.” Alex supplied, following her gaze to the raging sky, “Only a suicidal bastard would try to get up here with this weather.”
“Oh, it wouldn’t surprise me.” Momoi chuckled to herself, shaking her head, before sitting on the floor.
As soon as she did that, Ki happily trotted to her side and sat behind her to sniff at her hair and leave them all uncombed. Dai growled something when Mukkun left Himuro alone to run in front of Satsuki and started helping in the process of ruining her hair. Sei scoffed at them before moving to sit at her other side, not exactly joining the game but looking down on the members of his pack fondly, his tail sometimes moving slowly.
“Isn’t it dangerous? Leaving a girl up here all alone, I mean. If anything were to happen…” Himuro tried to say, but a pink glare shut him up.
“I am safe.” Momoi declared, her hand caressing Ki’s side as the blond wolf bounced all around her to reach and caress Sei’s chest as the other arm circled around Mukkun’s neck, “I have these guys here to protect me.” A smirk flashed on her lips before being replaced by the usual smile. “Not to mention, it wasn’t me who was in trouble just now, was I?”
The ashamed silence made her laugh as Mukkun positioned himself to sleep with his head in her lap and Ki went instead to bother Sei, trying to get him into playing.
***
Izuki had to admit, he had never seen wild wolves acting like that. He had seen Riko’s eyes looking for his, but hadn’t dare to answer yet. It was true that the wolves he had sneakily studied his whole life didn’t act like that, no wolf ever studied acted completely like that, but it was also true he had never had the chance to find such a peculiar pack.
Under insistence, Momoi had told them the general story of ever member of the pack. Sei, the Alpha, who started off as a lonely wolf and earned his place stopping a fight between Midorin, the best nose, and Mukkun, the biggest stomach; Dai, her childhood friend who was the strongest hunter, and Ki, the eternal puppy and honestly the most beautiful wolf Izuki had ever seen; and Tetsu, the Omega who left his previous pack to join this and ended up the mate of the Alpha, effectively climbing the hierarchy of the path to the second-in-command position.
Tetsu was a rare white wolf and Izuki would have sold his soul to check to see if it was albinism or if the result of breeding, but he had vanished. It took them all a bit to realize, but when Momoi had started talking about him, they had noticed he had left the room at a certain point.
“He found a pup some time ago.” Satsuki had sighed, “Our pack is rather strong,” and nobody questioned the possessive adjective, not with her sitting in a pile of fur and warm bodies, “so we probably scared and chased away the pack the used to be here. Apparently, they abandoned a pup and Tetsu just went and chose it was his.” She rolled her eyes when someone growled at her, “And Sei’s.”
Sei scoffed, satisfied, and moved to lay down once more, his head on Ki’s, the blond snorting happily in the middle of a pile of friends, but as he did so his golden eyes pierced through the most silent man in the history of humanity.
Masaomi stared back, but the wolf closed his eyes and pretended to sleep.
“May I ask where is the pup?” Izuki asked, frowning, “It’s weird for wolves to allow humans near their families.”
“But I am not human, not for them.” Momoi retorted patiently, like a teacher to a stubborn kid, “The pup is usually around the house, he’s a troublemaker really, but with you around Tetsu hid him and they’re probably together now. Sei is the Alpha so he has to keep an eye on the possible threat and protect the whole pack; the duty to defend that pup in particular is Tetsu’s.”
Izuki nodded pensively and Riko hesitated, for a moment.
Thunders were heavy outside the lodge.
***
When dinner came around, Momoi offered them to share their supplies to see if there was enough for all the humans to last ‘till the end of the storm.
“Three days more.” she said, looking at the sky with Dai’s heavy body plopped on her back, head and paws dangling from her shoulders, after the umpteenth bicker between them, “It shouldn’t last longer.”
“We have can food mainly, I fear.” Riko sighed, “We were supposed to go to the down to restock tomorrow, but it should be enough for three days.”
Momoi shrugged, before heading to the freezer and pulling out the biggest steak Kagami had ever seen. Hyuuga tensed when Mukkun immediately ran to her, but the animal didn’t attack, simply started whining as if asking for some as his comrades ignored the whole thing.
“I have more.” she declared, “These guys here always hunt for me too.”
“…Whose meat is that, exactly?”
Momoi just smiled mysteriously at Himuro and went to cook.
***
When she was done with the food, all the wolves literally ran away from the kitchen.
Ten minutes later, the humans understood why.
***
With the combined effort of Kagami and Himuro, they managed to save something edible and even to wash away some of the bear-y taste, so they ended up eating with Momoi talking eagerly about that time her wolves came home with an whole bear and a puppy.
“I swear I’ve never seen Sei so smug before.” she said and the copper wolf, with his paws on the window as he stared outside and sniffed at the glass, suddenly turned to look at her, “He likes having a pup around, the two of them together are adorable.”
Sei went back to his four legs, but didn’t approach the group. He eyed one person in particular, then growled and went away, climbing upstairs where his mate was probably hiding with the pup.
“Wolves have great instincts.” Masaomi moved his eyes on Satsuki, who held his gaze coldly as she went on, “They know whom they can trust.”
***
Momoi offered the humans the various rooms of her flatmates.
Midorin growled and huffed to prevent Kagami from entering one, but immediately calmed down when Takao tried to get in and in the end allowed Kasamatsu too. Kagami ended up sharing with Himuro in a room that had tons of porn magazines hidden under the mattress, while Hyuuga and Izuki found themselves in what looked like a rebellious teenager room filled with posters of a blond model they had never seen. Masaomi was shown a room with the longest bed man had ever built.
Riko and Akex were accompanied to the only room with a double bed but when the door was opened they were met with big blue eyes. Four of them.
Tetsu, white fur and big body slumped on the floor, had a stuffy toy in his mouth and was keeping it still while a little cub, black and white in fur and no bigger than his head, tried to snatch it away or to attack it. The pup was definitely determined, but his efforts were quite useless.
“Oh, my, he’s adorable!” Riko couldn’t help herself, especially when the cub noticed them and fell on his butt for releasing his grip all of a sudden.
Momoi giggled. “Sorry, Tetsu-kun! We need the room.”
Tetsu barked once, letting go of the plush, but then he got up and grabbed with his mouth the cub that was mid-air in a attack to his motionless prey. The younger one let out a disappointed bark when his adoptive parent started trotting toward the door with him, but his pain lasted little.
As Momoi moved to a side, Sei slipped in and grabbed the forgotten toy, eliciting an excited sound from his pup, before following his mate out of the room and downstairs.
The whole exchange had been quite fast, Tetsu clearly anxious to bring his cub away from the humans, and Momoi smiled at the other girls as if nothing had happened.
“Have a good night!” she wished before moving to her own room.
Riko said nothing, but a shiver ran down her spine when she noticed, in the crack of the open door before their host hastily closed it again, a scarily huge amount of camera videos.
***
The storm, as predicted, didn’t get any better, not that night nor the following day. In the morning, the humans found the wolves all sleeping in a single pile in the living room, with Tetsu and his cub in the middle as if to protect them.
Takao and Izuki fell in love with the little pest in the little moment they got to see him, chewing at Sei’s ear while the bigger wolf pretended to be still asleep, before Tetsu picked him up with his mouth and disappeared upstairs again, this time slipping into Momoi’s room as she was getting out.
For being domesticated and calm, the wolves seemed still wary of the humans and definitely not keen on leaving them alone with what they probably considered the only female of their pack.
Takao was permanently stuck to Midorin, watching him with eyes as wide as a child’s even when the animal was doing literally nothing, while after the previous night Mukkun was always around Himuro, as if he expected the human to produce a steak out of thin air. Dai and Ki playfully fought on the floor, much to Momoi’s offense, and Sei went upstairs to his mate and pup as soon as Masaomi joined the others downstairs for breakfast.
Riko asked questions. Many questions. About the wolves, about Momoi, but even about her supposed flatmates. Every time, Takao would shook his head at Aida discretely, assuring her that their host was telling nothing but the truth.
At lunch, both Sei and Tetsu came downstairs, this time with the pup — Nigou, Momoi told them — excitedly running after them and picking himself up after slamming his face on the floor dead on for taking the stairs with a bit too much eagerness.
Sei barked once and all the wolves seemed to change. They ran to their Alpha and he scratched on the entrance door once, head turning to Momoi.
The girl hesitated for a moment, biting her lower lip, but got up and went to open it.
“You better be careful.” she muttered as she watched the wolves running out without looking back.
“Where are they going?” Izuki asked.
“Hunting.” Riko answered.
The look she and Momoi exchanged was as cold as the thickest ice and as unreadable as the Sphinx’s face.
***
The wolves came back late at night, far after the humans had their dinner, with their furs occasionally stained in deep red.
They brought back part of their hunt, included a well recognizable head of deer that seemed to be there as a trophy or better, and Riko shivered at the thought, like an alibi of sort.
Sei looked at her as if saying that here were her proofs. They had killed animals and not humans. They were normal wolves.
Masaomi looked greenish when he saw the copper wolf breaking his prey’s skull between his fangs, blood dripping through them and golden eyes shining in a clear threat. Immediately after that, the Alpha reached his mate and pup and the little one cheerfully dragged his dad into a fake-fight that had the white wolf scoff while bringing the deer’s horns away from the play ground.
***
On the third day, the humans woke up to something weird.
First of all, the sky looked slightly better, even if it was still raining. Second, there were humans in the living room.
The hunters stood frozen in seeing the group of men casually sitting on the couch and armchairs, chatting calmly while drinking tea. Drinking tea!
Well, to be fair, the tallest one was eating biscuits with a grumpy expression, but that wasn’t the point.
There were four of them. The tallest one with purple air, another giant with glasses and green hair and a blond beauty that was whining childishly at a tanned man picking at his ear with his pinky.
“GUYS!”
Kagami barely made it to a side before Momoi ran downstairs and jumped on the back of the blue-haired man, an arm open to lay her hand on the blond’s head.
“Oi, Satsuki, don’t shout! Lil’ Tetsu just fell asleep.”
“It was such a roller coaster, he was still so energetic.”
Momoi laughed and then turned, proceeding to introduce her four friends to the group of hunters. There was a moment of silence as the two groups studied each others, then…
“Oi, Satsuki! Why are they wearing my clothes?!”
***
The lodge looked littler with all the person inside, now, but at least the wolves were nowhere to be found.
“They don’t like when there’s too many people around, especially with the puppy.” Momoi explained with a shrug, “With the weather like this, they woke me up in the middle of the night to be left out. I guess they’re back to the cave.”
“I hope you didn’t let them sleep on our beds again, Momoi.” Midorima’s stern voice matched his pose, arms crossed and back straight, as he glared at her.
“Don’t worry, Midori-…ma!” Riko frowned: did Satsuki just hesitated with her friend’s name?, “Takao-kun slept in your bed!”
“What?!”
“Eheh…” Takao had the decency to look a bit uneasy, “Sorry about that, it was kind of an emergency.”
“Isn’t someone still missing?” Everybody’s eyes moved to Masaomi as the man stood on his feet in the middle of the room, his gaze flickering nervously from Momoi to her human friends, as if testing how much they knew and how much he could ask, “I thought…”
“You can quit playing games.” It seemed like everybody flinched as the cold yet clearly mocking voice interrupted the older Akashi and when they found the source, it was like a collective breath was being held. In the deafening sound, a young man with striking red hair and cold scarlet eyes walked into the room while fixing the buttons of his black shirt cuffs. He looked elegant and refined, commanding even in jeans and bare feet as he walked up to the older man. “It’s not like I wasn’t expecting you to show up sooner or later, and in any case there are hardly any secrets in this family, father.”
The humans all gaped, too busy wrapping their brains around the word ‘father’ to notice Momoi’s fidgeting. Better, to notice it was fake.
“I’m sorry, Akashi-kun.” she said, careful not to let Takao see her face clearly as she moved closer her friend, “I know I shouldn’t have let…”
“You don’t have to apologize, Momoi.” The change in attitude was clear, voice gentler and softer eyes as the man looked at the girl, “You could hardly let all these people out in that weather just because he was with them. I understand.”
“I’m still sorry.” she pouted, latching onto the younger Akashi’s arm as she turned to glare at the older one, this time with no pretense in the slightest, “I definitely don’t like him, though!”
“I appreciate it.”
The air was tense after that little exchange, everybody staring at the two Akashi confronting each other.
Seijuro’s eyes held the look of a nobleman staring down to a mouse. If he didn’t scrunch his nose at his father, it was probably due to his usual polite and cold demeanor, but it didn’t mean he was doing anything to hide the distaste running in his mind. It was enough to froze Masaomi on the spot, unable to talk, and that scared Riko, honestly.
She had met the older Akashi as a businessman. Ruthless, merciless, cold and calculative, sometimes to the point of utter disregard of people and their efforts. He was not a man that could be stared down, or so she had thought, yet here he was, completely unable to say a word in front of the his own son.
Not that he blamed him: the guy was simply terrifying, despite the quiet way he was posing himself.
“PANCAKES!”
Masaomi visibly flinched at the scream willing the air, while everybody jerked in surprise. Momoi was the first one to realize and she giggled with a little smile, letting go of the arm she had taken hostage.
Seijuro closed his eyes and took a deep breath, but Riko widened her eyes when she saw the man’s ice melting simply in a little but warm smile. He didn’t even turn before a little bundle flew through the room and jumped onto him to latch itself around his waist.
“Dad, pancakes!” A kid. A kid with messy black hair that defied gravity and big round eyes that shone at the mere thought of the sweet breakfast; a bright smile demanding attention just as much as his loud childish voice, “Papa promised pancakes, I want pancakes!”
“Yes, yes.” Seijuro smiled even more, his hands grabbing at his son’s sides to pull him up in his arms, simply ignoring Murasakibara’s “I want pancakes too, Aka-chin…”.
“Blueberries pancakes!” the kid shouted directly into his father’s ear, bouncing with happiness while grabbing at his father’s red locks.
Akashi simply helped him climb to his shoulders and sitting on them — as if it was nothing!, Kagami couldn’t help but wonder how he could because the kid wasn’t that little, after all — before moving to the fridge and pulling out the ingredients he needed.
“Where is Papa, Tetsuya?” he asked instead, careful to ignore his son’s surprised expression at being called with his first name instead of his nickname.
“Papa’s brushing his hair.” he declared, eyes scanning attentively the way his father was cracking eggs, “It looked like a crows’ nest.”
Seijuro snorted at what was probably definitely not an exaggeration of his lover’s bedhead.
Masaomi stared.
He had never been a great father and he had always known it, far before everything with his son had happened; he simply had never thought it was a skill that he needed to polish in any way, since he had more than enough money to provide his son with someone else who could take care of all his needs. With nothing even close to an example, though, Seijuro still acted like a doting parent and his son was showing him an easiness that could only come with a great deal of affection and trust.
His son had been cautious around him in a way Nigou wasn’t.
Seijuro was letting his son pull at his hair and blubbering endlessly about everything that came to his mind, but it was clear that he was listening attentively despite working on breakfast, because he would sometimes offer a sentence or two to the conversation that would either make the kid think or laugh. Soon enough, the sweet scent of the pancakes filled the kitchen and the smell called someone over.
Masaomi wouldn’t have noticed him if Seijuro hadn’t turned to the entrance of the kitchen and Nigou hadn’t yelled, excitedly, again, but when he moved his eyes a beautiful man was joining them.
He was shorter than Seijuro and with messy azure hair that identified him immediately as the infamous ‘Papa’. The eyes were the same of Nigou, but his complexion paler, and he lit a smile on the face of his lover by just walking around in a long white T-shirt that reached his mid-thigh.
“Good morning.” he called quite apathetically, apparently to no one in particular, as he walked up to his lover and son. And that seemed to be it because he just wrapped his arms around Seijuro’s waist and leaned with a temple against his back, in between his shoulder-blades, with no obvious intention to move anytime soon.
Nigou giggled from his higher position, before turning to lay his chin on his dad’s head.
“Someone is grumpy.” Seijuro dared to say, just to flinch when he received a quite clearly harsh pinch to a side that made him add, almost apologetically, “I added vanilla to the butch.”
That seemed to settle the other’s mood enough to draw out of him a satisfied sight. Aomine hid a “whipped” in between faked coughs that ended as soon as Seijuro, with all the luggage of his family still latched on him, turned to show him a threatening smile.
The little Tetsuya was placed to eat his pancakes at the coffee table, eagerly stuffing his mouth with a blessed expression under his fathers’ half resigned and fond expression.
The kid seemed to notice only then how many eyes were on him.
“What?” he asked, tilting his head to a side.
“Tetsuya.” His other father, Kuroko, didn’t change his expression in the slightest, but his voice sounded unmistakably with a ‘disappointed-mom’ tone. “Don’t talk with your mouth full. Are you one of Momoi-san’s wolves?”
Seijuro had to hold back from smirking at his lover’s voice. With those simple words he could see the doubt fading even more from Riko’s eyes: she was the only one still suspicious of them; as soon as he gave up, they were completely safe. And right now, she was too busy finding Nigou cute to think of him as a possible were-wolf.
“Yeah!” Seijuro had to hold back from flinching, this time, but luckily his son was smart like him. “I’m a great wolf howling to the moon!”
The way Nigou swung his fork, completed with a piece of pancake, to the sky made everybody smile, clearly taking his words as a child’s game. It didn’t mean Akashi had any intention of risking more.
“Alright, Tetsuya.” he said bending to ruffle the kid’s hair, “The great wolf now needs to finish his breakfast and go brush his fangs.”
“But, Daaaaad…!”
Akashi arched a brow. Nigou stuck his lower lip out. Seijuro crossed his arms. Tetsuya’s eyes went big and watery.
“You’re not winning this, young man.”
“Meanie!”
In the end, grumbling and with the promise of a lot of games later, little Tetsuya ran upstairs to brush his teeth, accompanied with a relieved sigh from his father.
“It’s in your family line.” For the first time, Kuroko’s face shifted in expression, showing off a slightly annoyed frown. “The sons always come out to defeat the fathers. You should start watching your back, Seijuro: just imagine when he’ll hit puberty.”
Seijuro shot him a dirty look that would have killed half the men in the room, but Kuroko ignored him completely to collect his son’s dish to go wash it. Momoi, Aomine and Kise snickered.
***
The weather kept on getting better through the day and by lunch the rain had stopped, despite the sky still being a dark shade of gray.
“You’re leaving in the afternoon.” Seijuro announced sternly before Kuroko brought Tetsuya in to eat, “Murasakibara and Aomine will drove you to town with our trucks, you can get the local mechanic to go retrieve your quads when the ground has dried enough for the tow truck to make it.”
Masaomi seemed to have something to say, but instead he pulled his lips in a thin line and stood silent. Riko didn’t object. Takao fidgeted, but nobody said anything.
When Tetsuya trotted in the room, heading at full speed to his father’s lap, the decision had been taken.
***
The hunters were done with collecting their stuff pretty soon. Masaomi kept on stealing glances to his son, the mate and his grandson, but none of the three acknowledged him back. Kuroko spent most of the time playing with the kid, with Seijuro joining them when he wasn’t answering Riko’s questions about the wolves, since both him and Satsuki had decided that giving her the informations she wanted was the best way to kill her last suspicions. The other wolves, just helped or simply stood out of troubles. Midorima actually fixed Takao’s bandages, much to Momoi’s offense.
By three in the afternoon they were ready.
As Akashi had said, Aomine and Murasakibara were behind the wheels of two big trucks, waiting for the hunters to get in, but little Tetsuya was running around, looking at all the humans as if curious all of a sudden.
When he stopped in front of Masaomi, Seijuro stiffened considerably. Kuroko laid his hand on his lover’s arm, trying to calm him down, before before they could call him back, the kid spoke.
“Did you make my dad sad?” The innocence that filled both the question and the blue eyes staring up at him made the older Akashi fidget nervously for a moment and that was apparently enough of an answer, because Nigou tilted his head to a side. “If you did, you should apologize. It’s a bad thing, didn’t you know? You should say sorry.”
Masaomi had never been fond of children, in general. His son had been just another predetermined step in following the family’s expectations and, while he had developed some kind of affection for him, he had never felt that kind of parental love ‘till the moment when he had realized his son — his wolf son — had left forever. When he started wondering about his late wife, things had went downhill and the need to find Seijuro had become an obsession, something he couldn’t help. The day he had seen his son in town, heard a child calling him “Dad” so affectionately, he had realized Seijuro had always only called him “Father”. He hadn’t expected it to hurt so bad.
The kid staring up at him was the most normal child you could find. A bit messy, a bit clumsy, a bit defying, but that was okay. He was clearly happy and loved his parents deeply, with the honest affection kids used to give out so easily, without wondering much about worthiness or not, just as that brat wasn’t thinking much about forgiveness or not: to him, apologizing was enough to fix everything.
Masaomi wasn’t a child, he knew sometimes a “sorry” wasn’t enough.
So he simply outstretched a hand, laying it on top of Tetsuya’s head carefully, just for a second. It was still enough to make Seijuro snap and take a step forward as if ready to bite his hand off, so he let go of the little touch almost immediately.
His palm tingled with Nigou’s warmth and, turning his back to the lodge to reach for his seat on the trucks, Masaomi wondered if he had ever done something similar with Seijuro.
He knew he hadn’t.
***
Seijuro couldn’t help but scoop Nigou up in his arms as soon as Masaomi had turned his back to them. His heart was racing in his brain, rendering even the simple act of thinking difficult as he felt torn in between an animalistic instinct to kill and a more human part of him that was screaming to run away with his son, somewhere his father would never find them again.
Nigou laced his arms around his neck an laid a quite fallen face on the crook of his neck.
“I wanted him to apologize, daddy.” he muttered and Akashi couldn’t answer, but only ran a hand through his hair as if to erase the touch of Masaomi.
He didn’t know what he wanted, instead.
Kuroko’s arms wrapped around them both of them as soon as the two car vanished down the path to town.
***
Aomine and Murasakibara came back with a little surprise.
“He wouldn’t leave!” Daiki was screaming impossibly loudly, clearly exasperated, while pointing with a finger to a grinning black-haired man.
“Sorry, I couldn’t!” Takao scratched his head sheepishly, but didn’t look apologetic at all, “Midorin’s eyes caught me, I cannot leave them!” His face looked a bit more serious when Momoi tried to approach him, clearly determined to shoo him away. “I was quite surprised today. Midorima has unbelievably similar iris, and here I thought it was quite an unique color.”
Momoi froze. Kise and Aomine bent forward slightly, ready to attack. Murasakibara moved to stand behind Takao, cornering him.
Midorima didn’t move of an inch from his spot behind Momoi. His constipated face said enough about how conflicted he was.
“I expect you didn’t tell the others the reason of your prolonged stay.” Everybody turned, surprised, but Akashi looked just as calm as ever, his son sitting on his shoulders and his ‘I-already-knew-this-would-have-happened’ expression that was honestly grating on Shintarou’s nerves right now. “That would give us quite some troubles.”
“Not a word~!” Takao sung, “I told them I realized I wasn’t cut for this kind of adventure and that my injury opened my eyes on that. They think I’ll take a train tomorrow morning to go back to Tokyo.”
Momoi bit her lower lip. When her female intuition had kicked in the first time she had seen Midorima staring at Takao through screen, she hadn’t expected this. Turning and staring at Akashi, she realized he, instead, had.
Seijuro moved a step in and to a side, showing the open door to the human.
“Kuroko arranged a bed in Shintarou’s room. You’ll have to do with that for now, but we’ll see about a better solution after things quiet down a bit.” he said, as if talking about the weather. Finally, he smiled a bit. “Welcome to our very dysfunctional family, Kazunari. I have a feeling you’ll fit right in quite rapidly.”
Takao’s cheerful exclamation covered Aomine’s shocked “He stays?!”. Kise seemed dumbfounded for a while but soon enough he was grinning and had a arm swung around the other’s neck, whispering something in his ear that made them both giggle and then stare at Midorima as they went in.
Akashi chuckled, while moving inside the house, at his friend’s outraged “What was that?!” and Atsushi’s demands for food, and he kept on smiling even as he felt a tug on his hair.
“Dad, what did that mean?” Nigou asked, his voice laced with confusion but excitement, and Seijuro smiled.
“You’ll have a new uncle from now on, darling.” he said, but his eyes were focused on the figure descending the stairs and approaching them.
Kuroko looked impassive, but there was softness at the corner of his eyes.
“Midorima-kun looked at him the way you do with me.” he said softly, “I was hoping he’d come back.”
They added nothing because the house was suddenly filled with a bunch of loud people chaotically trying to get into a whole new set of gears for their recently enlarged family, but they didn’t need to.
Next heat season, Aomine would probably cry.
***
Extra:
“Come on, Shin-chan! You can’t know if we don’t try!”
“For the hundredth time, Takao, you won’t become a werewolf if I bite you!”
“Yeah, at most you get pregnant.”
“Daiki.”
“Daaaaaaaad, what’s pregnant? Can I get pregnant too? I want to get pregnant!”
“Aomine-kun, I’m giving you three seconds. Run.”
Authoress’ notes:
I wanted to add Masaomi, that was the only thing I wanted to do and it was enough to take the life out of me -.- Sorry, I tried to forgive him, but I still can’t. That’s the most he’ll ever get from me (and Sei).
I hope you liked it, Anon! There is less wolf-time than usual, though ^^”
please tell me i'm not late! maybe knb hunger games au? if you can? thank you!
Happiness in Hunger Games!AU? What is that?, I’ve never heard before!
Don’t worry, Anon, you were just on time! ;D I got inspiration for this suddenly today and I wrote it immediately, I hope you’ll like it! ^-^
Here it comes!
Here’s the winner
Quietness had since long lost any form of reassurance and held now only the tense stillness of a desperate prey, waiting in fear for the final strike to come at them. There was not a single breath of air, nor any sound from the trees at his back, and even the water of the lake he was sitting on the shore of didn’t make a sound.
He was sitting with his knees against his chest, undressed of all the weapons he had used and used and used again in that mere week of blood. His chin laid heavily on his crossed arms as he breathed slowly, careful not to disturb the silence. The sky above his head was pink in the upcoming dawn and not a face had yet appeared on its fake surface.
Soon enough., he thought heavily and just with that, as if evoked, he heard faint footsteps approaching him from the trees behind him.
“I had hoped to see your face in the sky before it came to this.” Kuroko murmured, but without turning. At that point of the game there was just one person the sounds could belong to.
“How rude.” but there was no bite in that voice, only an endless fondness with no reason left to hide. Kuroko didn’t even bother lifting his eyes from the water as Akashi sat beside him, a knee bent to his chest to hold up one of his arms, the other stretched on the grass. “But I can’t really complain, since I had hoped for the same.”
Tetsuya felt like crying as those words sunk in.
How did they get to the point where they hoped for each other’s death? Why did they have to get pulled into such a cruel game? There were so many others, people who deserved to die and people whose names returned around ten or twelve times in the bowls. He didn’t regret offering himself in Shigehiro’s place, his friend was barely ten, he deserved another chance, but Akashi… Akashi’s name was only on one single piece! Why did it have to be him?!
“I actually did know you wouldn’t have died, though.” he said instead. Lying, because he had thought so many times of Akashi’s death, he had looked up at the sky to see the faces, to see whom had left them, and every time he had hoped to see Seijuro’s face up there, hoped that it wouldn’t have come to this.
“You flatter me, Tetsuya.” Akashi seemed so relaxed, so at ease. Kuroko thought that was to be expected from the male tribute of the First District. “I was actually quite sure you would have survived too.”
Tetsuya didn’t want to, but he lifted his eyes to see the other man had turned his head to him and had a soft smile on his broken lips. He realized just then that he was covered in bruises and wounds. Akashi had been through many fights, winning every one of them, while he…
“An assassin’s skills are nothing to be ashamed of, Tetsuya.” Seijuro’s voice was almost scolding and the arm he had propped on his knee slipped down to lay its hand on Kuroko’s back, “You fought in your own style and won your way up here. It doesn’t matter how you did that. This is a game of life-or-death where all is fair.”
The cold brown eyes of the female tribute from the Tenth District, Aida Riko, stared at him lifelessly from the head dangling gruesomely from her sliced-open throat and he almost puked. All is fair.
Akashi seemed to notice his reluctance and pulled back his hand with a sigh. He acted all cool and collected, but Tetsuya knew he must be feeling desperate too.
“I am sorry for Mibuchi-san.” Akashi’s friend had been forced to take his sister’s place after she killed herself to avoid the Hunger Games. He had been killed the day before and Seijuro had immediately avenged him, but still. He must be hurting.
Seijuro hummed an affirmative sound. Once more, he seemed indifferent, but his eyes unfocused for a moment, lost on the water surface, at the mention of the other. When he returned to himself, he shook his head slightly.
“Why don’t we stop this here and now, Tetsuya?” Kuroko tensed, but when Akashi turned to him he had still a calm expression and his pose was relaxed, nothing like his feral fighting stance, “You’ve been waiting for me almost for four hours and you’d want to make me think you hid that knife underwater for no reason at all?”
I’m sorry. Akashi-kun, I’m sorry.
He was fast, the fastest he had ever been, pulling out the second knife from under the rock behind him. The mere fact that Akashi knew it was there, meant the other weapon was completely useless.
Seijuro didn’t dive for the knife underwater, though, and Kuroko knew he had made a mistake the second his back hit the hard ground, one arm locked under him and against the earth, and the blade he had managed to get pulled in between his and Akashi’s chest. His wrist hurt from the strength the other tribute was using to keep it still and so he closed his eyes, waiting for the strike to come.
It didn’t. Akashi chuckled in his ear and he frowned.
“Did you get mad being here, Akashi-kun?” he asked, panting from the pain he was in.
“I already were, you don’t need to worry about that.” Seijuro had beautiful red hair and scarlet eyes and they both hovered above Kuroko’s face, but after seeing all the massacres within the game he couldn’t really help but fear all that red. It was sad to realize that even if they could both leave that place, he would have never been able to see Akashi they way he did before. “Tetsuya, look at me.”
Kuroko did. He looked at Akashi’s face pushing away all the memories of blood he had, but that way he recollected others, memories that shouldn’t have existed in the first place, and his eyes teared up unwillingly.
Seijuro obviously noticed.
“Don’t cry, Tetsuya. What about your emotionless mask?”
“I am so-rry, Akashi-kun…” he cried, even if he shouldn’t have, even if all the memories he had, he should have kept them hidden, “I am sorry… I-I never wanted this to happen…!”
Akashi moved just slightly. He didn’t let go of Kuroko’s armed hand, but moved so to sit on his stomach and used the other hand to caress the phantom’s forehead, brushing the pale blue locks carefully out of his skin.
“I know, Tetsuya.” he said, and Tetsuya shook his head because how could he be so…serene?! They had killed people, they were murderers! They were going to…! He had been trying to…! “We just couldn’t do anything about this.”
Kuroko shook his head, refusing the simple answer, and Akashi sighed but kept on caressing his face. Their time was running out, they both knew it. Soon enough some new trap would be set for them, some new monster released. They had to hurry up.
“Tetsuya, what about Momoi?”
Kuroko jerked and his eyes shot open and Akashi knew he had managed to pull the right string.
“H-how…?”
“Before Kise killed him, Haizaki was saying he had managed to get her with that bomb of his, but I knew I hadn’t seen her face in the sky with the other victims so she had to be alive.” Akashi’s smile was soft and Kuroko felt even dirtier, worse, unworthier. “I knew if there were someone here who’d help another person, it had to be you. How critical is her condition?”
Tetsuya gulped his tears down, desperately melting in Seijuro’s touch, his last thread to hold on to perfectly severed to let him fall into the oblivion.
“She needs help, soon, but…” he gulped, “…she can make it. I… I know she can. She has to.”
Momoi, sweet Momoi with a big smile on her dust-covered face, calling “Tetsu-kun!” so loud the whole district could hear her, being the woman he could have married if only one day he hadn’t met… Momoi couldn’t die. The only reason he hadn’t let himself die the very first day was to protect her.
“You would have killed me.” Akashi’s voice brought him back to a reality where the sky was slowly turning blue, just like his eyes, “And then, you would have killed yourself. It’s just the three of us now: if we had died, she would have been determined the winner and they would have saved and healed her. ”
Shame painted Kuroko’s face red, but he nodded. He hadn’t had the courage to kill Momoi when she was already hurt, when she was smiling and trusting him. He should have, but he couldn’t and when he had realized the only other person left was Akashi the whole world had come crushing on him.
“Did Daiki ask you to?” Seijuro looked unfazed by the thought he had chosen her above him, “I bet he tried to offer himself in your place after discovering she was the female tribute.”
“Tetsu, please! You have to help her! You know how Satsuki is, she… she can’t fight for herself! You need to help her, for me! I-…!”
“Aomine-kun, I know. I will protect her.”
Kuroko’s eyes fell close for a second as he nodded.
“You did realize that to save her you had to die, didn’t you?”
Once more, Kuroko nodded.
The silence stretched even more as they stood and the only reason they hadn’t wolves trying to gulp them down already was probably because that show Akashi was putting up for the cameras was getting to the audience. Tetsuya had never been good at manipulating people that way.
Akashi shook his head, but then lifted it to look at the sky. He seemed to be thinking for a while, or maybe searching for something, before his soft smile came back to his lips.
“Remember the first time we met, Tetsuya?” and the voice was soft and fond and caring, but Kuroko jerked all the same.
“Akash-…!” he tried, but Seijuro didn’t let him finish his warning. Before Tetsuya could prevent him from saying out loud before everyone’s eyes that they had known each other — breaking the rules — the other had bent on him and was kissing his lips.
Akashi’s father came once per year to check on the transportation of coal from the Twelfth District to Capital City and starting one day he brought his son along.
Akashi was a stubborn brat with fiery red hair that couldn’t be tamed, just like his soul. He saw Kuroko almost starved to death in a corner of the street and had escaped his maids’ surveillance to come and share his meal with him.
They had met every year after that, and when they were twelve they kissed for the first time. When they were sixteen, on the verge of their first Reaping, they had had their first time together. They wanted to make sure not to have any regret, in case the worst were to happen, but in the end they had only made it harder to forget.
When they were eighteen, they met again in the training gym of the Tributes of the Hunger Games.
When Akashi pulled back, Kuroko was panting and crying again.
“Your father will kill you when you’ll go back home…” he whispered, but Akashi chuckled and shook his head.
“This week taught me there are worse things than my father, wouldn’t you agree?” Once more, he was caressing Tetsuya’s cheek.
That wouldn’t have been a bad way to die.
“I wished we could go back to that time.” he whispered, sighing at the way Seijuro’s face softened.
“But we can’t.” the red-haired tribute reminded him and Kuroko closed his eyes as he readied himself for the strike, Akashi’s hand twisting his wrist to shape its form.
Kuroko was ready to die. He had been since the beginning, he hadn’t had any useless hope of survival. Barely, he thought of Shigehiro screaming he was sorry as if it was his fault they lived in such a twisted world, of Momoi bleeding alone in the forest, of Aomine probably screaming at the screen for his best friends were dying under his eyes. He thought of Akashi Masaomi and wished he had choked himself with whatever expensive wine he was drinking when his son had openly kissed another man from the lowest of the districts.
“Tetsuya?”
He took a deep breath and nodded.
“I will see you later, my love.” Akashi’s hand caressed his face once more before slipping to his wrist, “Hopefully, in a better place.”
Dying felt warm, Kuroko thought at first.
Then he realized he wasn’t the dying one.
His eyes shot open and met Akashi’s face, still calm and serene but pale, so pale. Redness filled his sight in the shape of Seijuro’s hair, Seijuro’s eyes, Seijuro’s lips, Seijuro’s blood.
He had his hands covered with it.
“Sei-kun!” he shrieked and he knew he shouldn’t have, he shouldn’t be shocked or desperate or crying, but still when Akashi’s body slipped to a side he rolled with it, finding himself sitting on his stomach and ignoring completely the loud cannon bang that claimed the life of one of the tributes.
When Akashi chuckled, blood spilled from his mouth.
“How imprecise…” he muttered, “I am not dead yet…”
“Sei-kun! Sei-kun!” Kuroko couldn’t stop calling the other’s name. He knew it made no sense, but he couldn’t stop. Akashi’s trembling hand lifted to his face and caressed his cheek leaving behind a sticky trace of blood.
“Don’t be silly, Tetsuya…” he whispered, voice lower and lower, “You knew we couldn’t both make it, after all…”
“Don’t…! Sei-kun, don’t…! Don’t…!” Don’t what? Don’t die?, don’t leave me?, don’t go? Kuroko realized he was so disgustingly selfish, in the end; far away from the image of a martyr people liked to apply to him.
“T-Tetsuya.” Akashi smiled, as if nothing was happening, “I lo-ve you.”
Time tickled with Kuroko’s tears and sobs and trembling, ‘till when Akashi’s hand slipped off of his cheeks and fell helplessly beside the rest of the body.
The cannon shot again.
… Again?
“How imprecise…”
…No…
“I am not death yet.”
Kuroko turned, his hands still on the handle of the knife buried deep in Akashi’s chest and there it was, his handsome, beautiful face, projected on the day sky. Seijuro’s signature smile, the one telling the world he would be soon ruling it, those eyes that seemed to see the future, and then it was gone, far too soon.
…No…
In its place, came the pretty face of a lovely girl with long waved pink hair and big pink eyes filled with soft affection, a smile that could lit up the whole Capital City.
…No…
And she was gone, too.
“Capital City, you have your new champion! All the glory to the winner of the seventy-fourth edition of the Hunger Games: Kuroko Tetsuya!”
This time, he screamed.
Authoress’ notes:
So, basically, Kuroko tries to save everyone and ends up being the last one to survive… I’m a monster.
And yes, Riko has been killed by Kuroko. Also, Kise, Haizaki and Reo died here, but Aomine is safe, if nothing else. ^^”
i looove ur fanfictions, they are "omg, my right to live has just dissapeared, pls, why this is so beautiful". What woulkd u say about Asylum AU where both Aka and Kuro are patients? And they help each other? maybe angst with fluff
Oh, my, you sure you want ANGST from me? *evil* You sure you want FLUFF from me?! *desperate*
WARNINGS: Contains Eating Disorders issues, Mental Issues, Hallucinations, Suicidal Thoughts, Self Harming Episodes. Basically, not cute stuff at all… It’s Asylum!AU, guys, what were you expecting?
Joking, I loved writing this, even if it took me a long time, sorry about that ^^”
ASK BOX IS CLOSED TO REQUEST, I’M ONLY DOING THOSE THAT CAME IN DURING THE LAST OPENING.
Here we are:
Four Walls World
Being admitted into a mental institute led inevitably to two simple news, a good one and a bad one.
The bad one, any right to belong to the civilized psycho-normal society disappeared like cotton candy into water — and he was not ashamed to admit he had spent an unhealthy amount of time watching stupidly cute videos of animals on his therapist’s tablet, one of the little pleasures he was still allowed —. The bitterness felt while realizing that the sweet taste of freedom inevitably melted into an endless sea of judging and scared eyes was enough to make anyone wish they had never hoped for a second chance to begin with.
The good one was: nobody dared to defy someone who had been in the asylum for more than twelve years.
Akashi didn’t care about the first aspect, as he was too busy bathing in the second.
***
Akashi Seijuro had been eleven when his father had ordered his maids to pack his things and had brought him to the Rakuzan Asylum.
He hadn’t understood at first, even less when they had passed the huge metal gates of the place and he had seen guards locking them at their back and white-dressed men accompanying other people. They were all acting weirdly, had scary looks on their faces, and his father looked tense and uneasy — his father was never uneasy —, so he did the only thing a kid like him could do.
He had turned to his mother, asking for clarifications, but he had barely posed half the question when his father yanked him by an arm quite painfully.
“Stop it, Seijuro.” the man had hissed through clenched teeth, “She’s dead.”
***
Seijuro couldn’t understand why his father was still lying about his mother.
Shiori was always there by his side, offering him her tender wide smile and whispered words of comfort. Sure, after she had been so ill six months before, so much he hadn’t been allowed to visit for weeks, she had come back a bit different from before and she had told him she couldn’t touch or hug him anymore, for she could have infected him, but he had accepted it all.
As long as she’s here., he had thought, smiling happily as he had pulled his shogi board from his desk to his bed and watched her playfully promising to beat him this time.
His father had been very angry, that night, when he had asked why the servants hadn’t set a plate for her too.
***
“It’s a phase.” Midorima Ayato, their family doctor and one of the most known psychotherapists in the whole Japan, had told them two months later, when Masaomi had brought his son to him, “It was a huge shock. He is trying to cope.”
The phase went on for four more months, then Masaomi contacted the Rakuzan Asylum.
Midorima Ayato was now in the higher ups of the hospital and his son, Shintarou, became Akashi’s doctor as soon as he graduated, when his patient was eighteen, and he still was, now that the other had reached the old age of twenty-three.
Seijuro stared at the man, green eyes and hair, glasses, an austere pale face that spoke of seriousness and rigor. If not for the pineapple he was carrying under his arm.
Sometimes Akashi wondered who was the real mad inside those walls.
“Today’s lucky item, sensei?” he asked, a brow arched in a mock-interest, but the man didn’t catch onto his sarcasm, as always.
“Cancer ranked second, today. Sagittarius, on the other hand, ranked eighth, nanodayo.” The doctor pushed the glasses up his nose.
“I see.” Akashi wasn’t interested, he didn’t believe in fate or things like that, so he just went back to lay on his bed, lower bunk of a castle one, and crossed his arms under his nape, eyes closed toward the ceiling.
“You will have a roommate starting today, nanodayo.”
Akashi’s eyes shot open as he turned so suddenly Midorima winced. Seijuro saw the doctor’s hand running to his left pocket, but he ignored it.
“My father pays a fortune for me to have a single room.” he reminded, but Shintarou didn’t lower his gaze, “He doesn’t want people to know I…” Oh. So that was it, right? “He’s given up on me.”
Masaomi must have realized his son would never leave the asylum, so there was no point in hiding him from the world to preserve his image. He wouldn’t have to deal with businessmen of any sort, he wouldn’t ever come back.
You are a captive here., Seijuro heard the voice in his mind saying, He abandoned you here.
A shift in his peripheral vision made him sat up fast, his eyes running to the doctor and fixing there, stubbornly refusing to caress the red-haired figure that had come back, in colors so vibrant he couldn’t help but be aware of her presence.
Pills., he thought. I need my pills now.
His eyes focused on Midorima for real, demanding his medicaments without a single word, but the man was turned and didn’t get his orders.
“Here, nanodayo.”
Once more, Akashi’s interest shifted. It slipped from the tall doctor to lay on the figure just beside him, comically shorter.
The man had pale blue hair that were probably the most remarkable feature he had, atop of a blank face colored in pale shades and lightened by a pair of big blue eyes fixed on the floor. He looked disheveled, confused, and had on the white short sleeved t-shirt and trousers of the patients, but they were at least a couple of sizes bigger than him and the shirt hang loosely from his right arm, baring his shoulder. His boney shoulder.
Anorexia?, he considered, eyes scanning the kid’s thin built and the way he held tightly to his chest the bundle of a teal blue blanket. The sleeves wrapped around his wrists, covering his arms but not enough to hide their trembling. No, it’s something else, deeper.
Akashi just stared as Midorima explained the rules and pointed things out at the kid to prompt him to lift his eyes from the floor, in vain.
***
It was a rare sight, but after a while Midorima gave up. He sighed, in his dragged and low way that he used to express his deepest disappointment — one Akashi had proudly grown accustomed and indifferent to — and he turned to leave, mercilessly abandoning his new protect in the hands of the veteran of the asylum.
Once again, who was the real mad in there?
Akashi shook his head, sighing in annoyance, but pulled himself to sit on the edge of his bed and then proceeded to examine the other from head to toe. It didn’t take him much time.
The other didn’t fidget, but somehow he was giving off the vibe of tension. He stood under Akashi’s scrutinizing glare, though, and only when the man titled his head to a side, as if freed, he moved.
Seijuro stared, surprised, when the kid just walked, slowly, to a corner of the room and there he sat, on the floor, with his blanket thigh to his chest.
“The higher bunk is yours, you know?” Akashi commented, an arched brow, but the other man didn’t seem to notice and just curled more. Tsk. “As you wish, then.”
Seijuro laid back on his mattress, arms crossed behind his nape and eyes fixed on the bottom of the bunk over him. He grunted something, irritated, but closed his eyelids and tried to sleep.
***
He woke up suddenly.
It wasn’t a nightmare nor a sound, it wasn’t his mother or the memory of his father, nor it was any of the medicine he had been given. It was nothing, and that was the point.
Akashi was good at shifting his habits, his levels of awareness, his alarms, when the situation changed. He got used easily at the new routine of the asylum after leaving home, he was perfect in adapting to any new situation and that was why he had woken up in the middle of the night.
The other presence he was supposed to feel…he couldn’t find it.
It wasn’t forbidden to turn on the lights, but it was quite sure that if he did so a nurse would come running and start on questions ‘till when he would find himself with more sedatives than before. Not something he was looking forward to, so he just slipped his legs down the bed and stood still, in the darkness, to try to find the figure he had left in its corner.
He blinked, not because he needed time to adjust to the darkness, but because he needed a second to manage to fix his eyes to the other patient, as if every time they were deflected somewhere else.
The kid was still in the corner, he had fallen asleep with his head on his knees and the blanket against his chest. He was completely silent. So much, indeed, that Akashi had to get up and walk to him to make sure he was still alive.
He sat on his heels and took a closer look, despite the shadows.
The newcomer clearly wasn’t having a peaceful sleep, despite his silence, because his face was twisted in a pained and terrified expression and his grip on the blanket was tight.
Akashi couldn’t really blame him. The first night was the worst, for every one of the patients, no exclusion, regardless of gender or age or anything else. He himself could still remember his, the way he had called for his father desperately and how he had tried to touch his mother, just once, it doesn’t matter if I get ill too, mommy!, and then he had been strapped to his bed and injected with every kind of shit.
The kid was tough. He would soon be one of the few who could say he didn’t crumble down during the first night. Akashi mentally noted to tell him, the following morning, for he looked like he could take some encouragement.
Encouragement? And why would you care?
Akashi went stiff for a moment, but rapidly shook his head immediately after, as if doing so he could chase the intruding voice from his head. It didn’t work, and the voice kept on telling him he was the worst, disgusting, weak, unfit for the power, that’s why dad threw you away and left you here to rot, as he moved to his knees.
He outstretched an hand and barely caressed the other’s skin, on the back of one of his clenched hands, shivering when he found it freezing cold. He sighed, for the nights in the asylum weren’t made to wander around or sit on the floor, then he shifted to a side.
Playing the good kid part won’t bring dad to take you out from here. He has someone else now, he doesn’t care for you worthless waste of space anymore.
Akashi slipped an arm under the bent knees of the kid and another behind his shoulders and the blue-haired patient indeed was so deep in his exhausted slumber that he didn’t wake up even as he was lifted and carried bridal style to the lower bunk.
That’s your place. It’s not his. Why are you doing it? That’s our place.
The kid let out a long breath when he was laid in the still warm print of Akashi’s body and he curled on his side, the blanket still to his chest, when Seijuro covered him carefully with the sheets. He seemed to relax slightly.
Akashi shot a look at the upper bunk, wondering, but then he sighed.
He climbed up and curled up on the cold mattress, under the cold blankets, listening helplessly to the voice’s insults inside his mind.
The red-haired figure in the corner of his peripheral vision shifted slightly before he closed his eyes and, even in the darkness, he was almost sure she had smiled to him.
***
Akashi woke up to the stranger screaming.
He cursed as he jumped down the bunk and lunged on the mattress, a knee on the edge, to place his hand on the kid’s mouth, the other holding his head up.
“Shut. Up.” he hissed, dangerous as he heard the loud sounds of steps approaching their cell, “I have no intentions of getting into troubles for you, you heard me?!”
“What’s happening in here?!”
Akashi was fast letting the kid go, fast enough to beat the night guard, Chihiro Mayuzumi, in opening the window to spy on their cell. Chihiro only saw him sitting on the edge of the bed, staring straight at him, and the kid sitting in the middle, but something — probably the stranger’s pose — made him open the door and barge in, his colleagues just behind him.
“I asked a question, brat.” he ordered, holding Akashi’s glare, but Seijuro didn’t let himself be fooled.
It was hard to fear a man who read Light Novels in his lunch break.
“Nothing, obviously.” he said, sarcastic, begrudgingly resigned to some time in solitary or maybe some new pills or a sentence to never get a cellmate — to be honest, he was pretty sure he had already gotten that after he tried to gauge Taiga’s eyes out with a pair of scissors —.
“Fuck you, Akashi, this was your last chance, you know this?” Mayuzumi grunted, clearly annoyed that whatever plan to soften him up the direction had sank within the first twenty-four hours. Seijuro refused to admit that, instead, it had worked a bit. “It’s the third inmate you attack, you do realize what this mean, don’t you?”
Oh. No, he hadn’t really realized that. To be honest, he had almost forgotten about Haizaki. It hadn’t even been a fight, but the staff had considered the episode as one because his threats had apparently brought Shougo back three steps in his therapy for trust-issues.
But he couldn’t say that, so he just sneered at Chihiro, pretending not to care about his inevitable punishment.
Mayuzumi made an annoyed face at him, but then he moved forward and grabbed Akashi by an arm.
“You called this on yourself, brat.” he snorted, forcing him up on his feet, “The kid here will have your room, you’ll be moved to solitary and then…”
“No!”
Akashi widened his eyes when he felt himself being pulled backward by his shirt. Chihiro widened his eyes just as much, staring straight at something behind him, and Seijuro first saw it reflected in those apathetic grey eyes.
The other patient was holding fists of his shirt, pulling him back and away from Chihiro, whom he was looking at in plain terror.
Mayuzumi let go of him and Akashi turned, only to see a flash of something as the other man bolted away from him, pushing his back against one of columns of the upper bunk and holding his folded blanket tightly.
Akashi’s eyes widened.
If not for the defensive pose, the other’s face was completely apathetic. Even those big blue eyes, staring straight at him, analyzing every single move he made, showed nothing about the fear he had woken up to or…whatever it was that had pushed him to hold onto Seijuro. He looked completely unfazed, indifferent, blank.
Nice bed head.
Akashi snorted at the voice in his head, rolling his eyes — and unwillingly seeing his mother chuckling at the corner of his sight —. Chihiro pushed him lightly on a shoulder, clearly scolding.
“Be nicer, brat. He’s saving your ass, here.” the older man grunted, but he moved in the end, one step closer to the other patient.
Akashi looked at those blue irises flickering fast from him to the guard and back again, as if trying to keep them both in check at the same time, and Chihiro probably noticed too, for he stopped and just grunted.
“Let’s make this easier, Kuroko-san: did he attack you?”
Kuroko finally settled his gaze on Mayuzumi. It was still blank, but somehow Akashi thought it looked a bit… belligerent.
“No.” His voice was steady, but unbelievably young indeed, almost childish. Seijuro felt another pang of pity, wondering how old he might have been.
“Did he do something you didn’t want? You can tell me, he won’t hurt you anymore.”
“Aren’t you being overzealous, Chihiro?” Akashi intervened, leaning back with his arms stretched and palms flat on the mattress behind him, “Now you seem disappointed I didn’t attack him for real.”
Mayuzumi sent him a glare that seemed to be determined to burn Akashi to ashes on the spot, but before he could open his mouth again, Kuroko intervened again.
“Akashi-san didn’t do anything.” he said, coldly but firmly, leaving no room for discussion, “I had a nightmare and he woke me up. Nothing more.” He bowed slightly, never really detaching his back from the safe defense of the column he was leaning against. “I’m sorry for the troubles I caused.”
Ruffian.
Akashi moved his eyes on Chihiro, savoring the way the man slapped a hand on his face as if trying to clean away some weird mask for there. Mayuzumi looked half exasperated and half relieved that Kuroko had immediately started taking his roommate’s side, but in the end he could only nod and admonish them not to cause a ruckus like that again, then he moved back to the door and left locking it behind himself.
Seijuro closed his eyes for a second, fists clenching on the sheets at the thought of what could have happened. Solitary was even okay, but after that…
“I apologize.”
Akashi opened his eyes, only slightly surprised, and when he turned his head, he found Kuroko was staring at him dead in the eyes, completely unfazed by him and what had just happened. His thoughts must have been quite clear on his face — he could feel his eyebrow arched, indeed — for Kuroko felt the need to specify.
“I almost got you in troubles when you did nothing.” he bowed his head slightly again, “I am really sorry for that.”
Cute.
Akashi wasn’t sure who the thought belonged to. Maybe it was his, maybe the voice’s, but he didn’t stop to discover that.
“Apologies accepted.” he waved the words away with his hand, “You cleared the misunderstanding up, so there was no harm done.”
Kuroko seemed to think about those words for a bit, but in the end he nodded. His shoulders relaxed only slightly, but it was a good start. He didn’t added anything after that, as if he didn’t feel to keep the conversation going, and Akashi was quite okay with that — it had been so long since the last time he had talked with another person who wasn’t a doctor or a nurse that he was definitely out of shape when it came to ‘normal’ human interactions —.
If only Kuroko would stop fidgeting with his hands, honestly.
Akashi sighed and turned his head completely to the other, showing him his most confident smile.
“If you wanted the lower bunk, you should have just said so.”
***
Kuroko had been through a lot of bad things, he was still lucid enough to recognize that much. He had seen enough to lose trust in the whole mankind, and he had thought he did, walking into a cell in Rakuzan Asylum as if he didn’t care about what the doctors or patients would do to him.
But when Akashi looked at him like that, confident and annoyingly satisfied, with that victorious smile of his and those heterochromatic eyes shining, what could he do if not laughing?
Well, to the outside he probably looked like a little smile accompanied by an hiccup, but it was definitely a loud reaction for him.
Akashi, at least, seemed satisfied, for he laid backward even more, propping himself up on his bent elbows and half laying on the bed.
“Anorexia?” he asked and Kuroko froze for a moment.
He said the words so naturally, as if they were talking about weather, with no prejudice or else. The look in his eyes wasn’t the hesitant one of a person who is uncomfortable with the topic, but instead the challenging one of an annoying brat who knew he had just won the umpteenth game.
Maybe that was why Kuroko nodded slowly.
“I’ve never had that.” Akashi went on, shrugging, “But I had a nervous nauseas for a while. They had me going with IVs.”
Kuroko stared, simply. What could he say? I’m sorry? He wasn’t supposed to. He had no right to.
His eyes probably betrayed him though, for Akashi shook his head at him.
“It was a very long time ago, when I had just come here.” he revealed, “I was extremely…intractable, I’d say, back then. Which reminds me,” Kuroko got lost in the light when Akashi smiled at him almost fondly. It had been so long since when he had been looked at like that the last time… “congratulations on surviving your first night. You were extremely brave; definitely exceeded my expectations.”
He didn’t blush.
Kuroko didn’t blush, but Akashi definitely smirked at him.
***
Tension rose when it was time for breakfast, an hour later, and Akashi stared at Mibuchi Reo, the diurnal guard of their branch, bringing in only one tray. He thought for a moment there had been a mistake, but it wasn’t.
“Let’s go, Kuroko-chan.” the black-haired man said gently, a hand wrapping around Kuroko’s arm to prompt him up, “It’s time to eat.”
Akashi stood silent, only staring at his roommate’s face to catch any sign of uneasiness but finding none.
Kuroko simply followed Reo obediently, but Akashi couldn’t help the feeling that something was off when the door closed behind them.
***
Three hours later, Kuroko still wasn’t back.
***
When lunch hour rolled around, Akashi was brought his meal by Hayama, a blond-haired nurse who had fangs like some weird little animal and a mouth that could run on words for hours with no rest. For once, the patient felt grateful for that detail.
“Where is Reo?” he demanded, faking indifference.
The nurse immediately took the bait.
“Whaaaat, Akashi-san doesn’t like me?! But I take care of you all the time! Why is it always Reo-nee you ask for?!” he complained. Without waiting for an answer, Hayama crossed his arms, offended. “Reo-nee is in charge of the anorexic patients meals, he surveys them to make sure they eat their share.”
Akashi blinked, faking surprise.
“I didn’t know there were many of them, here.” he offered, “I thought only people with graver mental illness were admitted here.”
“Hey, that thing is a pretty grave illness too, you know?” Hayama scolded before shrugging, “But yes, the patients here are all people with other issues. Anorexia here is…collateral…to something else.”
Collateral. Akashi moved the word around in his mind, as if observing it from more than a prospective. So he was right, Kuroko was there for something else.
“Eat your share, Akashi.” Hayama suddenly said, less cheerfully than usual. When Seijuro looked at him, he was almost dark indeed. “You don’t want to end up there. It’s not a good show.”
***
Kuroko came back by four in the afternoon.
Reo opened the door with an apologetic expression, but Kuroko slipped in without sparing him a glance. He was still as apathetic as usual, but his hands, abandoned down his sides, were trembling slightly and he was once more staring at the floor.
Akashi threw a glare at the guard, who had the decency to turn away and close the door a bit ashamed.
There were red marks on Kuroko’s face and throat, painting the shapes of the hands that had forced him still with his mouth open. The right corner of his lips had broken and bled slightly, but was now crusted. His hair were disheveled and he looked lost somewhere at the bottom of his own irises, unable to come out and take control of his own body.
Akashi outstretched a hand and wrapped it around Kuroko’s waist, pulling him in between his legs, making his knees hit the mattress edge. That kid was so light…
He ignored the hard shape of bones and laid his head against the flatness of Kuroko’s stomach, there where should have been the healthy plump of flesh and puberty. He held tight, eyes fixed on the stains of food that had fell even to the lowest hem of his hospital gown.
Kuroko stared down at him, feeling almost unwillingly Akashi’s hands caressing his sides carefully.
“I am not brave…” he murmured, “Akashi-kun, I am not brave…”
***
Dinner was at seven, Akashi knew that much and guessed that Kuroko would have been forced to another meal around the time he would be brought his tray.
They spent the little hours they had talking. It was weird for Akashi, used to the silence of his lonely room, but it seemed to be just as weird for Kuroko, who often hesitated as if unsure or changed topic out of the blue just to go back to it later without any reason. Their talk brought them nothing because nothing was what they spoke about; it was an empty movement of muscles and brains, a useless attempt to fill the gaps with words and words and even more words, for there was nothing else to use.
Kuroko told him about his dog, about how he was called Nigou for he had his master’s same eyes and how he went around dressed up in the same uniform of Kuroko’s high school, and he even managed to smile a bit when Akashi grumbled something against disobedient dogs.
Akashi talked about his horse, but there was little he could tell. Yukimaru had been a present to him from his mother when she was still a colt, so that they could grow up together. He had taken care of the animal like a sibling, taking upon himself every task that revolved around her, but he was still too little when he had been taken away. He had never rode her.
Kuroko told him about the last book he had read and about his speculations on the end he had never reached and he got angry, so angry that he threw him a pillow, when Akashi spoilt him the culprit waving it off as ‘obvious’.
To appease him, Akashi talked about the only film the culprit he had almost taken wrong.
Kuroko pouted for a second. Akashi smiled for three, teasing him.
It was forced, they had no illusion about that. There wasn’t a need of closure at the base of those words, but only the desperate attempt to forget.
They tried to mend the wall the world had firstly put around them and they worked on that side by side, carefully, stubbornly determined to embrace the solitude they had been sentenced to, just to affirm themselves again, just because.
It shattered again with the clanging of the keys in the lock and Reo’s encouraging face.
***
Akashi thought, as he laid in hid bed staring at the ceiling, that it was disgustingly ironic.
They were locked up in rooms and left there to waste away, but still they, the normal ones, insisted in forcing them to abide their rules. They gave them four walls and called them their new world, but in the end they wouldn’t accept any of the rules those in the inside were stating for themselves.
Kuroko came back at eleven, slipped into his bed and let out his breath only in long sighs after even longer moments of holding.
Akashi wondered if he should go down and tell him it was alright to cry.
***
Akashi had never been good at getting up, never liked it. He used to do it for it was his duty and because if he really slept in as he wished he would later feel like he had lost too much time.
He felt like he had lost something more than time when he woke up at low whispers and opened his eyes on Kuroko walking out the room with Mibuchi.
***
“Now, what about your roommate, nanodayo?”
For the first time since the beginning of his sitting, Akashi finally found some interest in his therapist’s words. Midorima seemed relatively indifferent to Kuroko and Akashi wondered if maybe the other had been moved to another doctor, but he seemed interested in knowing how his presence had affected Seijuro’s routine.
“I wouldn’t know.” Akashi played cold, crossing his arms before his chest, “He is rarely in the room, after all.”
Midorima only sighed, apparently untouched by the hiss within Akashi’s neutral words, but the way he fixed the glasses on his nose and slightly brushed his bandaged index with his middle finger betrayed his uneasiness.
“Kuroko’s built is naturally thin and he was already slightly underweight before his problems started, nanodayo. It is of the greatest importance for him not to skip any meal and to assume the exact quantities of nutrients he was prescribed with.”
Akashi’s left eye flashed gold for a second as he clicked his tongue. “Important enough to overlook some minor injuries, I see.”
Midorima held his gaze but didn’t answer and Akashi left shortly after.
***
When he came back to the room it was midday and he found his tray on the desk and nobody to greet him back.
***
When Kuroko returned, he climbed immediately but slowly, quietly, to the upper bunk and sat beside Akashi, who put his book aside and resumed their chatting from the previous day as if they had never stopped.
Kuroko’s bruises did not appear to be fading in any way.
***
Kuroko was taken away for dinner again and brought back only late at night.
***
Kuroko grew thinner, even if he was forced to eat.
Kuroko grew paler, even if he looked up at Akashi as if he was the sun.
***
“I’ll handle that.”
Midorima lifted his eyes from the notebook in his hands and they passed through the lenses to burn within Akashi’s, as if trying to decipher the meaning in some dark and ancient enigma.
“You’ll handle what, exactly, nanodayo?” He asked the question as if he was surrendering or as if he had lost some life-threatening fight and Akashi found himself thinking that maybe, in another life, he could have possibly liked Midorima Shintarou. They may have even been friends. Perhaps.
“Kuroko.” he answered instead, firm as his body as he stood on his feet in front of the sitting figure of the doctor behind his desk, “I will handle him and his meals, so inform Reo to bring one tray more and not to bother bringing him to the canteen again.”
He took only a moment to savor the way Midorima blinked, shocked, before turning and walking to the door, determined to show that he wasn’t asking. He was stating a fact, and he was not going to bow to any compromise.
He had a perfect assortment of retorts, a fair share of reasons to sustain how he was clearly better suited than anybody else to take care of the other and he was, admittedly, even almost hoping to be able to shower the doctor with his thoughts on the matter of how the situation had been handled and every single mistake that had been done during the process.
Oh, he had so much to say about that, for as much as he liked Reo, but he opened the door and closed it at his back. Midorima didn’t call him back.
***
When seven in the evening rolled around, Reo opened the door.
Kuroko, sitting on his bed, stiffened, but Akashi got up from beside him and, by doing so, he shielded the other’s frame completely from the nurse’s eyes.
There was no fight, though. Mibuchi looked at him as if he was a brand new person and he didn’t smile as he gestured to him.
He could hear Kuroko whimpering lowly in surprise, when Reo said: “Sei-chan, come with me.”
He went.
***
Psychiatric hospitals were made to crush the individual selves. Clothes, meals, times, activities, everything was a choice of the top-down hierarchy that claimed everybody in the inside would be better without the responsibility of their own actions, would be better following the rules normal people chose for them, walking on the path that had been laid out for them by someone who clearly knew better.
Akashi felt that truth sinking even harsher as he walked down the corridors in between the rooms and spied inside, seeing only dirty mirror reflections of his own room, of his own self, of his own roommate. Not even the physical aspects of the patients seemed enough to differentiate them; Akashi got at the end of the corridor with the feeling he had seen only one single room repeated again and again and again and for a moment he honestly couldn’t call to his mind even a single one of the persons he had seen.
Blue hair. Blue eyes. Pale skin. He’s different.
He kept on walking pushing the feeling deep inside the void in his chest and he absolutely didn’t breath in relief when the door of the elevator closed behind him.
Then Reo pushed a bottom and silence filled him and when the door opened again he felt like frail glass being hit by a baseball bat.
***
When Akashi went back to his room, Kuroko wasn’t there.
He didn’t even feel angry. It was ten in the night and he was only tired.
He went to the lower bed not even bothering to get changed and slipped under the covers, pulling the blankets above his head, hiding completely.
The shadow of his mother at the corner of his eyes seemed brighter as his mind spun around the flashes of people with the same clothes merging with each other, loosing individuality to become only a single prototype of a pathetic helpless doll.
You’re no different from them. You’re pathetic and helpless and the stereotype of the category you’re part of. You’re just another face in a sea of persons the world likes to pretend do not exist.
Reo had been by his side, a hand on his shoulder trying to calm him down, trying to ease the shock of Akashi’s first time outside his room since when he had been admitted in. Sure, he had been brought to Midorima’s study but their room was the last one and to reach the doctors’ studies you only had to exit by the closest door, just one step on the left. They had walked right this time, they had seen everything, he had never seen before.
They had been to the canteen. He had seen the patients.
He had hated Reo, but he had pitied him when he had seen the paper-thin arm of a girl refusing to eat a slice of apple.
Those peoples there, the all of them who were there and left before dishes of little — so little — amounts of food and just stared, motionless ‘till when the nurses with grave expression and pained eyes moved to hold them still and force them to eat or to have an IV…those people looked like ghosts.
Akashi curled up on a side imagining Kuroko becoming just like them. Not too thin, but transparent, incorporeal, inexistent. What if Kuroko didn’t exist? Akashi shouldn’t care, he had only known him for three days, but Kuroko was him.
Kuroko was him.
He was Kuroko.
They both were the man in the room beside theirs.
The three of them were the paper-thin-armed girl.
They were all one and because of that, at the same time, they were nobody. They were nothing but their names in their folders.
You don’t exist, Seijuro.
Kuroko had to eat or he would soon die. If Kuroko died, Akashi died. If Akashi died, the girl died. If the girl…
You don’t exist.
Who was he?
I do.
***
The door of their room opened at midnight that time, but as soon as it closed Akashi pulled the covers off himself.
“Akashi-san?” Kuroko called, barely a whisper in a darkness so thick Akashi couldn’t see him and he couldn’t see Akashi.
He couldn’t see him. He couldn’t see him. They couldn’t see.
They didn’t exist.
Akashi outstretched an arm and his hand bumped against dried skin and barely covered bone before wrapping its fingers around a skeletal arm.
He pulled and Kuroko fell forward, against his chest, and Akashi’s hands roamed on his body in the darkness, giving him shape and essence.
“Seijuro.” he whispered. He wanted a name.
You don’t exist, you don’t need a name. You’ve never needed it, even before you were nothing but your father’s heir and your family’s prosecution. You don’t get to demand your name back, when you were nothing but your surname to begin with.
“Seijuro…” Kuroko repeated lowly, somehow clumsy, voice filled with a modest embarrassment for such a sudden intimacy.
Did it matter, though? The rules in there were different from the rules on the outside, they could change good manners too, and if they were to melt away and disappear, Akashi wanted someone else to remind him of who he used to be.
He pulled Kuroko with him to the latter’s bed, accompanied him to lie, standing side by side, and pulled the covers on them both. Finally, he closed his eyes and accepted the darkness.
Kuroko surprised him.
He found his fingers and entangled them with his, holding tight.
“Tetsuya.” he whispered too, possibly even more embarrassed than pronouncing the other’s name, and Akashi let out a shaky breath as the syllables danced in his brain.
He repeated it, feeling Kuroko shivering slightly in his hands, and felt relieved.
They existed.
***
They existed, but Tetsuya’s body was so thin, he wasn’t sure for how long it would resist.
***
The next day, Kuroko got up first and Seijuro stared at him as he moved to the entrance door waiting for Reo, to cover up for the fact Akashi was in his bed, and then following him silently.
Akashi watched him disappear and flashes from his own travel to the canteen made him sick, but he ignored it.
Kuroko didn’t come back for lunch and Akashi didn’t eat his, but waited, patiently, sitting on the other’s bed.
Thinking lucidly at the previous day, he knew what had been Midorima’s goal.
He wasn’t trying to push Akashi away from his idea of taking care of Kuroko, it was probably the opposite. Seijuro was starting to think the two of them had been put in the same room exactly for this to happen; for him to find a goal and for Kuroko to find the support of someone who could understand his loneliness.
Shintarou had wanted to make sure, for the sake of them both, that Akashi knew how serious the situation was, that he wouldn’t side with Tetsuya just for the sake of it, for some sort of inmates solidarity or just for some kind of rebellion against the system he had been captive of for so many years.
At the same time, the dear doctor didn’t want to openly assign he care of a patient to another one.
Midorima should have known better and Seijuro had always been good at playing in advance.
***
Kuroko came back around three and Akashi was waiting for him. They sat on the bed once more, closer than the previous day, and their chatter was as superficial and indifferent to turmoil boiling inside them.
Akashi could see his mother giggling at the border of his sight, as if implying something, but he could ignore her now. The voice in his mind, though, was strong as usual, cutting like a knife.
“Seijuro-kun?” Tetsuya prompted gently when his vision went blurred for a moment.
He shook himself out of it and forced himself to smile a bit, then he resumed talking and their joined murmurs filled the room once more and kept on doing that ‘till when the clock struck six in the afternoon.
Dinner would be served at seven, Akashi knew that so he got up abruptly, cutting off Kuroko’s last sentence, and walked to his desk.
“Koutarou should learn when to shut up, but he was saying the truth. Here, we treat patients for who anorexia is just another symptom of the hell they have been through. Kuroko-chan is no exception, Sei-chan.
He picked the tray he hadn’t touched at lunch, glad that Mibuchi was too caught up in caring for Kuroko to notice he hadn’t eaten either or enough of a good person to pretend not to.
He sat on the lower bunk with the tray on his legs and stared at Tetsuya, now sitting with his back against the wall and his arms wrapped around his bent legs, covering his chest.
“We still don’t know the details, but a friend of him tried to force him into a double suicide. We don’t know if they were together or not, but the other was clearly in love with Kuroko-chan and had chosen to leave with him.
Tetsuya eyed the food weirdly, as if he couldn’t recognize it, and seemed to pale immediately, curling up a bit more but keeping up his unreadable face.
“It’s either me or Mibuchi, Tetsuya.” Akashi said coldly and apparently only then Tetsuya realized what he was trying to do for he widened his eyes and froze.
“He asked Kuroko-chan to meet up and then to stay over at his place. He cooked for him and probably put something in the food. It wasn’t sedative, but some kind of paralyzing substance.
“Seijuro-kun, don’t.” it was all he said, but Akashi didn’t budge. He made no move toward the other but his firm stance and the fact that he didn’t retreat the tray was enough to slowly push Tetsuya more against a wall.
He looked as if he was trying to merge with it and it hurt, but Akashi refused to give up like that.
“Sei-chan, he had been lucky that he ate so little back then, because the paralysis was limited and when he saw his friend throwing fuel all around the room he managed to crawl toward the exit door and call for help.
“I don’t want them to take you down there again.” Seijuro said instead, calm but firm, pushing the tray a bit closer to the other but staying where he was, “I’m not going to let them do that.”
Kuroko glared at him, cold as the ice that painted his hair. “This is not your choice to make, Seijuro-kun.”
“A neighbor heard him and they both survived, but that other guy had already thrown the match. Kuroko-chan’s body still has a lot of scars from that fire, he is lucky he has none on his face, but he is scared of fire and now unconsciously he is sure that eating is what will kill him. If he had eaten any more that day, he wouldn’t have been able to call for help. He doesn’t even realize this, but the signs in his unconscious are clear.
“Then I will force you.” Akashi knew it, the second Kuroko’s eyes widened, that his threat came unexpected, but he kept on. He was betting heavily, he couldn’t turn back now. “And that will be my third aggression to another inmate.”
“And he shouldn’t have been able to trust other people so easily, he hadn’t opened up to any of the doctors or psychologists or even any of the friends or family members before coming here; yet he suddenly grew… attached to you. We don’t know why, we were, uh, well… expecting him to reach out to us after meeting… you… But instead he went and started talking to you like you’ve always been together.
Kuroko was smart, attentive and observant probably just as much as Seijuro, even if he was notably less ruthless. He had surely remembered their first day.
“What happens after the third aggression?” he asked in fact, eyes coldly scanning Akashi’s face to catch any sign of hesitation or lie.
“At the third aggression, there is automatically the transferring to the criminal asylum.” Akashi said that as if it wasn’t important, as if it wasn’t like a death sentence.
“To be honest, we were quite as surprised when you didn’t push him away either. I mean, we’re happy it worked out so well, but…
Kuroko was smart, ‘cause he jerked at those words.
“You’re lying.” he dared to say and Akashi allowed himself a smile that was all but reassuring.
“You know,” he went on instead, acting indifferent and playing with the fork from Kuroko’s tray, “I’ve heard people there aren’t as nice as the staff in the normal asylums. Not that ‘nice’ is the best word considering we’re talking about Chihiro too, but still.” Tetsuya was pale, deadly so, and he looked like he was on the verge of fainting. Good. “I heard from some of the other patients that they even experiment on the patients.”
That could be useful. You’re already a freak of nature as you are, you ghosts-seeing refuse of society. They should experiment you, indeed. Maybe they could fix this rotting brain of yours.
“They can’t do that.” Kuroko’s voice managed to overcome Seijuro’s mind, “Without consent…”
“Consent comes from consentient, Tetsuya.” Akashi interrupted him with a wicked smile, “And consentient comes from sentient. They take it as a given we are out of our minds, remember? They don’t need to ask consent from people who aren’t all normal in their heads.”
“Sei-chan, Kuroko-chan still isn’t eating. We need to force him, but he moves too much to put an IV in him and he starts panicking and fainting shortly after we force him to gulp anything.
Kuroko kept on shaking his head, refusing, but Seijuro knew that the image was now stuck into his mind. He gave him some time more to play it before his eyes, again and again, and then he knelt on the mattress, crawling toward him.
He outstretched a hand toward the other and Tetsuya weakly tried to swat it away, but he was too eager to go back at hugging himself, to curl in his defensive pose, and his gesture was barely stronger than a child’s hit. Akashi ignored it and just moved closer enough to lay a hand on the side of Kuroko’s neck.
Tetsuya shuddered.
“If he keeps this on, we’ll have to move him to another room and have him started into an heavier program.
“Seijuro-kun, l-let go…”
“I’m not going to.” Seijuro’s hand slipped, carefully caressing the skin to the nape, brushing the short thick hair at the base of Kuroko’s head, smiling softly ‘cause it felt like the beard Tetsuya seemed so far from growing. How old was he, again? Akashi still didn’t know., “I won’t.” he repeated, “I won’t let you go.”
Kuroko’s trembling eased slowly, it took it whole minutes for him to get used to the intimate touch, and Akashi stood perfectly still, breathing so lowly and silently it looked like he wasn’t at all. From time to time, Tetsuya would eye the tray and shudder again, but then his eyes would flicker again to Seijuro and the trembling would subdue once more.
Akashi had taken into account for Kuroko not to give in immediately, he knew it would have taken more than some pretty words, but he froze when the other exceeded his expectations completely with the most simple of gestures.
Tetsuya closed his eyes.
The faith in that single gesture was enough to throw Akashi off for a second, and in that moment, Kuroko spoke.
“He said he was fine.” he whispered, lowly, and his voice so cold and apathetic despite the pain his subconscious had been showing. “He said he had been doing better since talking with the psychologist, that the pills were helping… I thought he would be back as he was before.”
Seijuro stared at the way that face didn’t change. There was no shift in emotion, no muscle betraying any feeling; and same went for the voice, devoided of any intonation. Kuroko was blank, unreadable, like an empty shadow showing only the main shape of the person it belonged to; fated to fade away and melt, no matter the body, once the sun would set.
He was your friend. You wanted to believe he would be okay. It’s normal, Tetsuya, you’re just a human., he wanted to say, but didn’t. He wasn’t sure Kuroko would be happy to know he was already aware of what had brought him there. It was a private matter, something Akashi himself wouldn’t have wanted anybody to hear about if not from him in person.
It’s just because that’s all you are, Seijuro. You’re nothing but your illness, by now, and you’ll never be anything more. You’re your twisted mind and your wasting brain and in your pathetic whim of pride you hold onto the only thing you have left to declare yourself different from anybody else in here. And by learning about Tetsuya, you’ve possessed the very essence of his nature. You violated him in the worst way. You’re so disgusting.
Kuroko’s hair were soft under his palm as he slipped his hand upward in a clumsy caress. He moved, gently moving behind Tetsuya’s crouched form, spooning him from behind as the hand he had used to touch his hair went instead under the other’s waist, to help him settle in that awkward hug.
“I fear comfort may be the only thing I’m not that good at.” he murmured, half to himself and half to the other, but he was glad when Tetsuya opened his eyes again and turned his head back a bit to look at him, almost amused.
“Something you’re not good at?” he asked, in the same low volume, “I didn’t think I would live long enough to see it.”
What an awful joke.
Akashi let the shiver ran down his spine and die as silence enveloped them both. Death was not something he ever enjoyed talking about, but right now it hurt really deep.
Kuroko probably realized for his lips trembled for a second, as if trying to bend downward, but were kept in their place.
What a steel willpower.
“Sei-kun…”
“I see things.” Akashi didn’t know, in any way, why he said that. Maybe because it had been so long since he had last admitted that, maybe because pretending not to see the shadows moving in the room was becoming heavy when another people was there and forced him to look around. Maybe, as the voice in his head liked to remark in disgust, it was just to clean his conscience. “People. And I can hear a voice in my head telling me to do things or insulting me.”
What an hopeless idiot.
Akashi knew rejections hurt. The pain of his father’s hadn’t yet completely subdue, but maybe that was because he was clinging to it as their last memory together. He had a feeling Kuroko’s would hurt just as much, maybe even more, for as mentally prepared as he may be, but he didn’t get the chance to prove his theory.
Kuroko simply blinked at him.
“Is that it?” he asked, “The most cliché reason to enter a mental asylum, hearing voices? I’ll admit I am a bit disappointed, Seijuro-kun.”
Akashi couldn’t help but roll his eyes a bit at that.
“And may I ask what were you expecting?”
“Something on the lines of a serial killer would suit you better, Seijuro-kun.”
“Oh, really?” Tetsuya had enough lucidity to realize that Akashi’s smile in that moment was a very dangerous and realistic threat. “Would Tetsuya be happier if I made him my first victim?”
“I politely refuse.”
Seijuro shook his head, forehead brushing against Kuroko’s nape, and hugged the other a bit tighter as he tried to hide his chuckle.
“I see. Well, it would be hard to become a serial killer based off your features, anyway. I should find someone who’s easier to find replaces for.”
“Mayuzumi-san looks a lot like me.” Kuroko slipped in, not even trying to conceal his intent, that shone clearly despite his apparent indifference in voice and expression, “I am sure he would be perfect as a second victim.”
“You really don’t like him, uh?”
“He dragged me in and told me a lot of scary things about this place.” Kuroko wasn’t pouting. Absolutely. And Akashi wasn’t enjoying it, so the elbow straight to his stomach was definitely uncalled for. “He said you would have gouged my eyes out in my sleep, and that you already tried that with another patient they tried to make you wait for your therapy session with.”
“It was barely a scratch on his cheek, Taiga just has to exaggerate everything.” He wasn’t growling, really. That was just the sound of his brain cells working on a plan to make Chihiro suffer. “So that was the reason you didn’t want to sleep on the bed the first night?”
Kuroko snuggled a bit closer to Akashi’s chest, but imperceptibly. Sometimes he still eyed the tray.
Seijuro caressed his side slowly before stretching to pull the food closer to them.
“Sei-…!”
“I’m not going to make you eat by force, Tetsuya.” Akashi sighed. Harsh manners wouldn’t have taken him far. He had laid the threat out in the open for future use, but he had already known it wouldn’t have worked at the first time. He just needed it to hang in Kuroko’s head, he would have used it later if needed. “Just try to at least get used to the smell, okay?”
Kuroko seemed to relax at his words, as if them alone were an insurance that Akashi would indeed not do anything. Seijuro wondered once more how could the other trust him so much after what he had been through, but then he thought back at his words.
His friend had had problems before, he was taking pills, still Kuroko hadn’t thought twice before going, alone, to the other’s place to eat together. He hadn’t even considered the chance of something bad happening, while everybody else — Seijuro included — would have.
“You’re so… naïve.” It was supposed to come out soft, not to scare the other, but it ended up as a grunt as Akashi hit Kuroko’s nape lightly with his own head.
Kuroko returned another elbow to his stomach.
“Am not.” he declared and Akashi’s eyes widened, because really?, but Tetsuya beat him in talking, “What do you see?”
The playfulness left as Seijuro stood silent for a bit, thinking. His hand kept on caressing the other’s side and the warmth seemed almost an illusion after all the years that had passed since the last time he had been allowed such closure with another human being.
“My mother, usually.” Why are you even saying that? Now you’re a beggar for his pity? Just how much lower do you plan to sink?, “She died when I was a kid, but I never stopped seeing her. It took me some time to realize she was not the real thing and only an illusion, but by then I was already in here. Sometimes I see things like the shadow of my father leaving, but my mother…is always here.”
“Do you still see her?” Kuroko was turned, showing only his back, but his hand moved down to grab the one Akashi had on his side and bring it to his chest. It was like he didn’t feel like uncurling yet, he was not safe, but still wanted to comfort him and it made Seijuro lean in even more, his chest against the other’s back and his leg lying against the other’s, “Didn’t they give you something?”
“They did, but the doses were always too light. I either kept on seeing her or started panicking because I thought I spotted her with the corner of my eyes, but then she wasn’t there. It was like being haunted by a ghost, a quite fitting metaphor to be honest, and when they tried with the heavy stuff I almost had an heart failure.
“It was so scary, one day I just lied and said I didn’t see her anymore.” Seijuro chuckled at his own idiocy from back then, “I thought they would have let me go home if I convinced them that I didn’t see nor hear anything anymore. But it had already been more than two years since when I had been admitted and I had developed other problems.
“It started with things like night terrors and sleep paralysis, mostly because of the medicines, and then other minor stuff. The voice in my head was pretty…forceful, back then, and it pushed me to try to do stupid things, like cutting myself with the paper from pages of books or attacking Taiga with a pair of scissors. In my defense, who is so idiot to leave scissors around in an asylum?”
Kuroko shouldn’t have smiled, but when he turned his body, still curled, to lay with his back against the wall and leaning with a side against Akashi’s chest, he was. In a sad and bitter way, but he was.
“Did the voice stop?” he asked.
Seijuro listened for a second to the string of disgusting running through his head before shaking his head.
“But I stopped listening to it.” he said, smiling a bit, “Most of the time, at least. Enough to trick my previous therapist into thinking I didn’t hear it anymore. My actual one is quite more observant, I think he knows something is not exactly right within my head.”
“You’re a psychiatric patient.”
“More than what he already knows, I meant.”
Tetsuya chuckled and he moved to rest his head in the crook of Akashi’s neck. The tray behind him couldn’t be registered through his senses anymore and he seemed to relax a bit.
“Do you still see your mother?”
“Yes.” This time Akashi didn’t hesitate, but he was still surprised when Kuroko asked him where she was.
He blinked, because he had become good at not looking at her at all, not bothering to check what she was doing or why, or looking through her as if she wasn’t there when she moved into his line of sight. It had been ingrained into him so deep it take him some time to finally move his eyes.
“The corner where you sat the first night.” he said in the end, “She’s on her feet leaning against the wall, has her arms crossed and…” he frowned, “…an arched brow?”
It was such a surprise and he was so confused by his mother’s expression that it took him a moment to realize Kuroko, beside him, was chuckling.
When he turned, though, he couldn’t see his face because Tetsuya was bowing politely…to the corner of their room.
“I’m sorry, Akashi-san.” he said, as if it was the most normal thing in the world, sending a shock up Seijuro’s spine, “Your son is too cute and I couldn’t help myself. I promise we’re not doing any lewd stuff.”
It was just too surreal for Seijuro’s weird brain to process, so when his lips opened he wasn’t even surprised to hear himself reporting: “She’s waving a hand and saying it’s okay. She likes you.”
Kuroko nodded, still looking at the corner, so intent for a moment Akashi thought he was seeing her too.
Magic broke when the door opened on Reo’s face.
“Kuroko-chan, it’s time to eat.”
***
Tetsuya watched Reo giving Akashi his lunch and taking the old tray, listened to the scolding the guard delivered for not eating and that Seijuro clearly completely ignored, then moved to follow the taller man out of the room, all without any kind of expression on his face, cold and apathetic.
Akashi wondered if hiding his emotions so much was the reason his mind had crumbled down in the end. If the explosion in his heart had devastated him so badly because he hadn’t let it out in any single way.
He wondered if, inside, he was still hurting.
***
Akashi waited patiently because he knew it was important for Kuroko’s body to develop an internal clock to get back instincts of hunger, need and will to eat, but he often shoot looks at the corner of the room, where his mother was now shifting on her feet, clearly worried.
He will be fine, you don’t have to worry, he wanted to say, but he didn’t. He could remember only flashes from the time he had been drugged heavily enough for his mother to disappear from his sight and the blackness was due to the fact that shortly after he had almost died. Both his mind and body rejected the idea of having anything to do with that stuff again.
But you threatened to force Tetsuya to eat, uh? What an hypocrite you are, Seijuro. All determined to be the prince charming who saves the damsel in distress, but in the end you’ve been lying to your doctors for years not to be cured. You’re too scared to take some pills. How old are you, exactly? Tsk. I can’t believe you’re still alive. You should just spare everybody the trouble.
Akashi froze at the direction of his thoughts. He was reading, but the hand he was using to follow the lines of words stopped abruptly and his eyes widened.
What now? Scared of what exactly? You don’t have nothing to stay anyway, if not troubling others.
He hadn’t had any suicidal thought for a couple of years now, yet here the voice was, bringing him close to the edge. He focused back on the book, forcing his mind to bring him to the world of the novel Tetsuya had recommended to him, instead of the one of his darkest parts.
Tetsuya, indeed. He’s dying anyway and you know that. He is going to leave you soon, no matter what kind of hypocritical stupid things you’re going to tell him. You should stop eating too, you know. You could leave with him and cleanse his memories about his last double suicide.
“Stop it…” Akashi bit his tongue as soon as the words left his mouth and he slammed the book closed, eyes moving to the wall. He started to count the tiles, flooding his head with numbers.
You know there’s fifty six for every wall, you idiot.
“Seijuro-kun?”
Akashi turned suddenly, eyes still wide, but his teeth softened their grip on his tongue, allowing him to let out a shaky breath, as he took in the figure of Tetsuya, with clothes a bit dirty from the food he had surely tried to refuse and some other new red mark on his collarbone and wrists.
“Sei-chan?” He froze again, but couldn’t hide it when Reo stared at him, clearly confused. “Sei-chan, what is that? What do you see?”
Akashi gulped. His mother figure was moving to stand beside Tetsuya, fussing over his new injuries, and he couldn’t stop himself from staring at them too.
“An asshole beating a kid.”
***
“Seijuro-kun, you didn’t have to.”
Akashi ignored Tetsuya’s worried voice by brushing his face against his chest.
They were back on Kuroko’s bed, under the blankets waiting for he lights to go out, but this time Tetsuya’s arms were around Akashi’s shoulder as the other kept his head on the mattress, not on the pillow, just to hug the other’s torso better. The teal-haired patient didn’t seem to mind that much as he sometimes caressed his head and Seijuro needed support.
He had been signed for another round of sessions with the social psychologist, to discuss about his way to bond with others and the dynamics that he was developing since the addiction of another element to his little universe. Basically, they wanted to see if the presence of a person he had been growing protective of would turn him into a possessive, obsessive and/or violent person.
“It’s just another notch on my belt of mental issues to talk about at a work-related dinners once I will be out of here.” he grunted sarcastically, “Lucky me.”
Kuroko didn’t answer this time and Akashi simply took it as a sign he didn’t want to talk about the matter — and he didn’t either — so he just closed his eyes and breathed deeply into the scent of the other.
He was shaken awake when he felt a cold pair of lips on the crown of his head.
***
Needless to say, he didn’t sleep at all that night.
***
Needless to say, Midorima noticed.
“Oha Asa predicted some Sagittarius would bring troubles to Cancer, today, and I knew it had to be you, nanodayo.” he grunted first thing as Akashi moved to sit on the chair before his, clearly annoyed, “It was too good to be real.”
Seijuro rolled his eyes, but didn’t answer and Midorima glared at him.
Why don’t you tell him the truth, uh? Hypocrite.
“So, would you tell me about the cohabitation with Kuroko, nanodayo?”
“I want to be with him at his meals.”
***
As expected, it was a ‘No’, but Midorima’s red angry face had been worth the attempt.
***
When the second week of their cohabitation ended, Akashi realized he had opened up to Tetsuya more than he had with all of therapists in all the years he had been there.
When the second week ended, Tetsuya was at the edge of the danger-zone, according to the hospitals standard.
***
Akashi watched Kuroko showering. They were each in their personal little, squandered bathtub, with two nurses helping them as in “making sure they didn’t try to do anything dangerous or get hurt in any way”.
Tetsuya’s bones were so thin a fall would have been enough to break any of them, that was what Reo had whispered to him, but Seijuro had no troubles believing it.
“How much more?” he asked lowly as Mibuchi soaped his hair.
The nurse sighed.
“Three days, no more.” he murmured, “At the rate he’s losing weight, that’s the maximum we can wait before sending him to the ward for eating disorders permanently.”
Akashi only had too peek from behind his shoulders to see that Reo’s hands were trembling a bit at the thought.
“I know you hate me, Sei-chan.” The man gulped, “But we’ve gone easy on him, I swear. He bruises easily so it looks worse than what it really is, but…”
“He bruises easily? Do you really think you’ll get away like that?!”
“But” Reo was stubborn, Akashi would give him that, because he kept on despite the hiss he had just received, “at the ward they’re worse, okay? They get situations that can’t afford to waste time on kindness. They’ll strap him to a bed and keep him going with IVs and force him to eat ‘till when he’s back to a normal weight again. Then they will start again with kindness, but before that…”
“He will break.” Akashi closed his eyes, because he knew. He knew how much Kuroko could take and that was too much.
“Help him, Sei-chan.” Reo’s hand slipped to his shoulders, “You’re the only one he listens to.”
***
Kuroko and Akashi had fallen into a quiet routine, one that would have been more pleasant had Tetsuya been allowed to stay in the room for more than four or five hours a day — even less when he put up a fight for real —. Seijuro had been subtle, always keeping out something from his own lunch — usually his fruit — and leaving it on the other’s bed, but results were hard to get.
Tetsuya would always sit the furthest he can from the food, not daring to refuse it maybe out of fear for his friend’s reaction, but the insistence he had been showed pushed him a little and Reo said he was forcing himself to eat a bit more. Still, he wouldn’t open as much as in their room and Akashi would just hug him and they would talk.
In that routine of theirs, though, there was always a dark horse playing in and Seijuro realized soon enough that something had been set into motion since when he had told the truth to Tetsuya.
The ghost of his mother had been brighter since then, as if fueled by the attention it was receiving, and stronger had also grown to be the voice in his mind. Stronger and more dangerous.
Akashi at first had brushed it off as his own suggestion after digging out his secrets, but when he found himself with the line of a page laying quite forcefully against his wrist, ready to slice, he realized. As he jumped to his feet and watched the book fall, helpless in his pretense of innocence, he realized.
He realized he was getting worse.
***
He didn’t tell Tetsuya.
***
Kuroko’s mood was difficult to follow as he hid his emotions very well, but during the following two weeks, through the delirium that his own mind was, Akashi found out some little habits of his that allowed him to read his feelings better. He also came to know, Tetsuya was pretty unstable.
One day he was optimist, sure that he could fight the demon in his mind, overcome the trauma completely. Sometimes he thought it would be enough if he managed to beat his anorexia and he set it as his temporary goal, saying he would think of the rest after solving that problem.
Sometimes he fell deep into a dark hole and nobody could pull him out of there. There were no triggers or reasons, if not that sometimes he remembered something about the accident, and he would be back to the start, refusing food and having panic attacks every time someone tried to force him to eat. Once, he had been given some food that he had eaten the night of the fire and that hadn’t been written in the police report and he started trashing, he almost hurt himself with the IV as he tried to rip it out of his arm, and Reo had to sedate him.
Akashi woke up often now, his nightly paralysis were back, and he was forced by his own body to stand still, unable to move, as he heard Kuroko wailing against his nightmares. In those moments, even Seijuro felt like having a panic attack.
The more the situation became strained, the lower they talked. Sitting or laying within each other’s embrace, they ended up whispering as if scared to be heard by their own ghosts.
Akashi learnt that Kuroko liked to play basket, but he had never tried it. Tetsuya said he would surely make a great player.
“Then let’s play.” Seijuro asked and he was serious, he meant it.
Kuroko watched him for a while before nodding quietly. “One day.” he promised.
It made Akashi feel a bit better.
***
Akashi kicked the leg of the bed so hard he almost broke a bone. Midorima said it would only hurt for a while and gave him a cream.
He asked what he was angry about and Akashi said Tetsuya’s bruises.
He was lying.
***
You should have broken something. You should do it again ’till when it breaks. You should.
You must.
You will.
***
“Seijuro-kun, how’s your foot?”
Akashi snorted, face pressed in his pillow, as Kuroko kept on pestering him and pocking the side of his neck. Tetsuya tiptoeing on his mattress to reach for Akashi on the higher bunk would have been extremely adorable had Seijuro been in a better mood.
“For the thirteenth time, it is fine, Tetsuya.” he turned to glare at the other, but lost all the will when he found only Kuroko’s eyes could be seen at the level of the bunk, probably because he was hiding. “You are extremely creepy like that.”
“Am not.”
“Are too.”
“Am not.”
“Are too.”
“Seijuro-kun is annoying.”
“Tetsuya too.”
Kuroko straightened up and Akashi sighed but rolled to a side when he saw the other climbing the little stair. They laid in front of each other and just stared for a while.
“I miss my dog.” Tetsuya said out of the blue.
Seijuro’s hand went to caress his cheek and he said nothing. They were not meant to leave the asylum anytime soon, and they both knew.
Silently, he kissed Kuroko’s forehead.
***
It happened abruptly, so stupidly nobody noticed.
Akashi had received an apple for lunch and had waited for Kuroko to come back. He knew Midorima was on his side, because nobody came to take away his tray and there was a knife there — a plastic one, sure, but still —. he had started peeling the fruit, knowing that it would take an awful lot of time with that useless weapon.
Kuroko had come back with Reo and frozen on the door when he had seen what he, sitting on the edge of the lower bunk, was doing.
“Seijuro-kun…”
“I’m just peeling it.” Akashi had answered simply, but they both knew it wasn’t that. Seijuro would have eaten and Kuroko knew he would have probably been asked to try to eat it.
Seijuro had told him about the ward, about what Reo had revealed. Tetsuya had been more terrified about being taken away from Akashi than about being strapped to a bed and forcedly fed.
He had worked on peeling that apple really for a long time and, as it often happens with mechanical actions that takes so much, his mind ended up slipping to other topics, other images, other thoughts. Kuroko, his limited time, his own vision, the voice in his head…
He was brought back by his own voice yelping and a sharp boiling pain drowning into an hot liquid on his armpit.
He looked down, eyes wide, and he froze seeing the knife digging deep into the flesh and still moving!
“Seijuro-kun!”
Let it down! Let the knife down, now!
Akashi felt like puking, but his hand trembled and strengthened its grip on the weapon.
“Seijuro-kun, stop it!”
His entrails torched and his mind went blank for a second. Who did that?!, was it him or the voice?!, he didn’t realize his other self had taken over, was it because he had spaced out?, he wasn’t safe even when he was thinking anymore?!
Someone grabbed him and he slashed.
“Oi, brat, what are you do-?! Oh, fuck.”
He froze.
Tetsuya was staring at him, eyes wide and a hand on the cheek Seijuro had just cut. There was a little drop of blood slipping under his fingers and Akashi stumbled backwards.
“What was that?!”
He didn’t know why he did that, he had no reason to! He was pulling you! He was dangerous! He wasn’t! It was Tetsuya they were talking about, he would have never hurt him!
“Mayuzumi-san, no! He didn’t mean to!”
But we didn’t know! There was blood and he was pulling at us! He wasn’t the one who made them bleed in the first place! Well, it wasn’t me either! It bled and he was pulling! Now Tetsuya was bleeding, though!
“Don’t come near, Kuroko! He’s unstable! Akashi, listen to me, brat! Are you here?! Drop the knife, kid!”
His safe arm hurt when it was bent harshly behind his back but he didn’t care.
“I said drop the knife, Akashi! Don’t make me ask a third time!”
He’s going to hurt us! He’s going to hurt us, brother! Defend yourself, you need to, we need to!
“What the fuck-?! Stop it brat!” His wounded arm was grabbed too and it also hurt as it was torched ‘till when his hand snapped open, the plastic weapon falling on the floor. It was painted red. “Agent Mayuzumi here, I need help at room 4-11, attempted aggression!”
“NO! He didn’t, he wasn’t trying to hurt me!”
“Stay the hell there, Kuroko! It’s dangerous!”
Attempt aggression, attempt aggression, third attempt, third, third, third, they’ll send us away! He didn’t want to! He was trashing in Chihiro’s hands, he knew because pain was shooting up his spine and sometime he could hear the sound of his blood dripping to the floor. They’ll take Tetsuya away!
“Sei-chan, calm down! Sei-chan, I don’t want to sedate you, please!”
Akashi barely registered Reo’s face in his mind as he trashed even more. He managed to free his injured arm, only to have it caught by Mibuchi again, and he growled, furious at his own helplessness.
We didn’t do that! It wasn’t us, who did that? We hurt Tetsuya! He was a threat! He wasn’t, he didn’t want to lose him!
“Keep him still!”
“Wait, Mayu, maybe we can…!”
“He fucking stabbed Kuroko, Mibuchi!”
“He didn’t!”
“Kuroko-chan, please, stay away!”
“No!”
We just defended ‘ourself’! Akashi trashed even more, the voice growing louder in his mind, the figure of his mother fluttering in his sight, turning the whole background now in the stables were Yukimaru would forever wait for his master to come, now in his old room, now in hers, now in the garden of the main house, now-
-Crunch.
Akashi stilled. Completely. Motionless and meek in the hands of the guards, his voice went silent abruptly, just as everybody else in the room.
Reo had eyes wide and was looking at something behind Mayuzumi, who instead had his head turned and his mouth open. Seijuro, in between them, just stared, shocked.
Kuroko was crying, in the ugliest way someone could, face distorted in a pained expression, eyes clenched shut, big tears rolling down his face and staining the even paler than usual skin, yet he opened his mouth again and dug his teeth in the apple. He hadn’t even gulped the first bite yet and he was holding the fruit with both hands, palm and fingers together, because they were trembling so much he would have sure let it fall.
He kept on biting and munching before he was even done with the previous mouthful, like someone who knew that if he had stopped even just a second he would have gone back on his resolve, he would have given up, and was desperate not to.
His tears were falling on the fruit, making it taste salted and sweet all together, and the yellowish flesh of it was stained in red, yet Tetsuya thought he had never wanted to eat something so badly. And not even out of hunger.
When he was almost choking and finally gulped down the disgusting thing, he cracked his eyelids open and Seijuro was watching him with eyes wide open, looking too much confused to elaborate. It hurt, because Kuroko realized he had longed for Akashi’s praise the whole time of his struggle, had felt content only when the other hugged him and assured him he was doing great. And now…
The fruit fell from his hands as his mouth shut open, trying to formulate the warning burning in his throat, but he didn’t make it in time.
Akashi only saw Tetsuya sprinting toward him before a prickle hurt his neck and everything became black.
***
He woke up strapped to a bed, ankles and wrists, one of which wrapped tightly in gauze. It took him a second to recollect and give a sense to his confused memories, but when he did it he froze for a second before sighing heavily.
Criminal Asylum. And the third aggression that had sent him here had really been against Tetsuya, the only person he had ever felt close in the past twelve years.
Now the voice in his mind was silent, but for once he wished it’d talk, because this time he had definitely something to say back. He only wished Tetsuya was alright and that his injury wouldn’t leave a scar. To cut the skin with a single hit from one of those stupid plastic knife he must have used a lot of strength, also…
His eyelids fell close again and he sighed once more.
“Don’t sigh, nanodayo.” Akashi’s eyes shot open again and he turned his head to a side, toward the familiar voice. He almost smiled when he found Midorima, legs and arms both crossed tightly, expressing his anger and irritation simply in the dark aura surrounding him and his lifted chin. “I could easily send you to the Criminal Asylum, if you prefer it so much.”
Akashi blinked. He surveyed the room with his gaze, trying to decipher what happened as he was unconscious — how he wished he could get his hands on Reo and his damn tranquilizers! —, but the overall conclusion he got at was: hospital. Which didn’t really explain much.
“You lost quite some blood.” Midorima supplied, helpfully but clearly irritated, “You are in the infirmary and you currently have sixteen stitches from your wrist to your inner armpit, but you’re still in Rakuzan.” This time the doctor stared straight at his eyes and Akashi was still a bit dizzy but he realized that was important. “Kuroko told me you’ve been seeing your mother and hearing voices again, is it true?”
Akashi blinked. He didn’t want to answer.
“Keeping this won’t help you, Akashi. Kuroko said you didn’t want to be drugged again and that you learnt how to deal with that, but that recently you had been worse and that it was not your fault you hurt him, nanodayo. He said it wasn’t an aggression, but that it was his fault for suddenly grabbing you when you were unstable.”
Akashi blinked.
“He had a panic attack after you’d been taken away and he’s not eating again.” Midorima shook his head, “All the progresses made in this month gone in a single moment. Do you realize what it means, nanodayo?”
Akashi blinked, but this time he also smiled.
“You’re leaving him in my care?” he offered, expecting the offended aura growing around Midorima.
“The both of you will resume your treatment as soon as you’ll be dismissed by the infirmary. We will have a long talk and you’ll tell me everything about your symptoms or else I will take Kuroko away, did I make myself clear, nanodayo?”
Akashi grunted something. In the end he could do nothing but accept — he didn’t really have a choice to begin with — but slowly the realization he wasn’t being sent to another place was sinking and he felt relief filling him a bit more.
Then Midorima told him one last thing.
***
The day Akashi went back to his room, he could hear Kuroko pacing back and forth from outside their door and Mayuzumi grunted something annoyed about restless brats, but he ignored it.
As soon as he made the first step in the room — the floor had been bleached, he realized — something slammed hard against his chest and he almost fell on his butt. He huffed, but his arms hugged reflexively the smaller body of his friend, inhaling deeply the familiar the scent.
“Thank you.” he whispered lowly in his ear as he caressed his back and Tetsuya hugged him tighter, but didn’t answer.
They stood like that for a very long time, unaware of anything but the beating of each other’s heart, their slow deep breaths to calm them down and the warmth of their touching bodies. It felt so long since the last time, and even those memories now looked irremediably tainted. In red.
They would have stood there, hugging in the middle of the room, even longer if Reo’s cheerful voice hadn’t broken the mood completely, making the both of them turn with a glare toward the door. Kuroko’s hands clutched tightly on Akashi’s shirt and the red-head grinned at the challenging expression of the other, clearly not willing to leave now that his friend was back.
Reo stopped for a second at the aggressive welcome he received, from that little blue-turfed head half hiding behind Akashi, but in the end he rolled his eyes.
“Come on, Kuroko-chan! It’s not my fault you weren’t allowed to visit him in the infirmary and you know this!”
Tetsuya’s glare, in his blank expression, went on unperturbed, and Mibuchi sighed as Akashi grinned even more.
Kuroko’s expression changed when Reo left in two trays — both with no knife, though, and Akashi’s with an amount of pills definitely higher than usual — and left with a cheerful waving.
***
“Considering the circumstances, Kuroko will be allowed to eat in his room with you for as long as he actually eats his share, and I’d like to remind you that there are surveillance cameras so we’ll know if you get rid of the food or eat it on his place.” Shintarou fixed his glasses, under Akashi’s bewildered and satisfied look, in a way that can only be described as ‘tsundere’, “Don’t look at me like that, nanodayo! It’s only for a matter of security, to keep the two of you from getting weird ideas about eloping or something, nanodayo.”
“I see.” Akashi doesn’t believe a word of the last part, “Whatever you say, Midorima-sensei.”
***
It was late night when Kuroko finally finished his share of dinner, after an heroic fight that mirrored the one they had to sustain at lunch, and when they went to sleep, while his stomach torched and tried to convince him that he was getting slower, more rigid, more helpless, paralyzed, Akashi whispered to him in a ear and hugged him closer.
The both of them are snuggled under their shared blankets in the lower bunk, the higher one completely abandoned by now, and their entangled legs sometimes played trying to press cold feet against each others. Kuroko’s face was buried in Akashi’s chest and Seijuro was becoming addicted to the scent of vanilla from Tetsuya’s hair. They didn’t talk this time, even if there was probably more to say than any other time, because in the month they had spent with each other they had grown to know how to read the silences — and that more often than not they were both too stubborn to be honest in their words —.
Kuroko sneezed like a little chihuahua and Akashi had to strive not to laugh at him, earning a couple of punches before he managed to trap Tetsuya against his chest again.
“How come they have yet to send you to the Criminal Asylum?” he whispered teasingly, “This is at least your third aggression to me.”
“It’s because I’m justified. Because Seijuro-kun is annoying.”
Seijuro laughed lowly and the trembling of his chest lulled Kuroko to sleep, finally.
***
Akashi woke up the following morning with a pair of cold lips against his. In fact, he woke up immediately, rolling and trapping Tetsuya under him, deepening their contact, his hands running down his torso, looking for the hem of his shirt, feeling the raw sensation of the scars from the fire through the soft fabric, but ignoring them because Kuroko was just that beautiful to him.
“AKASHI, NANODAYO! SURVELLAINCE CAMERAS!”
Akashi glared at the speaker in a corner of their ceiling, but then he turned to the camera and shot it a defying look.
“You better turn them off, then, if you don’t want to enjoy the show, Midorima-sensei.” he retorted.
He grabbed the blanket and pulled it above himself and a chuckling Tetsuya as Midorima’s enraged “AKASHI!” filled the whole floor.
Authoress’ notes:
I swear this was a labor -.- It took me ten days of work and didn’t even come out as good as I wanted it to, sorry -.-
Can we get a TouchStarved!Akashi and Kuroko who has no issue helping him get use to physical contact again? Doesn't have to be smutty, but if it turns out that way, go for it.
Hi, Anon!
Uhm, I’m not really an expert of Touch Starvation and I could only find that much, but I hope this is okay!
No Smut in the end, I got lost in one of my vain attempts at Fluff… -.-
Cuddles-deprived
One simple, average, morning in a flat near Tokyo University, one Kuroko Tetsuya moved an omurice on a plate and carefully drew a stain of red on top, smiling faintly.
He let the pan on the fires and picked even the second plate, then he turned and slowly walked out of the kitchen, into the living room.
As the sun slipped in from the window, its light caressed gently the red uncombed locks of the man sitting on the couch. His back against an armrest and his knees bent upward, he was reading a book laying on his thighs and his pointing finger caressed absentmindedly the left upper corner of the page he seemed impatient to turn.
Red eyes moved from the book when Kuroko laid the lunch on the table and Akashi Seijuro looked up at his flatmate with an arched brow.
“Isn’t this my turn to cook?” he asked, knowing very well he was right.
“You seemed to be very caught up in your reading.” Tetsuya shrugged, stretching out an hand toward the book to ask to see it, “It happens so rarely, I thought I’d leave you be.”
Seijuro gently let the other take the volume while he got up from the couch and knelt on the floor before the other, thanking him for the meal and muttering about taking up dinner’s turn instead.
Kuroko nodded absentmindedly as he read the plot of the — difficult, very difficult! — book his friend had been reading, but when he opened it up again at the page the other had been on he frowned.
“Akashi-kun, weren’t you at this point when you came back from your class already?” he asked, confused. The red-head had been reading for an hour more or less, how come he hadn’t moved from the same page?
Seijuro seemed just as surprised as he frowned.
“I had some trouble focusing, indeed.” he admitted, but in the end he dismissed the matter with a wave of his hand, “Classes were intense today, I must be a bit tired.”
When Akashi leaned over to get his book back, Kuroko kept it firmly in his hand. The other looked at him, confused, but Tetsuya wasn’t really reciprocating his gaze. He seemed more focused on his face, on his cheeks or…
“You have bags under your eyes, Akashi-kun. Very dark ones, indeed.” Seijuro pulled back, slipping the book out of his friend’s hand, almost as if burned, but Kuroko didn’t let the matter drop. “Did you sleep last night?”
For a reason, one Akashi didn’t really understand, the worry in his flatmate’s eyes irked him.
“I slept perfectly, Kuroko, and even if not, this is none of your business.”
Tetsuya blinked. He didn’t say anything but his stare spoke for him.
Akashi sighed. As he laid the book on the table and ran a hand over his face, Seijuro looked extremely tired in Tetsuya’s eyes.
“I’m sorry,” the guy apologized, “I answered rudely.”
Kuroko shook his head, ignoring the point, and he went back to stare at the marks of lack of sleep on his friend’s face. It wasn’t that strange for Akashi to pull an all-nighter, but it wasn’t exams time nor he had any impending duty for his father. It sounded so weird.
“Maybe you should ask Midorima-kun for an advice?” he tried, being careful not to sound offensive.
Akashi hated being seen as weak or in any need of help. Shintarou was his friend and was also studying medicine and working as a trainee at the hospital so maybe he could help without eliciting too much complaints from the red-head.
“I don’t need Shintarou’s advice, Kuroko.” Akashi strived to build up a smile that wouldn’t look too threatening, but anyway his old friend looked unaffected. He sighed.
Kuroko knew that pushing wouldn’t help him. If anything, it would led to an even greater opposition. Akashi handled pressure the only way he knew, building walls and acting strong, so he simply let the matter drop and resumed eating.
They made small talk and it was clear that Akashi was trying to appease the other after his sudden outburst from before, but all in all the atmosphere was still calm and domestic.
There was a basketball beside the entrance door. The pictures the both of them wanted to bring were on a drawer there, in the living room, and in far too many of them shone colored-heads from their middle school days. Akashi had a picture with his teammates from Rakuzan from the first year and one with Reo from a month before; Kuroko had a picture with Seirin, one with the “first-year group” and the one from his birthday, with all the Miracles. Nigou was sleeping soundly on the blanked that was his bed, beside the couch, right behind where Akashi’s head used to be.
The Rakuzan player had grown up unbelievably fond of his friend’s dog and Nigou seemed to return the affection fully.
Kuroko had been surprised at how good they had worked out since the very beginning. The boundaries were respected, the rules followed, they had shared what needed and managed to keep for themselves what they wanted. It was…good. A bit aseptic sometimes, but good.
In silence, Akashi picked their dishes and went to wash them in the kitchen.
Kuroko watched him disappear in the other room before picking out his phone.
***
He probably was too much in a hurry to get out of their house, the following morning, because Akashi gave him a raised eyebrow as he was wearing his shoes.
Seijuro was majoring in Economy — as per his father’s orders, Kuroko would have said, but it wasn’t his place to meddle — and had the day off because of a lecturer’s illness, while Tetsuya was majoring in Pedagogy and would have the whole morning busy.
He assumed he had managed to slip out of the door just in time, because in the lobby he actually spotted the elevator’s door closing on a tall green-haired doctor-to-be.
***
After his lessons, before getting back home, he stopped at Maji to pick a Milkshake, even if he still hadn’t had lunch.
Akashi would have surely killed him so he had to fulfill his last wish before meeting him.
***
Surprisingly, when Kuroko came home, Akashi wasn’t there. That gave the phantom enough time to hide his basketball and his favorite book, just in case his flatmate decided to take the route of the cruel revenge. He had just managed to when he hard the door open. And close with a loud slam.
“Akashi-kun?” he called, exiting his room still in his blue shirt, black hoodie and old jeans.
Seijuro was slamming his bag down on the sofa quite forcefully and he was wearing a slightly crooked white shirt with a black gilet and jeans. The glare he shot the phantom could have killed a bear.
“I guess you know nothing about Midorima’s ambush to me this morning, Kuroko?”
Denying. Always denying.
Trying to look innocent, Kuroko shrugged as he approached the angry lion.
“What did he say?” he asked, but it probably was the wrong question because Akashi turned and marched to the kitchen muttering under his breath. “Akashi-kun?”
“Shintarou is definitely going mad. Too much studying is destroying his brain.”
Tetsuya highly doubted that. So, he stood, leaning against the doorframe, as he looked at his friend angrily making tea. He offered a small prayer for the poor beverage.
Akashi kept on grunting, clearly upset, ‘till when his tea was finally ready. He poured it in a cup and didn’t even try to listen to Kuroko’s warning, so he ended up cursing again when the hot liquid burned his tongue.
Perfect!, he noted acidly. Honestly, that day had just become the worst of his university life.
He sighed. Take a deep breath. He turned as he was sighing again.
His hips laying against the fires looked extremely like a subliminal message to Kuroko, but he ignored them in favor of the other’s face. Seijuro kept on staring at his cup as he absentmindedly tapped his fingers against its side, but in the end he met Tetsuya’s eyes.
“It appears that I may be lacking some…” he coughed, falsely, and Kuroko arched a brow in confusion, “oxytocin.”
Tetsuya blinked. Akashi snorted.
“It’s an hormone that…”
“…our brain uses to regulate our emotional balance.” Kuroko shrugged when Akashi looked surprised, “I took a neurology class, once. My teacher said it could have helped me for my degree.” He frowned. “I think oxytocin has a huge importance during pregnancy labors…”
“I’m not pregnant, Tetsuya, thank you.”
“…while in males it decreases the level of aggressiveness.” Kuroko concluded, impassive. “Did Midorima-kun tell you why are you lacking that?”
Akashi moved his eyes and refused to look at his flatmate. How could he, after what he had been told?! He had even been dragged to the hospital to take tests and for what?!
“Oxytocin is also called the…” Was he blushing?! Really?!, “…’cuddles hormone’.”
Silence.
That wasn’t how he had foresaw this to happen, so he peeked on Tetsuya, but the other didn’t look amazed or on the verge of laughing as he was expecting. Instead, he looked pensive.
“Akashi-kun, is it… Touch Starvation?”
Akashi felt the need to smash the cup on the floor when he heard those words again.
“I’m not cuddles-deprived!” he roared and he accidentally laid the cup in his hands on the counter a bit too forcefully, “Shintarou is just being irrational again!”
“Touch Starvation doesn’t mean you’re ‘cuddles-deprived’, Akashi-kun.” Kuroko intervened, serious, “It just means you haven’t had any physical contact with another person in a long time. It’s normal for a human being to crave physical touch, even if I admit there may be cases of the opposite. I don’t see the problem here.”
Akashi’s face was so disbelieving Kuroko thought about snatching a picture, but then changed his mind. He really didn’t want to die and he had already pushed his luck enough for the day.
“You don’t see the problem.” Akashi repeated, slowly. “You don’t see the problem in me being Touch Starved when you clearly know of my… sexual preferences.”
“You don’t have to have sex with someone to cuddle with them, so your demisexuality has nothing to do with this.” Kuroko shot back, mercilessly calling things with their names even if Seijuro still looked extremely embarrassed with the term. “I still don’t see the problem.”
Akashi let out a disjointed grunt as he once again leaned back against the kitchenette edge.
“Even so, it’s not like I can pick up the first number in my phone and ask a random person if they want to…cuddle.”
The way Akashi let out the word, as if spitting an awful curse out of his throat, managed to slip a little smile out of Kuroko’s impassive stance and the guy finally left the doorframe to approach his friend.
“Even if I’m sure that around half the names in your phone would actually be more than happy to do that,” he said, earning a suspicious arched brow, “there’s no need to share this news if you don’t want to.”
Akashi was a genius. He had always been. But what Kuroko was offering looked quite too much tempting to be real.
“We shouldn’t.” he answered, but when Tetsuya smiled and lifted an hand, he took it silently.
“It’s just cuddles, Akashi-kun.” Kuroko said and his eyes shone, unbelievably amused, at the words leaving his lips.
Seijuro rolled his eyes, but followed silently to the couch. There, when Kuroko sat, he stood.
That was extremely embarrassing, he though when he felt his cheeks heating up, so he faked a sighed to conceal his feelings.
“So what… should I do?”
Kuroko blinked and for a moment his amusement faltered, but Akashi couldn’t read the other emotion because it was gone too soon, substituted by a soft tenderness and a gentle smile.
“Would Akashi-kun sit beside me, for a starter?”
Seijuro looked extremely distressed, but he did as he was told. He was so stiffen, Kuroko felt a little bit of pity.
“Would you like to watch a film?” he asked instead and his friend looked far too eager to get a distraction so he turned the TV on.
They found the old dear Space Jam and decided to watch it in the name of the old times. Slowly, as not to scare him, Kuroko wrapped an arm around Akashi’s shoulders.
Seijuro stiffened again for a while, but the laughter they had made back in middle school when they watched that same film with their teammates managed to ease the tension a lot as soon as the cartoon characters appeared.
“If we of the Generation of Miracles were the aliens, that would make Kuroko…?”
“Michael Jordan, obviously.” The answer came direct and serious with an out-of-character yet impassive ‘V’ sign of the fingers and Akashi chuckled as he tried to elbow the phantom.
Kuroko took advantage of his gesture and pulled him closer, slipping his head in the crook where his arm met his collarbones. Seijuro strived not to blush, but somewhen between the moment Bugs Bunny and Duffy Duck got to Jordan’s house and when they retrieved his shorts and shoes, he had stretched his legs on the rest of the sofa and was resting peacefully against Tetsuya.
When the aliens started gaining the upper hand, he thought it would be pointless to get cuddles when he couldn’t be comfortable so he dared to use the arm that was bothering him — because where could he placed that?! — to embrace softly Kuroko’s waist. Instead of saying anything, Kuroko used his free hand to start caressing his.
By the time the match ended, they were laughing imagining each one of their friends in the aliens’ places as they were pranked by the Looney Tunes.
“Shintarou would be so mad…!” Akashi laughed and Kuroko could just nod.
When the film finished, Seijuro tensed up a bit again. He was moving to get up, but Kuroko’s arm opposed resistance and kept him where he was. Tetsuya zapped through the channels since when he finally found another film that was just starting.
Akashi arched a brow, but went ignored. In the end, he resigned to get some cuddles more.
He may or may not have smiled.
***
“Kise-kun.”
“Kise is annoying. I would end up more stressed than before.”
“Mibuchi-san, then.”
“Reo has a boyfriend. I don’t really want to give him troubles now.”
“… Mayuzumi-san?”
Akashi got up from his position sprawled over Tetsuya to show him the perfect copy of Aomine’s “Are you shitting me?” expression. They were both laying on the couch, Kuroko on his back and Akashi on his stomach. And on Tetsuya’s stomach. The phantom’s arms were around the emperor’s waist and the other’s were just laying flat on the lower one’s chest.
When Kuroko giggled, Akashi let out a little wail as he risked to fall on the floor because of the trembling motion.
“Focus, Tetsuya.” Seijuro reprimanded slapping his chest ever so lightly, “We have an issue, here.”
“I am focusing, Sei-kun.” Kuroko said, and the nickname came naturally after the months spent using it, just as Akashi was back to use his first name. They had started doing it after the whole cuddle-sessions had started.
The cuddle-sessions were their solutions to Akashi’s problem. An hour per day they would sat on the couch or on one’s bed and just hug, nuzzle, tickle each other. Basically, they would act like dorks and laze around.
Midorima was the only one who knew, obviously, but even their friends were starting to notice great improvements in Akashi’s behavior.
“This is a serious matter.” Seijuro said and had Kuroko been a bit more reckless he would have said he was pouting.
“An extremely serious matter.” he said impassively, but the mocking was clear, “Who will cuddle the great Akashi Seijuro when I’m at my family’s place for Winter break?”
“You don’t see the importance of the issue, do you?”
Kuroko shook his head gently as he moved a hand to ruffle Akashi’s hair.
“You could always come with me, Sei-kun, I told you.” he offered for the umpteenth time, “My family would love to have you over.”
Akashi sighed, laying his chin on his folded hands as he almost purred at the petting motion on his head.
“I don’t know…” he huffed when he finally looked again at the other, “How would you explain my presence there?”
Kuroko bent his head to a side a little, but then it happened.
His eyes glinted. And not of a normal glint, like normal persons. Akashi knew that glint. It was the glint that lighted up every time Tetsuya were to sneak upon someone and scared them to death, or before he punched or jabbed Kagami or Aomine or when he was going to come out with one of his impassive but sassy remarks. The “I’m an evil person and I’m going to have my fun at your expenses” glint, basically.
Before he could prepare himself, Akashi saw Kuroko’s face approaching and he froze when he felt a soft humid contact against the tip of his nose.
It took his genial brain some moments to realize Tetsuya had kissed his nose-tip, but when it sunk he couldn’t stop his blushing.
“I could always introduce you as my boyfriend.”
That was it.
Akashi’s face burned up completely as his mouth gaped and his eyes lost their ability to blink.
He looked so hilarious Kuroko couldn’t help but laugh and he did it so hard, Akashi fell on the floor, still red and unable to react at anything.
***
“Tecchan! Tecchan, we’re here!”
“Hi, mom, dad.”
“It’s nice to have you back, Tecchan. And this young man here is…?”
The young man bowed, deeply and elegantly, showing nothing but confidence and greatness, and when he raised again he had the most beautiful and perfect smile he could master showing off on his lips.
“I am Akashi Seijuro. Tetsuya’s boyfriend.”
Authoress’ notes:
And a huge dork. That’s it, Akashi is a dork.
I’m sorry, Anon, I’m not sure this is what you wanted ^^” I hope you liked it anyway!
Hi! ^^ would you do this please? Akashi and Kuroko get into an argument and Akashi says some things to make kuroko cry. Fluffy ending please! :3 <3
ANON, I SWEAR, I’M SORRY I POSTPONED THIS FOR SO LONG, PLEASE, FORGIVE ME! But I hope you’ll like this, it should be funny enough ^^”
Also, I dedicate this also to @04-akakuro-11, since I wanted to do it and she asked for it ^-^
Inspired by the first prompt of THIS post of Christmas-related routes: “I know we hate each other but it’s Christmas Eve and your flight was cancelled, please, come inside.”
We’re all better persons, at Christmas
Akashi was a pretty calm and collected person, or at least he deemed himself so. He didn’t get angry - read, he hid it well and silently took revenge - often and was very good at handling things - read, getting rid of those that didn’t go his way -. Thus, after telephonically firing the eleventh secretary since the beginning of the month, he slammed his phone in a pocket and exhaled loudly from his nose.
He had tried to look for another arrangement, but - as his ex secretary kind of hysterically pointed out more than once - he was, so to say, in a very peasant way, stuck.
Not literally, sure, but quite as limiting.
In other words, that filthy damn white thing falling from the sky had forced a delay of all the flights from Tokyo, no exceptions.
Akashi tsked, finally turning his back to the electronic board and moving to the exit of the airport. The staff had already offered him a substitutive flight as soon as the storm had calmed down, but he couldn’t wait that much. Not to mention, all the hotels seemed out of reach and/or completely booked so he had been told he could sleep on a bench. He tsked again.
Ignoring an hostess worried callings, he got out under the falling snow.
***
Had it been anybody but him, that decision would have been perhaps, in some way, something akin to a mistake. But it was him, so it was just pure misfortune.
Akashi kept on walking on the sidewalk only out of pure stubbornness, because his trousers were wet, snow reached his shins, he had no scarf or hat or gloves and his hair were soaked and would have soon let the freezing water slip down his chin. He had been going on for almost an hour but he hadn’t seen a single public transport or even just a car or whatever. Apparently the snow had stopped train, buses, taxis and everything.
“Is there something that hasn’t been forbidden from moving?!” he hissed to himself, annoyed.
“Santa’s sleigh.”
Akashi almost jerked - he didn’t, because he was too cold to do so - when the voice reached him out of the blue and he turned suddenly, eyes widened, when he recognized the voice.
Kuroko, from under his umbrella and well hidden into his scarf, ear-muffles, coat and gloves, looked at him with his usual blank face.
“Or at least I hope so,” he kept on, as if finding his half-frozen ex in the middle of the street during a snow storm wasn’t that much of a deal, “or else I’ll have to console a ton of kids, when school resumes.”
Akashi snorted, too cold to appreciate the dry humor of the other.
“Tetsuya.” he greeted, and he made sure to underline well the first name, because he knew the other hated when he kept on using such a familiar term after years since their break-up.
Indeed, Kuroko’s eyes twitched for a second as he seemed to glare at the other, but in the end that poor soul that the phantom was ended up sighing.
“What are you doing here, Akashi-san?” Even the kid wasn’t pulling his punches.
“Taking a good relaxing walk, Tetsuya.”
“I’d say you’re as cold as ever, Akashi-san,” He looked at the other’s trembling form, “but I think you managed to outdo yourself this time. My congratulations.”
Akashi seriously considered grabbing an handful of snow and slamming it in Kuroko’s face before smearing it all down in his neck and into the collar of his pullover and down the soft pale skin of his chest and abdom- stop it.
He didn’t do it because he remembered he didn’t have gloves, so instead he snorted and turned his back to the other, determined to leave him without greeting.
“Akashi-san, where do you think you’re going? Or better, do you think you’ll reach it before freezing to death?”
That was a good question.
***
And Akashi didn’t really get how it happened, but he found himself closing the door of Kuroko’s apartment - a new one, one he’s never been at, one that he couldn’t know was there in the area or else he would have fucking take the opposite route -.
Tetsuya pointed a pair of slippers at him as he took off his shoes.
“Those were for Taiga-kun.” he said and Akashi didn’t miss the way he had underlined the name, “but his flight was delayed just like yours and he won’t be able to come.”
“Uh? He leaves his precious date alone at Christmas Eve? What an awful person.” he hissed looking at the slippers with a disgusted face. He didn’t want to wear something that idiot had put off. What if he got Viral Stupidity?
“And who’d be the awful person who stood you up at Christmas Eve, Akashi-san?” Kuroko’s voice was cutting cold, “Or, right, nobody. And now put those things on before I regret inviting you in.”
Akashi threw mental daggers at Kuroko’s back, but the other was quickly vanishing so he wore the slippers and then followed him. He wasn’t going to let go of a certain thing soon enough, though.
“Nobody stood me up because I was the expected one.” he retorted, but Kuroko saw right through him.
“I’m sorry that this snow prevented you from getting to your work-related whatever.”
Akashi grunted, but didn’t answer when he saw Kuroko placing the two big bags of groceries he had with him on the kitchen counter and then unwrapping the scar from his neck. There was enough to feed a platoon and when the man looked around he noticed there were decorations and lights and a pile of plastic dishes and cutlery on the small table of the living room, which the kitchen was directly connected with. He spied on Tetsuya, but the other was giving him his back to place things in the highest cupboards.
Taiga apparently wasn’t the only one who couldn’t make it.
“There are clothes in the bathroom, on the laundry basket. You can take a bath and change into them.” Before Akashi could retort, Kuroko shot him a glare from above his shoulder, “Don’t worry, they’re clean.”
The way Tetsuya hissed the last part made Seijuro cringe and he turned on his feet to get to the bathroom just to escape the clear tension between them.
He didn’t knew where the bathroom was, but he didn’t ask and resolved into trying every door he came across.
***
When Akashi had found the right door and taken his bath - which really helped his poor body, to be honest -, he finally took a look at the clothes on the hat of the laundry basket. Soft black trousers, a white undershirt, a thick lavender sweater with blue knitted decorations.
It didn’t take him much to realize those clothes were the ones Kuroko had probably appositely chosen to wear at his Christmas party. Same party that was cancelled. And he offered them to him.
In spite of himself, Akashi caressed the wool almost referentially.
What an idiot that you are, Tetsuya., he thought, but then he shook his head.
He wore the clothes.
***
When he reached the kitchen, the bags had disappeared and Kuroko was pouring something into a cup. The scent of coffee caressed his nostrils sensually, but he frowned.
“You don’t like coffee.” he stated.
Kuroko sighed while turning and Akashi would have sworn he had just rolled his eyes at him. Still, the phantom offered the cup.
“I don’t.” he said.
Seijuro explored his face carefully with his eyes, but in the end he took the cup with a low ‘Thank you’ that slipped out. The warmth of the ceramic made him wrap both his hands around it as he watched Tetsuya turning his back at him.
While Tetsuya started warming up hot water for himself, he took a sip and froze.
He was expecting the bland taste of instant coffee, but his tongue was caressed by the thick boiling touch of toasted ambrosia. He would recognize the flavor within a million samples and even him, spoiled as he was, admitted that that particular mixture and brand was pricey.
“Why would you have coffee when you don’t drink it?” he asked out loud, but he didn’t mean to. He realized his slipping - due to the cold, no less - only when he noticed Kuroko’s shoulders stiffening.
“Someone gifted it to me.” the phantom answered, but he didn’t even attempt turning to face Seijuro. He opted instead to wash once more the perfectly clean cup he had just taken for himself, “It would have been rude to throw it away.”
It was clear as day, far too much distant from the usual unreadable act Kuroko used, and thus Akashi couldn’t - not that he wanted - stop the single world to come out in a disgusted and offended hiss: “Liar.”
Kuroko turned, eyes wide, as if shocked. The water kept on falling in the sink and his wet hands stood over it, holding to the cup like it was their last lifesaver.
“Pardon me?” he said, but he clearly didn’t mean it. Not that Akashi cared.
“I called you by your name” he growled, “because you’re nothing but a liar and a coward.” For a second, just one, Kuroko looked ready to answer, but instead he shut his mouth and turned shaking his head.
With that, Akashi snapped.
“See?!” he said and his voice was rapidly growing as he pointed at the back of the other, “That’s so like you, Tetsuya! You come, lie, then turn your back and run away without a single word.”
“That’s not true and now drop it!”
“It is!” Akashi ignored Kuroko’s words the same way the other ignored him by keeping his shoulders turned, “You’ve always done it, your whole life! You did it in middle school, in high school and you did it even four damn years ago when you broke up with me!”
“I SAID DROP IT!”
Crash.
Akashi jerked. His rage dissolved like fog at the loud sound of a cup smashing on the floor and his eyes widened as they took in Kuroko’s trembling form, so little in the middle of broken pieces that looked like lost boats. There were so many tears running down his face that they could have easily build a sea for them to navigate in.
It was just a second before Tetsuya’s hands ran up to cover his face, but Seijuro had seen everything already. He felt his grip on his own cup getting softer too.
“Dammit…” Akashi hesitated before the phantom’s low and angry voice, “Dammit…”
“Tetsuya.” he tried, but he didn’t know what to say more. And to think that once he was the best at comforting Kuroko.
“You can’t…” Tetsuya gritted his teeth, “You can’t come here and change the cards on the table again… Make me look like the bad one who’s still the same hypocrite as he was in middle school… You too know it’s not fair…”
Akashi didn’t answer that. He just stood and watched Kuroko’s shoulders rise and fall as he bit his lower lip to keep the sobs at bait.
He laid his coffee on the kitchen counter.
“Tetsuya.” he tried again. He failed. He sighed. “How did we end up like this?” he ran a hand on his face, covering his eyes not to face the reality of how much they had lost and had changed. “We were fine.”
A little strained laughter left Kuroko’s lips as he forcefully dried his face with the cuffs of his pullover.
“Fine isn’t enough, Akashi-kun.” he said, uncaring of his slip, while wrapping his arms around his waist as if to keep himself together, “You should know that.”
He did. He used to know it even before they broke up. They almost never saw each other, with their different schedules, and when they were home together they were both too tired to even ask about the other’s day. They fought for useless things, even if they always made up. They started being too busy or even just too tired to celebrate anniversaries or occasions and ended up forgetting them. They went from cohabiting lovers to roommates basically, so when he came home one day and found that Kuroko’s things were nowhere to be seen, he just laid his briefcase on the table, took out a bottle of vodka and drank it all. He spent the following day throwing up hugging the toilet and laying helplessly on the bathroom floor with his back against the bath tube. The next morning, he went back to work.
“I should have called you.” is all that he said about the whole monologue of ‘should’s and ‘shouldn’t’s running through his brain, “I should have found you and dragged you back home by force.” He gulped, “I shouldn’t have let you go.”
“Sei.”
Akashi jerked, physically scorched by the name, and he let the hand fall to look at Tetsuya, who had stopped crying. Only seeing his reflection in those widened big orbs, he realized he had just started.
“What?” he said, unable to realize, as he brushed his face with the back of his hands, but they were indeed wet and… how much of a fool of himself was he trying to make? “I…”
“Sei.”
Just like the coffee, Akashi could recognize Kuroko’s lips between a thousands of others, with the difference he wouldn’t even have to taste the other samples. He would have felt drawn to them immediately.
With a loud moan, he let go. His hands grabbed Tetsuya’s faced and pulled him closer and his tongue took advantage of the startled sound the phantom let out to slip into his mouth.
Kuroko grabbed handfuls of the sweater on his chest and pulled as he returned the kiss. They both moaned.
Akashi moved a hand in Tetsuya’s lock and grabbed them in a fist. He pulled roughly enough to rip a low cry from Kuroko, but what he had always loved of the other was that the phantom always bit back.
Kuroko pushed him so forcefully and suddenly that he stumbled back, seconding his movements ‘till when he felt the armrest of the sofa behind his knees. Instead of letting himself being pushed on the couch, he moved the hand from Tetsuya’s cheek to his waist and with a fast movement he twirled him and they both fell on the ground, Seijuro on top.
When they separated, Kuroko grunted as Akashi cleaned the traces of saliva from his chin.
“I didn’t remember hanging mistletoe anywhere, Sei.” the phantom said and Akashi grinned victoriously, ignoring him.
“You’ve never dated Taiga, did you?” he retorted instead.
Kuroko huffed.
“I never said I did. You were the one who assumed it.”
“So sly.”
Akashi bent down and kissed Tetsuya again, but this time more tenderly as the other’s hands slipped under his sweater to roll it up slowly.
***
“You sure?”
“Sei, I swear that if you stop now, I’ll throw you back on the street and under the falling snow.”
“Uh? Shouldn’t Christmas make us all better persons?”
“Sei.”
***
Akashi woke up with a dull pain in his neck, as a payback for sleeping on the floor, but he still grinned while pulling closer the warm breathing thing he felt in his arms.
Then, he realized it had fur.
***
“TETSUYA!”
Kuroko grinned evilly, still wrapping the little box of coffee beans into some colored paper, as he heard Nigou’s happy barks and Akashi’s offended orders for the dog to sit or more generally disappear.
It was just payback for making him forget to let the dog out of his bedroom and making him sleep on the floor.
Authoress’ notes:
I don’t know when I’ll be able to start making the requests I received since the fifteen, but I wanted to finish with this since it waited for far too much already ^^”
Hope you liked it, Anon! And hope you liked it too, @04-akakuro-11!